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HERE IS PART ONE OF A VERY LONG TALK I WILL POST PART 2 OVER THE WEEKEND AND THE FULL CHAPTER WILL BE A FLASH BACK OF THE EVENT AT THE END OF THIS CHAPTER.

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ANAS POV

As soon as it leaves my mouth, the colour drains from Christians face. He goes deathly still...and then he explods

"WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT! LINC WAS YOUR DOM? ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME! IF HE WASNT FUCKING DEAD I'D KILL HIM ALL OVER AGAIN! FUCK" he screams and starts grabbing at his hair.

I knew I should not have told him but I had a a moment of clarity about 1 minute ago. If we are going to make this work, he needs to know everthing, Elena, my time in foster care, Linc, everything.

No more secrets. If we stick together I know we can come through the darkness that I know will be coming our way in the coming months.

"Christian, please calm down. I know it's a shock and I know you must have some questions.."

"QUESTIONS! OF COURSE I HAVE FUCKING QUESTIONS" he screams and I pull the car over to the side of the road and turn to face him

"This is the second and last time i am going to tell you. Stop Swearing! If Phoebe repeats somthing you say I am going to string you up by your balls in the playroom, understood? yes? good! Now we are almost to Kates, lets get our daughter, you can come back to my place and help me give her a bath and then you can put her to bed. Then and only then will we talk, Ok?"

"Ok" hes still fuming but thank god he holds his temper.

When we get to Kates its like he is on auto pilot. He gives Ava a kiss goodnight and then straps Phoebe in her car seat in the back of my car and then he hops in beside her instead of getting in next to me.

I start to get paranoid that he is not sitting next to me because I admitted that Linc had been my Dom and I start to worry that maybe he is discusted in me but then I look in my rearview mirror and i realise he sat next to her to take pictures on his cell phone which is making her laugh.

When we get to my apartment his eyes scan the room like a hawk and I think he is impressed because he smiles a little.

Watching Christian Grey bath his 15 months old daughter is one of the most precious things I have ever seen! I stand by the bathroom door so they can't see me just watching them and every so often I take a picture on my phone.

Phoebe is in her bath chair surrounded by bubbles and Christian is on his knees leaning over the tub, gently washing her hair. He has taken his shirt off and is now dressed in just his black slacks and a white vest because he didn't take into consideration just how much of a water baby Phoebe is and when he lowered her down into the tub she started to kick her legs with excitement and she soaked him.

"Hey calm down baby girl! Let daddy rinse your hair...good girl...you are beautiful princess! Yes you are"

"Blash Blash!" Phoebe hits her hands onto the top of the water Sending yet more water over her father

"Ok Miss Steele time to get out...hmmm I call your mommy Miss Steele and it might get a little confusing...how about we call you Little Miss Steele? Or Mini Steele? No I don't think they suit you. How about we just stick to princess? Princess Phoebe has a nice ring to it doesn't it" I watch as he gently takes her out the tub and wraps her in one of the biggest towels I own so all you can see of her is her face. When I make my presence known they both turn their heads and give me identical smiles.

When Phoebe is dressed in her PJs, Christian sits in the rocking chair in her room with her on his lap and he reads her Horton Hears a Who doing different voices for each person. She falls asleep and we both give her a kiss and Christian tucks her in and just stands by her crib watching her

"Do yo want a glass of wine Christian?"

"Yes pease Anastasia" he doesn't take his eyes off his daughter when he answers me and when I turn to leave the room I look back and watch him just watching his daughter. I can already tell she is going to be a daddies girl. It normally takes Phoebe time to warm up to people but she has taken to her dad like a duck to water. I make a mental note to try and teach her to say dada because I know he will like it.

I pour us both a big glass of wine and and walk out onto the balcony. I'm going to miss this place but I have to admit, I do love Escala.

"Hey" I turn around and Christian is leaning on the door frame. God he looks so good in that vest! He's more muscly than he was 2 years ago and if it's possible, he looks even more handsome.

"Hi, is Phoebe ok?"

"She's fine, I was watching her sleep. I didn't think I could love so hard so fast but with her it's easy, she's like a little angel"

"Wait until she throws her first temper tantrum and come back to me and tell me the same thing" I smirk and take a seat on one of the out door chairs looking out across my view of Pike Place Market

"Before we get into this I want you to know that nothing you tell me will change how I feel about you Ana"

"I hope so...but I know you will think differently of me...I've done things that I am ashamed of Christian, but I can't change the past"

"You are and will always be my Ana, regardless of what you are about to say...Start from the beginning Ana, and don't leave anything out no matter how much you want to, how did you meet Linc?"

