Here it is. The long awaited return of an Eric POV chapter. This is a long one, but hey I made you folks wait quite some time for Eric to come back, so here he is. In this chapter is the teaser I put in back on Chapter 12.
I'm going to rate this chapter M, just to be safe.
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ERIC
When she looked up at me, I knew it was going to be now or never, she was either going to walk away or stay with me. The second she took a couple steps forward, relief flooded through me. She was going to stay.
"Eric," her voice sang to me. Her hand started to run down my face. I was yearning for her touch. When her hand reached my lips I kissed it just as she said "I don't want to lose you either." She leaned up and kissed my cheek. I felt so relieved to have her back.
I kissed her forehead. But the second that I did, I couldn't hold back any longer. It wasn't the perfect moment, but so many emotions ran through me, I just had to.
I reached out, grabbed her arms, and kissed her hard on her lips. I had wanted this so long. I quickly forgot about the fight this morning, about all the silly fights we ever had. Everything I felt for her I poured into this moment as I felt her melt into the kiss. Her hands moved around my neck, telling me not to stop. Immediately I wanted more so I pulled her towards the bed. She wouldn't come down on it though.
Every time I thought I was pressing the kiss harder so she could sit in my lap, she would still be standing up. I didn't mean to do this, but I knew it would get her attention, so I cupped my hand around her ass and squeezed it. Almost immediately she pulled out from the kiss and I saw my moment. She had been so shocked by me grabbing her ass, that at that moment she let her guard down. I moved my hands down her legs, pulled them into my lap and wrapped them around me, knowing it would be harder for to escape. I threw my hand quickly around her waist, pushing us closer. She started to laugh a little.
I smiled against her lips too. I could tell she was somewhat out of breath. I took this moment to just move my hands over her. She must have had enough time to recover, because she was the first one to start kissing again.
"My brother is going to kill us," she whispered against my lips stopping for a small breather again.
"I was going to die anyways, if I didn't kiss you," I said which made her smile. "I'm sorry if this wasn't the perfect moment."
"It's our perfect moment, that's good enough for me," she said smiling back at me again.
"Do you know how long I've waited to kiss you," I asked moving my mouth down to her neck. She didn't answer, instead I heard her breathing pick up. I nibbled and licked at her neck. She started to moan softly. I pulled back a little, wondering if she was okay with this.
She placed her hands around my head, pulling me back towards her. Obviously she was totally okay. She arched her back a little and she was moving my head to kiss her chest. Her sighing and breathing was becoming too much for me to handle. It was so intoxicating at this moment, I just had to feel her body closer. I positioned my hand on the bed, so I could turn us and lay her down. Immediately, she grabbed at my shirt and helped me pull it off. I placed my body on hers and we started kissing again. I hooked her leg around my waist as I moved down her neck again.
"Eric," she moaned as I did a grind into her. I had to do something before I lost all control. I wanted every part of her. It started with a kiss, but I wanted it all. I slowly started to pull away again, trying to end it before we both got carried away. All these sounds she was making was driving me insane.
"What's wrong," Alex asked out of breath.
"Your brother is really going to kill us."
"So," Alex grabbed my shoulder and pulled me back down.
"Alex," I whispered cautioning her.
"Please Eric just one more kiss," she whispered back. I looked down at her brown eyes. There was no trace of innocence today. Right now, there was naughty Alex. We started kissing again. She kept pressing our bodies closer, sighing at every touch, moving her hands all over me, keeping me on top of her. How in the world did I think all she wanted was just one more kiss? My body certainly didn't want just one more kiss either.
"Eric," she moaned louder as I grind harder into her. I really had to stop this now. I rolled us over so I was no longer on top of her thinking she would back down. Dumb move. She started to kiss my neck and down my chest. She ended up sitting up to straddle me once more and pulled off her shirt. I was banking on her putting a stop to this. But in actuality I ended up giving her control and it was just turning me on even more. I sat up and started to kiss her again. This wasn't the first time I had saw her in a bra. But this was definitely the first time she was letting me touch her. I slowly moved one hand over her chest, hoping not to scare her.
