I didn't realize where I was running until I was in the middle. I was in the field where I died. Then I see Katherine. NO! Not again.
"Well well well. Look who we have here. The stupid girl who fell for the cold-one. It is sad really. You stooped so low. You used to be powerful... Beautiful Confident and had better taste in men." She says teasing me.
"Like your one to talk Katerina Petrova. I wish you never changed me. I wish that my brothers never met you. If they never met you they would have moved on fell in love. Gotten married had many kids. But you came and destroyed me. Destroyed them. I feel bad for you. Never had felt love. Only running and scared." I smirk. She stares at me. Then she laughs.
"You have not changed a bit. Still heartless. Still weak..." She whispers in my ear. Then I see James biting me. I feel the pain all over again. Then I see Victoria and her Newborn Army. I feel the pain from cutting myself. I scream. Katherine smirks. "Still scared and alone. Even though you are surrounded by people. You hate yourself." she whispers. "Even more than Stefan does. Even more than Edward does. You just hate yourself all together." She laugh playfully. I scream. And then I fall into another memory that has broken my heart many times.
I look down. I am wearing a blue dress. My long pitch black hair falls and curls behind my ears. The corset is tight but I don't need to breath. My dress is beautiful. Rebekah looks me up and down.
"Now you look presentable for my brother... Wait." she walks over to her jewelry box and goes through it. She takes out diamond jewelry set. I open my mouth to object but she holds up her pointer finger. "No objections. Nicklaus hardly pays enough attention long enough to any woman and he has a certain interest in you." She helps me with the necklace, the earrings, and the ring. "Besides traditionally the ring is yours." I just smile at her. Once we are done getting ready we walk to the ball. The ceiling chandelier is beautiful. Nicklaus ignores every girl. He just stares at me. He eventually walks up to me and we dance. I being his "Wife"He just kissed me. It was sweet. And romantic. But at the end of the night. He ignored me and his attention was elsewhere. Flirting with every girl endlessly. I fell asleep. One night I awoke to screaming and yelling of Klaus, Elijah, and Rebekah.
"You shouldn't play with her feelings Nicklaus. It is wrong and you know she likes you. But no you are selfish and can't see what good she would do for this family." Yells Rebekah. "You just treat her like a piece of property. She isn't she means something to the whole family. She is so beautiful ,but you can't see it. You only see what she could play." Rebekah. I know she is close to tears. I get up and watch them.
"Yes she is just a pawn to me. I told you in the beginning not to get attached." Says Nicklaus. "She is nothing. Just a powerful piece in my chess game." He smirks. I begin to cry. To think I saw anything redeemable about him. I cry but I softly walk upstairs. I refuse to stay here. I write a note. 'I heard in the night the shouting. I heard in the night my loneliness but to Klaus I am just a piece. I am sorry Rebekah and Elijah. I know you cared. But Klaus go to hell I refuse to be a chess piece.' Then I was gone. I haven't seen them.
I awoke to crying. I wipe my tears. I wake upon the warm and comfortable couch. Of our own home. I fall back.
"Stupid." I laugh at myself. "Just a bad dream." I sigh and sit up. Everyone is by me in a second. Everything happens so fast I get dizzy. "Damn I thought that was a bad dream too. Guess not." I say. That gets laughs from everyone. "Now where the hell is the bitch of the evening?" I say. Then I look at my brothers. "Just and FYI I hate Katherine more than I hate Elvis. He was a terrible singer." I state for a matter of fact. I look around. Everyone is just staring at me. "What?" I ask. Edward doesn't look me in the eye.
"You said Nicklaus in your sleep." says Elijah. "But you also were initially talking to Rebekah. My guess is that was around the period you disappeared." I look shocked. I just shrug it off though.
"Psh. I talk in my sleep all the time. It happened when Edward left." I shrug. It hurts knowing that I hurt Edward. I pretend it was nothing but the truth is I have had that dream many times but it wasn't a dream it was a memory." I say.
"Well well well my pupil did learn something from me." says the voice. My anger simmers through the roof. "How to shrug off a guy. When they are obviously hurt." Tears fill my eyes. But I know Katherine I wipe my eyes.
"Oh you would know Katherine. How many hearts did you break? 20 30? Oh wait I forgot to count Stefan and Damon. Oh and Elijah and Nicklaus." I smirk. "The difference between us is it DOES hurt. It hurts knowing I should've died in that fire. But I was stuck. Stuck in the never ending process of watching you flirt with my brothers. AND Elijah. And Nicklaus." My temper was shooting through the roof. Jasper tried holding me back but I was too angry. "And yet you seem totally unaffected. At least when I DO fall in love. Its real. Unlike you. Still scared and lonely Katerina Petrova You hide it. But I have spent enough years bonded to your ass to know the difference. The sad thing is. What you and Stefan and Damon had was real. But you were too selfish and too self centered to see it." I am crying now. "But It wasn't real was it? It was all compulsion to make my brothers fall for you. I feel bad for you Katherine. You never had a family enough that they would do anything. But I do. Elena does. Caroline does. Oh and Rebekah had happiness. But no you have to control everything because you are a selfish bitch. I feel bad for you. If you had cared even for a second. You could've been happy with Nicklaus. Or Elijah. Or Stefan. Or Damon. But no you were too busy not caring." I stop ranting. I saw the hurt in Katherine's eyes. I just sit down and get my emotions under control. "I am so sorry. To all of you. I wish none of you had met me." I look at the Cullens. "I will disappear. Renesemee will forget me." I look at my brothers. "I will be gone forever. I look at Renesemee. "Renesemee For..." something stops me. Katherine stopped me she stares at me.
"You're right. But just because you are right. Don't EVER give your happiness up." She says. Tears fill her eyes. "I have always been jealous of you guys. You all had everything. Damon Stefan and you all had a life. And I never had that. I was always alone. I never had a family. But I will never ever let you survive again." she says. Then before anyone could run after her she ran. I just cry. Edward is by me in a second. I just cry into his shirt. I had everything. And she has had nothing. Absolutely nothing.