I pushed Damon against the wall forcefully and ripped his shirt off. He smirked and grabbed me for a kiss. I moaned in his mouth, running my hands up his chest to his shoulders and pushed off the ripped fabric. He torturing slowly took off my cardigan, kissing down my neck and chuckling at my groans of impatience. I felt like I was about to burst in flames. He grabbed my thighs, and pulled me up. I giggled and wrapped my legs around him. He flipped us over, pushing me against the wall, a bit too gently for my liking, his hands cupping by bra-clad breasts.
"Damon" I groaned.
"What?" he asked amusedly while liking my neck and jaw.
I had completely forgotten I still had blood on my skin until then.
"I need you, bad" I said swaying my hips against him.
He thrust against me and I moaned loudly as he nibbled on my neck. He took it as encouragement and thrust again, this time flicking his thumb against my hardened nipple. I cried out and felt my face change. I bit him in the neck and he groaned in pleasure. He pulled my wrist to his mouth and drank from me too. Everything was too much. The warmth of his body pressed against mine, his hands on me, the taste of his blood… I pulled back crying out with pleasure, and Damon kissed me. I could taste myself on his lips and the rush of sharing blood intensified. When the bliss faded, I looked into Damon's eyes and he smiled. His eyes had never been so bright.
"And we haven't even got to the hot-vampire sex yet" he said huskily.
I giggled and kissed him while he carried me to his bed.
"I'm gonna go get you a blood bag" Damon said.
"Okay"
He kissed me before stepping out of the shower, leaving me to finish the shower I started an hour before. Once I finished, I stepped out and dried myself while looking in the mirror. My eyes were brown again, but they were reddish. Not something that would freak out someone, and only noticeable if paying close attention. Damon had bitten my neck in the shower but the mark was already gone. I walked out of the bathroom wrapped in a towel, but as soon as I took the second step into the bedroom I stopped. My skin burned as the morning sun touched me, and I cried out in pain before running to a dark corner. I looked at the skin of my arms and shoulders as it healed and frowned at the open window.
"Are you alright?" Damon asked entering the room.
"The sun" I said.
He put the blood bags on his dresser and walked to the windows to close the curtains. I stood up and he checked my arms, rubbing them gently.
"Sorry, I forgot to close it" he said kissing my forehead.
"I lost track of time in the shower" I smiled. "I didn't realize the sun was up already"
"I'll get you a lapis lazuli today"
"Thanks"
"There are some clothes you left here… Bottom drawer" he gestured to the closet.
I gave him a peck and walked to it. I looked through the drawer and found some of my lingerie the sneaky bastard stole it. I was looking through his shirts for something to wear since the only shirt of mine he had was a bit small because I had bought it on my skinny, sick phase, when I felt him watching me.
"It's impolite to stare, Mr. Salvatore" I said.
"I'm not staring" he said and I shot him a look. "I'm appreciating your beauty, taking it in"
"Right" I scoffed. "I forgot you're having cheesy moments lately"
His arms wrapped around me from behind and he kissed my shoulder.
"Nah, I'm just trying new ways to get into your pants" he whispered.
"Hmm" I hummed as he up my shoulder and neck. "You're close"
He nibbled on my earlobe and I laced our fingers together before pulling away from him.
"You have to stop that" I chuckled. "I feel like I'm gonna get on fire every time you touch me, but I also feel like I'm gonna die if you don't"
"Your emotions are heightened, and all that pent-up sexual tension, lust…"
"Anyway, if you start things, we won't ever stop" I said. "And we have some things that need to get done. Like getting me a lapis lazuli so I can go talk to Jeremy and apologize"
"I'm sure they won't mind if you go tomorrow" he said cornering me against the wall.
"Damon" I protested but was smiling.
"Fine" he huffed. "But once you're done with your to-do list, I'm gonna have you all to myself, for some time"
I had been drinking from blood bags for the last two hours while reading a book about the 20th century. I was bored. Damon had left to get a lapis lazuli for Bonnie to spell for me. The donated blood wasn't as good as from the source. I couldn't stop thinking how good Jeremy's warm, fresh sweet blood instead of the cold I was drinking from. I had tried lacing it with all kinds of alcohol I found in the house, but nothing helped.
I started to pace around the room while trying to keep my focus on the book. Every fifteen minutes I got another blood bag and finished it in less than a minute. I had put my hand on the sun several times just to kill the boredom. Eventually my frustration was taking the best of me. Angry that the blood wasn't helping the craving, I tore a bag, the blood spilling on me and the Persian carpet.
"Crap" I grumbled.
I grabbed towels from the bathroom and cleaned the best I could, but the carpet seemed ruined.
"Problems?"
I looked up and saw Rebekah standing in the doorway. I stood up and wiped the blood on my hands in Damon's shirt I was wearing.
"Not a good time, Rebekah" I said coldly.
