DON'T OWN EMMERDALE OR IT'S CHARACTERS...ITV'S PROPERTY

A/N: THANK YOU for the reviews...

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Ross was back home and grabbed his holdal from inside of the wardrobe and threw it onto his bed and started to chuck his stuff into it. He swept a hand through his hair and grabbed his toiletries from the bathroom and was bumping down the stairs to the living room. There he made a sweep through the what was his and then picked up his iPod from the kitchen counter.

Andy was then coming in through the door and was opened mouthed as he saw what Ross was up to.

"What's going on?"

Ross glared at him, "you're not blind I take it"

"You're leaving?"

Ross became sarcastic as he zipped up the holdal, "give the boy a medal", he then put the bag over his shoulder shoved passed Andy and opened the door, Andy wasn't having this, he waved a hand out to him.

"hey? You can't just leave!"

"Watch me!"

" What about the rent!"

Ross looked back at him as to say 'do one'

"Suit yourself but you're not coming back to sleep here", and Andy slammed the door in his face. Ross shook his head, did Andy really think he could give a stuff about the rent? Stuff the rent. Stuff him. Stuff this whole fucking village.

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April was in her bed and Donna had just finished reading her a story.

"You sleepy now?"

April shook her head in her pink pyjamas. Donna swept her hand across her daughters forehead and kissed her.

"Mummy..."

"Yes darling?"

"You know Daddy is going to marry Laurel..."

"yes"

"are you going to marry anybody?"

Donna was taken aback by that question. She leaned over her daughter and smiled at her, "your daddy and Laurel love each other very much darling...that's why they are getting married"

"Will you get married?"

Donna swallowed down hard and tried to be brave for her, "no darling...nobody loves Mummy"

"I love you mummy"

"I know you do sweetheart", and she nestled into her neck, kissed her again, and then switched off the lamp.

"Night night"

And she closed the door behind her.

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"You're going? JUST like that!"

Ross nodded at Debbie in her front room, "I can't stay here no more...I'm sick of it all...I can't stand that old man of mine, what HE did...and then there's this mess with Donna...I've had it up to here!"

Debbie tried to hush him, "Shhushh...Sarah and Jack are asleep", She bit her lip and sat down, she took hold of Ross's dangling hand and made him sit too.

"Have YOU really thought about this? What about your job? What about Finn?"

"I've SEEN Finn...he's okay about it...the rest I don't give a monkeys about"

"Thanks"

Ross looked up at her and felt bad, "I'm here aren't I? You've been good to me after all what's happened..."

Debbie smiled at him, "Well what can I say...i'm a sucker for the bad guy"

"Pete's lucky to have you"

"is he? Why's that? Because it was YOU who turned me down remember"

Ross half smiled at her, he remembered. Debbie sighed and stood up, "Well come on then, give me a hug why don't yah..."

Ross stood and took her into his arms, he laid his chin on her shoulder, "if things had been different, me and you would have sparked "

Debbie laughed it off, "Don't be daft! We would end up killing each other you and me"

Ross pulled awa y and held his face close to Debbie's both searching each others eyes, Ross went to move in and kiss her but Debbie pulled away shrugging it off, Ross sighed and looked at her "Don't you deny we don't have a chemistry between us...you still like me don't yah?"

Debbie tilted her head, "seriously? You are asking me that"

Ross shrugged as he lifted his holdal from the floor, "think of all the fun we could have had"

"Yeah...there's just ONE thing wrong about that"

Ross frowned, "and what's that?"

"I'm NOT Donna...you can block it out of your mind all you like...but how long can you pretend not to care"

Ross swallowed and looked to the floor.

Debbie stepped forward, "Talk to her...if you ARE going...it's only fair you say goodbye because if you don't then you'll never get the chance"

Ross looked up and was shaking his head, "I want to...I just can't bear the thought of her dying...why her? Why does SHE have to have the cancer...why MY girl"

It was hard for Debbie to hear that because she held a firm torch for Ross secretly, although she had Pete.

"yes Ross...YOUR girl...so go see her...before it's too late..."

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Donna was in the kitchen at tall trees. She had got herself a glass of milk and switched off the light and went back upstairs. She was so glad that Marlon and Laurel had gone to bed, they had done nothing but fuss over her all evening.

She closed the bedroom door and went over to the window to pull the curtains.

Outside, Ross was looking up at the cottage from the gate, he could see Donna at the window, she was looking out, but she couldn't see him, Ross felt quite choked up to see her, but he had to go, he had to leave. If he didn't, then he'd lose his mind for sure.

He lifted his phone and pressed call.

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Donna brushed her hair in the mirror and stared at her reflection. She stared at the lovebite that was fading from the top of her right breast and remembered the time he had given it to her...the passion. She smiled sadly then turned and reached for her phone that was on the bed. A missed call? Then she realised it had been on silent.

She put the phone to her ear, and pressed to listen to the message.

She gasped.

"Donna...trust me to get your voicemail...look...I'm really messed up here...I'm confused...I love you so much and all I get is a voice in my head telling me that isn't true...because how can it be? How can a nice girl like you love a complete scumbag like me...and believe me the only person who gets away with calling me a scumbag is me...but I'd let you call me it...I JUST want to know Donna...please...please, I just want to know it all wasn't a lie...call me tomorrow and I'll meet you...if I don't hear from yah...then I'll promise you i'll take the hint..."

end of call.

Donna was in tears, she could detect the shaky emotion in his voice.

Should she call him? Was this fair? It sounded like he was going to leave...maybe that was best for him, for her...

All she knew was...time was running out...

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