Kyd Wykkyd: Day Twenty-Five

Is it possible to care for someone you have no right caring for? To want to be there net when they fall or the shoulder they cry on when there upset. Are you allowed to want them or should you keep yourself away because it's best.

It's like that feeling when your heart knows what its feeling but your mind knows the difference between wanting what you can't have and wanting what you shouldn't have.

He sighed and looked up from the book. He turned to Raven who sat on the bed cross-legged with her head tilted in concentration. Her hair reached just under her shoulders now and she tucked one sided behind her ear. Kyd Wykkyd couldn't help the smile that appeared on his face each time he saw her. If the world became black and white she'd be there illuminating colour. She'd be shining while everyone else paled on a canvas of greys.

He looked back at the book but his eyes wondered back up to Raven. He swore there were magnates in his eyes that refused to link anywhere but at Raven. But no matter the pull he always managed to turn back to the page he was reading.

Seemore had brought in a chair and he placed it at the end of the bed with himself on it. Raven was fine sitting near the edge of the bed.

No matter where his thought had been heading it always managed to return to Raven. As of lately she was the only thing on his mind. Even Angel didn't crowd so much space. She took up a small corner in the back of his mind but Raven, she'd managed to take up half of his brain. It was rather selfish of her.

Raven barely spoke when she was fixed on a book and she rarely lifted her head. She'd be contain to read and just keep reading till the end finally came. Kyd Wykkyd wished he could do that. He wished he could just read and read and read some more but the fact was his mind wouldn't stop wondering.

He'd look up and see Raven, his eyes would travel and he'd be stuck with nothing else to think of. He'd be forced to think of Raven and only Raven. He wanted her, he knew that. Deep down he'd wanted her.

He looked up from the book and stared at Raven's face for minutes. He look around the room or back to the book to distract himself. He'd turn back to her and go to speak but found even his mental mind choking on the words so he'd turn away again. He knew what he wanted to do but also knew how wrong it'd be. In an attempt to stay sane he bit his lip. It kept him busy but not busy enough.

Kyd Wykkyd threw the book aside which caused Raven to look up. She couldn't react though because his lips fell on hers and his hand snaked around to the small of her back and pulled her up against him. He didn't allow her a chance to breath and just pushed the books he could out of the way so he could lay her down.

Raven hadn't tried though, she kissed him back and her arms wrapped around his neck pulling him closer. Kyd Wykkyd smirked when he realised she wasn't fighting. He allowed one hand to slide down to her knee and pulled her leg around his waist as they fell back onto the bed. Raven gasped when he stopped kissing her lips and moved down her neck. She was breathing heavily but he figured his own breathing would be just as bad at the moment.

His hand was already sliding part of her top up and his other hand was locked with hers. Raven made a small sound as he bit into her neck but from there she pushed him. Kyd Wykkyd just stared as Raven got up and fixed her clothes, she moved pass him and to the other side of the room breathing ragged. She kept a hand up as she leaned on the wall.

Kyd Wykkyd started to move closer but Raven glared. "This," she said pointing between the space "can't ever happen," she took a breath but Kyd Wykkyd moved forward again.

'I think it already has happened. I think you already wanted it to happen,' he thought to her but her head shook.

"Wykkyd, we can't, this can't happen," she repeated. He moved closer and crowed her space. Her breathing went tight as her hand pressed against his chest. "We can't," she whispered. Kyd Wykkyd didn't listen. He tilted her chin up and kissed her again. Raven didn't fight but he knew she wanted to. When he pulled away he took both her hands. She shook her head and let a single tear roll down her cheek.

'I want this to happen, I can't stop thinking about you,' Kyd Wykkyd said as he lifted her hand to his lips, placing kisses over them. Her bottom lip trembled which made her look adorable.

"Please listen to me, we can't do this," she tired but he ignored her and kissed her again. She tried to fight, tried to pull away but his hands held her head where she was. This kiss was long and hard but he needed her and wanted her to kiss back again. She refused. He lifted her up and pinned her against the wall and his body but still she refused. Finally he carried her back to the bed but Raven managed to knock him down and stepping back, tripping over a weight.

Kyd Wykkyd moved back over to her with hurt eyes but they were also filled with worry. He helped her sit up and checked her head for any marks, there weren't any.

'I feel like I'm falling in love with the enemy,' he thought to her but Raven turned away from him 'and although you don't want to say it, I think you feel the same,' he continued taking her small hand. She turned to him and looked at him for the longest moment. His ears thumped from the blood pounding in them and his heart rate tripled, his palms even begin to sweat and all he wanted was to pull her forward and kiss her.

"I could be," she said finally and placed a small kiss on his lips. He waited for more than blacked out.

Raven:

She dropped the weight and let another tear slide down her cheek. Raven stood up and pulled Kyd Wykkyd to the wall near the bed. She looked at the camera that wasn't so hidden in the all and picked up a pillow case. She used the furniture to cover it before dropping down and pushing all the furniture against the door.

She'd spent the last few days thinking about nothing than this one wall. It was the same in every room, one wall at the end was coloured different, even if only slightly. She also knew there was a draft in each room that emanated from the back wall.

Raven had already figured out that there was actually a window behind the wall and they'd all covered it with plie wood.

Once the door was blocked off she picked up the weight and smashed the wood again and again. It splinted and bits fell to the ground. She made the gape as wide as she needed and used the weight to smash the window before sliding it along the edges to remove all the bits.

Raven turned around and looked at Kyd Wykkyd. She walked back over and placed a small kiss on his forehead before climbing out the window. She tried not to focus on how much she wanted to stay and started to walk along the roads. Traffic was load and hurt her ears as they flew by.

She wanted to tell Kyd Wykkyd the truth. She wished she could tell him that she loved him but then she'd have a reason to stay that was the last thing she needed. She was still a Titan and he was still a villain. So as much as it broke her heart she walked away.

The last thing that was ever meant to happen was her falling completely in love with the enemy but that is what happened. She'd fallen for her capture and allowed him to kiss her. She'd spent night's wrapped in his arms and days trying to hide how she felt but no more.

Titan tower came into her view and she smiled. She needed her friends. They'd make at least some of the pain go away.

She walked on the sandy swore and found the entrance to the tunnel that ran under the ocean. She walked through the long tunnel. A thought came into mind. The Hive Five didn't know about the tunnel so for the first time since they'd caught her she felt free. In this tunnel they couldn't re capture her, they couldn't take her back to that place and she'd never have to spend a night with them again.

Raven made it to the other end and walked to their common room. Most the Titans were there but the one person she wanted to run and hug was back in that steel room knocked out and probably hurt. Another two tears joined the others and she found her legs unable to support her anymore. She slipped to the ground.

"Raven," Cyborg said and she'd felt his arms around her before she could look up.

The other Titans run over and pulled her into hugs of their own. Not one matched the one's she was used to but they were still nice. Robin asked her wanted happened and she gave him the shortened version that missed all the happiness. Happiness she already wished she could forget. They let her go when she said she was tired and she left to her room. It was in the same condition she'd left it. Nothing was even the slightest bit out of place but the room set chills in her spine.

Raven moved to the bed and sighed. She'd missed her bed but it no longer looked as comfortable as she remembered. Her room wasn't as inviting as if had once been to her. Her sanctuary was now missing something. Something she could never get back.

She laid down and closed her eyes. I think I love you Kyd Wykkyd. A smile peeled on her face as she drifted off.

There is no more. It's over, done, gone. Bye-bye.

I understand that it could be a disappointing ending but I love the ending. Oh and Yes Beast Boy would have been returned but I wasn't focusing on the Titan as much so you don't get to find that out as such.