I have been going after school every day and spending all of my time on the weekends with Sasuke. I kept my promise to him; however, he just doesn't seem to become less miserable. It's like my very presence makes him uneasy. I don't want to cause him trouble, but leaving again would only make things worse between us. I even tried asking him what was wrong. He simply shrugs his shoulders and says "nothing".
Seeing Sasuke so distant from me worries me. We're falling apart little by little and sometimes I can't help but feel that that's what he wants. Before I got attached to Sasuke, I would have wanted nothing more than to be apart, but now it feels like I can't live without him. When I'm at the church with him, he has no interest in me. He hardly looks at me or speaks to me. If he knew how much it hurt me, I doubt he'd care.
Despite how distant we've been, I can't help myself from going to see him. Somewhere deep down, I feel that I can repair what's been broken by trying to figure out what's wrong with him. The only problem is that he doesn't want to tell me. After visiting Sasuke for weeks after the last Deidara incident, I'd think he'd soften up and let me in. But I was wrong. Like always.
Saturday afternoon, I sat on the loveseat in the lobby near the fireplace. I made myself a cup of tea about an hour ago but haven't brought myself to drink it. I held it in my hands and watched the still brown liquid in the glass coffee cup. I was too depressed to drink it. At the time I made it, I felt like having something warm to draw my attention from Sasuke, but now that I have it, I no longer feel like drinking it.
Sighing, I sat the cup on the coffee table and I looked towards the direction of the stairs.
Ever since I got here, Sasuke's been upstairs doing God only knows what. No matter how hard I tried not to focus on Sasuke, I found myself doing just that and I soon came up with the conclusion that he stayed up there to avoid me.
Seeming as there was nothing more for me to do here; I grabbed my bag, stood up, and headed towards the front door. As I went to let myself out, Deidara opened it from the other side. I was just as surprised to see him as he was me.
"Deidara?" I said. "What are you doing here?"
As my newest blonde friend stepped inside of the church he said, "I could be asking you the same thing, little girl." My eyebrows furrowed when he called me little girl. "Where's that vampire boy? We're supposed to be playing cards."
"Upstairs. He hasn't been down all day. I'll don't think he'll come down to-"
"Deidara?" Sasuke said in same tone I used earlier. He descended the staircase when he said, "You're here early."
"Wanted to play now. I got bored," Deidara shrugged.
Sasuke frowned at him. He then peered around him to look at me. "Hinata, are you leaving?"
"Yeah…"
Sasuke still carried a tone in his voice that signified that he didn't want to talk to me. When he saw Deidara, he looked a little like his old self, but as soon as he noticed me there, he went right back to the Sasuke I've been around for the past few weeks. It definitely hurt when I saw the change in him. Deidara noticed it too and I saw sympathy in his eyes when he stared at me.
I also couldn't help but notice that Sasuke decided to come downstairs after Deidara entered. He wouldn't come to see me but Deidara's an exception? The guy who, not too long ago, harassed me, threatened me, and would have possibly killed me given the chance? I refused to show them how much that angered me.
I was startled out of my train of thought when I felt a cold hand grab hold of my shoulder. It was Deidara.
The blonde vampire said, "Since you seem so busy, Sasuke, I think I'll spend some time with my best friend. I'll come back tomorrow."
"Best friend?" As soon as the thought finished crossing through my mind, my "best friend" tightened his grip on my shoulder. With two vampires able to read minds, I'll never have privacy.
"Okay, just make sure to watch her," Sasuke said without even the slightest concern for my safety.
This time Sasuke's tone wasn't as nearly as harsh as the other times when he spoke to me. Before I was able to stop myself, I felt my mouth curve into a smile. Was this progress? Whatever it was, Sasuke noticed me smile and turned away. My smile immediately turned to a frown.
"Okay, kiddie," Deidara said cheerfully to break the tension that was slowly creeping up and he began pushing me towards the door. "Let's spend some quality time at Konoha Square. By the time we finish, everyone at school will start calling us DeiHina."
"DeiHina?" I repeated.
I didn't get a chance to protest any further when Deidara pushed me out the church with him following close in suit.
