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Chapter thirty-three: Castor's POV
"SIRIUS! WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU'RE PLAYING AT?" My mother's voice seethed as I watched nervously the scene play out in front of me, her body was clad in a white wedding dress, her hair done elaborately as a few curls fell down from the hairstyle which had placed most of her hair in a tightly woven structure up on her head.
Sirius on the other hand had dress robes on which he was roughly adjusting around his neck as he scowled deeply, "You don't love him and you don't have to do this Bella! Come on… just rebel, just leave! Please… please," his voice wasn't raised but there was so much emotion in his voice as he looked, pained upon his cousin, close to tears as his voice almost cracked.
"I can't! You don't understand! You're the heir! You've got it easy but me… all my father ever wanted was a boy, I have to prove to them that I can be what they want, that I'm not worthless! They'll be proud of me for this… all I want is to make them proud," she whispered to him as Sirius shook his head, his fists clenching together harder with each word his cousin spoke.
"You were a rule breaker at Hogwarts, you didn't care what anybody thought, you went against our family to protect me when I was punished, what's changed? Why can't you see you have an escape route? That you don't need them! That you don't have to live up to their expectations and be who they want you to be!" Sirius yelled, his voice becoming louder now as my mother shook her head and tried to walk away but was spun round by Sirius's hand on her wrist.
"I've grown up Sirius! I'm not just some little girl, trying to play the hero for her baby cousin! This is my only option, I do need their approval… you're a Gryffindor, you have friends who will take you in, I have no one if I betray our family," it was her turn to find her voice wobbling, threatening to be overcome by emotion and just begin to sob almost effortlessly with the weight of the moment. The room they were standing in was small and cramped, devoid of space, no doubt it was a room for storage or something of the sort, most likely the pair were meant to be somewhere else right now but their heated discussion had changed that.
"You'll have me," Sirius muttered, so very quietly that it was barely above a whisper as his eyes stared into Bellatrix's, almost cold and dead, as he waited for whatever she would whisper back, he was hanging on her every breath, his heart in tatters as he prepared to see his cousin face her dark horrible destiny.
She took a deep heavy sigh, closing her eyes, preparing for whatever she had to say, knowing that her words were heavy, "Sirius. You don't… you really don't understand, in a few years you'll be a Death Eater. You'll be Lord Black Siri, I know that you want to rebel but… despite you being a Gryffindor, I don't think it'll happen. We're from the noblest most ancient house of Black, you don't leave," Bellatrix shuddered darkly, not liking saying the words just as much as Sirius didn't like hearing them.
"Andy left! You'd have her!" Sirius tried desperately to get her to listen to him, to take in and understand the words he said, his dark hair falling down limply in front of his eyes which held a deeply pained expression.
"Exactly… the last thing she needs is me ruining the life she has now… anyway… Sirius, what if you do get out eh? I can't just… I can't just leave Reg and Cissy at the mercy of our parents! I'm the oldest of us all, I have my role to play, my duty to fulfill, I can't just let Cissy and Reg get hurt, you can take care of yourself, you can fight, you're strong but them… no… they need me." It sounded as though my mother was trying to convince herself with each point she made, that she was doing the right thing, that this was the right decision. Sirius was so desperate to convince her otherwise but she wouldn't listen, she didn't want to listen in case something he said made sense and she doubted what she was doing. Making her fate even harder to swallow, making her vows even harder to say. "I'm sorry Sirius… I'm sorry."
Sirius turned round, clutching his head in his hands, letting out a tangled cry of anguish and pain, "You'll always be Bella Black to me, never Bellatrix Lestrange. I'm so sorry I couldn't save you… I'm sorry."
"Goodbye cousin," a slow tear rolled down Bellatrix's face and it seemed as though both of them knew that this was the end of life as they knew it, that no more would they be able to try and stay doused in the little innocence they had left.
"Bellatrix! Stupid girl!" A shrill voice that I guessed belonged to one of the Black adults, most likely Bellatrix's own mother sounded, indicating that they were looking for her. She nodded to Sirius before turning swiftly on her heels and heading out the door, closing it slightly, taking one look back at Sirius who had at this moment sunk to the ground, his head buried deep in the clutches of his arms, his knees brought up to his chest….
I opened my eyes finally, my heart pounding deeply in my chest, before I could stop myself I found my legs working on their own, guiding me to the toilet where I threw up, wiping the stale liquid off my mouth and dizzily clambering to my feet I returned to my room, looking at the pensive I had acquired with my stomach plummeting. It had been her wedding day, a day which was supposed to be so happy but had been so harsh and cruel. It was clear to me that she didn't love my father: she most likely still didn't now.
I sighed, Draco's visit had been both interesting and fun, he'd gotten on surprisingly well with Uncle Ted, keeping his pureblood views to himself they'd engaged each other in an interesting talk about Qudditch.
"Mum's getting worried, you haven't come out of your room all day you know," I heard Tonk's voice utter from the door as I bolted up right and stared at her, straggly strands of hair falling in front of my face. She frowned and leaned forward, taking a closer look at me, "Are you okay? You're looking… green."
"Not really feeling too grand," I sighed, muttering the truth, after that memory I certainly wasn't, it wouldn't surprise me if I threw up again.
"Wotcha Cas, guessing you'd like to be left alone then? Call if you need anything," she said at my nodding as I groaned and fell back onto my pillows with a deep sigh. To be honest, I hadn't really had many visits from my friends over the holiday but mostly I'd asked them to keep away, with Draco being the only one to have visited, every time Luna would ask I would do my best to delay, I just didn't feel right. I was enjoying solitude, being alone. Little did I know that very soon, I would be needing more friends than I had…..
