A/N: OKAY, HERE IT IS. DONT HATE ME :(
"Emma"-
She didnt dare to turn around, it wasnt possible. His...his voice, it was him but how, he was gone...She closed her eyes, trying to control her breathing, fear running down, if she turned around and there was nothing, or someone else...
"Emma, love"
She felt the tears rolling down even when her closed eyes, and she wanted to laugh...How many times she wished for him call her name again, to call her "love" one more time but She still couldnt move, until she felt his hand touching slightly her shoulder. She gasped and opened her eyes, she wasnt dreaming , she wasnt seeing or hearing things.
"I found you"- He moved his hand on her shoulder to turn her around and she didnt hesitate anymore and there it was... It was him.
"You are, You are alive!"- she threw herself into his embrace, her head resting on his shoulder and her arms around his waist, he didnt doubt on holding her tight and she let the sobbs get out of her chest. –"You came back"- she said between sobbs and laughs, never letting go of him, breathing his scent...soaking herself in him, his warmth, in the feel of home, finally being back home.
"Im here, Love. Its okay"- He kissed her hair and caressed her back until her crying stop, and her breathing came back to normal but she didnt want to let go, she didnt want to part from him, not ever again and he let her, God he missed her so much.
Moments later, she knew she didnt have much of a choice, she had to pull away even if she didnt want to, not only because she missed him so much and she begged for one more chance and there he was, but... she was scared, scared of looking at his face, his eyes, scared of what she could find or what he would find in much time had passed since they last saw each other, 13 months, so many things... but not only things changed, they surely changed too...
She closed her eyes preparing herself for the worse, took a deep breath and slowly pulled away. His eyes, oh Killian, those eyes and face she missed deeply, that she could see everywhere but vanished a second later,. He was there , back, alive ... her eyes wided when she saw the hook that was replacing his left hand...It was real, he did lose his hand to the Dark One. What really happened to him?- she couldnt hold her gaze on it and looked around, not sure if she could look at his eyes either. She stepped back and he cupped her cheeks, giving her a little smile... Oh, that smile
"I told you I would come back to you"- he said with a soft voice
"How? They said you were gone... The Dark One got your hand and bled to dead falling to the ocean... You died, they said you were dead!"- she couldnt help the tears once again
"Im here, love and Im so sorry I didnt come back sooner but Im here now"–
"Why? Why you didnt come back sooner!"- she asked harshly. Where was he all this time, what happened to him?
"I just found out you were gone when I took Henry to your home and your parents told me. Where is the baby?"- He asked and she felt like a knife just stabbed in the middle of her heart.
"What, Henry?"- was all she managed to say
"How long until he get to port, Killian?"- he asked excited
"No too long, lad. I know you are excited but calm down, you keep asking the same question over and over"
"I know, sorry. I was just can not wait to see my parents and Emma!"
"Not need to be sorry. I can not wait to see Emma myself"- he admited
"You really love her, she is lucky to have you. And Im lucky we are family so, you can keep teaching me how to sail"
"We´ve doing it for months now, Im sure your father will be happy to teach you some royal stuff"
"Nah, I dont care about royal. I loved being pirate all this time with you"
"Just dont say that infront of your parents, they will want to kill me if they know I turned their missing kid into a pirate"
"Hey! Im not a kid anymore, Im 15!"
"Kid or not, you are royal"
"Well Emma didnt seem to mind that you are not"- he teased
"Just because your sister is bloody special. Its been so long, I cant wait to see her again, to hold her in my arms"
"You really miss her, dont you?"
"I missed her and think of her every single day. Im just glad she is safe in home"
"Yeah, Im sure she is dying to see you too"
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"You! What are you doing here! How dare you!"- the king yelled at the minute he saw the pirate
"Well I wasnt expecting a warm welcome but this?"
"Im going to kill you with my bare hands!". He moved toward him
"David, no. He is not worth it"- Snow grabbed his arm but couldnt stop him
"Believe me, Snow. This will be worth it"- he moved to grab Killian
"Wait! You can not hurt him. He is my friend!"- Snow and Charming froze, opened mouth... It couldnt be real.
