AN: Hey people! This is chapter 9 of Safety! Ta daaaa, hope you enjoy. Please review if you can and ummmm…have a terrific wonderful candy filled day! I'm really dory it was a late update!
Everyone cheered with energy and laughter, enjoying the whole situation that will most likely bring Sakura to tears.
I sat there as my uncle lifted up his wine and cheered for me to kiss Sakura. That bastard, excuse my language, really just wants to ruin Sakura doesn't he? Madara has already seen me practically dishonor Sakura, what more does he want? To see us love make? I mean really that isn't proper and neither is this situation.
I brushed it off, all the attention returned to the king within moments. Sakura though was startled.
"Sasuke that was so very embarrassing. I hope we never degrade ourselves again." She said burying herself into my chest to hide her humiliation.
"Sakura, it was nothing. Please, it's alright." I said smoothly to the best of my ability. I lack the skill of comfort.
"Alright." She said wiping a tear from her eye taking her face away from my chest.
I stood up ready to leave we should go join our parents it has been some time since we have last spoken.
I took Sakura and we walked to the table our parents were sharing. They all smiled at us and pointed to Kasuka who was talking to a girl. They seemed to be having a rather marvelous time.
"I hope she is very sweet, Kasuka deserves no less." Sakura said to her mother and they both nodded their heads.
I sat there and I stared at Sakura the whole time. I can, I mean no one can judge me. I am the only one whom may even have that right. I'm technically her suitor so no one may stop me from staring at her as long as I bloody well please.
The whole table was laughing and having a good time, cracking jokes and telling rather awful stories, in my opinion.
I was talking with my father, until I felt a gentle tug to my sleeve.
"Sasuke look at Kasuka isn't this wonderful, he is talking to a lady. I have never seen him do that before." Sakura glowed with pride for her brother. Sakura really truly loves Kasuka, perhaps even more than I, which I hate to admit. If you think about it, it does make sense he has been there for her longer.
"Hn. He is so loud I can't imagine him doing it often." I said as I heard him yell and wave his hands around acting silly.
Sakura giggled and nodded almost crying with tears of laughter through her eyes.
"SASUKE!" I heard a scream from across the room. Of course of all voices, it has to be his. Just speaking of loud…Naruto.
Naruto is my acquaintance from court. I spent most of my free time with him. He was if I must label, my best friend.
"Hey dobe." I said as he walked over to the table. He was wearing his usual orange robes with his spikey yellow hair. As I thought, nothing changed.
"Sasuke you didn't tell me you had a lady before you left for the Harunos. I am quite offended as your friend I was not first to hear of this." Naruto said pointing to Sakura, who was staring at him with confusion.
"I didn't, I started courting her at the Harunos, she is a Haruno after all." I said as Naruto took a seat between Sakura and I. That dobe of course will be the one to third wheel.
"Ohhhh. Well I figured you swept this girl off her feet like you always do to every other woman in court." Naruto said
Is he trying to get me into deep shit? What a horse's ass
"What does he mean by that Sasuke?" Sakura asked trying to hide the hurt in her face.
"Great. Look what you started you bastard." I whispered to Naruto.
"Sorry." Naruto said filled with guilt. " Not all of us have the face of a god, and can just sit there and give a 'hn'. Some of need to be rather funny to survive a social situation, perhaps you should try it." He added.
I just gave him a death glare, he deserves no more. I moved my attention to who really deserves my attention.
"Sakura he is just an ass I never really give a shit about any woman." I said sharply making sure Naruto heard the comment as well.
"Any woman?" She looked at me trying to hide back tears.
Oh I just am splendid in this comforting thing. I just dug my whole deeper.
"Except you." I said faking a smirk, because I just don't smile. Smiling is for boys, and I am a man.
"Why are you smirking what are you trying to say? Actually my lords please do not waste your breath I would hate to pressure you. Now if you may excuse me." She whispered to me, then excusing herself from the table.
Sakura walked from the table to what seemed a random hallway in the castle. I don't know if I should go chase her, or let her collect her emotions and sort this out when she is composed and can think clearly.
