Hey guys, sorry I haven't updated in a while, I went away for a few days but here it is chapter nineteen

Chapter nineteen: Castor's POV

All the light and colour had been drained from the world as I lay there, my fingers wrapped around my wand, wrapped around my weapon of survival. In the darkness I was ready, ready to fight my demons and become something, make something of myself. I groaned, lifting my head up from the soft carpet that had been laid out on the floor of the room of requirement. There was a bed in the far corner but I'd been too out of sorts to move my failing body over to it, to give myself any comfort.

I tamed my hair slightly and then headed out, I was still dressed in the same shirt from yesterday, the clothes that I'd slept in but I didn't care, everything was hazy and blurred, my life passed by me as I attempted to take hold and grasp reality. My chest was broken and concaved, the air tickled at my failing lungs as I moved from hallway to hallway.

A cold hand grasping my shoulder managed to bring me back to reality and away from my sunken and fading grasp on what was happening.

"Cas?" I knew the voice: Fabian. He had lost the right to call me Cas so I only turned around and folded my arms over my chest, I glared at him from behind my thick rimmed glasses, waiting for him to either just attack me or apologize. I was thinking that I might even accept his apology, I didn't have enough energy to be in a fight. "You didn't come back to the common room last night," he said. Well done, did he want a special prize for working that one out? His voice was not its usual cocky self. It was laced with a hint of apprehension, what did he expect? That I was going to shout 'mummy and daddy' and they'd come running, unforgivable spells blazing?

"Well done Fabian, is that it?" I replied, I could tell that my new found tone of voice was making him slightly uncomfortable, he shifted uneasily on my feet. If it was too much effort for him to actually say sorry then he should have not tried to speak to me in the first place.

"Are you actually going to say sorry for just blanking me and not even caring about how I felt, finding out that my two psycho parents escaped from prison?" I growled at him, searching his eyes for any sign that he showed any remorse or care.

"Castor… I… I was scared… I didn't realise what I was doing," he mumbled, nerves entering his voice.

"I don't hear the words I'm sorry in that sentence," I snarled, turning on my heel.

"Castor wait! I'm s-," he began but I stopped him putting up my hand to stop whatever pathetic attempt at an apology he was going to try and desperately cling to.

"Don't. Don't rub salt on the wound, when your actually sorry, then, then we can talk. I know you were scared and worried and I understand that but… you could have at least had the decency to show that you cared… cared for how I was feeling. That you weren't like everyone else, just avoiding my gaze, not wanting to talk to me or tell me that you'll be there for me," he sighed, "Just as I would have been there for you. Just as friends are supposed to."

He didn't say another word as I left him there, shocked and shivering in the middle of the corridor. Students swirled round me but I noticed with sickening disgust that most people did their best to move out of my way and avoid me. One first year even gave out a little scream when I got too close and then he took off at a run, yelling 'don't hurt me' and 'I'm sorry'. What did these people see me as? What did the world see me as? A carbon copy of my parents, where my fate was decided the second I was conceived?

I wondered whether Colin would show the same lack of emotional intelligence that Fabian had, he didn't seem as thick in that area as Fabian was but I didn't know… maybe fear had gripped him.

"Are you alright?" Luna asked as I turned the corner and found her twirling her long hair in her fingers, a dreamy smile etched on her face that made me smile slightly. Her eyes lit up seeing that I was happy.

"Yeah… well I am now that you're here," I smiled, the corridor was deserted and I put my arms around her and pulled her in gently. She leaned up to kiss me on the lips, my lanky frame erupted with happiness. "Man I needed that," I laughed as she locked her arms around me and pulled me in closer. We finally broke away and rested our foreheads against each other.

"As long as we are together that's all that matters," Luna whispered, those were the words I needed to hear. That she wasn't going to leave me, no matter what. That she wasn't going to make me bleed.

"You're your own brand of beautiful and that is exactly what makes me love you," I whispered.

Her eyes widened slightly, "You said love," she whispered, her fingers were making soothing circles on my back but they stopped for a moment in shock as I gazed deep into Luna's eyes.

"That's because I love you and right now… love is all I have," I whispered.

She smiled and pulled me in tight for a hug, the soothing circles resumed, "I love you too." She whispered, that was what I needed to hear that someone like Luna could love someone like me, weak and useless me.

Her fingers locked around mine as we headed towards breakfast, "But people will see… people will-," she shook her head and I smiled even more, she had once again brought me out of the darkness.

"I don't care Cas, all I care about is you," Luna giggled back, her eyes drifting off as though she was looking for something that wasn't there, I grinned, it was something that she often did.

I heard the whispers, the points and the looks as people moved out of the way for me, my lanky skinny frame clinging onto Luna as though she was my life line as I was filled with fear. She didn't care, about anything, she just held me to her and whispered, "It's okay."

She had to let me go though, eventually we had to part and I couldn't desperately cling onto her for support anymore, I had to be brave, just as she was, whenever anyone would call her names, I had to do the same. Use some of Luna's strength. She smiled before skipping off, her long blonde hair bouncing behind her as she did so, before she sat down at the Ravenclaw table with a grin. I noticed that lots of people were continuing to whisper, about Luna and I. About the revelation that we were together, as one. I sighed, it was just like my first year, only that time older students had said stuff to my face and bullied me but that had all died down soon enough. This, this was so much worse, I'd prefer it if people were just rude to me, just as they had been in my first year, if they'd just bully me instead of saying stuff behind my back, instead of blanking me.

At least I could try and fight back against bullies, against the idiots who thought I was like my parents but now… when it was the whole school and they weren't even brave enough to say anything to my face there was nothing I could do. I mean, at least it hadn't been the whole school in my first year, at least I had my friends as well. It had really just been a few idiots whether as everyone else just went on with their existence even if they didn't really like me but now… everyone was involved in blanking me, in avoiding me, whether as before everyone would just get on with it and talk to me if they had to, keeping their dislike silent, that wasn't the case anymore… no one would talk to me. I just… I felt so alone and isolated. Everyone avoided my gaze when I sat down and a few students desperately moved up so that they wouldn't have to sit near me, as though I was going to give them a disease. Yeah that was a laugh, Death Eater disease.

"Scum," apparently it was like my first year, there were going to be name calling and public displays of hate instead of just pretending I wasn't there and fearing me. I think I preferred that slightly, at least I knew that I was still alive. It was a seventh year Ravenclaw and a few of his friends sniggered around him as my head sunk. I searched for Colin but he was wrapped in conversation with Fabian down the table… he too was no longer with me.

Still, I had Luna, Luna was all that mattered. With Luna I could be strong and happy. I just had to believe.

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