Well hahaha... this took a long time to write oops
I ended up writing another fanfic too...
Increasing my workload OTL
Anyway for what it's worth
Enjoy Chapter 10~~~
Tired.
Kageyama felt so, so tired.
He didn't have any strength.
His throat felt tight and his eyelids felt heavy.
So tired.
He lay still in his own pit of darkness, letting the pure nothingness consume him.
It's fine to stop trying…right?
"Kageyama!"
It's fine to give up…right?
"Kageyama! I'm here!"
It's fine to forget…right?
A flash of orange entered his vision and slowly, agonizingly slowly stole the shadows away.
"No. It isn't."
The next day all the members of Karasuno arrived at the hospital, bringing various gifts with them. Everyone stared as the group of black clothed teenagers amassed themselves in the waiting room while Takeda and Ukai went to talk to the receptionists.
Tanaka and Nishinoya were jumping around as usual, excitedly discussing the topic of whether or not Kiyoko would look good in a nurse's outfit while Ennoshita and the other second years tried their best to tell them to shut up. Sugawara, Asahi and Daichi chatted away quietly while Tsukishima and Yamaguchi sat silently in the corner.
They appeared rather lively. Well about as lively as you could get in a hospital without getting told off, yet there was a certain tense atmosphere hanging in the air, as though the liveliness was rather forced.
"Hey, where's Hinata?" Asahi whispered to Sugawara and Daichi so the others wouldn't hear.
Daichi grimaced and Sugawara shook his head.
"He's not coming." Sugawara murmured. "He said he had some important stuff to do and couldn't make it and he just told me to give Kageyama this." He gestured to a small white envelope in his lap beside a large bouquet the team had bought for Kageyama.
"What's in it?" Asahi questioned just out of curiosity.
Sugawara shrugged. "Hinata specifically said not to look inside."
Asahi stared dumbfounded at the small little envelope. What could possibly be in it that Hinata who was never one for secrets, would go as far as not to let anyone else see it?
Just as he opened his mouth to ask, Takeda walked over.
"Guys, we can go in now. Because there's so many of us, I think it would be best if we split into groups."
Daichi nodded and split the team into three groups and one by one they followed after a nurse that led them to the hospital room.
The first group consisted of Tsukishima, Yamaguchi and two of the second years, Narita and Kinoshita. They didn't stay inside for very long. Tsukishima chucked a store-bought card onto the table before briskly exiting the room. Yamaguchi hastily placed a small box of chocolate down before hurrying after him. Narita and Kinoshita carefully placed a neatly arranged basket of fruit beside the empty vase and stood there for about two minutes, before quietly leaving.
The second group consisted of Tanaka, Nishinoya and Ennoshita. Even though he was noisy while in the waiting room, as soon as Tanaka saw Kageyama lying in bed, he became silent. He sat in the same chair Hinata sat in last night (not that he knew) and grit his teeth. Nishinoya piled a large stack of Pocky on the bedside table, so large that it began wobbling dangerously, on the edge of toppling over. He went and stood beside Tanaka, gripping his shoulder tightly in silent comfort. Ennoshita sighed in relief, glad that they didn't decide to make a racket. They remained in the same position for a while, the tranquillity somewhat strange yet it didn't feel right to break it. Then they all shuffled out.
The last group was the remaining third years plus Takeda and Ukai. Sugawara squeezed the large bouquet of flowers into the small vase and filled it with water using his drink bottle. He sat down beside Kageyama.
"It's going to be fine Kageyama." He said.
"Everything's going to be ok. Things will work out between you and Hinata don't worry."
Sugawara clasped Kageyama's hand, placing Hinata's crumpled envelope in his palm and closing his fingers.
"We need you to come back. Tanaka, Nishinoya, all of us need you. Hinata needs you."
Sugawara let go of his hand.
"So get well soon ok?"
Daichi, Asahi, Ukai and Takeda all smiled a little sadly before they too exited the room.
Hinata sighed, sitting at his desk with his head slumped on the table toward the side.
Not being able to play volleyball was still the absolute worst. His whole body felt restless and he really wanted to just once more, experience the stinging on his palm from his favourite toss and spike from the best setter. But he couldn't go back there to the gym. He had already made a resolve to never step within five meters of the volleyball court.
The team must be visiting Kageyama around now, he thought.
Hinata wondered if his letter managed to reach Kageyama and whether or not Sugawara had looked inside. He hoped he hadn't, it would be terrible if he did. He wondered when Kageyama would eventually open his eyes. He hoped it would be soon. He wondered how Kageyama would react to the letter inside the envelope. He hoped it would be ok for him.
Hinata turned his head over so he facing the other side. He saw the notepad he was using last night to write the letter with and he also noticed something that looked strikingly similar to the letter…
Hinata jolted up and snatched up the crisp white paper, scanning his eyes over the contents.
He froze.
