A/N: Here's chapter 4! Let me know what you thought :)

"I can't believe you're here." Blaine's voice was muffled against Kurt's chest as he held onto him tightly.

Kurt felt a lump forming in his throat, making it hard for him to speak. "M-Me neither."

Blaine pulled away, and the way he looked at him made Kurt want to scream and tear his aching heart out.

Blaine's whole expression was filled with trust, genuine happiness and his tearfilled eyes were reflecting so much love Kurt thought he might burst, his entire was face glowing.

"I missed you so much." He said quietly before his eyes closed and he started leaning in slowly.

Kurt could only hear his heartbeat in his ears. Would Blaine notice that he had kissed someone else because he'd be kissing differently? Would he taste like vanilla? No, he had brushed his teeth three times this morning and used mouthwash. God, he shouldn't be worrying like this, he had been wanting to kiss Blaine for months and now he was finally going to. But it felt so wrong, he shouldn't be doing this. He should pull away before it's too late and tell him everything. That's why he's here: to tell him everything.

But all of those relatively sane thoughts disappeared as soon as Blaine's lips touched his.

And fucking hell, if he didn't kiss back.

He couldn't help himself. Blaine's mouth was magic and the way he cupped Kurt's face, as he kissed him deeper, made his heart flutter in his chest and heat rise to his face. He had missed this so badly: the way their lips slide together so perfectly, the familiar taste of Blaine, Blaine's touch, Blaine's smell, Blaine's everything.

Kurt really couldn't help the moan escaping his lips as Blaine's tongue slipped into his mouth and grazed over his teeth and massaged the roof of his mouth.

Blaine smirked against his lips and pulled away, his lips swollen and eyes slightly darker. "I want you so fucking much." He said, voice hoarse.

His words went straight to Kurt's cock, he just couldn't fight it. He was so desperate to be close to the man he loved. So he pushed all of the bad thoughts away and mirrored Blaine's face expression.

"I want you too." His voice came out much breathier than he thought it would, but it seemed to just turn Blaine on even more as he could feel something press against him as Blaine pulled him closer.

"Cooper won't be home until tonight, we've got time." He said as he pulled Kurt into the house and shut the door behind them.

"Oh- oh, god, Blaine." Kurt moaned as Blaine's lips attached to the part of his neck he could reach, sucking, kissing and licking furiously.

His fingers trailed up to the other side of his neck, trying to undo the scarf. Kurt then panicked a little, remembering the hickey Rachel had placed there the night before. He covered Blaine's hands with his own.

"No, don't take it off…" He said and kissed Blaine's knuckles.

"Why? I want to be able to-"

"I got stung by something. It looks really bad and I don't…" He lied and blushed furiously.

It was an awful lie, and the fact that Blaine trusted him enough to not question it made him want to cry.

"Okay." Blaine kissed him softly and then started tugging at his shirt. Kurt lifted his arms above his head so he could get it off.

Before he knew it they were on Blaine's bed and they were both very naked.

"God, I've missed you." Blaine's voice came out rough as he straddled Kurt on the bed, sucking on his jawline and licking below his ear.

Kurt was moaning and completely lost in the sensation, all guilt forgotten in that moment. He groaned as he felt Blaine's hard cock brush against his thigh. "Want you." He whispered against his ear.

He grabbed Blaine's ass and pushed him closer to him, their cocks rubbing against one another, making both of them moan desperately. Kurt slipped a finger between Blaine's ass cheeks, causing him to gasp and thrust his ass against him until his finger slipped inside.

"Fuck, Blaine." Kurt groaned and started thrusting his finger in and out.

"L-Lube, Kurt." Blaine whined. "I need… I can't…"

Kurt nodded and let Blaine pull away from him to get the lube from his nightstand drawer. Kurt coated his finger and then pushed inside him again, causing Blaine to let out a sound that was anything but human, but so incredibly sexy.

"More, I need more, fuck, please, I oh-" Blaine cried out as Kurt pushed another finger inside, scissoring them and thrusting in and out from different angels, trying to find Blaine's prostate.

