Heyy Humans or different kind of life things that read this.. Sooo I have a new chapter :D Yes I am trying to upload as much as I can again haha. I got a new laptop so :D! I looked at my profile and realised that it is almost a year ago that I started writing on this site... It's weird to think that it already is a year ago.. So many things happened in one year.. So many things have changed.. But yeah The new year is almost there and it is a fresh start.. What are your new year resolutions? Leave it in the comments :)! On to the story :D
~In love with cookies
The last time:
Yeah she fell in love..
I closed my eyes and felt his warm breath tickle on my lips. 'Ready?' He asked, I could only nod my whole body was in schock. Our lips touched softly for a second and I backed away for a second.
My whole body was shaking and I could only stare at his confused face. Yes I have kissed before.. but that was ages ago.. and this felt different. It was like fireworks exploded in my eyes and my whole body was floating.
'Did I do something wrong? It was to quick wasn't it?.. I am so sorry I didn't wan't to pu-..' I grabbed his shirt and pulled him towards me. 'Shut up please ' I smiled and kissed him again. As our lips conected the fireworks started again. He placed his hands on my hips and I put mine in his neck. Our lips moved in sync and my fingers tangled in his hair.
It was like my world brightened up and the time stood still.
'What would you do if I died tonight' I said looking up at Jack. 'I guess I would cry.. and miss you a lot' He said grabbing my hand. I smiled at his answer.. just one of the standard answers when someone dies.. 'Why are you asking me this?' He said looking a bit confuced. 'Just a question' I said smiling.
It was fun for so long.. but I know when you know the truth you will be gone.. just like all the others.. 'Are you sure Kim?' He said looking straight at me. 'Well..' I got up from his lap and stood infront of him, I looked down at the ground.
'Jack.. If I told you the truth you will leave.. So thanks for the awesome time but..-' 'Kim I won't leave so please tell me' I froze and looked up at him. 'Jack.. you won't understand..'
I sighted deeply and came to the point where I gave up 'cause he won't stop untill he knows. And he has the right to know doesn't he?
I lifted up the sleeves of my sweater and revealed the wounds on my arms.. I started shaking a bit when I looked down at myself, I never looked at myself like this before and I never. Ever. Showed it to anybody.. I felt so vulnerable.
I looked up at Jack his face and I didn't see him laugh at me our something mean, I only saw hurt in his eyes..
'Kim.. Why? Why do you do this to yourself..' He whispered barely able to hear. Tears started to form in my eyes. What the fuck am I doing? I never cry infront of anybody.
'I hate it Jack.. I just hate it..' I pushed back my tears and pulled my sleaves back down. 'What do you hate Kim.. Please look at yourself you are so.. amazing..'
I don't know what got into me but I fellt rage..
'Jack.. For God's sake! Don't call me amazing. 'Cause I am far from amazing. My whole body is covered in wounds and scars, I am fat and everything is wrong with me. My family.. My whole fuckin life..' tears were now rolling down my cheeks. He then did something what I didn't expect anyone to do. He hugged me. And once again I froze.
Even when the real monster I am showed up to him he still holds me close..?
My whole body was still shaking and tears were still falling down. 'Don't worry.. I am here now Kimmy and I won't leave I promise.' And he only hugged me tighter. I wrapped my arms around him and let everything out that I was holding in for so long.
Maybe this Is all I need.. Just someone who cares..Someone who loves me at my darkest..
'I had an awesome night' I said hugging him tightly.. I just don't want to let go of him.. My happiness..
'Yeah it was great' He said smiling tiredly. His face was so sweet.. 'Are you sure that I don't have to walk with you, it is almost 2 AM' He said holding me with concern.
'Haha yeah I am a big girl Jack. I can take care of myself' I said letting go of him but still holding his hands. 'You are only 14 miss and if you are so sure.. I trust you but please let me know when you are home' he said pulling me closer.
'I promise but.. when will I see you again?' I asked a bit sad that I have to let go of him in a few minutes.
That is why I hate getting close to people. I get depended from that person..
'I don't know..' 'What about tomorrow' I said exited 'Haha what do you want to do than?' 'Well since that tomorrow it is going to be pretty hot we could go swim at my place. We have a small inflatable swimming pool but hey it is something.' I said giggling 'Yeah good Idea and we can get your bike.' 'Yeah sounds good to me. And the house of my uncle is free for tomorrow.. so we can have some fun' I said biting my lip. 'I already look forward to it' he said smirking. 'So see you at 11 AM or so at my place?' 'Sounds like a plan' We hugged and kissed our goodbye.
'Mom! Dad! I am home' I said throwing out my combat boots and hanging my coat. 'Kay' Nice to hear we are back to the old again I sighted. How was your night? Did you have fun? Nope just a simple Kay. Not that they missed me our something. 'Where is Katy?' I asked my mom as I petted Koda. Koda is my dog , she is a husky and one of my best friends.. I tell her everything. Sad to think that one of my best friends is a dog.. but hey it is something. 'Katy is staying at a friends house.' Mom answered me. 'Ow okay. So I invited Jack.. He is coming over tomorrow.' I said grabbing an apple. 'KIM! What did I tell you about inviting people?! First discuss it with us. You always do this. What part don't you understand?' She yelled frustrated. I sighted 'Mom earlier you said that you were happy for me that I was making new friends?' 'More like a F*ckBuddy ' my dad laughed. 'Dad!? What the hell do you guys think of me? I am not a whore I am a freaking virgin. Why are you people like this? Sweet and after that you will just talk to me like trash? I am still a human.' I yelled with tears in my eyes. 'I am going to bed..' I said walking up the stairs.
Stupid people.. And to make it worse those people are my parents.. I grabbed my phone and texted Jack:
'Omg I am so sorry I didn't text you faster. Had a fight with my parents :(. But I am home.. Or what I supposed to call a home.. Thank you for tonight I had a amazing time! But I am going to bed now.. See you Tomorrow! Byee :)'
I changed into my pyjamas and heard my phone buzzing.
'Good! I was worried but it is nice to hear that you are 'home'.. I am sorry I can't fix your home.. but I will try to fix everything I can fix.. And maybe make our own home 3 Sweet dreams... I Miss you!Xxx'
My heart skipped a few beats by reading those Xxx. I smiled and locked my phone. Sweet Dreams..
A lot has happened in just one day.. One simple change can trow your whole life upside down.. And he was my simple change..
And I knew this was a new start, a new beginning, a new mistake.
And there is no turning back now...