HI EVERYONE
MOST OF THIS CHAPTER IS A FLASH BACK TO THE NIGHT ANA FOUND OUT IT WAS ELENA THAT BURNED HER. ITS FROM ANAS POV BUT WHEN THE FLASH BACK IS OVER IT IS CHRISTIANS POV
TO THE GUEST REVIEWER WHO ASKED WHAT A VEST WAS ITS A WIFE BEATER. THERE IS A PICK OF CHRISTIAN WEARING ONE ON THE PINTREST PAGE. IT'S HOT
THANKS FOR READING AND REVIEWING
FLASHBACK, ANAS POV ALMOST 2 YEARS BEFORE,THE NIGHT OF THE COPING TOGETHER BALL
FOR THE SONG AT THE END LISTEN TO IT IN YOUTUBE I THINK IT REMINDS ME SO MUCH OF AS AND CG IT'S CALLED, MORE LOVE BY DOUG STONE
CHEERS
LORNA X
Wow I scrub up well!
I am wearing a floor length silver gown that Christian bought me for the coping together ball. I am a little nervous about tonight because it is the first time that Christian and i will be making a public appearance as a couple, sure nobody knows we are a couple but it is the first time that Christian will be taking a date to any event.
Kate thinks that she was the person to finally persuade Christian to bring me but what she doesn't know is that Christian asked me last month to be his date after our first night of vanilla sex...oh god I can't even think about that right now because it makes me want to go and find him and just get him to make sweet love to me. And it is love. I know it and I know that he knows it but the both of us are to scared to say the words out loud.
Our relationship has changed over the last 2 and a half months or so, yes we are still in a contract from Friday to Sunday but its like we can't stay away from each other. We have been out for private meals at Canlis where we had the whole restaurant to ourselves. He even sent me flowers on valentines day with a note that said
"To A, Here's to 151 shades and more, C"
He even took me with him on a bushiness meeting he had in Paris where we stayed at the Ritz's.
It's getting harder and harder to hide the fact that we are more than friends from everyone and I think after tonight there will be no hiding it.
I finish checking my hair in the mirror when my sight snares to the reflection of the man behind me. I turn slowly and we stand just staring at each other. Christian in a suit, hot. Christian in jeans, hot. Christian in a tuxedo? Super nova! Out of this world! Set my panties in fire, hot!
"You look incredible Anastasia"
"Thank you Sir" he raises his brow at me "I mean, thank you Christian" for the last two and a half months I have only been calling him Sir or Master in the playroom, outside the playroom we are basically a normal couple. We watch movies, play pool, laugh and talk about our days. Something changed the night we had sex in his car down by the lake, I don't know if it was the moonlight, the childlike glee which we felt when it started raining or the fact that it was the first night we shared his bed. He had slept next to me in the sub room and at my apartment but never in the master bedroom at Escala.
"You look very handsome yourself Christian"
"Thank you Ana. I have a present for you. I'm going to be honest, I was going to present you with Ben Wa Balls to wear tonight but then I had a vision of you in my old bedroom. I never had a girl in there before and I think it could be fun to try and sneak a girl up there" he grins at me and it makes me smile. Wait what?
"You never had a girl in your room before? Where did you take girlfriends in high school? Or when you came back from Harvard? Mia told me you moved back in with your parents for a month"
"I told you once before I don't do the girlfriend thing, that was also true when I was in high school, I've always done the Dom and sub thing" he shrugs like its no big deal but I have a sinking feeling.
"How old we're you when you started?"
"You really want to get into this now Anastasia?"
"Not if you don't want to but I would like to know you a little better" I make it sound like I'm not dieing to know. He walks over and gently takes my lip from my teeth
"I'll tell you about my teenage years in the limo because we are running late but before we do. Here this is for you" he hands me a black box tied with a red ribbon. I open it slowly because I still have trouble with him buying me things but I bite back a remark because I know he loves to give me gifts.
When i open the box and see the 3 pieces that are nestled inside it brings an instant tear to my eye and my hand shoots up to my mouth to hold back the sob that almost comes out.
"I know they aren't worth anything in money value but it took me almost 4 months to track them down. Kate helped and so did Barney, Welch, Taylor, Sawyer, Ros, the old lady that lived next door to you, your dads old boss and your moms lawyer, your..." I don't let him finish what he is saying because I put my hand on the back of his neck and pull him to me for a kiss.
When I finally let him go he's breathless and I plant 3 more small kisses on his lips whispering my thanks. When i let him go he has a shy smile on his face. He knows he did good.
I don't know how he found them but inside the box are a blue sapphire necklace with matching bracelet and earrings. They aren't worth much but the sentimental value is priceless because all three pieces belonged to my mother and her mother before her.