"Alex," I whispered as I started to kiss the part of her flesh that was just left exposed at the top of her bra. I moved my hand back to her ass at an attempt to pull off her shorts.
She laid back down on the bed and smiled at me. I smiled back as she slowly started to slide her shorts off. Was she really going to do this?
I was about to lay down on her, when she jumped back up into my lap and straddled me. I'm not going to lie, I really liked her being on top. While we were kissing, I moved my hand to her back, trying to unhook her bra. Almost at that exact moment the door opened.
She immediately slammed me down in the bed, jumped off of me, put her clothes back on, and ran over to her brother's bed. I was kind of shocked she did that so quickly. I got up to look over at her. Her hair was messy, not to mention her shirt was inside out and her shorts were a little crooked as it hung on her waist, but I thought it would have been funny to see Aidan's reaction to that. Man was he going to kill me.
Aidan came walking in with Four, Zeke, and Edward.
"Oh, hey Alex," Aidan said as he and the guys trailed in behind him.
"Hey," she said with her voice shaking. "Hey Aidan." She was still out of breath. She quickly looked at me and I couldn't help but give her a smirk. She immediately looked down trying to hide her smile.
Zeke noticed and kicked my leg. "Care to share," he said so only I would hear. I looked down trying to mask my smile too. I had wanted to kiss her for so long and now that I finally did it felt like nothing I ever felt before. One kiss that led out to us making out. The whole time my body wanted her, screamed to just take her. For a brief moment, it seemed like she was going to let me. I guess we had both been waiting so long for the kiss, we just couldn't hold back any longer. It was then I realized I was shirtless and Four and Edward were trying to hold back laughter.
"So we missed you at practice, Matthews," called out Four trying to fish for information.
"A lot of people were missing at practice today actually," added Edward.
"Really? Well, I just came up here to clear my mind," I answered.
"Clear your mind? Well then, what brings you here, Alex," Aidan asked with a smirk. He and the guys definitely knew something happened, but Aidan wanted to get Alex's explanation.
"I..." she looked around. "I um..." she said turning back to me. I couldn't help it but grin evilly at her. I wanted to see how she was going to explain this. I mean, I was going to tell Aidan if she didn't, but she looked so cute trying to formulate an idea in the pretty head of hers.
"I..." she cleared her throat while Four, Zeke, and Edward started to chuckle. I guess no one was going to let her out of this. "I actually forgot why I came here," she said as she stood up.
"You forgot why you came here," Aidan slowly repeated her.
"You must have come here for something, Kent," said Four. He then turned to me and smiled. Then I remembered, she did come here for something. She actually just came here to apologize and next thing I knew we were making out. The best make out session of my life, I have to say.
"I guess I'll be going now," she said. She was still in complete shock at what we just did, she still couldn't remember coming here to apologize. Aidan and Zeke started to laugh.
"Perhaps you should fix your hair and shirt before you leave," said Four with all seriousness. She started to blush a little and I could tell heat was rising in her cheeks. It was so adorable.
She walked to the bathroom and immediately everyone broke into laughter.
"So," said Aidan turning to me. I must have the stupidest smile on my face.
Within a few seconds, Alex came back out while tying her hair in a pony-tail. "Well, bye guys. I'll see you all later," she said heading towards the door again.
"Alex," called Edward. "My date? The homecoming dance?"
Immediately my heart stopped. And yes, this time I said heart. Was Edward asking her to the homecoming dance? Right in front of me, too? It was then that I knew I fell head over heels for Alex.
"Yeah," she responded smiling. I felt crushed. We had just made out. I had been waiting so long for that kiss to happen and she was about to forget all about me. She just said that she didn't want to lose me. No matter what, was her promise. What the hell? And now she was smiling at him! Why the hell was she smiling at him?
"That's right! Oh my god Edward, I totally forgot. Hey, let's go out now."