It happened suddenly, very quickly. It was in the middle of the night, my pensive and shoebox were tucked away.
"I thought we might find you here," a low chuckle echoed as I felt myself being dragged out of bed by Rabastan, my uncle. "Don't bother screaming, we've cast silencing charms round the room boy."
My father's face smirked as he came into view, pacing back and forth just in front of me, his smirk turning into a spine chilling sneer, "Draco, Draco is smart, he knew where his loyalties lay. He became a Death Eater but you refused to join us Castor… foolish boy," a sharp slap stung across my cheek as laughter echoed around from the other Death Eaters. "No matter really, you can still serve a purpose, in fact what we have in mind will not only complete a task for us but it will take you and your medaling ways out of our lives for good. Draco has been tasked with something very important and it'll appear that you boy had been tasked the same, with a mission, that you were one of us all along." I shuddered, doing my best to struggle away, only to find the pressure increased on me from Rabastan.
"Always a pleasure Castor," the slow drawl of Voldemort made me struggle even harder as his robes billowed in front of me and he stopped, inches from my face. "Hold him still Rabastan." So he did as I found myself unable to move, only able to grimace as Voldemort flicked his wand, drawing up my left sleeve as I immediately knew what he planned to do. "Morsmordre," he said silkily as I felt my arm erupt into deep spasms of pain as I begged myself not to cry out and give him the satisfaction, fighting the urge from my knees to buckle in. "Now, I think this'll be more fun if you do this really consciously instead of us casting the imperius curse on you. I want you to kill Ted, Andromeda and Nymphadora Tonks."
My whole body felt faint as tears stung the edges of my eyes, I felt myself being forced forward, dragged by my hair, "They left me home alone. They're not here." I yelped as my head was jutted forward into the wall, my face erupting into a bloody mess as Rabastan smirked.
"How dumb do you think we are boy?" Voldemort hissed, he paused slightly, "You're being awfully quite Bella." My eyes widened, I hadn't even noticed she was here as I strained to see her in the dark, I saw her, not catching my gaze, looking distance, shrunken into herself. She didn't want to be here it was clear. Tonks was away, working into the night but my aunt and uncle… I gulped. My mother didn't respond to her master but Voldemort didn't press further as we heard footsteps creak downstairs and I squeezed my eyes shut, wondering to myself which family member it was.
I didn't have to wait long for an answer as a silencing charm was cast on the kitchen before Voldemort burst in and disarmed my uncle, I shivered as Rabastan pushed me forward, his own wand digging into my back, "Kill him Castor."
"N-No… please… NO!" I yelled put Rabastan's wand digging further into my back.
Ted looked at me and he smiled, "Castor, I am not afraid to die, I have lived a good life. Please kill me, I do not wish for you to come to harm at these monster's hands. I must say this is bad parenting," Uncle Ted laughed, my mother looked up now, her eyes glossy and her hands shaking as she stared directly at Ted who just smiled widely back at her, he was not afraid.
"Uncle Ted… I love you… please…," I whispered nervously.
"If you take a test with the truth serum, you won't go to Azkaban, now come on Cas be brave. I love you so much, tell Andy and Dora I love them too. More than you all could ever know." I shivered and my uncle carried on. "It's a shame I never truly knew you at school Bellatrix, I must say your sister spoke highly of you… it's a shame it all changed. I would have liked to have gotten to know the Bellatrix Black she loved," my mother shriveled even more at his words, her lip quavering. Rodolphus growled deeply at this.
"DO IT!" Rodolphus yelled. I clutched my wand.
"Please Cas, please do it," Ted whispered to me, "I know you can do this." I shuddered bringing up my hand.
"HURRY UP!" Father screamed as my mother backed away slightly from me.
"Avad-," I couldn't, my hand fell limply to my side as my father grabbed my own wand and screamed.
"AVADA KERDAVRA!" He roared as my uncle in a flash of green light slumped back, dead. One of the kindest, greatest men I had ever known lay dead just ahead of me. "MORSMORDRE!" He yelled again before snarling at me. Voldemort cursed in anger.
"I wanted the boy to do it! Make him suffer!"
"I am sorry my lord, he was just too weak," he pointed my wand at my uncle's dead body and cast a dark cutting curse as blood began to flow from his body, "They should give you a longer sentence for this," my father chuckled, cursing my uncle's body again and again with dark cutting curses and other things as blood spewed out across the room. I felt sick to my core. Surely Uncle Ted was right though, the truth serum would stop me from being imprisoned?
"Hurry! Let's go! We've spent too long here, forget his aunt!" Voldemort yelled as my father forced my wand back into my own hand, I caught my mother cast one fleeting glance at me, a few soft tears had fallen as she shook her head, "I'm sorry I couldn't save you," I caught her whispering as she turned her head and followed the others as they disapparated. My shaking legs finally gave way as I held my wand, knowing it was all over as my knees hit the floor and tears streamed down my face, at least Aunty Andromeda was safe I thought through the tears. Thankfully the stalling and my father's talking after had managed to keep her safe. Still, I knew the aurors would be here soon and then it hit me. I had the dark mark, I was seen as a Death Eater… they would want to punish me, Fudge wouldn't want to see me walk free… they… they would avoid using the truth serum. No one would know the truth and the whole wizarding world would believe that poor Edward Tonks had been killed by his monstrous murdering nephew who was some insane Death Eater. To the rest of the world I was now a murderer. To the rest of the world I was now a Death Eater.
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