Badaboom new update :D School is starting again and yeah things will get stressy again.. But I will try to upload as much as I can! On to the story

~Loveee

The last time:

..and just let everything overwhelm me.

'Mom! Dad! I'm home.' I yelled and placed Kiki on the floor. She ran to Koda and they began to play. 'I am going to look upstairs.. you can sit down once again' I giggled. He smiled and kissed me. I ran up the stairs 'Mom. I am h-..' I opened the door of my parents bedroom only to find out that they weren't there. Hmm weird.. I looked in the other two rooms only to see that grandma, grandpa and Katy weren't home either. This is so weird.. where is everybody? The reason why I am so confused is because I am never home alone, there is always someone home but now there wasn't?
I walked downstairs still confused of why they weren't here. 'Is something wrong Kimmy? You look like you just saw a ghost.. Did you and your parents have a fight? Are you alright!?' Jack said jumping up from the couch running over to me and grabbing my hands.
'No I didn't saw a ghost you weirdo, and no I didn't have a fight.. And I guess I am alright.. It is just that everybody is gone.' 'Well that means that we are alone right.. So we can do things' He said smirking and kissing me. 'Yeah.. but it is weird though' I said kissing him back.
'Wanna cool off?' I said biting his lip. 'Hell yeah'

I walked into the backyard in my bikini. I felt so naked.. so vulnerable. I tried to cover the scars and wounds on my body. I placed my hands on my thighs and I tried to cover my arms.
I just looked down at the ground and avoided eye contact with Jack. But I guess he noticed what I was doing.
'Kim.. please stop.' I heard him say with pain in his voice. 'Jack.. I try my best.. but it is so hard.. I just..hate myself' I said with a shaky voice. Fuck again. Kim stop being so weak.
'And I don't.. So please don't hide yourself from me' Jack said taking my hands in his and kissing my forehead.
I smiled.. I really start to fall for this boy.. and I am really starting to like him with my shitty piece of fucked up heart.
We jumped in the pool and started to play around a bit. We were just two kids having fun.

We were sitting on the couch just throwing popcorn at each other ,laughing a bit about random things , telling each other stories of our childhood. It felt good to hear his funny stories.
But the more I started to think of mine the less happier I became.. He told me about fun things he did with his mom and dad. And he looked so happy? Even though his parents are divorced..
My parents aren't divorced but still I don't do I single thing with them.. I don't tell them a single thing and they don't tell me a single thing.. I just have to figure everything out on my own..
Just like a child thrown in the deep and all they ever gave to me were screaming voices with 'learn how to swim!'
I closed my eyes and let a tear roll down my cheek.. I am so done with this thing I have to call my life.. I am done with pretending..

' Can I use the bathroom?' I nodded and pointed him the door.

I closed my eyes as the water covered my whole body. Slowly I was losing control of the situation, my breath slowly left my lungs. I didn't panic and I didn't feel like to be saved. I just stayed in the deep and it felt good to be on the edge.. on the edge of life. I opened my eyes and I just saw the blue sky above me. My eyes started to sting and the blue sky started to become darker and darker.
All the air was squeezed out of my lungs.. my body. Everything felt numb, and my heart beat slowed down. I heard a faint sound in the distance, it was coming closer and closer. And just before everything stopped, I was pulled out of the water.
'KIM! KIM! Please answer me!' He yelled with a shaky voice. I wanted to move but I couldn't. 'KIM! please say something don't you die on me please! Don't!' I heard him cry. 'I don't want to let you go.. please..' He bended down and kissed my lips.
After that I don't know what happened in my body but something just.. snapped. I felt my heart started to beat faster and faster again. My lungs pushed out all of the water and I started to cough.
'Kim!' Jack said picking me up from the ground and carried me inside. He walked to the couch and placed me on it.
'Please never scare me like that ever again' He said still shaky. Everything hurted I still couldn't move. So I just smiled. He smiled weakly back at me and kissed my lips. We cuddled up against each other and I just closed my eyes.. rest will make everything better.. I hope.

I slowly woke up again and I see Jack look down at me. 'So you woke up princess' he said smiling warmly.
I sat up staight and regretted it immediately. A heavy pain shot through my chest and the memory of earlier today came across my mind.
'Is something wrong Kim?' He said crouching infront of me. I catched my breath again and nodded to let him know that I'm fine. 'Good' He said kissing me softly 'Ow and Kim your parents called' He smiled. My head shot up 'What did they say?' I asked curious.
'Well at first they were suprised to hear me answer the phone instead of you but after I explained the situation t-..' I froze and interrupted him ' Wait you didn't tell him about what I did.. didn't you?' I saw him smiling softly 'No.. It is our secret and we will fix it together..' he sat down next to me grabbed my hand and continued
'So they knew I was coming over and thought it would be a fun idea to have a barbeque with your family and me. Everyone has been out the whole day shopping for supplies for tonight and they just arrived at your uncles house.' I smiled at the idea. My parents may not be the best parents..but they try their best.. sometimes.
'But the best part is still coming' He said kissing me again. I smiled again and started to feel happy again.. but this time it was real.
'Your parents thought it was going to be late.. and since that they wanted to get to know me.. They invited me to stay here tonight' He said scratching the back of his head.
My smile even grew bigger and I just kissed him. 'But since that it is almost 7 PM and I am starving why don't we get dressed and go to the rest?' He said jumping up and pulling me up. I groaned a bit at the pain but shook it of quickly. 'Yeahh we should'

I was getting dressed and Jack kept on stairing at me his face was blank.. 'Is something wrong?' I asked a bit afraid of what was going to come.
'Nothing.. it is just that.. why did you do it?.. Why did you try to end it?' I looked up at him and saw that his eyes were red and full of tears. I looked down..
'There isn't a way to explain why I did it. It is just everything I feel.. And no it isn't pain or something like that.. It feels like nothing.. I can't feel anything. Happiness nope, Pain nope, Love nope.. I just want it to stop.. cause if it doesn't end quickly my body will slowly give up..' I looked down and the ground and pushed my tears away.
'Kim look at me.. I know that I can't tell you what to do. But I just want to let you know that you have to keep faith. The most amazing things in life tend to happen right after the moment you tend to give up' He kissed my forehead and I nodded. 'And I will guide you through your darkest days.. I promise.'

Maybe he is right.. Maybe I have to keep faith..
'Cause slowly I will find my hope back..
And all because of him..