The letter that he had spent all of last night writing, the one he had to pull an all-nighter for was here, in his room. He had put in all of his effort, writing and rewriting the message over and over again and he was stupid enough to forget to put it into the envelope.
Things just couldn't get any worse.
Hinata whipped his head to his clock. If he left now, he just might be able to make it to the hospital before visiting hours ended. If he used his bike and pedalled as fast as he could.
Hinata hastily pulled on a jacket and grabbed the letter which was now rather crinkled. He snuck out of his room and down the hallway. His parents were watching TV with his sister in the living room which made it a lot easier for him. He quietly slipped out through the door and biked off.
Half an hour of rigorous pedalling later, Hinata found himself outside the hospital Kageyama was admitted at, panting hard and barely able to stand. He stuffed his hand inside his pocket confirming that the paper was still there and rushed inside.
The receptionists were already beginning to clear out their things on the front desk when Hinata ran up to them.
"Room…ha… 1…109…please…fuu…" Hinata puffed.
"Sir, visiting hours will be ending shortly," one of the receptionists said. "Please come back tomorrow."
"Please…I'll be…haa…really fast…" Hinata begged in airy breaths.
The receptionists looked at him weirdly.
"Fine," one answered. "Do you know the way?"
Hinata's face lit up.
"Yes! Thank you very much!" He beamed and sprinted off.
"Hey! Don't run!" the receptionists called after him.
Hinata skidded to a halt outside Kageyama's hospital room.
God he was so glad that no one was there to hear what he had said yesterday. Otherwise it would be so embarrassing to come back right after saying goodbye. That would be so lame of him.
He pushed open the double doors.
The first thing Hinata noticed was the pile of various gifts on the bedside table. The flowers and presents seemed to make the whitewashed hospital room just a little bit happier and less depressing. Though there seemed there were still nothing from Kageyama's parents. Odd. Had the doctor still not reached them?
The second thing he noticed was the absence of his envelope from the stack on the bedside table. His heart jumped. Hinata hoped that Sugawara hadn't forgotten about it. He frantically searched through the pile making sure that it hadn't been hidden under something, careful so as to not knock anything over.
He still couldn't find it.
He panicked and started flipping through the entire room just in case it had fallen somewhere. After about five minutes of searching, he gave up. Then out of the corner of his eye, he spotted the small white letter held in Kageyama's hand and he immediately relaxed.
But why was it there? Sugawara must've done something, Hinata thought.
Hinata carefully pried the envelope from underneath Kageyama's slim fingers and gently lifted the seal off, trying not to rip the paper. He folded up his not-so-neat letter and tucked it inside before replacing it in Kageyama's hand.
Hinata had never really noticed it, but Kageyama's fingers were really thin and long, almost like a girl's. Even though his hand was so much smaller, the width of his fingers were about the same as Kageyama's.
Hinata wrapped his fingers around Kageyama's. Despite having countless blisters and calluses on his hands, Kageyama's skin still felt surprisingly soft.
Nonononono! Hinata internally yelled to himself, feeling his face flush. What was he doing! He had already told himself he wouldn't!
Hinata quickly untangled himself from Kageyama but before he was able to finish, he felt a slight, ever so slight squeeze from Kageyama.
Hinata felt his heart jump into his throat. Did Kageyama wake up? Hinata watched Kageyama in both anticipation and dread. But he lay still and unmoving, showing no signs of emerging from his deep sleep.
Hinata's heart fell. Was it just his imagination?
Hinata pulled his hand away and brought it up to his chest. He could feel his heartbeat, strong and fast underneath his palm.
He needed to get out. Now.
Hinata sprinted as fast as he could back down the hallway he had come from.
"Oof!" he grunted, feeling the impact of ramming into someone.
"Ah! I'm so sorry!" He apologized in a deep bow.
"Eh? Hinata? Is that you?" a horribly familiar voice said.
"Huh?" Hinata looked up and came face to face with the number one person he did not want to see right now.
In front of him was Sugawara.
"What are you doing here?" Sugawara asked.
"E-eh? Umm… N-nothing…" Hinata stuttered. "W-what about you?"
"I just came back to grab the drink bottle that I had left here earlier. I need it for training tomorrow after all." Sugawara replied.
Hinata stared at his feet, not able to look him in the eye.
"Hey about the thing we were discussing bef—"Sugawara started.
"Ah! Would you look at the time!" Hinata yelled, while looking at his wrist even though he didn't have a watch on it.
"Hinata you don't even have a—"
"Sorry Sugawara-san! I gotta go!"
"Hey wait! Hinata!"
But Hinata had already sprinted out of the hospital, gotten on his bike and raced away in record time.
Author's Note: Urm...
I just want to ask you guys please of your opinions on this story
Cuz honestly it feels like its getting worse and worse
Is it? I just really want to know (its ok to be honest)
Please review your thoughts TnT
Thank you!
See you guys next chapter...