"Sasuke, son would you go and fix this shit. I was looking forward to having Sakura as a daughter, don't fuck it up." My father said shooing me away to Sakura's direction.
"Thanks dobe." I said to Naruto running to Sakura. She really is a rather fast runner if she wants to be.
All the sudden in the midst of Sakura a random girl clung to my sleeve.
Perfect, this is just what I need more shit.
"Hello Sasuke, you look rather famishing tonight. Has anyone told you, you are so very handsome."
I have no clue who this girl may be, but she is annoying. Just the fact she had the bravery to even come up to me is pathetic. Did she not hear and see the spectacle my uncle made of me courting someone else.
"Yes many times on several occasions, but if you excuse me I need to go address something." I said slipping away…well almost.
"What that girl you're courting? Is she really worth your time? Is she satisfying you? Of course not how could she? Lady Sakura is so shy how could she ever have the nerve to awaken the lust in you? Unlike her I could do what ever you wish." The girl said.
Now really that is just repulsive. That's not seductive that is basically saying I'm a creepy harlot. Asking about another couple's affairs in the bedroom is disgusting, and trying to ruin a relationship is disgraceful.
I'm good with Sakura, she may not be ok with intercourse and sex, but she is great in every other category.
I mean sex is probably the most important, but I will ignore it. I think I love Sakura so I will over look it, she will sleep with me eventually. Some people blossom later than others.
"May I give you some advice?" I said seductively trying to sound like I was about to accept her offer.
"Of course." She said hopefully thinking she has persuaded me to invite her to my bedroom
"Girls that keep their legs open don't end up wives, they become mistresses. Sakura will become my wife, and you will be some no good man's whore. Congrats." I said smirking handsomely winking.
The girl stared at me full of embarrassment and hurt. As if she did not deserve what was coming to her.
She let go of my arm and walked away with her head down not able to speak another word to me. I don't feel sorry.
I spotted Sakura watching from far away with tears coming out of her eyes. I ran to her, it must have looked awful compared to what happened. For fucks sake I must really start understanding my surroundings.
I ran to her and escorted her out of the room. She was crying and weak so she had not strength to reject me.
We arrived to another random room in the house. This one is smaller than the previous glass room. It had normal walling and simple furniture, nothing to brag about.
I sat Sakura down upon the one sofa in the room. It could hardly fir Sakura and I.
"Sakura, I-" I tried to explain, but then again I don't really have to. She should trust me enough to not be nervous about me cheating.
Sasuke it's ok, if you want to court another girl I understand. I'm not that pretty and I do not partake in…well you now activities that happen in bed and I-." Sakura said with tears spilling out of her eyes as I cut her off.
"Sakura that's stupid. In my presence never say any of that crap again would you?" I said rolling my eyes and lifting her eyes to match mine. She is starting to anger me now. Calm down Sasuke. Calm down.
My tell when I lie is my eyes, I don't know if she realizes this, but its worth a try, and I'm not lying.
"But-but you were just talking with that girl, and what Naruto said-" Sakura started.
"Sakura Naruto was being a bastard he did it to start conversation. He is not a very bright boy Sakura, and that girl tried to talk with me, but I walked away, that's why she looked like she was about to cry." I said
"Oh, but you winked at her I saw the while situation. I'm not so naïve my sorry eyes can see." She said wiping her tears away getting louder by the second.
(AN: yes yes paramore quote please I don't own the quote, it just fit perfectly)
"Sakura I was just being a smart ass. Really I did nothing, now could you let it go. I would not lie to about such manners."
"Ok." She said not looking me in eyes. She is becoming difficult and upset and I'm getting impatient. This will most certainly not end well if I do something.
I kissed her and pulled her into me, trying to distract her from the current situation. She pushed me away looking away. Now she is starting to upset me.
"Sasuke please promise me you won't end up like my father. He says the same exact thing to my mom as you told me. 'I would never lie to you' or 'I would never find another woman'. I know he cheats and you know what so does my mother."
