AN: Sorry, sorry, sorry. I'm so sorry that it has taken me so long to post this. I write all my chapters first before typing them, my creative mind works better with pen to paper than fingers to keyboard.
Thanks for all the great reviews I want to address one real quick from acelili: Tristan will not be a main character, but he will be in it more than Lorelai. He will not be in love with Rory. About Chris, I'm trying to keep the characters as close to their personalities as possible, and Chris is the one character I never understood, and I don't really have a handle on him, I'll do my best with putting him in more. As to why Paris is the maid of honor it's more a society thing, Lane doesn't have the money or society up bringing that Paris has, I'll explain it later in my story. Everything that happened in the show still happened, I might bring Dean or Jess in as passing mention, but they will not be big factors. And yes Finn will have a girl… more will be explained later…
By silent agreement everyone headed back to Finn's apartment. Rory hadn't let go of Logan, and didn't seem to be easing up anytime soon so Logan sat in the back of the SUV with her. Logan had no idea how to help her, and it was breaking his heart. 'She looks so small and broken,' Logan thought looking at her clinging to him.
When they arrived back at Finn's, Logan picked Rory up and carried her inside. They changed into more comfortable clothes, and joined the others out in the living room. Logan sat in one of the chairs and opened his arms for his girl. Rory climbed onto his lap and buried her face in his shoulder, not crying but shaking from holding back the tears. Everyone else was in the room and talking but Rory and Logan weren't paying attention, both lost in their own thoughts.
Logan wished that he could help his Ace. He hated seeing her in pain, and this was hurting her more than she was showing. He had known from the moment that he had met her in the hallway by her dorm room that she was different, and if he let himself, he would fall head over heels in love with her, she was the only girl for him. He wanted to protect her from anything that could hurt her, he wasn't able to though. First his father had tried crushing her dreams, and although she had come out of the incident more confident, he wished that it hadn't happened to begin with. Then he went and hurt her with that stupid fight in the pub, which led to biggest mistake of his life in the form of Honor's bridesmaids. Now he couldn't protect her from this latest hurt which was something that no one could have seen coming. He wanted to confront Lorelai, find out what her issues were, but he knew Rory wouldn't want him.
Rory had a million questions going through her mind, most with one recurring theme. Why did Lorelai dislike Logan so much? Why did Lorelai not want her to get married? Why did Lorelai not want her to have her baby? Why did Lorelai treat her like a little kid? Why did Lorelai try and force her to leave? Why was Lorelai so scared of marriage? Finally Rory looked around the room and realized other people were there. "Where's Honor, Josh and Doyle?" she asked, speaking for the first time since leaving Granny's, drawing everyone's attention to her.
Paris was the one to answer, "Doyle went home, something about more drama than a newsroom, crazy that one. And Honor and Josh have to drive to Virginia in the morning to visit with Josh's parents, so they went home to sleep."
"Oh okay," Rory said absentmindedly, laying her head back on Logan's shoulder.
"Love, are you okay?" Finn asked concerned, an emotion that was mirrored on everyone's faces.
At his question, the tight hold Rory had on her tears vanished and they slowly made their way down her cheeks. A sob escaped her lips and she whispered, just loud enough that everyone heard, the one basic question that had been repeating itself over and over in her head, "Why?"
Logan held her tighter, and smoothed her hair saying, "I don't know Ace."
"I have an idea," Paris said. "It only covers part of Lorelai's problem though." She saw everyone's confused looks and explained. "Lor has wanted another baby since our junior year of high school. She had hoped that her and Christopher would be able to get together and have another kid, then he found out Sherri was pregnant and left. It's why she has never really liked Gigi; she thinks that Gigi should have been hers. She then dated Digger, but she never really saw a future with him."
"He was just a way to tick off grandma and grandpa," Rory interrupted.
"Exactly, and then you slept with Dean, stupid by the way, and you guys fought."
"Yeah it was, stupid I mean," Rory said looking ashamed.
"I think I get it," Steph said. "While you were a virgin, Lor didn't have to worry about you getting pregnant and having kids before her. Then you were with Dean, but she knew he was never the long haul guy, but knew that you would be having sex now. Then she was with Luke and you were with Logan. She figured that Luke was it for her and despite Logan's playboy reputation, he was also known for being the most protected when it comes to sex."