"Henry? Henry , OMG!"- They ran toward him, past Killian
"Mom, dad"- he met them halfway
"Oh god, are you okay? We missed you so much. Did he hurt you?"
"Yes, No! He is my friend"
"What do you want , pirate. How much?"- David asked, looking at the captain
"How much losing my left hand in the process of getting your kid back, is worth to you?"
"You didnt leave to save my son, you left to get your revenge... Well did you make it?, was it worth ?"
"How can you come back here just like that. I will always thank you for Henry but after Emma!"- Snow said
"Where is she ? Where is Emma?"- He asked concerned, there was not sight of the princess.
"Yes, Im dying, we are both dying to see her!"- Henry said
"She is gone"- what, gone...she married someone else and moved away, she couldnt be dead, no...
"What DO YOU MEAN gone!"- He asked
"She runaway! After YOU , pirate! You destroyed her happiness and her future and she runaway because she found out she was pregnant and she wanted to find you!"
"She run- pregnant? Did you say pregnant?"
"Yes, not only you took her innocence, you gave her a child!"
"How, When... Where did she did go?"
"Did you need for me to tell how or when!"- David yelled at him
"I mean How she runaway, When did that happen?"
"Rose helped her and after she asked her she told us Emma was pregnant and wanted to go after you... that was almost 8 months ago"
"A child, she is having my child"- he couldnt believe it
"Im gonna be an uncle, you have to find her!"- Henry was thrilled
"We assume the baby was born already"- Snow said to her now found son
"Im an uncle! Killian go! You need to find her and the baby, your baby"
"A baby, I have a baby"- he said again, tasting the words in his tongue.
"And What makes you think you are leaving, pirate. You not gonna runaway again"- David said
"Dad! He saved me, he lost his hand! He is my friend! He loves Emma. They love each other. Remember what you told us, "we will always..."
"find each other"- David finished
"Exactly! He will find her and their baby. Let him go..."
"I dont know whats about you that my children love you... GO! Before I change my mind"
"Aye, I spent months reaching for him, and I got him , Swan. I took him home but they told me you were gone... that you runaway away after me, Why? I told you to stay there"
"I... This isnt the place to talk, lets go to the Inn. Im sure Ruby will give us some place to be alone"
"Ruby?"
"Its been a long year, Killian"
"I know, Im sorry"- he said with guilt –" You didnt answer me, where is the baby?" he could sense something was off .- "Did you, Did it"
"She, it was a girl"
"Was?"
"I said we will talk in the Inn!"- she sounded harsh, she couldnt help it-
"Sorry, love. As you wish"- He couldnt help the pain digging in his heart. He spent the last 3 months after he left the castle, searching for her. A baby, They would have a baby, he couldnt help to imagine it, a family, he would have a family, with her, with his swan. He closed his eyes, trying to control his emotions. he knew what was to come.
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Emma walked ahead, expecting for him to follow her but then slowed down her pace, walking by his side, she needed to sense that it was real, that he wasnt going anywhere again. She closed her eyes for a second and let her hand grab his, he turned to look at her but no words were said, they walked in silence to the inn with laced fingers.
"Killian? OMG, you are alive!"- Ruby ran to him and hugged him, surprising Killian and Emma. He didnt return the hug, just froze. She wasnt so close to him but in that time on the castle she could see how much they loved each other, and she was there to see what his lost did to her friend. She was just so relieved and happy, maybe Emma would be okay again.
"Ruby" – Emma said, and couldnt help but chuckle at the obvious awkwardness in Killian´s face.
"Sorry, I just , Im so happy you are back, for you , for Emma"- she said pulling away with tears in her eyes.
"Thank you"- He didnt know what else to say
"Oh Emma Im so happy for you"- she hugged her friend next, who hugged her back tighly.- "Um Im sure you have some talking to do, so go..."