We made it to the Square in ten minutes. For a normal person, it takes about fifteen minutes or more, but with a crazy person like my friend, the man pushing me towards our location, there's no way to get there in fifteen minutes or more even if you wanted to.
He's always wanted to spend time with me, but every time he asked, I always turned him down. I needed to see Sasuke every day in hopes of repairing our friendship and I also didn't completely trust Deidara enough to be alone with him. Even if it was a public area, I'm sure he'd have no issue throwing me against a wall if I got him mad enough. If school wasn't an excuse, then I'm pretty sure the dead center of Konohagakure wasn't an issue either.
Deidara insisted linking arms while we walked through the mall. He claimed that if we were linked, then he wouldn't be able to lose me in the crowd. He also said that all of the kids today are doing it so he wanted to try it too. All because of Deidara's desire to appear "normal", we walked throughout the mall linked all day. People stared, but not because we looked like a couple. They were looking because Deidara was supernaturally gorgeous.
Since he was a vampire, his skin was naturally pale, but at the moment, he appeared fair skinned. The next thing that caught attention was probably his hair. His long, blonde hair trailed down his back and ended below his shoulder blades. Usually he wears a part of it in a ponytail with the rest hanging down, but today he chose to wear it all freely. I agree that he was a gorgeous man, but the best feature on his face was his eyes. His eyes were a grayish blue color, but due to his vampirism, they stood out from the rest of his features because they almost looked as if they were glowing, and whenever you stared into them, they naturally sucked you in. Almost as if you were in a trance.
Deidara was tall. Maybe about six feet tall and his body was muscular from years of fighting. Knowing that Deidara lived for centuries, I'd expected him to be more muscular than he was now, but he disliked the bulky bodies and somehow maintained a lean size that he found suitable. Girls in particular found his body sexy and they liked it just as much as his face.
My friend never paid attention to them. Whenever he decided to take glimpses at people, it was more than likely because he thought they looked delicious. The innocent people around us were oblivious to his sinister thoughts though and continued to check out my sexy friend.
Deidara took me to whatever department I wanted to go to and bought me whatever I wanted. I didn't ask for much, but according to him, not wanting much wasn't satisfactory. So, no matter how much I argued with him, he got me whatever he seemed would suit me. I must admit, it made me feel good to know that he cared about what I have and didn't have. I couldn't be mad at him for getting me more than less. The only issue that I found that needed to be addressed was Deidara was buying me everything in the mall and not even thinking about himself. When we hit a jewelry store I told him to get something for himself.
He smiled, thanked me for my consideration, linked arms again, and then tugged me in the direction of the department he desired to go to. At first, I was curious about what Deidara liked. He rarely spoke about what his interests were and no one pressed to figure out what he liked, but when we were rapidly approaching his designated destination; I immediately found no interest in his likes. We were heading right for Hot Topic.
I never enjoyed rock or heavy metal music. It always gave me a headache and the style in that store also never interested me because everything here was so dark and gloomy. Deidara, however, was so eager to enter it that I couldn't bring myself to kill his fun with my selfish complaints. I would just have to endure it the way he did for me at the places that I liked.
He released my arm when we got to the accessories at the back of the store. The first thing he picked up was a choker with silver spikes sticking out of it at all sides. His blue eyes glowed with affection when he spotted it. He examined a few more things before deciding which accessories he wanted to tuck under his arm to buy.
I casually leaned against a nearby pillar and asked "Shouldn't stores like this offend vampires like you?"
"Why?" he responded while his gaze was still fixated on the items in front of him. "Because it's dark, depressing, and the music gives you headaches?"
"Well… yeah." My face became hot. I hadn't expected him to read my mind.
"Being in places like this is actually comforting. I love it here." He smiled at me.
To hide the embarrassment I was feeling, I smiled back and said, "Hmm, so there are times when even you of all people can be sentimental. I'm impressed."
"Impressed enough to win your heart?" he asked with a heavy British accent.
I could help but to let out a little laugh. "Sure, but I think you need to go to a psychiatrist first. All of those years of 'living' are getting to you."
He chuckled. "I suppose so."