"That's very true," Rory said, thinking about how Logan had insisted on paying for her birth control, and they always used a condom, except for the one night that had led to the miracle growing inside her.
"You did say that Lor was more upset about the baby then the marriage," Colin said.
"Yeah, but she wasn't very happy about that either," Rory said.
"But that's because she knows how you plan, Love," Finn said. "I think she always knew that you would go back to Logan and say yes, she just figured that she and Luke would be back together and at least engaged by your wedding."
"She still might be though," Rory chocked out through her tears that were coming faster again.
"But you will still have something that she has wanted for years, but thinks she's too old to have now," Logan said, rubbing a hand up and down her back.
Paris was the one to answer again, "Because she knows that if you're with Logan she won't have any chance of raising the baby."
"She thinks that your work will come before the baby," Logan said. "She knows that I will do anything for you to be able to achieve your dreams. If you weren't with me she thinks that she could raise the baby while you work."
"Oh," Rory said sadly. Lorelai really didn't know her at all, she fully realized. How could Lorelai even think that she would choose her career over her child?
"We're here for you too Ror," Colin said, seeing Rory's tears pick up again.
"Yeah little sister, we'll help you with whatever you need. Just call and we'll get to California as soon as possible," Finn said with a big smile.
"Unless I'm in school," Paris said, earning a small smile from Rory.
'Same old Paris,' Rory thought.
"Thanks guys," Logan said for Rory, noticing that she was getting tired. He picked her up and moved them over to the couch, kicking Finn and Colin off. Rory curled up almost on top of him, her ear pressed right over his heart. He smoothed her hair, thinking about how beautiful she was, and how he loved that she always fell asleep to the beat of his heart. 'How did I get so lucky,' he thought to himself. 'I love her so much. I'll do whatever I can to make her smile and keep her happy forever.'
Logan must have eventually fallen asleep, because the next thing he knew Colin and Finn were yelling at Paris about something and Rory was sipping a cup of coffee smiling at their antics. At his questioning look at the mug in her hands, Rory rolled her eyes and said, "It's decafe. Finn wouldn't give me the real thing, so don't worry."
Logan smiled at her pouting face and asked "What are they arguing about now?"
"Finn and Colin fell asleep spooned on the floor and Paris took pictures," Steph answered handing Logan a cup of coffee as he sat up.
"I just woke up, but what I caught was Paris threatening to sell the pictures to papers," Rory said laughing.
"I want those pictures," Colin yelled, following Paris into the kitchen.
"No," Paris said, her tone threatening.
Finn tried a different avenue other than yelling. "Paris, love, why would you take those pictures?" He asked calmly, hoping to get Paris to cooperate that way.
"Because I didn't have my camera with me," Steph answered for her, laughing at the affronted look Colin was giving her. Apparently everyone but Colin found this hilarious and joined in laughing.
"So what are we going to do until our flight?" Rory asked once the group had calmed down some.
"We should go get the rest of your things from Stars Hollow," Logan said. "The movers are picking everything up at Granny's tomorrow."
Rory nodded sadly in agreement.
"Colin and I will go home and get our car too. I know how much of a pack rat you are," Steph said trying to cheer Rory up some.
"Okay, sounds good. Plus that will give me enough time to clean up some," Rory said.
"I'm going to go home too," Paris said. "Doyle is probably wondering where I am."
"Will you be at the airport to say goodbye?" Rory asked.
"Yeah Ror, I'll be there." Paris then turned to Steph, knowing the answer Colin would give and asked, "Can you give me a ride home please?"
"Of course," Steph replied, while Colin scowled. "Let's go." Steph pulled Colin out the door and Paris followed behind them smirking.
"I'm going to go shower real quick," Rory said walking towards the bedroom.
Logan followed her and once they were inside the bedroom he asked, "Are you okay Ace?"
"No, but I will be eventually," Rory said trying to smile at him. With that both Rory and Logan took a shower and joined Finn in the living room, and quickly left for Stars Hollow, all three of them hoping to make it in and out of the small town without a confrontation with Lorelai.
Once again I want to apologize for the long wait but I finally started my schooling for my job. I will try to write on the weekends but I can't promise anything. I hope you continue to read and please review.