Kurt smirked when Blaine nearly screamed as he brushed against the spot. He did it over and over until Blaine was practically sobbing, then he added a third finger.

"I need you. Now." Blaine breathed against his lips.

Kurt nodded and pulled his fingers out. Blaine sat up and got a condom which he ripped open with his teeth.

While he did that Kurt took a second to admire just how beautiful his boyfriend was.

His hair may have been a mess, but his red lips and dark eyes would drive him crazy any day. He had missed looking at him like this, when he could see everything. Blaine's toned arms, chest and stomach, the trail of hair that started at his bellybutton and surrounded his, now hard, cock. His tanned skin, shining with sweat and that desperate look in his eyes. Nothing could compare. Nothing.

Blaine placed the condom in his mouth before lowering himself down over Kurt's cock. He looked Kurt in the eyes as he positioned the condom and rolled it down with his mouth, sinking down to the base.

"Oh my god, Blaine." Kurt moaned, watching him with wide eyes.

Blaine didn't pull away from him once the condom was in place, he started sucking him, hard, while bobbing his head and swirling his tongue around the head.

Kurt threw his head back in ecstasy and moaned a bunch of nonsense until he could feel that familiar feeling, starting in the pit of his stomach and-

"Fuck, Blaine, stop!" Kurt grabbed him by the shoulders and forced him off of him. "Jesus christ, I nearly came."

"Oops." Blaine grinned and kissed him deeply.

"You ready?" Kurt asked when they pulled apart.

Blaine nodded and laid down on the bed, spreading his legs wide, smiling at him softly, his cheeks slightly pink.

Kurt felt a little sick with himself just then, because Blaine was so vunerable. Sure, they'd had sex a hundred times but that didn't mean it meant any less to them. Blaine's eyes were filled with love, trust and desire. He was completely exposed to Kurt, showing him how much he trusted him by letting him see and touch him like this.

He didn't know what Kurt had done, didn't know he had broken his trust, didn't know he had cheated.

"Kurt, please."

Kurt snapped out of his thoughts when Blaine spoke. He nodded and forced those thoughts away as he positioned himself against him and pushed inside slowly.

"Ohhhhh my god, fuck, ah- Kurt…" Blaine moaned and threw his head back, his cock now pressed between their stomachs.

Kurt pushed until he was all the way inside of him, then he stilled. "Are you okay?" He panted, trying desperately not to start thrusting. Blaine was clenching around him so good and he was about to lose every bit self control he had.

"Yeah, just, wait a little." Blaine breathed and looked at him, trying to adjust.

Kurt nodded and kissed him softly. "I love you so much, you know that?" He said because he needed Blaine to hear that.

Blaine's gaze softened and he smiled a little. "I love you too, Kurt."

Kurt kissed him again, a little deeper this time and Blaine wrapped his legs around Kurt's waist. "Please, move." He breathed beneath him.

"Yeah, okay." Kurt held himself up with his arms and then slowly pulled out before thrusting back in.

After thrusting in and out for a while Blaine started urging him on by placing his hands on his ass, speeding up his movements, and then Kurt knew he wasn't going to last long.

They were both moaning helplessly and his thrusts were getting rather frantic, his hips slamming against Blaine's ass so hard he'd leave bruises but Blaine wasn't complaining so he didn't stop.

"Fuck, I'm close." Blaine told him and Kurt thanked god, because he didn't know for how long he was gonna be able to hold it.

"Me too, me too…"

He sped up his thrusts even more and god, the noises they made were filthy but both of them were way too gone to care.

Soon enough Blaine's eyes rolled into the back of his head and threw his head back and screamed out Kurt's name, leaving pearly white streaks on their skin.

It never failed to amaze Kurt just how beautiful Blaine looked when he came. The way his lips parted, his eyes squeezed shut and the way he threw his head back, showing off his neck as he moaned out his name.

It was enough to throw Kurt over the edge and he came hard, thrusting in and out of Blaine harshly until he stopped coming, then he collapsed on top of him, panting.

"Oh my god." Blaine said breathlessly.