I just stared at her, noticing the hurt building up in her innocent eyes. You know it may have always been there but I have never noticed.
"I have no desire for me to live like that, a lie or fantasy. If you are going to use me or just have another woman on the side I have no desire to be courted or married to you. I may have strong feelings for you, but they will be overlooked for my honor. I may not be a strong girl Sasuke, but I am smart and merciless if needed to be." She said looking at me.
In this precise moment I fell in love with her. You would think that this would do the opposite, but no. This is the official moment. I know. It has been a short amount of time, and our courting has been public just today, but I love her.
I am in such awe all I could do is sit her and stare at her.
"Sasuke? If you are telling the truth, which in your defense I do not doubt, I will try my best to be sweet and all you need. I will take the courses I need to perhaps be queen or princess. I'll do it, but I must know if this is all for not. I will not be used in any matter, I see it too much to not be scared of it."
She is absolutely stunning. In my mind this is all I need to hear. This may be strange, but Sakura can be sweet or brave. She could be anything, everything I love, and all I love is her.
And I just became that type of person I hate, the romantic type.
"Sakura I have no intentions of lying to you nor having another woman. I am not using you believe me. Never." I said. I desire to tell her how I feel, but I will not be the first one to confess love. No, despite all I feel, that is not me.
With that she smiled and wiped the last of her tears, quickly returning to the soft her. I kissed her and brushed my hand through her hair. If I could I would have sex with her right now. Hn. Funny how all this romance has gotten me rather lustful. Fuck why won't you let me fuck you Sakura?
I sound awful I know, but all I want and desire in this world at this moment is to rip that fucking dress.
I started to play with her dress, signaling what I want. My attention moved to her collarbone and I trailed kisses from there to her cleavage as my left hand played with her hair, and the right tried to un-lace her gown.
She is shaking; nervous. God the worst feeling is wanting something or someone and they don't want you. Or at least are not ready for you, like you are for them.
I re-laced all the damage I have done to her gown, and fixed her hair taking my face away from her cleavage.
"Sasuke?" She said looking at me confused. "Why did you stop?"
"Because you wanted to." She was about to protest, but she can't lie for shit. I smirked at her, and stood her up from the couch.
"It is time for us to be going back."
With that I led Sakura back to the ballroom. I needed to check on something.
I walked back to my table. Sasuke said he needed to check on something. I feel so awful I wish he would not leave me. I feel me not being ready for intercourse is only making him frustrated. I actually could feel his excitement last time. I mean really feel it. I wish I wasn't so nervous, but the punishment for fornication is great, but just like Sasuke says, everyone does it.
I wish so very much I wasn't so weak in this area, it's just how could we ever if I'm not completely ready. Not to mention the risk of being with child, now that is just dangerous.
I feel guilty for taking away this pleasure from away Sasuke. According to my father every man deserves to be pleasured or satisfied by the woman he chooses to court. He says that if he is courting you, his initial reason for doing so is his sexual attraction to you or in his word 'your bosom'.
I feel the need to find him; he is most likely frantic and upset with me from before.
I excused myself once again from my family's and Uchiha's table to find Sasuke. As I was on my way to where I saw Sasuke head off to, the King himself stepped in from of me.
"My lord." I curtseyed; it is only proper protocol to courtesy for your sovereign.
"Sakura dear can I speak to you for a few minutes?" King Madara said with a regal, but fake smile. This could either be very good or horribly bad. If anyone else were in my situation he or she would be frantic as well.
"Of course my lord, anything you wish." I said as he directed me to the small conversation space besides his throne. He sat upon his regal throne, the chair that he was born to fill as I sat on the small stool next to it, besides the queen and him.
"Sakura dear you know I have no children, and Sasuke and Itachi will become heirs to the thrown in a year." Madara said giving his poor wife a heartless look. The queen just gave her husband a weary in response then smiled at me.
"Yes my liege." I said feeling awful for the poor queen. She seems to deal with a lot, especially form her own husband, let alone the kingdom.
