Riding On The Wings Of Freedom
Chapter 5
"Freedom is the only thing we must demand in life, for all other good things stem from it"
― Miguel Syjuco
After the night in the flower field, Eren began thinking a lot about what Commander Erwin had said to him.
"That's good then. I don't have to worry about you hurting him. You're the one he's been waiting for, he just doesn't realize it yet, and neither do you. You need each other, you and Levi. Don't let him down, Eren."
What did he mean when he said that HE was the one Captain Levi was waiting for? It made no sense! He wasn't anything special, just a kid, and certainly far younger than the Captain himself. Wasn't that illegal? Eren shook his head. No point in dwelling on it now. He had chores to do.
Eren walked outside to the stables to brush and feed all the horses. It was usually the first thing he did in the morning, feeling it was unfair for the animals to be fed later, especially if they were needed for riding in a spur-of-the-moment mission. Once he had finished with everyone else's horses, he walked to Levi's horse, which had its own special spot secluded away from the others in the stable. He sighed and pet the horses face.
"What do I do? If I let Captain Levi down I'll be letting Commander Erwin down, too. But at the same time, I'm not even sure what that meant or what I'm supposed to do. I'm so confused…"
"Hey, Eren, what are you doing?"
Eren turned around quickly, almost coming nose to nose with Jean Kirstein, one of his friends (even though neither would admit it openly) and a new member of the Scouting Regiment, along with most of his other teammates from the 104th Trainees Squad.
"Nothing. Don't you have chores to be doing?" Eren turned away and began brushing Levi's horse gently and slowly, lost in his thoughts of what to do.
"I finished for now, and then I heard you talking to yourself like some sort of weirdo. What's your problem today? Thinking of going on another suicide mission?" Jean smirked, hoping to lift Eren's mood up with a bit of joking around, but instead found himself on his ass and feeling a sharp pain in his cheek. "OW! WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT FOR, EREN?!"
"I'm not suicidal. Now leave me alone." Eren turned away again. Clearly he wasn't in the mood for jokes or games. Jean muttered to himself and stormed out, nearly running into Armin along the way, who had also just finished his daily chores.
"Jean? Your cheek is all red, what happened?!" Armin panicked, not surprising to Jean. He was a lot like Krista, always worried about little things, but maybe Armin could help Eren with whatever was bothering him, since Jean apparently didn't seem to help much.
"I'm fine, but maybe you can help me with something. Your friend is in a shitty mood and punched me when I tried to make a joke. Talk some sense into him, will you?"
Before Armin could even respond, Jean stormed off, probably to go see Marco. Armin sighed and walked into the stables to find Eren still brushing Levi's horse in the same spot absentmindedly.
"Eren?" He asked gently. Eren looked over at him with a slightly confused face, like he didn't recognize Armin right away.
"Oh, Armin. Sorry, I was thinking about something else. Everything okay?"
"Everything's fine with me, but I hear some people are worried about you. Is everything alright with you, Eren? You know you can tell me anything. I won't tell anyone, not even Mikasa, okay?"
Eren looked like he was giving it some thought, then sighed a small sigh and nodded.
"Okay, I'll tell you," Eren spoke. He told Armin all about the last little while, about Commander Erwin and Captain Levi, the flower field, the conversation he had with the Commander, and everything else in between.
"Wow, I can see where you would be confused, but I think you need to look at this a little differently. What do you REALLY think about Captain Levi? With the way you're talking, it almost sounds like you really like him, and maybe Commander Erwin see's that in you and is trying to give you a little push to move things along?"
"But what if Captain Levi doesn't actually like me and is just trying to make extra sure that if I turn in my sleep he can kill me right away before something happens?"
"But what if he isn't? Eren, you'll never know until you try. Be brave, like you always were and still are. I know if can be nerve wracking but you can do it. I believe in you."
"Yeah, maybe you're right, Armin. Maybe I should tell him."
"That's the spirit! Come on, let's go have fun with everything else until supper time."
"Yeah, okay."
Dinner time came too fast for Erens liking. He didn't want to have to face Levi until he sorted everything out, but who knows when that would be? He sighed in defeat knowing that Armin was right. The sooner he got everything out in the open, the better. But what exactly did he want to tell Levi? He would sound like an idiot if he just babbled it out, especially since he didn't know how he truly felt about the whole situation in the first place.
"Good evening, Captain Levi," Eren heard Petra greet him cheerfully with a smile. Eren didn't know why, but at the mention of Levis name, he felt his heart skip a beat and his face heat up a little. No, not just his face, his whole body heated up and felt warm, but a good kind of warm. He felt butterflies fluttering inside his body, and he knew he couldn't bring himself to look at Levi in the face and greet him, as rude as that would be. Eren elected just to continue eating his dinner instead and worry about Levi at a later point in time.
Levi took his spot at the table next to Erwin and rubbed the bridge of his nose gently. He was in a bit of a predicament. He glanced at Erwin with an icy stare and turned away just as swiftly as he had looked at him. Erwin chuckled knowingly at why Levi appeared to be frustrated with him…
Earlier that day…
Levi sat in his office doing his paperwork like he usually did around this time of the day so that he could finish by dinner and go to bed after relaxing a bit in the evening at a proper time. He was nearly complete when a sharp knock sounded at his door. Sighing in annoyance, Levi called for the visitor to enter into his office chambers.
"Good afternoon, Captain Levi."
"What do you want, Erwin?" Levi didn't even look up from his papers and continued working. Erwin said nothing and just stood before him until Levi gave up and looked at him. "What? I'm busy."