Deidara bought the accessories he was staring at, a few T-shirts and a key chain for himself. And he couldn't help but to buy me a vampire plushie because he found it humorous to get me one that looked a lot like Sasuke.
We browsed the mall for a few more minutes before going to the food court for pizza. Since Deidara gave me a little bit of everything here in the mall, I decided to buy the pizza and soda. I hadn't brought much money because I hadn't expected to go to the mall, and I was very lucky that the manager was a woman that was infatuated with my blonde friend. She gave us a discount and I was able to afford it with only a nickel to spare.
I bought a small cheese pizza, a Pepsi for myself, and a Sprite for Deidara. Just like with Sasuke, I was amazed to see a vampire eat. He ate like a human and took care not to show his fangs. I hadn't noticed that I was watching him until he smirked at me, not caring that he showed me his teeth so long as no one else saw.
"Am I that hot?" he asked as he flipped his hair.
"No, that's not what I was… Never mind." I said with a bit of frustration. I then asked, "Does eating fill you?"
"No, but it is nice to eat something other than blood. After having years of the same thing, anyone would want to indulge in something else. Not just that, I have to appear as human as possible."
A group of foreign high school girls walking in the shop stopped momentarily to take a look at Deidara. They giggled, whispered to each other, and then slowly proceeded to the cashier. They looked back at Deidara too often and paid too little attention to the, obviously annoyed, cashier taking their order.
"You have too many fans," I whispered.
His eyes followed mine. He shrugged, took a sip of his Sprite, and then said, "They're all meals to me." He studied them, which they mistook for him checking them out as they turned their temporary attention back to the counter. "They aren't fat enough for me. I need a person with meat on their bones in order to enjoy a hearty meal." He licked his lips in a way that many of the girls at school would faint over. I didn't find it sexy in any way whatsoever because of the subject we were talking about.
I rolled my eyes in disgust.
"Hey. Don't judge little girl," he said while pointing at me with his second slice of pizza. "I need blood to survive." He took a big bite out of it and then sipped his drink.
"I know, I know. I just don't get how you can talk about eating people to another human like it's a normal thing. In your world, I'm also a 'meal.'" I took a bite out of the crust on my first slice.
Deidara picked up his third slice and said, "Why don't you let me turn you into a vampire so you can experience the full package?" He bit the slice. "I could always use a pretty girl to spend eternity with." He smirked and looked me in the eyes. Desire lingered in his glowing blue orbs. It felt like one of those rare, serious moments that Deidara had. "Of course that means I'll have to take your innocence."
I blushed so badly that my face felt like it was on fire. No one has ever said anything like that to me before. Of course, Deidara wasn't just anyone. He was pretty close to insanity and would say anything to get a reaction out of someone he found fun to play with.
Picking up my second pizza, I said "You're just saying that to mess with me."
"No," he said, "I'm not." Deidara sat down his half-eaten pizza slice and placed a hand on the cap of his Sprite bottle. His gaze never left mine. "I want you to be a vampire. The only problem is I can't force you to. You have to be willing."
When he finally took his eyes off of me I asked, "What about Kana? She wasn't willing."
He scoffed. "Somewhere deep down, she definitely was if she turned." He took a gulp of his soda. "After sixteen years of being a virgin, it's only natural to want some kind of sexual interaction, right? Teenagers are always curious about the world of sex, especially back then. And during that era everyone wanted a taste of immortality."
"I… I suppose." I reached for my untouched Pepsi but didn't open it. Talking about this made me uneasy. And talking about it with Deidara only made it worse.
He noticed my uneasiness after he took a few bites of his pizza and said, "Hinata, you don't have to worry. I've changed. I'd never force you to do something you wouldn't want to do."
I looked at him.
"I mean it," he said. "If I was the same person from two weeks ago, I would've went to your apartment and fu-"
"Don't finish that sentence!" I interrupted with a burning hot face. I slumped back in my chair with a hand over my face. Right now, I couldn't bring myself to even look at him. He made me beyond embarrassed twice in less than an hour.
"I'd take that as a compliment if I were you. I only look at particular girls. It just so happens that you are one of a kind, Hinata."
