They spent almost 4 weeks like that meeting in their secret place, kissing, holding hands and talking , talking alot about their life, their past and even dreaming about each other´s future.
He told her how he turned into a pirate, about his brother and the corrupted king, about neverland. He told her about his childhood, his ran away father and the death of his mother, he told her about dreaming on being heroe with his brother once.
And she told him about how she felt on being on the big castle, how lonely it was until she met Neal, and what happened to him, and then they made her take Graham or when they finally met, she told him about her fears, not having freedom, never knowing the world, real world. Being unhappy forever, having to marry without love, having to give her body over and over, like she was a whore and having more than a few kids, that hopefully would make her hide her sadness.
Talking to him like that,lying in the bed, playing with each others hand or him playing with her hair or her playing with the bottons of his vest, it felt so natural, so home. It was amazing, sometimes she didnt even need to finish a sentence for him to understand or sometimes he would find the words to finish for her, he would read her so well and she wasnt scared, she wasnt scare of showing her deep secrets to him.
With the time passing on, it made harder to hide to small smiles, the gazing, the blush, the need to reach for each other infront of her parents and the rest of the people. A few times, they were almost caught being too close, or touching each others hand or hair but she couldnt care any less, she always made sure to be close to him, sitting next to him on the table and grabing his hand under it, she couldnt resist it and he let her.
Everything was too perfect to be real and well that when her parents announced that Graham was coming to visit, it was dinner time and Emma always choked when they said it, never letting go of Killian´s hand under the table and he started caressing it when he could see she was upset.
"Arent those wonderfull news, Emma?"- her mother said
"Yeah, wasnt he supossed to be here for the ball, 1 month from now?"- Emma asked, annoyed
"Well, arent you happy to see your betrothed, honey?"- Charming asked
"We thought it was really good"- Snow said and Emma knew it!- they werent that good at hiding after all, they probably didnt know but they could sense the actrattion, at least. And what they did? bring the betrothed, fuck!- she was so angry, she was getting red
"Im sorry, i think i forgot to do something really important if you excuse me"- she fake smiled
"Emma you havent finish"- Snow said
"A princess reponsabilities, what can i do?"- she said sarcastically and she left, almost running to their secret place, and slept herself crying waiting for him.
"Sleep tight, my princess"- he whispered, carissing her haird. And she jumped when she felt him.
"Why it took you so long?"- she asked half asleep
"Sorry, your father wouldnt let me go"- he said
"I hate them, i fucking hate them! They had to ruin everything!"- she yelled, feeling her tear coming again
"We knew this would happen, Emma. You are brothered, months from a wedding and im pirate, when my bussines is done , i will leave. We were only lying to ourself, darling"- he said, sad
"no, we werent lying. We feel this, this feeling isnt a lie. I like Graham but i dont love him, i dont even like him like that. Just the idea for his hands on me..."- she cut herself when she saw the anger in his face and his white fits
"Theres nothing we can do, Emma"
"I dont want him, i dont want anyone but you. Take me, Killian. Ruin me for this stupid wedding, ruin me for another man"- she begged
"Emma, thats what you really want? Your first time to be just to ruin your wedding, you deserve better than that. Thats what you have been doing with me all this time?- he asked her
"No! Of course not! I feel for you and you know it. I- I think could fall for you, i think i might already love you, Killian"- she said looking at his eyes
"Emma, i havent been a pirate for that long but im a pirate, love and i will die as one. Theres not other way, im sorry" he stood "You should wait for your betrothed and maybe you will see that this, us didnt mean anything to you"- and he walked away
"Killian, please! Dont leave me. I need you!- she was crying
"Dont cry, Emma, please. The last thing i ever wanted was to hurt you. We shouldnt have dont this"
"NO! Dont say that you regret it! I will never regret falling for you. Even if you didnt take my body, only a few weeks , i was happy because of you. And if you dont take my maidebhood, you still ruinned me for anybody else. My body, heart and soul belong to you now, its too late , Killian Jones"- she said, while tears fell around her face
"Theres nothing, we can do, love"- we wipped her tears
"Dont leave me, thats all im asking, please"
"I will have to leave eventually Emma"
"We will think about it when the time comes, we will find a way, please. Dont give up"- she begged
"I never give up without fighting, love. Just the thought of someone else having you, taking you. I just" she cut him when she pulled him to her and kiss him
"I dont want to feel anyone but you" – she gives a smile –" you can take me, if you want to"
"No, we will do this the right way. If we are meant to be, we will do it. When i take you, it will be because we love each other and we need to make love, not for another reason than that"- he said, smiling
"I already love you, Killian"- she kissed him, he didnt say it back but she understood, the last person he loved was his bother and he lost him, if he said that he loves her now and later has to leave her, it would break him forever and she didnt want that either.
"I love you and i will never love someone else, i promise you"- she said, praying that he would see it because theres no way it would happen. She was telling the truth, she was ruined already but she couldnt be happier about it. He was her first love and hopefully soon, he would her first man too "kiss me, Killian and make me forget"
And he did, he kissed slowly and tender, like never before. She would feel that he loved her too, even if he didnt say it, she knew it. They fell into the bed and they kissed and kissed and couldnt stop, he went a little further and started kissing her cheeks, her nose and later her neck, licking, sucking and biting on her skin. She couldnt help but moan and whisper "I love you, Killian"- she just loved how it felt the sound of those 3 words coming from her mouth but more importantly coming from her heart and her body.
Her body was burning and she needed so much more, she never thought it would feel like this, to love and want someone this bad. She just wanted to rip their clothes off and feel him inside of her but then he kissed her softly on her lips and stopped, breathless and blushing like her.
"When you kiss me and touch... it feels so amazing, i dont want you to stop"- she said with lust
"I wish we didnt have to stop, darling. But i told you already, when we do it, it will be because we feel its the perfect moment, and now its not"-he gave a peck.
"Ok, captain. We will do as you say, as long as you stay with me and love me. Everything will be okay"- she said snuggling into his neck
"Everything will be okay... we should go, you need to rest, Emma"- he said hugging tighter
"Can... can we stay?"- she got her head up to look at him "To sleep, just sleep. If i go to my room, i wont be able to stop thinking of this, and thinking of you and missing you. I wanna fall asleep in your arms, Killian. Will you let me?"- she asked shyly
"Okay, love but we will have to leave early before someone can see us, is that okay?"-
"Yes!"- she said fast , getting out of bed to take her dress and only keep her sleeping gown "what, you wanted me to sleep with that?"-she asked
"Of course not, but you could warn me!"
"Oh, Captain Jones hadnt seen a woman in sleep clothes before"- she teased, getting in the bed under the covers
"Im starting to feel like sleeping on the floor, right now"- he said back
"Floor is all yours, pirate"- trying not look affected at him taking his shoes and vest of slowly
"well then..."- he started
"No, im just kidding! Coming here, silly! I said i wanted to sleep in your arms"- she laughed
And he did, he went under the covers with her and taking her in his arms, her head on his chest and his hand on her hair. It took a while for them to fall sleep, but together like this, felt safe and good, so good. If someone would tell Emma that she would fall for hard for a pirate while being betrothed to another, she would had laugh so hard, but now there she was there, falling asleep on his warm arms and she wouldnt change it for anything. Those stories, love stories that she had heard her whole life didnt do justice to what truly loving someone and feeling loved was like, because yes, for the first time she completely believed she could find her own true love and a happy ending, she is sure that in his arms, she already found it.
"Good night, my princess"- he kissed her hair
"Night, my lover"- she smiled and snuggled further into his embrace, this would be the best night of her life, and all because of him, because of Killian Jones