Erwin snatched the papers from Levi and put them on the corner of his desk and got down to eye-level with Levi, staring at him in the eyes. Levi just sat, unimpressed, and stared right back, eyes turning cold like snow.
"Is there something you want? Spit it the fuck out, I have work to do, you asshole."
"In a bad mood today, Levi?"
"I'm in my normal mood. Now stop changing the subject, what do you want?"
"You need to admit it to him."
What? Now this wasn't what Levi was expecting. "Excuse me?"
"You invite him into your bed chambers every night and hold him until you fall asleep. You've been spending a lot of time with him, and been nice by your standards to him, too. Why don't you just admit to Eren Jaeger that you love him?"
"I don't know what you're talking about." Erwin didn't miss the faint blush that dusted Levi's cheeks.
"I approve of him, you know. I already spoke with him."
"As if I need YOUR approval of who I have relations with."
"Levi, it'll do you good more so than any harm to just tell him. I suggest you speak with him tonight, before the thoughts drive you crazy. That is all."
And with that, Erwin left, but Levi spent the entire afternoon thinking about that conversation. He didn't finish his paperwork.
Levi sat quietly throughout the rest of dinner, occasionally throwing glances towards Eren, and noting that Eren didn't once look at him. He didn't know why, but it pissed him off that Eren didn't even once look at him, and elected to leave and finish his paperwork after a brief exchange of 'Good night's.
Levi sat in his office until well past midnight finishing his work, pleased it was all finished on time, and then decided to go to bed. When he opened the room, he noticed that a breeze was floating through the room, and the moonlight shone brighter than usual. He looked up to see Eren sitting on the edge of the windowsill with the window opened on one side and the curtains pulled back. He was leaning against the glass of the closed side, eyes closed, and breathing steadily. Levi chuckled to himself. Eren had fallen asleep.
"Oi, Eren, wake up and go sleep on the bed," Levi spoke as he walked to him and shook him gently. He wasn't surprised when Eren didn't wake up right away, after all he hadn't slept in almost a week and a half, up all night with those bloody nightmares.
"Eren," Levi tried again, shaking him again. This time, Eren stirred a bit and snuggled up to Levi's chest. Levi sighed and gently picked Eren up, putting him on the bed and tucking him in before he changed into his pajamas for bed.
After changing, Levi climbed into bed beside Eren and pulled him close so Erens head was resting on his chest. Eren stirred again, this time actually waking up and looking at Levi with sleepy green eyes.
"Nngh, Captain…?" Eren asked, rubbing his eyes cutely.
"Yes, it's me. Go back to sleep, Eren."
Eren nodded before shaking his head and sitting up slightly, propping himself up on his elbows.
"No, wait! I have something I need to tell you!" This shocked Levi and he just stared at Eren.
"Okay? Is it so important that you can't wait until tomorrow?"
"It can't wait! If I wait, I'll never be able to say it…"
"Then say it." Eren took a deep breath and gulped. It was now or never.
"Captain, whenever I'm around you, see you, or even hear your name, my body gets all warm and tingly. It happened the first time I saw your wings, again when you first slept in the dungeon with me, and again when you took me outside and asked me to sleep with you in your room. I don't understand it, but Commander Erwin said to me that you've been waiting for me all this time, and that I'm the one for you, and were made for each other. I guess what I'm saying is that…Even though I don't really understand it yet….I think I'm in love with you, Captain Levi."
Eren braced himself, ready for a beating from his Captain, but it never came. His eyes were shut tightly, he himself was clinging onto Levis shirt and burying his face in Levis chest. Instead of a wild beating, however, Eren felt two warm arms wrap around him and pull him close and tighter against him.
"Eren, I understand how you feel. I feel the same way. And I don't understand what all this wing non-sense is, but I swear to you that I will do my best to be deserving of the wings you think I have. I will love you and protect you forever. Alright?" Eren nodded, shocked. Levi smirked.
"Now that that's settled…," Levi flipped them over so he was completely on top of Eren, pinning him down so Eren was face to face with him. "There is no reason why I can't have fun. You will wear this, I had it made for you, and you are never allowed to take it off."
Levi attached a green collar, the color of their capes, around Erens neck. It was beautiful. It had wings coming off the side, one blue and one white, just like the capes, and it had a couple of gems here and there all along the collar. Eren blushed a dark red, and smiled.
"Yes, sir."
"Also, from now on, you are MY Puppy, got it?" Levi smirked again, leaning down and licking Erens ear, persuading a small moan to leave his lips successfully. "And you will refer to me as Master."
"Yes, Master Levi," Eren moaned again as Levi licked sensitive spots on his neck, squirming slightly at the unfamiliar feeling. Levi was happy to be Erens first.
"Good. Then let's get started, shall we?"
A/N: And were back~! Sorry it took so long to update, but I was so busy with the Convention that happened that I had no time to write! Especially with my out-of-town house guests. Poor excuse, I know, but that's what happened. Thank you so much to everyone who's favorited and commented so far, this chapter is for you~ Next chapter will be the first big yaoi scene, so get excited fan-girls~! I realized that I've been writing mostly from Erens point of view, so I think I'm going to try and balance it out, but it's so hard when the one character has so much stuff happening at once~ x3
Also, for those who are interested in seeing, I'm going to throw out there that ScotlandBunnyCosplay's DeviantArt account has been updated with photo's from the Convention photoshoot me and my girlfriend had. I cosplayed Serah Farron this year, as well as Eren Jaeger and Len Kagamine~ Please do check it out and tell me what you think~ We are going to do an Eren and Levi photoshoot soon, so watch for that as well~ Thank you so much everyone~!
~Kayla~