"Thanks…" I mumbled.
"Hinata…" he began to say, but then trailed off when two of the five rejected foreign 'meals' wandered over to Deidara.
Both skinnier than Sakura Haruno, they both sat down at our table. Deidara's mouth twitched in disgust. To him, they weren't even worth looking at. To me, their faces and hair definitely outclassed me, but I had to agree with Deidara on one thing. Their bodies were too thin. Anyone who was skinnier than Sakura had to be anorexic.
"What do you want?" Deidara demanded in a harsh tone.
They were startled by his tone. I guess at their school, they were considered the prettiest girls there and weren't used to being spoken to like that. Over here, they looked like emaciated, prepubescent little girls compared to our high school's best. In this region, you needed at least some meat on your bones in order to avoid being made fun of and Deidara was the last person you should approach.
The girl with long, wavy dirty blonde hair said, "W-Well we-"
"Get to the point. Quick." He cut her off because he never had an intention of hearing her response to his first harsh question. When she opened her mouth to speak again he said, "I'm talking to someone who is actually interesting. Go away."
He shooed them away liked bugs and it was no surprise that they listened. They hurriedly returned to the rest of their pack and when they got there, the others asked them what happened. Even after their encounter, they continued to look back at Deidara like he was some god. He wasn't that sexy. If I'd been rejected like that he wouldn't even be worth looking at.
I took a sip of my Pepsi, wincing at the burning liquid sliding down my throat, and then finished off my pizza.
"Are you going to drink your soda?" he asked. Deidara wanted to get out of the pizza shop and tried his best to wait for me patiently.
I handed it to him and he finished it within two chugs. It was against the mall's rules to carry food or beverages around. Too many people over the years spilled their drinks on the merchandise and abandoned what they didn't want to finish in different departments. And too many people ate food in places that strictly said "No Food. No Beverages." Pretty soon the Konoha Mall is not only going to banish all consumables but also start forcing people to smoke in their cars instead of outside of the building too because you won't believe how many cigarette butts are left on the ground outside of the mall and in the bathrooms.
We meandered around the mall for a few more hours before we agreed to leave. We were carrying a lot of bags and my feet were hurting. I doubted Deidara's feet hurt but I'm pretty sure that he was bored and wanted a real meal.
Deidara walked me back to the church and this time it took us over thirty minutes. All we talked about on the way back was the teachers at school, the girls at the mall, and my dislike for Hot Topic. He just couldn't fathom how I couldn't bring myself to like it the way he does. He tried convincing me to go in with him the next time we went to the mall together and pick out something that I liked, but I hated everything in there… besides the plushies.
"I had fun," Deidara said with a large smile on his face. While I admit that seeing him smile was cute, it's still taking me some time to get used to his friendly expressions. "What about you?"
"Yeah. I had lots of fun." I looked back at the church from on the porch. "Since you bought me an insane amount of clothes, I guess I can stay overnight to try and mend Sasuke's and my broken relationship."
"Don't worry about that one. He'll bounce back after you give a little more effort."
"You sound so sure of yourself. I tried everything. I don't think he wants to be around me anymore."
He stroked my face with his warm hands. "Who couldn't want a girl like you?"
"Sasuke Uchiha," I responded.
I removed Deidara's hand from my face, but as I did, Deidara dropped his bags and caught my wrist with his other hand using his vampire speed. I gasped from the fast action and I also flinched. His eyes carried the same sympathy from this morning.
"Sasuke would be a fool to not want you." He paused. "And if he doesn't want you…" Deidara leaned in to meet my lips. Before I got the chance to move away, he planted his warm lips on mine. We remained like that for a few seconds until Deidara removed his lips from mine. He locked his eyes with mine and finished his sentence. "I'll take you."
My face got hot for the third time today. The only difference with this one between the others was I was speechless. His words and actions are too much for me.
"See you Monday, Hinata." He grabbed his bags and left down the dark street.
Shaking off what had just happened I went inside the church. The lights were on but I saw no sign of Sasuke. He'd never leave this place without turning off the lights, so he had to be here. Maybe in the basement?