"Yeah." Kurt agreed.

"I missed that so much."

"Me too."

"I love you so much."

"I love you too, Blaine."

Once they had showered and put on new clothes they went downstairs to cuddle on the couch in the livingroom.

"God, don't ever leave me again." Blaine whispered against his hair and wrapped his arms tighter around him.

Kurt swallowed thickly and ignored the way his stomach ached painfully.

Blaine fell asleep a few minutes later, clearly at ease and completely comfortable. Kurt was jealous, he wanted to sleep too, so he would forget, even if just for a little while, that he was a cheater.

But sleep wouldn't come, no matter how easily he usually fell asleep after orgasms, this time he just couldn't relax.

He was slightly startled when the door opened and Cooper's voice stirred Blaine awake.

"Huh?" He said in confusion as he rubbed his eyes.

Adorable.

"Oh, your brother is home." Kurt said just as Cooper made his way into the livingroom.

"Look at you two love birds! As long as you didn't have sex on my couch, I won't kick you out on the street."

"You weren't supposed to be home until tonight." Blaine said, ignoring what he had just said.

"Well, my stunt guy broke his leg so we won't be able to continue shooting until we find someone to replaced him. So, long story short, I got the day off."

Cooper was as handsome as ever with his strong jawline, sandbrown hair that usually fell back into his eyes no matter how many times he ran his hand through it. And his muscular body that was currently dressed in a t-shirt and jeans.

Yes, Blaine's brother was just as breathtaking as Blaine himself.

"Hi, Mr. Anderson," Kurt extended his hand.

"Kurt, we've been through this, you can call me Cooper." He said as he shook his hand and then pulled him in for a hug.

"Right, sorry."

Kurt still got a little nervous around him, he was an actor after all and nearly everyone knew who he was thanks to all the commercials he has starred in. And he was currently shooting some action movie where he played this very sexy secret agent.

Kurt may or may not have had a little crush on him before he met Blaine.

"Do you want lunch or something? We could order in cause I'm not feeling like cooking. I'm exhausted." He said dramatically and stifled a yawn.

"I was actually going to ask Kurt if he wanted to go out and have lunch," Blaine said and looked at him. "Would you like to?"

Kurt nodded and smiled a little. "Yeah, sure."

"Alright, just let me get my car keys and we can leave."

They drove to a small restaurant in the middle of the city. Surprisingly, it wasn't crowded at all. Perhaps it was because it was a little late and most people had already had lunch.

"This is nice." Kurt commented as they sat down by a table in the far back.

"I know, right? Cooper showed me this when I first came here and I fell in love instantly. I just knew I had to take you here as soon as you'd visit!" Blaine grinned.

Kurt swallowed thickly and busied his hands with grabbing the menu and reading it.

"Kurt, honey, are you alright?" Blaine asked after a while.

Kurt frowned and looked up, wondering why Blaine would ask that. That's when he noticed that his hands were shaking violently. He dropped the menu and sat on his hands.

"Uhm, I'm just a little… I don't know, the plane ride made me feel a little ill. But I'm okay, don't worry." He lied.

"Okay, you'd tell me if something was wrong, right?"

"Yeah, of course." Kurt lied, feeling sick with himself.

"Good." Blaine reached over and offered Kurt his hand. Kurt took it and Blaine squeezed his hand affectionately,

Kurt shook his head a few times and pushed all the bad thoughts away so he could actually concentrate on his boyfriend, who he had spent months missing.

"Alright, let's order, shall we?"

The lunch was ridiculously romantic, it was like they were having their first date or something. It was all shy smiles, giggles and secret glances and a whole lot of blushing. Kurt listened with interest as Blaine told him about how things had been here in Florida. And Kurt was pretty sure he could listen and watch Blaine talk like that for the rest of his life if it meant that his eyes would light up and he would smile just like that.

Kurt told Blaine all about New York and how much he loved it, he didn't mention Rachel at all and he hoped to God Blaine wouldn't ask about her. Because Kurt wasn't sure he'd be able to keep it together if he did.