"Ok here goes... As you know I was orphaned and went into the care system. I bounced from home to home and to be honest, abuse to abuse. In all but 2 of the home I went to, I was beaten. Some were harsher than others you know, some were a slap here and there but others would hit me with sticks, belts, shoes, fists, there was one home where the husband would hold the back of my neck and rip my hair out by the roots"

Christian stands up and runs his hand through his hair. He walks over to the balcony and takes a deep breath.

"Do you want me to stop?"

"No keep going...it's just hard to hear. I want to find anyone who has ever hurt you and kill them Ana..." he walks over to me and lifts me up and then he sits down with me on his lap tucked under his chin

"When i was 14 I was sent to live with foster parents called Jennifer and Nathan Brown, things were ok at first, I had 3 square meals a day and a warm bed at night, by that point in time i was so used to being hit that when Nathan started hitting me with his belt when his wife went out, it was normal to me. Jennifer travelled a lot for her job and Nathan worked as a freelance computer specialist from home. After a few weeks, every time Jennifer would leave the room he would pinch me or slap me on my legs and when she would leave the house he would bite, kick, slap, anything really. He would call me names and make me feel like a piece of shit, i didn't tell anyone because i had told on one of my other foster homes and no one believed me and to teach me a lesson my foster father tried to drown me but he was pulled off by another kid in the home. Anyway, one day I was in my room and Nathan walked in and told me to strip, I refused and he pinned me to the bed and ripped my clothes off...he...he started to undo his pants and i begged him not to do it because i was a virgin, he froze and it was like he had won the lottery, he tied me to the bed and then left my room locking the door behind him. I tried to get loose but my hands and feet were tied so tight i could not even flip myself over"

"When he came home he told me that it was my lucky day and I was going to meet a new friend, he passed me some new clothes and then he shoved me in his car and We drove to a cabin in the woods down by mount Rainer. In the cabin waiting for us was Linc. Turns out Nathan owed Linc money and instead of paying him back he told Linc he could have me as payment."

"Nathan left me alone with Linc and I was so scared I thought i was going to pass out. He sat me down and told me he was a Dominant and I was going to be his submissive. I started to cry and he took my chin and told me simply that he was the better option because if Nathan got his filthy hands on me he would probably kill me but if I became his sub he would take it easy on me and make Nathan back off, and so, in all my 14 year old foolishness i truly did think Linc was the better option"

"For a while it was the better option, social services didn't know but i moved out off the Browns house and went to live in Lincs cabin on my own because he was still married to Elena at the time, I know I could of ran away but I had nowhere to go and no one to run too, at the cabin Linc bought me a TV, clothes, shoes, an Ipad,, he stocked the fridge and made sure i had money. I would go to school and do what i wanted during the week but every Friday night Linc would come over and to start with it was basically TPE but without the sex, he would punish me and he would make me...um he made me touch him but he never touched me sexually...until my 15th birthday"

"He came to the cabin and the first thing I noticed was he was driving a truck and not his car. He made me help him unload it and take everything inside. When we opened the boxes they were full with sex toys and BDSM equipment like a cross, spanking bench and sex swing. I told him i didn't want to have sex with him but i basically had no choice. I wont give you the gory details but after that weekend i could barley walk for 3 days. He was rough and he hit me so hard with the cane that my back bled"

At this point Christian pulls me closer to his chest and he wipes the tears from my face that i didn't know had.

"I am so sorry that you went through that Anastasia and i swear if he was alive, i would kill Richard Lincoln with my bare hands...wait...wait... if you were 15 i would have been 19 and Elena was my Domm at that time...she was always saying how Linc had his bits on the side just like she did but the summer when i was 19 she became obsessed with who Linc was seeing...and then one weekend she told me Linc was going to be home on weekends from then on because she had taken care of the little problem he was seeing and his weekends would no longer be occupied so we would have to meet during the week...Ana did Elena hurt you?"

"Yes Christian she did...one Friday I came home from school and before i opened the door I was hit from behind...when i woke up i was tied up in a dungeon and i had a blind fold on...i didn't know until 2 years ago that it was Elena who hit me...or that she was the person who burned my feet"

"ELENA WAS THE ONE WHO BURNED YOU?"

"Yes Christian she did...i didn't know until the coping together ball a couple of weeks before i left Seattle...