I put the bags my room and went back downstairs. When I descended the staircase, Sasuke was sitting on the loveseat. He was waiting for me. His hands were folded, he was slouching, and he seemed to be in thought. He was so deep in thought that he didn't even notice me sit beside him.
"Hinata…" he breathed. He no longer held that miserable tone in his voice, but his eyes certainly did.
"Sasuke, I know that I must've been annoying with the persistent questioning for the past few weeks, but I've got to know. What's wrong?"
Anger flashed in his dark orbs. "Why don't you tell me what's going on? I should be the one questioning you."
"What are you talking about?" I asked. I was confused. "I was with Deidara. We went to the mall."
"I'm not talking about him."
"Then elucidate for me. I don't know what you're talking about."
He stood up and went to the other side of the room. I realized that his anger had been bottled up for a while now because of whatever I did. If he stayed around me, he might've done something regrettable.
"Naruto," he growled. He hated the very name. "You smelled like Naruto Uzumaki when that boy brought you here after Deidara attacked you. When I carried the boy upstairs he smelled like you, too."
I shot up from the loveseat and I opened my mouth to argue but then I realized what he was talking about. He smelled Naruto on me from the time we made out. Things got so heavy that night that I was prepared to lose my virginity and Naruto was more than willing to take it from me. Our clothes were gone and we were left in our underwear. Our skin touched and rubbed against each other viciously from long awaited need. During our make out session, our sweat touched and mingled… Sasuke must've smelled that.
Just before we were going to do it, I felt the urge to get away. I thought of Sasuke and was riddled with guilt. I meant to tell him about what happened but I was never able to do it. If I were Sasuke I'd be mad at me too. After all, he loves me and… I love him, too.
Now was the time to tell him.
I made sure our eyes locked so he knew that I was telling the truth. "Naruto and I made out."
He expected an answer like this but hearing it from the source was something different. His beautiful face staring back at mine was consumed with so much hurt that it hurt me just by looking at him. It then appeared that he was replaying my words in his head over and over again until it made him angry again.
"We didn't have sex," I said, hoping that it'd help at least a bit. But it didn't.
"Don't!" he growled.
From the other side of the room Sasuke came to me using his vampire speed. I was scared looking into his eyes. They were pulling me into his deep abyss and I didn't know how to escape from falling into inevitable death. I really made him angry this time and I believed that I wouldn't have a chance to tell him how I felt about him.
"Sasuke…" I said. My voice was barely audible because it was out voiced by my massive fear.
"You should've told me sooner!" he shouted. His voice boomed through the church.
My legs were losing their strength, but I pressed on to stand my ground. "I wanted to! I really did! It was hard for me to tell you because…"
"Because why?! You know how I feel about you! You should've told me as soon as it happened!" His voice was getting louder and I was losing even more confidence… I also found myself getting a little angry.
"We aren't dating!" I shouted back. He was unfazed. "Why should I have to tell you anything?!"
"Because I love you!"
"Yeah? Then you should understand." I stopped shouting and used my calmest voice. "You don't know how guilty I felt after being with Naruto. I thought about how angry you'd be when I finally told you for days. What you thought about me was all that mattered to me." I paused for a moment. "You know why I didn't let Naruto take me that night?" He didn't respond but his anger seemed to diffuse a little. "Because I came to realize that I love you too, Sasuke."
He was still enraged but when I confessed to him, a brief glint of shock flashed in his dark orbs. He took my words in and they seemed to replace his anger. But after a short while it appeared as though he became enraged again. It was as if my words weren't enough for him. He had to be the one to find out if I was telling the truth.
Sasuke grabbed me by the waist and brought my mouth to his angry lips. Our lips smashed together with such intensity and passion that I nearly moaned instantly. He took care to hold me firmly as our kiss burned with lust. We haven't kissed since the day before Kurenai sensei died and all of that bottled up frustration was released into this kiss.
The vampire tightened his hold on my waist and forced my body against his. The other hand found my hair, like last time, and tangled its fingers in my long, thick locks and readied to pull it whenever he saw fit. I welcomed his touch by resting a hand on his back and left the other on his neck. I caressed his skin as we continued the kiss.
