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Chapter twenty-three: Castor's POV

One breath, then another. Take a step forward Cas, prepare for the hate. Cheering and clapping was what greeted me though as I gawked into the cheering mass that consisted of my house. Gryffindor. I stepped through the portrait hole, my nerves being replaced with amazement and confusion. Fred and George's hands reached through the crowd to grab me and pull me towards where they and Neville were, Luna grinned, she was also waiting for me.

"What is it? What have I done?" I asked in confusion, my eyebrows furrowing as Neville gave me a smile.

Fred grinned. "What have you done? You bloody kicked Umbridges fat arse mate! Nev told us the whole story, it sounded brilliant. She was apparently hysterical," now that the thrill I'd gotten from messing with her had died down and I was faced with the punishment I'd have to face I was a little less pleased but I was happy that the twins and the rest of my friends appeared to be thrilled.

"Yeah," I looked at Luna and she noticed the nervous look that crept onto my face, the shaking of my hands at the thought of whatever revenge Umbrige would have lined up for me.

"Yeah? YEAH!" George grinned his shoulders jostling me.

I felt a hand tap me on the back and I turned round to see Harry and Hermione both stood there, wearing guilty looks.

"I'm sorry, all we can say is we're sorry but we know that will never be enough," Harry spoke. I sighed, they were coming round but the gratification I'd dreamed of getting from this moment didn't grace me, I just accepted it.

"It's alright," there was a certain limpness to my voice as a moment that should have been great for me was of little importance.

"Ron's still… on the fence," Hermione shrugged. I'd expected as much. I merely shrugged in response.

Luna grabbed my hand and pulled me away to a more quiet area of the common room.

"You okay?" She asked me.

I gulped, no I wasn't, I was scared. "I'm fine," I said a little more harshly than I'd meant to. She caught the ice cold edge in my voice which was laced with an undercurrent of dangerous fire and she knew not to press me. A lot of people came up to slap me on the back and congratulate me and say how they never doubted me, I didn't feel anything, my mind was on other things. I even noticed Fabian looking at me from across the room, Colin even seemed to make a step towards me but Fabian's hand on his shoulder stopped him. I shook my head, they still apparently hadn't come round. I didn't care. Not now.

The weekend came soon and it was time for another Dumblerdore's army meeting, I'd been allowed back on the meetings and no one seemed to grumble about it, Zacharias Smith was silenced by everyone's glares as he saw me walk in. It was more training this week, what we'd been doing for a while. I was hoping to go with Luna like we did when we duelled just the two of us at Snape's command but today that apparently wasn't going to happen.

"Fabian… it looks like you're going to have to partner with Castor," Harry said, with a look of regret to me. He knew how hard this would be for me. I nodded not wanting to be childish, Fabian gave me one of his cocky smirks and I sighed, he was going to make this hard, he was going to make this into one of his macho things where he had to beat me to prove his worth or whatever.

"I can do that," I didn't care if I sounded childish, I wanted to rise to his bait and beat him at his own game. Everyone had stopped their own duels as Fabian and I took stance, looking at each other with total malice, I didn't want to hurt my friend though, he was my best friend, I'd loved him like a brother but he'd savagely ripped out my heart. It had been so easy for him as well, to say that I was some vicious monster that loved to hunt down muggleborns.

He stretched out his wand hand I did the same as we nodded, everyone watched in anticipation, the room was in total silence.

I sniggered but my spell missed, his shape changed and I wasn't fighting Fabian not anymore. She was dancing in front of me, moving nimbly on her feet as I knew that she did. I seethed, firing hex after hex at her.

"I'LL KILL YOU!" I screamed, so much venom entered my voice as I surged forward, my wand pressed into her throat as I pinned her up against a pillar.

I heard a gulping noise, "GET OFF ME! WHAT ARE YOU DOING?" Fabian shrieked, "MURDERER! HE'S GOING TO MURDER ME! HELP, HELP!" Despite how pathetic he sounded I stumbled away, staring at him as he whimpered with wide eyes.

Luna put her hand on my shoulder, "Cas… I'm… are you okay?" It was the same question. The same question I'd been getting a lot recently. I shrugged her hand off my shoulder. "I'm. Fine."

Harry gulped, "Alright… well…," he gave me a concerned look as I sighed but he continued his address to the rest of the group, "Look we all need to continue to work a lot harder. We know that this threat is real okay? Voldermort and the Death Eaters are back and they won't stop at anything and neither will we. Alright, back to duelling," Harry nodded as everyone gave both me and Fabian shifty looks but continued like Harry had said. I stormed away, flinging open the doors as I stopped outside, resting my head on the wall, fear pulsing through me, I'd thought it was her. The anger and rage I'd felt at just seeing her, duelling with her, it had scared me more than anything. More than the dreams. Normally I'd be bothered that Fabian had called me a murder but I was so scared that I glossed over that. I felt Luna wrap her arms around me and I relaxed slightly.

"I'm sorry," I cried resting my head on top of hers, my breath mixing with the sweet smell of her hair.

"Your stressed… it's understandable, you just need to take it easy Cas. You worry me sometimes," she sighed looking me in my eyes.

I nodded, taking her words to heart, I needed to chill, "Yeah. It's just… I thought I wasn't that bothered but people still don't believe me… Ron doesn't believe me."

I'd seen the looks he'd given me in the room of requirement. Luna shook her head, "I know Cas but… didn't you hear about his dad? He has his reasons." I scrunched my eyebrows up confused, Luna took this as a sign to carry on in her explanation. "His dad… Harry apparently had dreams about a snake attacking Mr Weasly but… Mr Weasly did get attacked, it was a bit ago now, before the breakout but…. Understandably Ron's a little upset over it. The twins and Ginny are all chipper as usual but you know what Ron's like…," Luna trailed off as I hung my head.

"Oh, maybe I should just… wow," I was speechless, now that the breakout had happened Ron had probably only put two and two together and figured that Voldermort had purposely targeted his dad to brew fear or something and that the breakout was the next step. I gulped, Ron was being controlled by something that was creeping up to dangerous levels in me: fear. With all the stuff about me and well with his dad it was only natural that he might take a little more convincing than others.

"Yeah… I know… Harry reckons it was Voldermort," she said as though reading my mind, "I'm sure he'll come round, he just needs time to heal." She managed to cheer me up and I smiled kissing her on the top of the head. Harry came rushing out as Luna and I broke apart, "I'll get back in there." She said, taking her hand from mine and heading into training.

"Hey, don't worry I'm pretty stressed too," I could tell from the tone in Harry's voice, I gave him a weak smile. "Snape was trying making me do these stupid lessons with him as well but I quit that… the guy just makes me even more stressed."

I laughed, "It wouldn't by any chance be duelling lessons would it?" I smiled at Harry, he shook his head but didn't elaborate so I left the point of what the lessons were there.

"Whatever's coming I know that it's coming soon."

"I keep on having these dreams… about my mum… my parents," I gulped, shivering.

"I know what you mean… I get dreams too, it's just they feel so… so real," he mumbled, I knew the feeling, he was trying to dispel the thoughts running through his head that the dreams were real. The thing that scared me the most was myself though, the anger that coursed through me, my eyes, my face, the sickening power I felt when I clamped my wand. I wouldn't turn out like them, I wouldn't enjoy inflicting pain but I couldn't deny it, I'd felt a rush when I'd been duelling Fabian and that scared me.

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