"I just want to say…" she took a deep breath. "I'm sorry. For what Klaus did to you. I really liked Blaire and your devotion to your friends is admirable"
"Why didn't you try to stop him that night?" I asked frowning.
"I didn't know you. Nik is my brother"
"Your brother daggered Elijah and hid him somewhere"
"I know" she said sadly.
"Why don't you do anything?" I snapped.
"Nik was always the one who understood me. We lived for centuries, many I was underestimated for being a woman, even by my other brothers. Nik never made me feel weak. He loves me for who I am. He never left me. He has a short temper, and doesn't take betrayal lightly but… He was the one who made eternity bearable for me"
"He killed me twice, and was the reason I died the third" I said. "So, I'm sorry. But no matter what he is to you, what he was to Elijah… No matter what he does from now on, I will never forgive him, and will do anything I can to stop him"
"Good luck with that. Without your powers I think you are harmless"
I attacked her and pinned her to the wall.
"I might not be a witch anymore, but I am a hybrid of two vampire species. So, do not underestimate me"
She pushed me off and threw me on the ground, pinning me with her foot on my neck.
"And I'm an Original" she smirked. "I take back what I've said. I'm not sorry for what happened to you"
She left and I choked for air.
Three hours later Damon came back. He was smiling as he entered the room and tossed me a bag.
"Got you some clothes…"
He trailed off as he looked around the room.
"97" I said frowning. "I've counted"
Ninety-seven empty blood bags were on the floor and I had another in my hand. The one I tore apart wasn't counting. I quickly changed out of the bloody shirt and into the shorts and top he brought me.
"Ahn… okay" he said giving me a comforting smile. "I'll just go next town and get more tomorrow"
I sighed and sat on the bed looking at the blood bag in my hands.
"You don't get it" I said. "I'm still thirsty. I've drank 50 liters, which is almost equivalent to 10 people, and I'm still thirsty. My throat is burning!"
"It's okay, Bella" he said sitting next to me. "Carlisle said their kind's control is worse than mine, so… it will get better"
"When?" I asked frustrated. "All of this..." I pointed to the blood bags. "Didn't do anything, it was like drinking hot coffee when you're in a desert begging for water. I kept drinking, but nothing changed, I'm hungrier than when you left"
"I'll help you with that, Bella" he said cupping my face.
He kissed me softly and when he pulled back he gave me a smile while taking something from his jacket's pocket.
"Sorry it took so long… I couldn't find one beautiful enough and then I had to wait for Bonnie to get out of class"
He took my wrist and put a beautiful bracelet. It had several silver stars, most cut-out, and one with lapis lazuli filling and a small gold moon in it.
"Thank you, it's wonderful" I said tracing it with my fingertips.
"Wanna test?"
"Not really" I chuckled and stood up. "But let's do it"
He slowly opened the curtains and I grinned at him when nothing happened.
"Wanna a ride to Elena's house?" he asked smiling. "I've heard of a human gathering waiting for you there"
"I wanna talk to the Cullens first… alone"
He scowled but before he could say something, I gave him a kiss and ran out of the Boarding House.
"You're eyes are going back to red?" Carlisle asked sitting across from me on his office.
"Yeah, after I… fed on Jeremy, it went almost back to normal, chocolate brown. But started getting thirsty again and it started to redden"
"They are just as red as they were yesterday" he pointed out. "Didn't you feed since last night?"
"Only blood bags" he frowned. "I've drank almost a hundred of them and nothing, my throat is burning"
"From what I got, vampires of Damon's kind have some trouble adjusting to blood bags some times…"
"98 blood bags, Carlisle!"
"Maybe you should just change your diet, Bella, try something else"
"Animal blood, you mean"
He shrugged and I nodded.
"Fine, I'm going tonight"
"Maybe you should take someone with you… someone with experience on this kind of thing"
I nodded again and walked out of his office to ask Edward or Esme to go with me. I met Alice at the top of the staircase and she gave me a pleading look.
"Can we talk? Privately?"
"Not now" I said coldly pushing past her.
"Bella, I need…" she started grabbing my arm to stop me.
I grabbed her by the neck and pushed her against the wall.
"I said not now" I growled.
She wheezed and snapped her wide eyes shut. Edward grabbed my arm, twisted it behind my back, pushing me away from his sister while she fell to the ground rubbing her neck.
"You might have forgotten but you are stronger than us, a newborn" he snapped.
"Sorry" I cried. "I just… I lost it"
"It's okay, Edward, let her go" Alice said.
Edward only loosened his grip on my arm, letting me move it from the awkward and painful position he had put me in.
"Sorry" I mumbled not looking at her.
Edward dragged me downstairs and out of the house with Emmett following close behind.
"We are going hunting, right now" Edward said.
"I'm not attacking anyone else, Edward, not on purpose, you can let me go" I said.