Our bodies rubbed fiercely together. It created a pleasant sensation throughout my body that forced out a moan from under Sasuke's dominant mouth. I moaned a few times, which broke the kiss. So soon into this I was starving. I burned with a need for Sasuke. He noticed this just like last time only… he wasn't stopping.
Sasuke took me upstairs to my room and laid me down on the bed. He got on top of me and nestled between my legs. Another moan was on the verge of escaping, but it was muffled by Sasuke's lips. We kissed passionately on the soft sheets and greedily felt each other's body.
My warm hands wandered all over Sasuke's body and soon found its way to his belt. I took off the belt with a struggle because I tried to focus on the heated kiss. Once the belt was off I then unbuttoned his pants and he helped me take them off. When they were off he nestled between my legs again. I moaned once more from under him when I felt how needy he was. The moan was loud and it echoed throughout the church. With my body aching with lust and his throbbing with excitement I had no idea who was lusting more than the other.
Sasuke shortly broke the kiss to remove his shirt. I stared in awe at his well-defined six pack. I yearned to touch it, to kiss it, but I had to be patient. I'd have plenty of time to caress it when we got to our long awaited goal.
The vampire seized my lips again. The anger that the kiss once possessed disappeared as he ghosted his larger hands over my fully clothed body. In turn, my hands enjoyed touching his skin and his silky hair. Soon, I let my fingernails drag along the surface of his pale skin. He moaned from above me. It was the first moan he let me hear tonight and it sounded so full of lust and frustration. It also sounded beautiful and somewhat vulnerable. I became even more excited when I assumed that we might be close to having sex.
When that thought crossed my mind Sasuke hastily removed my T-shirt and then went to unbutton my skinny jeans. I helped him get them off even though he didn't need my assistance. When they were off I truly felt how much he wanted me when he rested between my legs again.
I suppressed a moan when I felt him between my legs, but it was soon released into the empty air when Sasuke began to drag his teeth along my exposed skin. There was no point in hiding the strained noises I made when they hit the night air. The feeling of Sasuke's sharp teeth felt too good to be true. It amazed me how they could be so painful and also so pleasurable. He glided them skillfully along my skin from my neck until he reached my panties. He then brushed his lips against my skin until he reached my lips.
With my lips he wasted no time in greedily taking them into his possession. I returned the kiss with just as much greed as he gave me. We both released a few moans together as our skin became even more sensitive to the other's loving touch. I found myself getting a little annoyed though. I wanted more right now. I wasn't satisfied.
I wrapped my arms around Sasuke's neck and ran a hand through Sasuke's hair. I rested that hand behind his head and pulled him in to deepen the kiss. He released another moan when my other hand found its way into his boxers. He was slightly surprised that I made the first move, but recovered quickly when he chose to retaliate.
His hands left my waist and aimed for my bra. He took his time in removing it because he got some satisfaction out of me desperately moaning from his groping. This was the first time I let anyone touch my breasts and as he touched them he watched my face. I felt the familiar heat creeping up on my face but I couldn't bring myself to look away from Sasuke. He stared at me with so much love and understanding. No one ever looked at me like that. Not even Naruto. This man adored me more than anything in the world. It made me happy.
Removing my hand from Sasuke's hair, I let it join my other hand in my lover's boxers. My gaze never left Sasuke's as I slowly removed them. I tossed them to the floor where all of our other pieces of clothing resided. When they hit the wooden floor, Sasuke took that as his chance to take off my bra. He watched the bra fall to the floor and then made his way to remove my panties only to find me removing them for him. He smiled at me and kissed me several times.
He kissed me passionately with heavy, inpatient breaths grazing my skin. His body rubbed hard against mine as I proceeded to take off my panties. The touch of his warm hands in my hair and his hot body pressing and grinding against me drove me crazy. So, when I finally got the underwear off, I tossed them to the floor and stared at Sasuke with just as much love as he granted me. Giving him all of my trust, I kissed him tenderly as I stroked his body. I called out his name in the empty room so loud that it echoed throughout the church's halls as I took in every bit of love he had to offer and let us become one.