Long time no see, guys! Sorry it's been a while but I'm on summer vacation and I have been quite busy so far in these first two weeks of break. At any rate, I was able to find some time to sit back and write. I know I've said this quite a few times but this story's almost over! Only this chapter and the next and that's all folks! In the meantime here's my long-awaited update. Keep some tissues at hand cuz without further ado I give you, Paper Plane.
A/N: Italics are song lyrics.
Disclaimer: I do not own Vocaloid
Kami Hikouki
Rin's POV
I sat in my bed, blonde wig rightly placed on my bald head, and sighed silently before staring out of my window at the sky painted a lovely robin's egg blue and the clouds whipping across it like feathers.
One time, at a certain place, not associated with this world
Sighing again, I pushed myself out of bed and staggered to the window, which I struggled immensely to open.
Two unlucky people connect in the world—I then tossed a paper airplane into the wind—with a single paper plane soaring through the air. I, then, watched it fly away and faintly smiled.
Len's POV
I lay on my back on the slight hill next to the school, my one knee bent, and my arms folded behind my head as I basked in the sun with my eyes closed. The wind stirring made me open my eyes to see a paper plane drifting down towards me. I sat up and caught it, then read it and smiled brightly.
Rin's POV
I sat at my desk writing my letters like I've done every day since my operation two days ago. The cancer was successfully removed from my throat, but it had, unfortunately, spread to the rest of my body and the doctors could not do a thing about it to my ultimate dismay. I was trapped in this hospital, but when I wrote my mind was always able to escape. Father comes to visit me every day in the morning and later in the day when school lets out. Now, he spoke to me briefly as I sat at my desk then kissed my head and left, waving goodbye as I did the same before looking out the window once more.
Every day when Papa goes to work I escape the hospital. Because I had promised to always be here with you.
It was the next day and I was reading in bed when a paper plane suddenly, but gracefully, landed on my lap. I looked at it in surprise then at my opened window thanks to Alexandra's courtesy. I opened the letter and a bright smile came to my face as my cheeks flushed.
When I read your letters, my heart grows warm. My cheeks are colored; it this love?
I had not noticed Father had entered my room, much less was speaking to me, and he snatched Len's letter out of my hand in complete distress.
But why does Papa fearfully say that is not good to see you? I don't understand!
He read it, crumpled it up, and tossed it to the ground before he stormed out. I knew he was fighting back his tears, but I cried my own into my hands. I knew he was upset that I was dying and didn't have much time left at all, but he did not have to revert to his old ways of being cruel to me. Why couldn't he understand that I had to write these letters to Len? It was my escape from this prison!
Len's POV
I reached for Rin's new letter with a bright smile on my face, but before I could catch it, a hand snatched it out of my grasp and I gasped when I saw her father reading it with a distressful countenance. He read it, glared at me, and crumpled it up before dropping it to the grass. I then buried my face in my hand in my own distress. The school was like a prison without Rin. And I was a prisoner trying his best to escape.
Rin's POV
I continued to have my face buried in my hands, massive tears pouring from my eyes.
All I need is for you to always be by my side. You give my life meaning.—Images of me and Len together came into mind like a silent film and I cried even more-In this room where light doesn't shine it shows a dark future, painful and false.
I stare at my ceiling with hollow eyes as I lay in my bed the next day, IV's sticking my body as I underwent my chemo. What was the point of it? I was going to die soon anyway.
Day by day the number of tubes increases. I am just so desperate. I need to see you right now, but I am too far away.
After my treatment awhile later, I sit up in bed and bite my lip as I had just received the news that walking was basically out of the question for me because of the cancer.
When I finally notice that I can't walk I lose hope.
Sniffling and crying, I write my next letter and I had a strong feeling that I would be my last.
Even though I still try, no one will even listen. Death will be here for me soon. I'm so worried about you. What will you do when I die?