"He can wait , if you nee-"
"No! Dont be silly, go"
"Thank you, Ruby"
"Thank you, lass. For everything"- Killian said close to her ear, esqueezing her shoulder. She nodded with smile, knowing what he meant and He followed Emma to her room.
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They entered her room, it was not big but enough for one person, not much colours or personal stuff, not baby stuff either and he knew...Oh Emma
She sat on the corner of the bed and pointed the chair for him to take. He pulled it closer to her but still giving her some space. Silence ruling the room for a while but it was good in some way, it was calm before the storm.
"They said you were dead, what happened? You found Henry, is he okay?"
"I found out where the bloody crocodile had your brother and I stold a magical bean from him and wanted to exchange for the kid, but he cut my hand and I started bleeding bad, the damn coward use his magic to make me fall on the water. Everyone saw it, thats why they thought I was dead. Henry is okay"
"How you made it?"
"Im not so sure myself, I was with Ariel and Melody next"
"Ariel, did she help you?"- she asked, surprised
"Aye, after they found out I didnt help on kidnapping Eric, Melody found me on the water because of my blood and they helped. It took some time until I could walked away but I couldnt come back to empty hands after everything that happened, well more with a less hand, actually"- He laughed , making her roll her eyes. –"So Since the Dark One thought I was dead, I used it in my favor and could get to your brother. We spent 2 months or so on the sea together, He is a good lad"- He smiled wide at the memory of Henry´s excitment and It made Emma smile too but at the same time it hurt. –" He stopped your parents so they could let me go to look for you, He really was excited to see you. I should take you home"
"No, Im not going anywhere. This is home"- she said, shaking her head –"But Im really happy that Henry is back and safe, maybe I will find a way to see him"
"Why you dont want to go back, thats your family...What happened to you, Emma?"
"So much happened, Killian"- she looked at his eyes but they both could see the pain in each other –"You know about the baby, It was a girl but I lost her, and then I lost you too"- She started crying again
"Oh Emma, Love"- he intented to move closer, to hold her but she stopped him with her hands.
"It was my fault, I should had stayed home, I didnt protect her, I couldnt save her"
"How, What happened"
"BlackBeard"- his jaw clenched at the mention of moniker, fits forming on his hand and he moved to stand up
"He is gone"- She kept him sit with her hand on his tight – "I killed him... I didnt mean to but I killed him"
"That bastard! I wish I could go and kill him again. Im sorry, Emma, Im so sorry. This is my fault, If I hadnt left. I should be there to protect you and her, our baby"- tears rolled of his eyes too. God It hurt
"He killed her and, I couldnt protect her"
"I understand for you to hate me, Swan. I did this to you, caused you so much pain"- he moved closer and caressed her cheek and moved to stand up again – "I should leave"- the pain was too big, he loved her more than anything and yet, he was the one who brought so much pain into her life.
"No, dont leave. Dont leave me again"- she throwed herself into his arms – "Dont go, dont go"
"I love you, Emma. Im so sorry"- he forced her to pull away so she could look into his eyes, wipping tears from her face – "I love you"- He said again and she crushed her lips to him, sobbing against his mouth and then losing into the kiss, his taste, his warmth... How was it possible? 13 months, 13 long months since they last kissed and yet, it felt the same. The same magical feeling, love, safeness and home. "I love you too, Killian"- she said after they pulled away to catch some air – "I love you too" and she kissed him again. Over those 10 months he was lost to her, she would touch her lips trying to remember so bad, how it felt to be kissed like that again and now, it seemed so easy, everytime she kissed Walsh (not more than a few), she closed her eyes, imagining it was him but in that moment with his mouth against, in hers, his tongue exploring her mouth. She knew , she just knew, No one could ever kiss and taste like him, No one would ever make her feel like that, it was him, all of him and in that moment, all the pain and hurt seemed to fade away, she would forever feel for her lost girl but with him back, by her side... In that exact moment with his hand in her hair and the hook against her waist, pulling her against him, with his wide open mouth against hers... Maybe, maybe they would find a way, maybe everything would be okay.
A/N: BETTER?
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