Dear Invisible Receptacle of My Rage (aka Parchment),

Potter might cost me the Head Girlship.

No, really. McGonagall called me up to her desk before today's detention and told me I was being seriously considered for the position, but, if I couldn't end this "silly feud" with Potter, then it would be given to someone else.

This "silly feud" isn't my fault, in case you haven't noticed, Professor. I'm not the one who keeps asking me out in idiotic ways and pranking me and never bloody leaving me alone. That is Potter. I would be perfectly fine with leaving him alone, if he would just leave me alone! He is the one instigating all of this!

Besides, I don't get why my "silly feud" should affect anything. Shouldn't it be a good thing that I'm arguing with him, since I'm, inevitably, going to have to try and control him and the Marauders next year? Why would McGonagall not want a Head Girl who hates a troublemaker?

Ugh, and I can't get along with Potter! It's not just a question of our personalities, it's also about me and my pride! Can you imagine what Potter would do if I stopped getting angry at him all the time? "Oh, I see you're warming up to me, Evans, how about that date?" How about you stuff your face into the Whomping Willow, you puffed-up imbecilic

Okay, wow, rereading what I just wrote, I'll admit I'm getting a little worked up here. I just can't help but hate Potter. It's like falling in love only NOT AT ALL. I can't pinpoint where it started or why, but Potter just...eurghhhh.

And it's not as if he treats me any better. Yeah, I know, he asks me out all the time, but that whole thing started as a way to poke fun at me, because I made the unfortunate mistake of fancying him in fourth year. And what did he do when he figured it out? Used it to humiliate me in public and laugh at me. Yeah, quite a catch right there, definitely someone I should tolerate. And now- even if he was being sincere, and not just doing it for attention and to annoy me, it wouldn't matter because this is what you get, Potter. You humiliated me, and now you get it back a hundredfold. You really should've thought before telling fourteen-year-old me "I know you're in love with me, Evans, but I'm kind of out of your league" in front of half of Hogwarts. Maybe if you hadn't, and you'd asked me out seriously, I might've actually said yes at some point. You're not exactly unattractive, you know.

Emma and Remus say he's grown up since fourth year but somehow, I find that hard to believe, given his current behavior. That's not the bigheaded imbecile I know.

So, this will be excruciatingly difficult. I've wanted Head Girl since about second year when Malfoy was being an utter ponce (stay away from Snape, Mudblood, he has better friends than you, nyeh nyeh nyeh) and Mary Beth Abbott just walked around the corner and bam! put him in his place. I want to be that kind of person for the younger kids, especially the Muggleborns who think they'll never be talented enough to earn their place in the wizarding world. Not everything is about me, y'know.

But now I have to choose between that, and hating Potter. Or at least fighting with him. I guess...the choice is pretty obvious. If I don't get Head Girl because Potter's pulling his usual crap, then he's won and I would've never been able to discipline him anyways. If I can't reel in my own pride and temper for the sake of making the school a better place (and showing all those Purebloods where they can stick it), then I was never cut out for the job in the first place.

So I'll try to get along with Potter, or at least not respond to his pranks with violence and hexes. I won't say yes to him, or even try to be friends, but I think I can handle taking a deep breath and walking away whenever he angers me.

It's a pity, too. I was so ready for this letter. I was going to include my top ten reasons to hate Potter. I guess I'll have to carry those to my grave. Don't want to rile myself up before I have to go back out into the world and face him again. We've got separate detentions, thankfully, so I have a bit of time to compose myself before I see him again. Let's hope it will help.

Yours most hopefully,

Lily Evans

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P.S. I've still got a few minutes left of detention, so in no particular order:

1. His hair. Messy is not a fashion statement.

2. His attitude. Hogwarts is cheap, top-quality education, and you're wasting it?

3. His grades. I hate how well he does without trying.

4. The fact that they keep letting him on the Quidditch pitch, even though his head is too swollen for him to fly.

5. The way girls love him. I don't get it. Even Alice and Emma think he's cute, but what's so great about an arrogant toerag? Also, how he clearly knows girls love him.

6. It's sort of a repeat, but the way he always messes with his hair as if he's actually improving it. Again, messy is not a fashion statement.

7. He's best friends with Sirius Black, and close friends with Peter Pettigrew. Anyone who enjoys that kind of company must be crazy.

8. He's so self-absorbed. Honestly, he acts like everything I do has to do with him. I only date other guys to make him jealous, I refuse him to make him want me more, and when I complain, it's because I'm "obsessed" with him. And the way he talks about himself all the time, ugh.

9. His jealousy, speaking of me dating. He always manages to show up on my dates (with a girl of his own of course), and then proceeds to stay in my line of sight and flirt with her a lot, so that I'm distracted from my date and it's ruined.

10. ...

Honestly, I think that pretty much covers it, except I really hate how no one (especially not any girls) seem to notice any of his faults. I hate the way everyone treats him, like the Chosen One or something. It's disgusting.

You know, that was a nice bit of venting, that actually made me want to strangle him less. I think I'm ready to face him calmly now.