Then I launched it into the air and cried into my arms on the window sill, wanting nothing more than to run away and escape. Escape to you where I know I'm always safe and happy when I know my future is bleak. In my mind,
I run.
Len's POV
I grabbed Rin's letter and read it, but when I did my eyes widened and my heart rose into my throat.
I run away from there, just to say goodbye. My last words to you, flying through the air on a paper plane.
I sent her my letter right away, fighting back tears.
I can't show you my tears anymore even if it hurts.
Rin's POV
I sobbed into my hands in my bed and noticed a letter on my lap. Sniffling, I opened it and what he had written made my eyes widen and my body freeze and more tears to well up in my eyes.
"Please don't leave! Can't you understand how much I need you? I'll wait for you forever until the day when you come back! I've kept all of your letters close to my heart! We'll meet again! Ok?
I cried even more into my hand and, as pain started to surge everywhere in my body, I sent him a quick letter back before the pain intensified, causing me to collapse next to my window.
Len's POV
I ran a hand through my spikey blonde hair as I waited for her reply letter and I finally saw it staggered towards me in the wind. I had to jump to get it as the wind kicked up and when I read it I froze. I burst through the lounge door and shouted at everyone there, holding up the letter and telling them what was going on with Rin. Right away, they dropped what they were doing and followed me to the limo which we immediately pulled away in.
Rin's POV
I lay in my bed, fear surging throughout my entire body as I struggled to breath. It was never this bad and neither was the huge commotion as nurses and doctors stormed in, out, and around my room. Even my father hurried in after getting the phone call that I was relapsing, but the nurses held him back to give the doctors room to work.
Len's POV
As we travelled to the hospital I gazed out of the limo window, my mind racing and determination blazing in my eyes as my grip on Rin's last letter tightened.
Mr. Kagamine's POV
I held my fading daughter tightly in my arms as she fought harder and harder to breathe while tears streamed down her cheeks. As if holding her this way could save her from the clasp of Death. She struggled to bring her hand up to my chest and she clutched at my shirt. I looked down at her and her pale face, mostly covered by her breathing mask, was written over with terror. "P-P-Papa." She whispered with a shaky breath. "I-I'm scared." More tears welled in her cerulean eyes and she clenched them shut. "I-I don't want t-to die! N-not without saying goodbye to my . . . my friends!" She forced every word and I fought back tears, but a few escaped my eyes. I brought her closer and pressed my cheek on her head.
"Don't worry, my sweetheart, they'll be here." I looked up at her closed door. "They'll be here." I repeated, praying to God that they would. I knew Rin and Len wrote letters to each other. It was their way of holding and their sanctuary—I only got mad with them, because I was powerless to save my daughter and I needed an outlet. I understand it was wrong but it was the first thing I could get at. But soon that sanctuary would be gone. . . She nuzzled her head into my chest and I kissed the top of her head, covered by her blonde wig. I tightened my embrace around her. She knew I loved her, even when I was so cruel and strict on her for of all of those years in the past. She knew I only wanted to do my very best to save her even though I knew I was powerless . . . just the same as I was with Lily . . . who Rin would be joining soon . . . I felt my daughter tremble in fear and in pain as she fought in my arms and I bit my lip as more tears slipped.
"Papa. . ." she whispered. "I love you . . ." My breath got caught and I took in a shaky breath.
"I love you too, Rin. I love you so, so much." She cracked a smile as our eyes met and tears trickled down her cheeks.
"I know you do, Papa. . . Thank you"—she began to pout—"for everything." Her voice cracked and I felt the corners of my mouth beginning to go down.
"Sh, sh. What are fathers for? I just wish I could have been a better one." She shook her head ever so slightly.
"No. No, you're a fantastic father"—she struggled to take a shaky breath—"You've dealt with so much pain and sadness . . . And soon you will be free." She cracked another smile. "That's why I wanted to sing so badly: to bring happiness to people's lives." I hugged her close.
