-Ashley's POV-
I careful sneak out of her room and patiently waited for her to arrive from her shoot. I snuck in 2 tickets to Las Vegas for the long weekend. I have prepared everything from our accommodation to the places we'll visit. I saw her walking inside. I counted to 50 before going in her room.
"Hey buttah! What's that?" I pretended not knowing what it was
"2 roundtrip tickets to Vegas for the weekend with itineraries of the trip" she said showing it to me
"Oh you're going to Vegas? Cool!" I absentmindedly checked it out
"Wasn't planning to, it's a gift from B" She lay on the couch and I sat the end of it where hear head was and I placed it on my lap.
"B must like you a lot. Well who doesn't? So are you going?" I massaged her temples.
"Maybe. I haven't planned anything for the weekend yet and it's gonna be a long one so yeah I might actually go." I could feel her relaxing through the massage
"2 tickets right? Do…you…have anyone in mind?" I spoke slowly hoping she would say she would want me to go with her. Say it's me. Please.
"Yeah. I think I would ask Sasha to come with me" My whole world came crashing down. I could feel my heart cracking. I kept my hand still on her head.
"Sasha?" Why would you do this to me Shay? Why not me? I jumped up from where I was seated and started heading for the door.
"Hey Benzo where are you going? I'm enjoying your massage" She pouted with the cutest pout I've ever seen but I was too pissed.
"Certainly not in Las Vegas. I bet you'd enjoy Sasha's massage better than mine." I had everything planned. I already imagined how perfect it would be; me and her at Sin City. I stormed out of her room and slammed the door as I got in my own dressing room.
"Seriously?! I planned it all out and she's taking Sasha with her? I would understand if she would take Ryan but Sasha? Why her? I'm her best friend for so many years now. Why would she choose her?" I complained here and there and sat down releasing a disappointed sigh. "You'll such a loser Ashley. You'll never get the girl. Now you have to settle on the second place or maybe at the last. Sasha's lucky to have her as her best friend and Ryan's so lucky to have her as his girlfriend, fiancé rather." I turned my music player on trying to shut the world out
"Does he watch your favorite movies?
Does he hold you when you cry?
Does he let you tell him all your favorite parts
When you've seen it a million times?
Does he sing to all your music
While you dance to 'Purple Rain'?
Does he do all these things
Like I used to?"
"Couldn't get a better timing" I wiped away the single tear running down my cheek as I listen to A rocket to the moon's song entitled Like we used to.
"Will he love you like I loved you?
Will he tell you everyday?
Will he make you feel like you're invincible?
With every word he'll say?"
More tears flowed down and I quickly wiped it away. I was too overwhelmed with emotions as of the moment "Shit!" I cursed as I turned the music off.
"I'll just come back later when you're not mad anymore" Shay said. I didn't notice her coming in.
"No. I was cursing the music not you. Come, sit down." I patted the space beside me.
"Shay I'm B" I revealed to her as she sat down. I think it's about time to let her know.
"Ash I know you feel bad for snapping at me but you're not a bitch" I shook my head.
"No. I mean I. Am. B. You're secret admirer." Her face didn't show any hint of being surprised.
"I know. That's why I'm here. I can't accept these Ash" She placed the tickets on top of my table.
"How did you know?" I asked. Did Tyler tell her? I swear to God I'm going to kill him.
"I just put the pieces together yesterday. You're not as good as A you know. Next time you secretly send someone coffee, make sure it's not your coffee you send them." She giggled and I shook my head in disbelief.
"So if you can't accept these as B will you accept it as a best friend's offer?" she looked down and shook her head. "Why? You said you haven't planned anything yet. Do you really wanna go with Sasha?"
"No it's not like that. I was just joking about going with Sasha you buttface. I would really love to travel with you it's just that…" she didn't continue talking.
"Then why don't you?" I demanded for answers
"It's complicated Ash. I don't know. Is this your way of making me fall in love with you again? Because if it is" I cut her off before she says the answer I expected
"It's not working I know but if you can't accept it for that reason then just think that it's just me, you're best friend asking you for one weekend. That is if you haven't replaced me yet" I could feel myself about to cry
"Replace you? You're irreplaceable! I just don't think this is a good idea." I small smile came across my face
"True of false. Is Miss Mitchel afraid to take a vacation with Miss Benson because she's scared to enjoy the idea of them being together and eventually falling for her?" I asked as if I was an interviewer. She pretended to think and I lightly nudged her. "Come on make a deal with me. If you feel something in Vegas even a small spark or anything give us a chance but if you feel nothing but platonic friendship then I promise it'll be my last attempt of trying to win you over. I'll forget all what I'm feeling and I'll just be the benzo to your buttah" After rounds of plea and convincing she agreed going to Vegas and the deal.