Out? Now? Why in the hell would she leave with him now? I was filled with so much excitement and happiness not just five seconds ago. And immediately I felt like I just died. Yup! Houston we have a problem. I was in love with Alex, but she was not going to be mine. Edward got up and left with Alex. Aidan, Zeke, and Four were looking at me.
"Because I promised I would let you know this Aidan, yeah I like your sister. A lot. And if the rest of you are wondering, yea we made out for the first time before you folks came in. But I think it's pretty obvious all of that meant nothing to her," I finished and got up to walk out too before they could say anything else.
Now I knew what heartbreak was. She was just with me and now she left with Edward.
The next day I couldn't even look at Edward. In his defense, he couldn't help it, he didn't know how I felt about her. I tried to avoid her throughout classes. It only hurt more when she would sit so close to me.
To make things worse, there is Alex right now. I see her smiling, laughing, and talking to Trick outside the locker room. I can't help it, but get even more upset. When I got close enough I heard Trick mention the homecoming dance.
"Well, if that's what you're going to do, then I wouldn't want to go with you," She said laughing. "I don't even know if I would dance with you," she said smiling back at Trick who also started to laugh.
"Aw come on, you seriously wouldn't consider it?"
"Alright, well maybe a little," she smiled back at him.
"See! Told ya I'm awesome," he said while they both laughed. Funny, cause I thought she was going with Edward.
"Oh hey, Eric," called out Trick. We did a fist pump before he turned to walk into the locker room.
Alex turned around and gave me a huge smile. "Hey, you," she said as she walked up, hugged me, and planted a kiss on my cheek. I couldn't stand it anymore. The meaning behind that kiss, the promise that we had made. It meant nothing to her.
And it's not like this was months ago. It was yesterday, that I was just with Alex. She was in my arms, she was moaning my name, she was kissing me in my bed and now she was just free-wheeling with the other guys on the team. I was the one who went and spoke to Emily to get her to drop those accusations and that was the thanks I was going to get, she was going to go with Edward or maybe even Trick now.
"What's with you, you hardly talked in class today," she said pulling back from the hug and smiling. That smile. That smile would no longer be mine.
"Nothing," I said and then turned to walk into the locker room.
"Eric," she placed her hand on my arm to stop me. I turned to look at her and she looked worried and panic. "You're not going to talk to me," she said softly. At that moment I swear she looked like she was about to cry. I didn't understand, what would she care about me? It was like I was looking at Emily, or Tara, or even Rachel. She was just another girl who used me.
"Not right now," I said as mean as I could muster. I didn't want to see her cry. I really did like her. Hell, I was falling in love with her. But at the same time I didn't want to be near her right now. "See you around, Kent."
"But yesterday..."
"Why don't we just forget about yesterday, huh?" With that I turned and walked into the locker room.
Throughout practice I was pissed. Not to mention I almost started a fight with Edward. Then with Roman and Brian, who tried to come to his aid. Coach made us run laps, do push ups, and almost every exercise known to mankind until I finally apologized for my behavior.
"Dude, what happened at practice," asked Peter once we left.
"Why don't you ask Edward," I snapped back pushing Edward.
"You were the one all up in my face," Edward yelled back trying to launch himself at me. "I didn't even do anything wrong."
Aidan, Zeke, Four, and Dominic came to pull us all away. In the distance we heard a couples girls sitting down outside on the dorm steps, laughing. "We'll talk about this later," said Zeke as he motioned to the girls.
Immediately I spotted Alex among the crowd of three and felt my heart break again. Uriah ran up there and threw her arm around her.
"There's my favorite cheer leader," he said to her.
"Really," she said smiling, that smile that no longer was mine. "I think there's someone else on the cheer squad who's your favorite," she finished while throwing Uriah's arm off of her. Thank God. If he didn't move his arm, I think part of me wanted to break it off.
"So I heard what you did for Edward and Trick and was wondering..." Uriah started but Alex was beginning to laugh. I really didn't understand, now she was going with Uriah to the dance?
"Why don't you just ask her?"
"I want something special like what you did for Edward and Trick," Uriah pouted. "I don't want to pull just another Will."