With a sigh he let me go and turned to me with a scowl.
"What the hell were you thinking, Bella?"
"I wasn't, that's the point"
"You could have killed Alice" Emmett said coldly.
"I know!" I snapped. "She's pissing me off! Because of her I am like this, and she just keeps saying she's sorry but doesn't give me an explanation!"
"Okay" Edward said soothingly. "Let's work on your thirst for now, because it's clearly not helping with you temperament"
"I'm going with you!"
I turned and stared at Jake who watched me like I was a freak.
"Shouldn't I be dead to you?" I asked.
"It was not your choice" he shrugged.
"Go home, Jake" I said turning away and started to walk away, into the woods.
"I'm not leaving you alone in this, Bella" he said stepping forward to follow me.
"Jacob" Edward warned.
I turned and glared at him.
"Leave!" I snapped. "I don't want you here. You look at me like I am a monster. I know I am one, but I don't need those looks right now, they make me angry, and I almost killed the last person who pissed me off. So, go away"
I could see he was sorry, but that didn't change anything. I still needed him gone. I couldn't stand how he looked at my red eyes with judgment and disgust. I turned away and ran into the woods. When I stopped minutes later, I was far away from the Cullens' house and Mystic Falls. I covered my face with my hands willing the tears away.
"Bella" Edward said softly from behind me.
"All I seem to do is snap at people or cry" I cried. "I'm sick of it. I don't want to be this bitter person, I don't want to make people hate me, and I don't want to cry anymore!"
"It will get better, B" Emmett said as Edward embraced me. "It will stop in a couple months"
"What if it doesn't?" I said. "You can't know… I'm a freaky vampire hybrid. No one knows what can happen to me"
"We'll not let anything happen to you, Bella" Edward said making me look in his eyes. "You saved me, more than once… I'm helping you this time"
I nodded and wiped away my tears.
"Okay, enough of this emo crap" Emmett said smiling. "Let's kill some bears"
"You just have to let the instincts guide you" Edward whispered.
I looked down from the tree we were on, and frowned at the deer.
"My instincts tell me that it will not quench my thirst" I said.
"A bear would be better" Emmett commented from the branch he was sitting in, feet above us.
"Shut up, Emm" Edward said rolling his eyes. "You just have to train you mind into thinking it will be good" he told me.
"Fine" I huffed.
I jumped to another tree silently, smiling at my new-found abilities. I was watching the deer, trying to convince myself that it would be tasty when I caught a scent of something better. I followed the scent and found a mountain lion feeding, tearing apart the deer's flesh. The scent was coming from the lion, and although it was much better than the scent of the deer, it was still not as good as the scent of Jeremy's blood. Just the thought of it made my throat burn, my eyes change and my fangs come out. So, I attacked the nearest source of blood. The lion. I jumped on it and it struggled, clawing at me, tearing apart clothes and skin. I growled and snapped the beast's neck before drinking from it. The blood was warm and bittersweet. I pushed the dead animal away once I had drained it dry and frowned.
"Are you alright?" Edward asked as he and Emmett jumped from the tree's top.
I looked down at myself and saw the wounds healing. The purple top and white shorts were all stained, and the white sneakers had mud. I was shaking.
"Does it hurt?" Emmett asked frowning.
"No" I whispered.
"You did great, Bella" Edward said. "You just have to be more careful so you don't get hurt"
"Yeah, jump on its back, that way you can drink from it without snapping the neck first"
I doubled over and threw up a lot more than I drank from the lion.
"Shit" Emmett cursed.
"Sorry, it's… disgusting, it made me sick" I mumbled.
"Of course it made you sick" I heard Damon say as he approached with a scowl. "It's not what you were supposed to drink from"
"And what do you want her to do?" Edward snapped. "Blood bags aren't helping"
"She has to drink from the vein then"
"What? No!" I snapped. "I'm not going to kill anyone"
"You don't have to kill anyone" he retorted.
"I'm not making anyone into my human blood bag"
"So, what's the plan?" Damon asked cocking an eyebrow at me and the Cullens.
"If she keeps feeding on animal blood she will get used to it" Edward said.
"She just lost all blood she ingested. The animal, the blood bags, mine and Jeremy's. She will starve until she can keep something down"
"Then let me starve. Once my system understands it will be animal blood or no blood, it will accept it" I said.
"It's a stupid plan" he said. "There isn't a vampire who tried animal diet and didn't kill anyone"
"Carlisle did it" Emmett said. "Bella can too, she has our help"
"She will end up killing someone and feel so guilty, she'll turn her humanity off" Damon said angrily.
"Thank you for your faith in me, Damon" I frowned. "I got your opinion, I'm rejecting it. Go home, I'm camping out with Edward and Emmett this week"
"Fine" he snapped. "Come find me when you need help on real feeding"