A month after my parents died I was told that our old house had been broken into and most of it trashed. The one and only time I went back in there after they died I looked for my moms jewellery box but it was gone.
"Thank you Christian. Thank you so much. I thought I would never see them again...I love ...them" I almost said I love him. I do love him but I'm not sure what his reaction would be if I said those three little words and I don't want to lose him.
"You are most welcome Anastasia. Here let me help you put them on" I turn around and he helps me put everything on. When I look in the mirror I have another tear because I remember my mom wearing them when I was a little girl and I remember her telling me that one day they would be mine and one day they would be my little girls
"You are an absolute vision Anastasia and I can't wait to show you off tonight, shall we?" he holds out his elbow to me
"We shall Mr Grey"
We walk out if Escala hand in hand smiling at each other. Before we left the apartment Gail made us stop and pose for some pictures much to Christians amusement. When we get into the waiting limo he pours us both a glass of champaign and we toast to another step.
"You asked me earlier about how I got into the lifestyle, I'm not going to lie to you Ana I always want to be honest with you. As you known I have touch issues and when I was a younger I was out of control and I didn't know how to let people in. To cut a long story short I was doing some yard work for one of my mothers friends and I got a bit lippy so she slapped me, then kissed me and then slapped me again. I was shocked and turned on at the same time and when I went back the next day it was more of the same until one day she showed me her dungeon and she introduced me to BDSM"
Oh my god! Thats almost exactly like me, well not the yard work thing but being 15 when an older person introduced us to BDSM. I have come to terms about what happened with Linc and even though I have seen and spoke to him a lot of times since the night I got burned, I still know that what he did to me was wrong and I have told him to his face and as the years have gone on every time I have seen him he has been a little more remorseful for what he did to me. I think he must have had a come to Jesus moment at some point. Even thought we were no longer Dom and sub Linc set me up with my next Dom because at that point all I knew sexually was pain with pleasure. I was 17 when Linc introduced me to Dom number 2 and from that day on, in his own twisted way, Linc looked out for me
"Your not saying anything Ana, tell me what you are thinking?"
"I'm thinking I've heard worse" I shrug making him frown
"Now see, that just makes me curious about how you got into this lifestyle Miss Steele"
"That's a story for another day Mr Grey because it's time to smile for the cameras"
When we get out of the limo the cameras go wild when they see Christian snake his arm around my waist. We smile for the camera and pose for a few photos. When we get In to the tent Grace and Carrick greet us.
"Ana dear you look amazing" Grace tells me as she pulls me into a hug
"Thank you Grace you look lovely yourself"
"Hello mother, you look exquisite" he leans down and kisses his mothers cheek and then pulls her into a very gentle hug
"Thank in dear. You two make such a beautiful couple" she beams and I blush and to my astonishment Christian agrees with her.
We join the rest of the Grey family and have a wonderful meal but I can't help but feel like I'm being watched. I keep getting a prickly feeling on the back of my neck.
After being roped into the first dance auction Christian causes a bit of a stir when he bids $100,000 for me. I walk off the stage into his waiting arms and he leads me straight to the house, through the back door and up three flights of stairs until he pulls me into a blue bedroom.
"I've never had a girl in my room before Miss Steele so we will need to make this quick incase my parents catch us" he pulls me too him and because I think he wants this to be a teenage fantasy scene I shyly touch him through his pants making him groan. I step it up a bit and I put my hands down his pants and gently touch him.
"Keep doing that Miss Steele and your going to make me come in my pants like a horny school boy" hearing him say this I do something that I haven't ever done with a man. I take charge. I push him back onto the bed and he bounces a couple of times looking at me with shock but amusement in his eyes. I unzip my dress and climb up on the bed straddling him.
"As much as I would love to make you come in your pants Mr Grey... I would prefer yo come in my mouth or on my tits" I whisper into his ear and he shudders
"God Ana what has gotten into you?" he moans and puts his head back while I kiss and suck my way down his body avoiding his chest
"Nothings in me yet Mr Grey but I plan to change that" I scoot down and pull his pants off and then I get to work on the best blowjob I have ever given in my life! Christian almost went out of his mind and when I was finished his picked me up and slammed me into the wall taking me rough and fast. I loved it
"You amaze me Ana that was...I enjoyed that very much" he leans down and kisses me gently while I finish zipping my dress up. He slowly runs his finger over the neckline of my dress
"You look amazing in this dress Miss Steele and I am honoured to have you by my side tonight, I love...it...the dress I mean" he looks a little shocked that at what he just said. I don't know what the big deal is. He only said he loved my dress?