It's the day before my much awaited weekend with Shay. I texted Shay while I was having dinner with my mom. I was going to tell my mom after dinner that I'll spend the weekend with Shay.
"Tomorrow's the day! Can't wait! Xoxo -Ash" I placed my phone on top of the table. My mom was talking about her day and Olive. Out of nowhere I asked her a question "Mom. What would you do if the person you love is sadly with someone else?"
"You respect their relationship. As rude as it sounds you have to wait until they break up before you put yourself in the picture" She said casually.
"What if there's a slim chance of them breaking up but you know that person loves you too? Won't you do anything?" I followed up
"My answer remains the same. If that person loves you she should have ended her relationship and be with you. It's not right to mess up someone's relationship. Maybe at some point you were given a chance and you blew it, second chance is optional." I hope my mom doesn't notice how obvious I am.
"What about fighting for what you love?" She turned to face me
"Ashley honey, you don't have to fight every battle. You should choose which battle you get yourself into. If you really love her you won't give her a hard time of deciding between you and her relationship. She's as hurt as you are. Being torn in between is painful on her part. Saying its complicated is an understatement. Let her be happy even if it's not with you and try to be happy for her. I'm not saying it's easy and I'm not saying it's not going to hurt but you need to give it up because that's what you do when you love someone. Let go. Let Shay go Ashley" My mom can totally read me like an open book well after all I came from her. I just forced a smile at her.
I fell silent throughout the whole dinner and I immediately busied myself packing to avoid further conversation. I decided not to tell her about my upcoming trip with Shay since it might not matter anymore. I realized that I haven't checked my phone since I texted Shay. I searched for my phone on my bag. It had an unread message from Shay.
"Me too! I'm so excited. Viva Las Vegas! See you tomorrow :) -Shay"
I sat down at the end of my bed. You're being selfish Ash you broke Shay's heart and now you're trying to broke off her engagement. I read Shay's text again. My mom's words are replaying on my head. "Let her go." My mom's right. I silently sob inside my room.
-Shay's POV-
I texted Ashley that I was on my way to the airport, we decided to meet up there. It was unusual for her not to text me every minute. Usually when we were going to travel and we'll just meet up at the airport she literally floods my inbox with messages reminding me every minute. At first I was hesitant to accept her offer but through time and her convincing reasons I gave in even to her deal. Though I haven't admitted it personally I know she knows I love her. I look at the silver band on my finger, my engagement ring. I know it's unfair for Ryan if I just call it off but I don't want to hurt him even more. I didn't have to wait for the outcome of the trip; I'm giving Ashley a second chance.
It had been half an hour since I arrived at the airport. I texted Ashley like 15 times since I got here. I rechecked the things I would need for the flight; ticket, passport (since I'm Canadian), face kit, etc.
I checked the time again and it's nearly an hour we would be boarding soon. I tried calling Ashley but I can't get hold of her. I called her home phone but it went directly to voicemail. I started to worry about Ashley. Did something happen to her or is she…no she won't ditch you Shay. I waited for a little longer. Where are you Ashley? The final announcement for boarding aired. An hour had passed and I felt like a fool sitting there waiting for her to arrive. We already missed the flight. I was still hoping she would arrive and apologize for not making it on time. I waited for more or less 2 hours and I was already sobbing curled up on where I was sitting. Why would you do this to me Ashley? Why did you break my heart again? Why? I got up and grabbed all my things and left the airport heading to a certain person.
-Ashley's POV-
I stayed at home the whole day since I have no place to go to. Today was the day we were supposed to leave for Vegas. I somehow enjoyed the taste of ice cream and wine together. I kept hearing Shay's voice mail on my home phone; surely a lot of messages are on my phone. I turned it off so she couldn't get in touch. This is it Ashley, there's no turning back now. I kept crying from time to time. I heard the doorbell rang. Who could it be? I know I didn't order take out. I opened it and color drained from my face seeing who the angry being was, waiting for me outside.