"Well if you marry Sasuke you will be expected queen, and with that comes expectations. As the queen you are expected to accomplish certain things." The king said looking at his wife with a frown again.
"Of course my liege, but what about Itachi?" I asked. I thought Itachi would be first for the throne.
"Lady Sakura, Itachi has no wife and will not from more then a year. It will take at least a year and an half or so to form a marriage contract with another country, so despite his age, he makes less sense." King Madara said skillfully crafting every word to sound more regal then it's definition.
With this I have no clue where this conversation is going, but I can't focus on it. All that swam through my mind was what Sasuke was doing, and awful he must feel at this moment.
"Well your main point you need to accomplish is to create heirs. Now I can not have you be barren like my wife." He said given his wife another nasty look and giving me a stern look. Now I do not think I will enjoy where this is going.
"Yes, I understand my lord." I said trying to listen and understand without showing my shocked expression.
"Well I went and talked with Sasuke as you spent time with your family and please do not take this offensively, but I believe you two should…test your fertility." The king said.
"Test?" I said, I am beyond confused, how can you test fertility?
"Sasuke!" The king yelled signaling with his fingers for his nephew to come forward to join our talk.
Sasuke heard his uncle and ran up to us with his usual blank expression. Sasuke sat next to me taking my hands and giving me a 'please forgive me' look.
"Yes uncle." Sasuke said.
"Sasuke, I was just telling Lady Sakura that before you become king, if you do, you two should test for Sakura's fertility." King Madara said discreetly.
"Ah, well…" Sasuke said looking at me lifting and dropping his shoulders.
"Lord Madara, Sa-Sir Sasuke what do you mean by testing?" I said. They are trying to not tell me what they mean.
"Well you two should." Lord Madara whispered in my ear:
" Sasuke would have to impregnate you, then before anyone notices you both get married quickly. After such you tell your parents that the baby was produced after marriage." King Madara whispered to me smiling.
That is horrible, and not to mention it is a major sin. I looked at Sasuke who just nodded his head. It is so much pressure. We will be going to hell, my parents will most certainly find out, but alas what choice do I have. He is the king giving his nephew and his nephew's maiden an order. We are in no place to deny the king what he wants.
"If it is needed my Lord." I said, I cannot demolish the king's orders; I have to listen and do as told.
"Excellent, now if you excuse me I need to end the ceremony now." Madara said standing from the throne leaving Sasuke and I withered.
Sasuke and I walked away to our parent's tables. I am so over filled with thoughts and orders, with me needing to become with child before I marry Sasuke, if I do. Everyone is making it seem that way.
I feel like all these conflicts are arising when I have my life starting….goodness this is hard.
The real thing that worries me though is the 'me with child before marriage'. It is very risky if someone finds out before I'm wed I will be a disgrace, the church will be involved, and the child and I will no doubt be banished to some outskirt village where Sasuke can't find me so he can't impregnate me again nor see his child.
That is not what I want. I do not want to be sent away from Sasuke with a bastard child. Dear lord that sounds like hell, forgive me.
If I have a choice I would like to have a normal life as a woman in court. Be courted by the duke Sasuke not the future king Sasuke. Become with child after marriage and live my life from there. No pressure for heirs or wars.
Am I asking for too much? Just a simple life. I don't desire much, just a simple life and marriage.
I sat next to Sasuke once he pushed my chair in and we sat in silence. Sasuke does not seem to worry he actually seems to be ok with it, but this is all he wanted in the first place. He craves sex so much right now; he probably is not worried for the child part of it.
If I recall in the other room Sasuke said he would wait, and be patient for me. When he was talking to the king about this he was still clouded with lust, and the king's proposition involved what Sasuke wanted.
He probably isn't looking at the whole picture he is anaylizing it with, excuse my sexual thoughts, with the body part beneath his trousers.
I am so conflicted; this is not what I desire. Sasuke please I'm begging you, I won't say it out loud, but I have no wish for this pressure.
AN: Ba bam sorry this was short and uneventful but all this needed to be said for the plot.
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