"Fine, fine... meet me in an hour by the science building."
"AN HOUR? Wait, why are we doing this tonight?"
"Because," she explained to Uriah. "I know for a fact that someone was planning on asking her tomorrow morning during breakfast. So you better do it now."
"Fine, fine," agreed Uriah.
"Who are you going with, Alex," asked Dominic. She's going with Edward, and if not him, then obviously Trick, I thought to myself.
"I'm actually not going," she answered. There was sadness masked in her answer.
"Why not," asked Peter who turned to look at me.
"No one asked me," she answered.
"What do you mean no one asked you," I practically yelled at her. I really was confused now. I swear Edward asked her yesterday. And her and Trick were talking about it earlier.
"NO ONE ASKED ME," she said back with anger dripping off every word. Four and Zeke quickly looked at me to see me panicking.
Obviously I was wrong about what I heard. I had assumed she didn't want me so I went and broke her into a million pieces earlier today. After our last conversation, she was probably thinking that I was just going to make out with her and throw her away. I never felt like such a jack-ass before than I did in this moment. Alex wasn't that type of girl to just be kissing guys here and there. That's why I fell for her. Yet, I went and thought the worst of her and then treated her like she was some piece of shit.
"I really thought someone was going to ask you," said Aidan. I was. That's the thing. I wanted to ask her, especially after yesterday. I was going to go with Alex. I was going to be with Alex. But then I thought. Oh, I feel so stupid right now. Outside I just stared at her, yet inside I was running around crazy. Why the hell would I do that? And of all people, to Alex, the girl I was falling so hard for.
"Yeah," she said looking down. "I thought someone was going to ask me too, but I guess I was just being stupid," she replied looking back up at Aidan. NO, I screamed inside of me. You're not being stupid, I am!
I looked at her beautiful brown eyes, but there was a different Alex there. This Alex was broken and her eyes said it all. She was regretting everything she ever said to me, everything that we did yesterday, because she thought I didn't care. I told her I would never treat her like that, yet here I went and did the exact thing.
Aidan went to sit by her and pulled her head to his shoulder. Almost immediately as his sister closed her eyes a tear ran down her cheek. I wanted to run up to her, tell her I was the one being stupid, tell her that I cared about her, anything to stop her from crying. But, this was all my fault. I'm the reason why she's so hurt right now.
She pulled away from Aidan, wiped the tear away, opened her eyes and they had changed. They looked darker and made her look bitter and pissed. Aidan looked back up at me. If looks could kill, I would have been murdered right there. And not just by Aidan. Four, Zeke, Peter, and the rest of them were staring me down too.
Alex immediately stood up and brushed herself off. "Well, enough of that. Uriah try and be there half an hour now," she said furiously. "Come on Mia and Giselle," she called to Brian's girlfriend and another girl on the squad and left, not even waiting for one of us to reply.
The second they were out of sight, I knew all hell was going to break loose. Aidan quickly threw a punch my way and knocked me down.
"What the hell, man!? You promised you wouldn't hurt her! I can't believe you frickin' did that to my sister!" He jumped on me and started to throw blows. Right. Left. Right hook again. I was the only one defending myself. I knew none of the guys would come to my rescue. If I were them, I wouldn't have come to my rescue.
"You just make out with her and then throw her away? She's not some stupid slut, Eric!" Aidan grabbed my shirt by the collar and was slamming me down into the ground with every word. Left punch again. I swear I think something broke on my face.
After a few more punches, finally Edward and Four got him off. They could tell I wasn't going to punch back, because deep down inside I deserved it. Zeke picked me up.
"Yea, man, we thought you liked her," said Zeke as he pushed me back down.
"I do. Aidan you gotta believe me," I tried to explain as Aidan kicked the ground angrily. "It's just that after we made out, I thought she was fuckin' going out with Edward."
"What," Edward said looking at me.
"Yesterday in Aidan's room, I thought that's what happened," I tried to explain, slowly getting myself up.