"Rin . . . you didn't need to sing to bring happiness to my life . . . You were my happiness." She hugged me back to the most of her ability and I carefully placed her back down on her pillow before stroking her hair and kissing her head. "Thank you, Rin. . . I'll see you in the morning." I cracked a smile and she held onto my hand with her trembling ones.
"You'll be with Mommy and me soon, Papa,"—her smiled fell—"but . . . don't go . . . I'm scared." I nodded.
"I won't leave. I'll stay to the side, but I'm still in your room. You're friends are here now, I'd recognize that crazy fumbling pack anywhere." She forced her laugh and she slowly closed her eyes due to the exhaustion. It hurt more than any kind of torture in the world, but . . . I slowly pulled away. . .
Rin's POV
I slowly opened my eyes half-way, the heart monitor was slowing down as was my breathing.
Ever since we shared that last moment my body no longer moves. I wonder if you'll come to welcome me very soon. That fence that divided us will be gone.
I gasped when I saw the familiar six faces hovering over me: Mr. Takahata, Kaito, and Luka on my right and Gakupo to my left. They all placed a gentle hand on my legs to reassure me that they were there. I then looked to my immediate right and left to see Len holding my right hand and Miku holding my left one. They all smiled with saddened eye expressions. My breath caught short and tears began to well up in my widening blue eyes. Everyone . . . More tears slipped and I clenched my eyes shut. You all came . . . You all really came! I felt Miku's other hand rest on my shoulder and Len's cupping my cheek as everyone else gently stroked my legs to tell me they weren't going anywhere. They were staying with me until the very, very end.
Images of Len, me, Miku, and everyone else faded into my mind and played like a silent film.
I need you to continue in this world. Ok? If I hadn't pretended to be tough, it would've been fine. But it's already too late. Images of everyone's smiling faces came to my mind. You who are smiling somewhere even now . . . How will you when I don't come back? It hurts! It hurts! It hurts!
I heard the heart monitor beep a few times, each beep more awaited than the other, and I tightened my own grip on Miku and Len's hands . . . then . . . for the first time in forever . . . I opened my mouth . . . and sang . . . "The flower that stands no longer has the light to live on. Only the letters you gave are the light is given to me. I can feel as my life begins to slowly fade away. Even though I am weak and fragile I've kept every single one. My feet carry me quickly to you. Please, if this is the end I want"—with a smile I shifted my watery eyes to everyone who bit their lips and kept back tears as they cracked their bright smiles to me, those very bright smiles that were always in my life when I needed them—"you to live on." I took in my last breath as I heard the heart monitor. Out of the corner of my eye I saw Father standing to my right, next to the head of my bed. With tears in his eyes and a smile on his face, he placed his hand on the top of my head. I then looked at everyone else who continued to smile lovingly at me. "Thank you . . . everyone." It was after that the heart monitor flat lined and I drifted into a world of warm, welcoming darkness.
Len's POV
I pulled away from Rin and, very slowly, walked to her window and could almost see her spirit walking with me towards it as she sang with me.
"Because I always had you I could live without forgetting to have a smile on my face. The deep darkness tears the two of us apart and the deep darkness brings us together again."
From my stand at the open window I could see her smiling, yet crying, spirit, adorned in a breath-taking heavenly-colored gown, making her appear like an angelic doll, which she truly was, rising into the sky. The sun's rays coming out from the puffy clouds making them appear golden. "Until tomorrow . . ." She sang as she had her left hand over her heart and her left one extended towards me as I lifted my right arm towards her invisible spirit.
"At that place . . ." She was on her trip Paradise, the beautiful place in the sky.
Oh my effing God you guys I had so much trouble writing this you have no idea! This is the first fanfic that I kill the main character off and they stay dead. . . Yeah, sorta spoiled my other fics if you haven't read them so there's a freebee for you! But, seriously, I still have a lump in my throat! X( I hope you all enjoyed this! One more chapter left! Please Review and I'll see you next time!