"come on we better get back down there, we don't want to cause a scandal by being caught coming back from the house all mussed up and looking like we just fucked each other brains out" he smacks my ass to send me on my way which make me giggle
"I'm just going to use the restroom I'll meet you back inside"
"Ok would you like another drink?"
"I'll have a Manhattan please"
I clean my self up a little in the bathroom and try to fix my hair. He sure does love grabbing onto it. I walk out the bathroom and head toward the back door when a photo on the wall snags my attention. Its of Christian when he was maybe 6 or 7. He's smiling but his front tooth is missing and in his arms smiling back up at him is who I assume is Mia.
I softly put my finger on his picture and smile. He was such a handsome boy who turned Into a beautiful man. Just as I turn to leave I hear a voice that is haven't heard for almost 6 years! It sends a shiver down my spine and I have to stop the bile from coming out because I am plunged back into a living nightmare
"Well well well Ana Steele all grown up" I spin and in front of me is a tall Icey blonde, dressed in a long floor length black gown. On any one else the dress would look classy, on her it reminds me of the grim reaper.
"What's wrong dear? Cat got your tongue? Do you not remember me? The sound of my voice maybe? Perhaps if I can find a cane around here I could reacquaint myself to you" she laughs a chilling laugh and even thought I think I am a strong confident woman at this moment in time I feel like crying.
"It was you...why?...what did I ever do to you? I don't even know you"
"We have never been properly introduced. My name is Elena Lincoln and I believe you were my husbands plaything a few years back" oh my god this is Lincs wife! Well ex wife I know they are now divorced. He always told me that she knew about us and was ok with it! I am so stunned I can't speak and when she gets right in my face it takes all my power to not cower. I can still feel the cane ripping my skin as she beat me.
"Christian and I are very close, I am the only person who understands him and what he needs and you my dear, are not it so you need to leave town and leave him!" what? I'm not leaving Christian!
"I am not leaving him! You are crazy!"
"You have until the end of the month to leave him other wise I will show Christian proof of just how much of a little whore you really are! Linc sure did get you into some very...uncomfortable positions didn't he"
"You cant do this! I will tell him all about me and Linc and he will believe me! I was a child and I had no choice back then!"
"You were 15 which is the same age Christian was when he was my sub! And he wanted it back then, he wanted it so bad and when I tell Christian that you went after my husband and seduced him he will believe me! Now I am going back to the party. Like I said Anastasia, you have until the end of the month, otherwise not only will I bring you down but i will bring Christian down too, trust me the pictures I have of you are not nearly as bad as the ones I have of him!" she turns on her heels and slinks out the door leaving me stunned, scared but most of all sad, because I know I have to leave him!
END OF FLASH BACK CHRISTIANS POV
I'm going to kill Elena Lincoln.
Slowly and painfully kill her!
How dare her threaten MY Anastasia?
Ana is curled up in my lap crying silent tears. Tomorrow I will put a plan into place to destroy Elena Fucking Lincoln but for now I know what my girl needs. I stand her up and lead her into her front room. I sync my phone into her speaker system and take her in my arms pulling her close to my chest.
"Tomorrow we will figure all of this out Ana, together, but for now just let me hold you...when you left I played this song non stop for over a month and I fucking wish that I had come and got you back then and that I should have never let you go in the first place" I tilt her chin up and stare into her deep blue eyes and say something that i Should have said years ago
"I love you Ana Steele. I always have and i Always will. I will protect you forever and I will not let anyone else hurt you ever again, I promise baby" she looks up at me and softly strokes my face with her hand
"I love you too Christian" she kisses me softly as we sway to the music. The words of this song reminded me so much of how I fucked up with Ana when she left that I used to play it all the time because the words spoke to me on a deep level, but now with my girl in my arms, I know I will never let her go again
When we met, I told her I'd give her the moon
And I did on a silver spoon
If I'd only known the promise I kept would be wrong
Well, she might not be gone
Now it's easy to see
The only thing she needed from me
Was more love, more time
More of her knowing that she's on my mind
More of her heart would have suited her fine
'Cause that's what she was dreaming of
She only needed more love
She tried telling me time and again
But I didn't listen back then
Oh my God, it took her saying goodbye
To finally open up my eyes
And if my prayers came true
I know just what I'd do
Was more love, more time
More of her knowing that she's on my mind
More of her heart would have suited her fine
'Cause that's what she was dreaming of
She only needed more love
I'd give her more love, more time
More of her knowing that she's on my mind
More of her heart would have suited her fine
'Cause that's what she was dreaming of
She needed more love, more time
Less of the things that money could buy
More of my arms just holding her tight
When it all adds up to the bottom line
The answer's the same every time
Of all that she was dreaming of
She only needed more love
I nearly gave her enough
She only needed more love.