He had said no, and it was like her world had come crashing down around her. Every hope and dream she had ever had had been pulled out from under her with one very simple word, and it hurt like hell.
She had thought that maybe he wanted her too. The way he smiled at her, touched her arm when he talked to her, invited her to the Three Broomsticks with his friends. But he was just being nice, just making sure she felt included.
She didn't cry, not at first. She was just dazed. All of a sudden every fantasy she had ever had of marrying him, of being his wife, of loving him for the rest of her life, they were all gone. Now every time she found herself daydreaming, she had to put a stop to it because it just hurt too much.
Sometimes she entertained the fantasy that maybe the timing was just wrong, that maybe one day he'd just change his mind and they'd be married and happy. But that would never happen and she knew it.
The tears still came late at night sometimes, when she realized once again that he would never be hers.
Her mind was still full of him. It didn't consume her like it once did, but he was still there, and seeing him around the school grounds made her want to die. She thought that getting a clear answer from him would allow her to move on, but it only reminded her how much she wanted him and that there was nothing she could do about it.
And that killed her.
This came easy because this is my life right now. (Also, two uploads in one day? What is happening?)