I want to apologise in advance, it broke my heart to write this chapter but it had to be done.

No joke today because this chapter is no laughing matter :-(

Enjoy :-)

December 26th

Derek's POV

I have my family memories back, I had the perfect Christmas, I have an amazing pack, I have amazing friends and I have the love of my life in bed next to me cuddling up to me. It's just …

Perfect.

I looked at Stiles sleeping soundly, feeling the raise and fall of his chest against me and I heard his calm heartbeat, which was my new favourite sound.

"You could take a picture, it will last longer" Stiles joked still with his eyes closed

"Why do I need a picture when I can stare at the really thing?" I joked back

He smirked and opened his eyes "That was really cheesy and creepy"

I didn't know whether that was good or bad so I gave him a worried look. "Don't worry, I like cheesy and creepy" he reassured me.

"That's good babe" I tried seeing if he noticed, he gave me a confused look "too much?" I asked

"Yeah" he kissed me "But I like it" he kissed me again, this time it lasted for a few minutes.

Our kiss turned into a full-on make out session and the smell of Stiles made me harder and harder by the second. All of a sudden Stiles was on the other side of the room, leaving. "Take a shower" he turned to leave "And make it a cold one" Stiles winked.

I smirked and went to take a shower. A cold shower.

When I got downstairs most of the pack were already around the kitchen table while Stiles was showing off his pancake flipping skills. That's when I made a mistake.

I decided to surprise him by wrapping my arms around his waist, which startled him, and the pancake mix flew up in the air and landed on both of our heads.

Everyone looked shocked then burst out laughing except myself.

"You do realize that I just took a shower" I growled angrily at the pack for laughing.

"Calm down Sourwolf" Stiles said, walking up to my ear "This just means we have to get cleaned up together" Stiles whispered seductively.

I couldn't help the blush and the grin that appeared on my face, I didn't say anything but I grabbed Stiles' hand and pulled him across the room. I looked back to see the looks of disgust on the boys faces and the grins on the girls and Danny's faces.

I just smirked and grabbed Stiles and kissed him hungrily in front of everyone, which earn some growls from the pack. I pulled Stiles again upstairs and into the bathroom.

I undressed Stiles and I started blowing him, his hands fisted my hair as I bobbed up and down. He came hard.

"You are the first person to give me a blow job" Stiles explained catching his breath.

"Good, and I hope I'll be the last" I explained

Stiles blew me in return and we showered together touching and washing every inch of each other.

Stiles left the bathroom when I went to the toilet. I heard his heartbeat increase and I heard him say "Oh my god" really quietly.

I got out of the bathroom and back to my room as fast as I could, Stiles was already dressed but I couldn't see his face.

"Stiles, what's wrong?" I asked

"You knew" he replied

"What?"

"YOU KNEW" he screamed turning around to look at me. He had the list in his hand. Shit.

"Yes I knew" I admitted

He put on his jacket and tried to leave I stopped him

"Derek, let me go" he sounded hurt and his voice was crackling up.

"No, yes I knew but I …" I got cut off

"Decided to play me maybe get a little action out of it, well, well done your plan worked" he growled clapping his hands. "Now you can leave me alone and never see me again, probably just like you planned" he whispered storming out with tears on his face.

"Stiles, Stiles wait" I called after him, I didn't run after him because I knew that he was hurt and needed space. I got dressed and went downstairs only to be attacked by Lydia.

"What" slap "did" slap "I" slap "tell" slap "you?", "Don't hurt him" SLAP

"Are you done?" I asked

SLAP "Now I'm done" she grabbed me hand and pulled me upstairs then she hugged me "I'm sorry it turned out this way" she whispered. I started sobbing and she held me the whole time.

My chest hurt, my heart hurt and I just wanted Stiles back but I know that is not going to happen at the moment and probably never will.

I know, I know I'm sorry !