"I thought you had asked her out. Then, she was smiling at you, when she was just smiling with me. I couldn't help but think about that time the two of you kissed. Now she was smiling at you? Everything died in me. Then I saw her with Trick," I said pointing to him. "You two were talking about the homecoming dance too. I couldn't take it anymore. I just thought she used me." Aidan glared at me.
"You really thought my sister would do that?"
"I should have known better, because your sister isn't like that. And now it looks like I used her, but I swear to God, that wasn't my intention. Aidan I like your sister. I like Alex a lot. I feel like an ass right now. And I'm sorry." I sat down defeated on the steps. "I just thought she was with someone else. The one girl I fall for and I thought she didn't feel the same way."
The guys were quiet for a while until Edward spoke up.
"I like Myra, sort of always did," he said looking down smiling. Come to think about it, they were really close growing up. I think when he realized he was starting to like her, he stopped hanging out with her. All that awkwardness of liking your best friend, I guess.
"I know her and Alex became good friends," he continued. "Alex was the one who encouraged me to start talking to her again. I wanted to ask her out, but I didn't know how. I know none of the other girls would help me. And you all need help too asking your girlfriends. I felt comfortable talking about it to Alex, so I asked and she agreed to help me. I know Trick likes Deena. He couldn't figure out a way to ask Deena to the homecoming dance. Alex is on the volleyball team with Deena and agreed to help Trick also."
"We all know you like Alex, Eric," Trick spoke up. "You're just being too stubborn to admit it. Even though you weren't going to make a move on her, it didn't mean that we were. We wouldn't do that to you."
"That time we kissed, it was a dare Eric," stated Edward. "Christina found out she never been kissed before. So she dared me to do it. The next day Alex told me everything, even how she wished it was you that she kissed. In fact last night, when we went to find Myra, she couldn't stop smiling because you two finally kissed. You had her floating on cloud nine, yesterday. And now, she probably feels like crap."
"I don't know why you would do that to her, Eric. You know that she makes you a better person, right? She even makes you smile, too," agreed Peter. "Which is actually quite weird to see you smile so often."
"Weird," copied Zeke. "But hey, it's nice to see you ease up. I don't think any of us would do anything to break that up. Especially after all that shit we went through last year. I thought we were walking out of this like brothers."
"I know that now. Actually, I should have always known that you guys would never do that. But I think it's just a little too late. I'm sorry Aidan. I didn't mean for this to happen. Uriah, you're going to see her. Can you just tell her I'm sorry?"
"I'll try," Uriah said. "However, I think this is one problem you're going to have to put a whole lot of effort into to get her back."
"Yeah man you really fucked this one up yourself," said Peter.
"I know how this feels, Eric. Trust me," spoke Four. "I think you should go with Uriah, yourself. I'll follow you and Uriah, just to make sure she talks to you. But after that you're on your own. I don't even know if I want to help you get her back." I wasn't even sure if I would help me. Aidan was still glaring at me. I stood up and braced myself for whatever was coming next.
Aidan walked back to me. "I'm just going to allow you one chance, Eric. Just one more. I know that this was just a small misunderstanding. And we all know that what happened last year with you and those other girls, wasn't really you. She is my sister though. Don't you ever do that again to Alex. If you do, I will kill you next time." There was blood running down my nose. My right eye was blurry and I think I lost a tooth judging from the amount of blood coming out of my mouth. My side was sore and I knew a few bruises would show up in the morning. If that's what I got for making a tear run down Alex's face, then I could only imagine the damage Aidan would do if I did more than that. I nodded taking his threat serious.
I didn't want to hurt her. I just felt so angry assuming the worst of her. I couldn't help but think about earlier this year. She assumed the worst of me and now I did the same to her. I had to earn her forgiveness and friendship all over again. What made all of this worst, was that forgiveness and friendship wasn't the only thing I wanted this time. This time I wanted her love.
Four and I followed Uriah. I knew she would be there. And she was starting to look at Four, like her brother. If he could get her to stay and let me explain, then perhaps, just maybe. We walked to the old science building and there she stood. I had to make it right. And I had to do it tonight.