Once they had finished eating and payed they walked out on the street, hand in hand. It was a beautiful place. It was warm, the sun was shining and there was people everywhere. They were in the middle of the city so buildings were surrounding them, nowhere near the same as New York, but it still made Kurt think of home and, well, Rachel.

There was palm trees here and there and the sky was blue with absolutely no clouds.

"Is the weather always this nice?" Kurt asked and looked up.

Blaine smiled and shook his head. "No, the sun wasn't this bright until you showed up. You must be magic, or something." He winked.

Kurt blushed and chuckled softly. "That's ridiculous."

"Nope, it's true." Blaine kissed his cheek.

They turned left and walked through an alley. Once they got out of there the ground was replaced with sand. They had reached the beach.

"Woah." Kurt said with wide eyes as he stared at the blue ocean. "This is… beyond beautiful."

"I know." Blaine smiled and squeezed his hand. "Do you want to sit down?"

Kurt glared at him. "And get sand all over this outfit? I don't think so."

Blaine rolled his eyes. "I brought blankets, they're in the car. Just wait here and I'll be right back, okay?"

"Oh, okay." Kurt smiled and watched as Blaine jogged away to the car.

Blaine returned a few minutes later with a large blanket. He placed it on the sand and sat down, gesturing for Kurt to do the same.

Kurt did and Blaine wrapped his arm around him so Kurt could lean against him. They sat like that in silence for a long time, just watching wave after wave wash over the beach, making the sand wet.

Kurt was the first one to break the silence. "This is so peaceful."

"Yeah, it is." Blaine agreed. "This is also one of those places I knew I had to take you to."

"Yeah?" Kurt couldn't help smiling at that.

"Yeah. I'd come here sometimes and sit here for hours, the beach was usually empty by the time I left."

"I missed you so much, Blaine." Kurt said, his voice unsteady. He was getting emotional again.

"I missed you too, Kurt." Blaine hugged him tighter and kissed his head. "But you're here now. We're together. Everything is the way it should be."

Except it wasn't. Kurt's stomach ached painfully. Everything was so not the way it should be. He shouldn't be sitting there, allowing Blaine to hold him and kiss him. Because he didn't deserve it. He had done something terrible and he was such a coward that he didn't dare to tell the love of his life, who deserved to know more than anyone.

He had to tell him. He had to. He couldn't do this anymore. He should have told him right when he arrived, but he hadn't. It was time to face what he had avoided for too long.

"Blaine…" He began, pulling away and turning so he could face him.

Blaine could obviously tell something was wrong as he frowned and immediately grabbed Kurt's hand. "Yes, are you okay?"

Kurt swallowed thickly and looked into those gorgeous, concerned, golden eyes and felt his throat go so tight that no sound could escape him. "I… I…"

"Kurt, what's wrong?" Blaine frowned even more. "You're scaring me."

Kurt's lips parted and he shut his eyes but all that came out was a heavy sigh.

"I… nothing. It's nothing."

Coward.

"It's obviously not nothing, you looked terrified. What happened? You know you can tell me anything." Blaine said, still squeezing his hand.

Kurt looked at him and nodded, forcing a smile that he hoped looked genuine. "I know, but it's nothing. I guess I was afraid that… You wouldn't love me anymore. That the distance had ruined everything. It was stupid, I know, because I can tell that isn't the case. I was just scared. That's all." He lied.

Blaine's face softened and he sighed, smiling a little. "Kurt. There will never be a time where I don't love you, okay? I very much still do and I always will. I know it sounds ridiculous because we're still young, but I know what I'm saying and that I mean it. These aren't the words of a teenager blinded by love, these are the words of a man who can finally see the world for what it is and who can also honestly say that he is completely, entierly and absolutely head over heels in love with you."

Kurt's eyes were wet and he didn't realize he was crying until he could see the tears create a pattern of dots on his pants.

"I love you too, I'm sorry. I'm so sorry." Kurt cried and hugged him tightly.

"It's okay, baby, it's okay." Blaine hushed him and rubbed his back.

Kurt only cried harder, because Blaine had no idea what he was really apologizing for.

TBC