Hey guys time for a new chapter :D. I just relised as i was looking over my story that i wrote the wrong chapters in the actual chapters. But the chapters are write where their named so ill just write them there only now. Hope you enjoy.P.s sorry i havent updated in a couple of days i was at a dance competition but im back xx
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Rockys POV
We all pulled up into the front of our house. Everyone was quite the entire car drive. When we got out of the car i heard ross sigh with relief. I think he just wants to forget everything that happend.
We all walk into the house and just collapse on the sofa. For some reason everything about how everyones acting is kinda off. Rosie and Riker seem pissed, Rydel and ratliff seem off aswell and of course ross is gonna feel off.
"I'm gonna go upstairs" Ross says. "okay come here and ill help you up the stairs" My mom says. The both of them disapeer up the stairs. "Okay whats up with everyone i know about ross but theres somthing else" my dad says
Rydel and ratliff look at each other woridly and rosie and riker look down. I just sit there looking around. What a great possition to be in right? Note my sarcasm. "Well..."
'Im pregnant" Rydel says. Awwww Rydel and Ratliff are pregnant together so cute. Well thats what i thought until ratliff says "with who" sounding really pissed. Oh jeses. "i dont know just some guy in a club " Rydel says nervously.
"Okay im going i cant believe you would do something like this" Ratliff says and storms out of the house. My mom walks down the stairs and rydel storms up the stairs. "Okay then what about you two" my dad says to rosie and riker
"Riker kissed ross the other dayand thats why ross had a panic attack" Rosie says "And ive been pissed off at him all week because he never even thought about ross's feelings" "Fuck off rosie" riker says and storms out of the house.
Rosie then storms out of the room and goes to her room "Jesus" i say "we sure are on big messed up family" i say. Ryland just nods his head and leaves .I walk out of the room and head to my bed room aswell.
Stormies POV
Rydel storms past me so i stay outside for a minute. A little while later riker storms out of the house and rosie storms upstairs. Jesus what happened. I walk in to the sitting room and ryland and rocky walk out of the room and its only mark and I.
"hey where'd everyone go" i say as i walk up to mark. He turns around to me with a sad expression on his face. "our family has alot of problems right now" he said. " why what happened?" i ask.
"Well rydel slept with someone behind ratliff's back and is pregnant, rosie is pregnant and is still not mentally well obviously, Ross is also not mentally well or physically well and riker made it worse by kissing ross which i didnt know riker felt that way" he says
"what about rocky and ryland?" i say. "i guess they're better than everyone else but they're still upset about what happened" mark said "God our family is messed up" I say "i think everyone needs a break"
"what do you mean by a break?" he asks "well maybe no more shows or anything like that for awhile and just a stress free time" i say "maybe we should give r5 a break" "i guess your right" mark says "but will they all take it well thats the thing"
"i know but i honestly feel like its for the best Rosie and rydel are pregnant so they wont be able to perform anyway, either will ross he can barely walk. Ratliff is probably pretty pissed of with rydel so i dont think well see him anytime soon and everyone else wont perform without them" i say
"yeah" mark says "its really gonna be worse when we tell them we are having a divorse and im moving out" "i know but we have to tell them we cant hide it from them it just not fair" i say.
Ross's POV
when my mom leaves my room i collapse on the bed and burry my head into my pllow. God how much i dont want to be here right now. I really want to just disaper. Im sick of all this pain and just need it to stop.
I need to stop this pain. I need to. GOD. UGGGGHHHHH. What if i cut. I start balling my eyes out from the thought. I cant believe it has had to come to this. Im not going to kill myself or anything.
I just wont cut deep . I sit up grab my crutches and go into the bathroom. I close the door behind me. I look around the bathroom until i spot my razor. I pick it up and take it apart so that i have a blade in my hand.
I look in the mirror. God do i look a right mess. Im so pale and my hair is a mess and my eyes are blood shot red from crying. I relised as i started to think about the kiss with riker that i do like him that way.
I know its a strange thing to say about your brother but its true. And that just makes it hurt more when i think of how riker just igored me like i was nothing but a piece of trash. I also start thinking of the man.
The manthat hurt me so many times for fun. For enjoyment, God did that hurt aswell. And finally i thought about how much of a dissapointment i must be to my family. And thats it . thats when i did it.
I grabbed the blade and slide the blade across my arm.
1 cut for being raped
1 cut for not being brave
1 cut for letting rosie get hurt
1 cut for all the crying
1 cut for being an idiot
1 cut for letting riker hurt me
1 cut for loving riker
1 cut for being the freak i am
and 8 more cuts for the hell of it.
When i cut my arms it felt good. It made me feel that just for one moment i wouldnt feel. I wouldnt feel all the pain and hurt and sadness and depression i was feeling. It just all faded away.
I walked outside and grabbed a hoodie from my dresser and put it on to hide my cuts. I put the crutches down as i lied back down on my bed. I know one thing now. That wont be the last time i cut.
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Okay guys theres another chapter done :) I literally nearly started crying writing that chapter. I m gonna put another chapter up because i didnt post for a couple of days so ill be back later. hope you liked it xx