Chapter 6

It was dark and I had no idea how much time had passed, since Cat had fallen asleep, but I just couldn´t relax. I thought about slipping out of Cat´s firm grip and sleeping on the couch to get some rest, but Cat wouldn´t let go of me. I sighed. Looks like it was going to be more difficult to stay awake in school tomorrow morning than it already would have been. Cat mumbled something in her sleep and cuddled even closer than she already was. I could feel her breathe against my skin and had a weird sensation in my stomach. What was wrong with me? Cat didn´t have this kind of effect on me. At least she normally didn´t. She didn´t make me feel like this. She wasn´t supposed to make me feel like this, like something only boys should make me feel like. I didn´t have a crush on Cat Valentine, did I? I wasn`t gay, or even bi-curious. And still… it kind of felt nice to have her that close. It always had felt good, but not… good like this.

Okay, I might admit that I had a tiny little girls-crush on my best friend. I wondered if she like liked me too. I mean she did kind of try to kiss me. Sort of, art of… did she? Maybe I was just starting to imagine things. Should I tell her? She`s my best friend. She would understand, right? But she was still Cat. What if she made a huge thing out of it and started to cry and I couldn`t even make her feel better and… Okay, telling her was not the best option. I should probably just keep it to myself. How hard could that be? Oh, who am I kidding? This was going to be really difficult. Cat was totally sensitive about everything, so why would it be different with this little secret?

Well, after all it was just a crush. It could go away in a few days or weeks, right? And I was not lying about it or anything. I was just keeping it to myself. As long as no one asked, I didn`t have to tell anybody. Let`s just hope that no one was going to ask…

I sighed again as I looked on my Pear-Phone. It was half past four. Great. I had two hours left to sleep, if I was ever going to actually fall asleep. At least I could watch Cat sleeping. I know that sounded creepy, but if you knew how adorable Cat looked when she slept, you would understand. She looked like a baby. Her childlike features were all cuddled up on me. She even had her mouth slightly open. I couldn`t help but smile. How could one person be so damn cute? That shouldn´t even be allowed, it`s unfair.

The more I thought about it, the more I wanted Cat to know how I felt about her. I mean yes, she was probably going to freak out and if Jade was ever going to find out about it, what she surely would, if Cat made a scene, I would be messed up pretty bad. But there was a tiny chance that Cat liked me too and that would just be… wonderful. Why the heck had life to be so complicated?

At the very moment when I decided that I would wait and not tell Cat right away that I was crushing on her, in case that the feelings would go away, I drifted into sleep.

When my alarm clock went off, it felt like I hadn`t slept at all, which was probably not that wrong. Cat didn`t seem disturbed by the loud noise. I really didn`t want to wake her up, or go to school by the way, but I knew that she hated to miss "important things like school", so I had to get her out of her sweet, peaceful world of dreams.

"Cat, Cutie, wake up." I gave her a kiss on the cheek, like I always did. The contact left a little sensation on my lips and caused a little bit more than a little sensation in my stomach. This time Cat woke up and looked at me with her usual sleepy expression, which she always had when she just woke up.

"Good morning." I smiled at her and she giggled.

"What makes you so happy?" She asked. It seemed like my smile came of a tiny bit overdone. I had to look like an idiot, grinning at her like this, but I couldn`t help myself. Cat just looked adorable this morning. Well, she always did, but me crushing on her made her look even more adorable in my eyes.

"I`m just happy to have you back." I said, so it was no lie. Cat made an "aww" like sound, hugged me closely and let go of me too soon.

"Okay now we have to get up. You can put some clothes on, while I`m getting your releasing papers from your doctor. You`re not in pain, are you? If you have a headache, you better tell me. You`re not going to school, if you`re in any kind of pain. Do you hear me?" I stated with a serious look on my face.

"Don´t worry, I´m fine. I wanna go to school." Cat pouted. I giggled at her expression.

"I´m going to search for the doctor. Get ready." I told her and left the room A315 and headed to the reception.

I was told that Cat´s doctor was in the OR, but it turned out that he had finished her releasing papers just this morning so there was no need to wait for him. I hurried back to Cat. When I entered the room she was nowhere in sight and she didn`t answer me, after I called for her twice. That`s not good. No, no, no, no. Maybe she went to search for me. Cat could get lost in such a big hospital. Just before my worries started to make me hyperventilate, my look fell on the door that was leading to the little bathroom that was connected to the main room. It was open.

Cat was standing in front of the mirror, starring at her mirror image. She had removed the white bandages that had been wrapped around her forehead and had covered a scar above her right eye.

"Cat? What`s wrong?" I asked her, still standing in the doorway. She pointed at her head, but kept silently looking at her reflection. I walked over to her, grabbed her hand and made her face me.

"That`s not a big deal. It`s just a small cut and going to heal swiftly." I promised her.

"It`s making me ugly." She said and looked like she was going to cry.

There was nothing that could make Cat Valentine ugly.

"Cat! That`s not true and you know it. You are beautiful and a stupid little scar isn`t going to change that." Nothing could change that.

"You think I`m beautiful?" Cat asked, her voice still a little shaky.

"Yes, of course you are, beautiful beyond words and the loveliest girl I know." Shut up Vega, so not the right time to make confessions. I thought. Oh, who asked you? I was just trying to cheer her up.

Cat smiled and before I could get lost into her shiny bright eyes, I said.
"We don`t have to go to school, if you don`t want to. Otherwise we gotta hurry, ´cause we need to grab some things from home."

"No I want to go!" Cat was totally back to her cheerful self now. She whizzed through the room and picked up everything that belonged to her. Within half a minute, or less, she was ready to leave.

The car drive went by quickly, as always. Cat and I sang along with every single song, while Trina concentrated on the road. Since we didn`t have a car, I had to call Trina to pick us up, which she surprisingly did. She was kind of silent. Maybe she had a hangover from partying the whole weekend. That could be the reason why she kept flinching when the music got a little louder.

She dropped us of at our house, but didn`t mind to wait for us to get the things we needed. I had no problem with that at all. I preferred being alone with Cat anyway.

We had more time left than expected, so we decided to have a big breakfast.

"You have to be starving. The last time you ate something else than hospital food was Saturday morning." If you can even describe it as food.

"Hey, now I know why my tummy keeps making these weird noises." Cat`s stomach growled and she giggled. Oh, how I loved her giggles.

I made us some pancakes and Cat finished her portion in less than ten minutes. How was it possible that a tiny person like her could eat that much in such a short amount of time?

We still had more than enough time left, before our first period started, but we wanted to see Beck and the rest, so we headed to Hollywood Arts earlier than necessary. On the way to the car Cat walked in front of me and my gaze went down to her lower back… Cat has a pretty nice ass… Stop starring at her like this! Gosh, you`re so hopeless.

Yep, seemed like that`s what I was. Hopelessly falling for my best friend.