He let his body crush over her and she held him tight . "Oh God, I missed you so much- I love you"- she kissed his shoulder, her arms wrapping around his middle. She wanted to say something, to explain but words wouldnt come out, she was scared of what would happen, of hurting him, of losing him again just when she got him back. Damn she felt so badly guilty. She wished she had never broken her word and hadnt had sex with someone else, but at the moment, she wasnt even herself.

He didnt say anything, he didnt ask any question. He didnt need to, he didnt need to know but he knew, he just knew. And it shouldnt hurt but it did, so bloody much. But he wouldnt never blame her, it wasnt her fault, she pained so much over those 13 months, he would be damned if he hurt her again.

He slidded out of her but didnt hesitate to take her by his side, holding her close... Not a word said, simple silence, she kept holding him close and planted soft kisses over his chest and neck, he squeezed her waist tight, until the fell asleep.

"oh, Emma"- he groaned when he woke up as she stroked his already hard length between her hands. She grinned with a sexy look in her eyes as she leaned down, the tip of her tongue, meeting the head of his cock. He jerk his hips up and moaned, grabbing into the sheets for dear life... Bloody Hell, she felt amazing. She moved down again, licking the length until the base... "Oh, Swan, please. Stop teasing"- he couldnt help the desperation his voice.

"Shhh, I want this as much as you do. Enjoy"- and she leaned again, wrapping her sweet lips around his tip, so wet , sucking him oh so slowly. She moaned around him when she went a little further, taking the half of him inside of her mouth.. –"Hmm, you taste so good. You feel so good"- she couldnt help the liquit desire running throught her, her wetness falling down between her legs, Gods she was enjoying this. She couldnt help to remember the few times, she did this with the other man, she couldnt even say his name anymore. She only did it because she had to, not because she wanted it or enjoy it. But with him, with the love of her life... She wanted to taste him, even the last inch of his body, him, all of him. She wanted to feel him, to have him everywhere. She kept sucking and licking his prominent cock, making him moan and groan. She wanted to show him how much she wanted him, how much she loved him, only him. Just a few more hard sucks and he was pulsing inside of her mouth and she swallowed him, mmm-ing as his cum ran down her throat. "You defenitely taste SO good"- she smirked, moving up and kissing him, tasting himself on her tongue.

"You taste better, love"- he knew what she was trying to do, showing him that whatever happened, whatever she did over those past months didnt mean anything, she wanted him and only him.

" I disagree but I love that you think so"- she smiled, he smiled back and kissed her again, his hand running south.

"Bloody hell, lass. You are soaking wet. Sucking me, milking me dry does this to you?"

"You do this to me, Oh"- she answered and moaned when his two long fingers slidded inside of her .

"Feel what you do to me"- he said turning them around, so she was pressed against the mattress, in matter of seconds he was posionated at her entrance –"Feel this"- he said as he thursted inside of her heat- "Do you like it?"

"God, yes"- he slidded out to thrust back in- "Oh, I love it. I love you"- she said and he kept slamming home over and over, hard and fast pace until they both found their high and slept for the rest of the night, wrapped in each other scent and warmth.

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She woke up with the light of the sun shinning from the window. She panicked when she moved to the other side of the bed, to only find an empty spot. She sat abruptly, trying not to think the worse and she breathed again when he came out of the bathroom with wet hair and finishing his pants.

"Morning, love"- he said, trying to sound a light and normal as possible. He leaned down and kissed her and she held him close, making him fall sit on the bed, he groaned against her mouth but she didnt let go of him. –"Very good morning indeed"- he repeated breathless, his forehead against hers. She smiled.

"Im gonna have a bath, then we can have breakfast"- she said and he moved so she could get up. She did, wearning nothing but bare skin and walked to the bathroom but not before pressing her full naked body against him and kissing him again. The wet skin of his chest pressed against her nipples. They both moaned into their kiss.

"Better go, if you dont want me to take right here and now, again lass"

"Who says I dont want to. I always want you"- she said- "But yeah, bath, breakfast and work. I will be quick" she finished and moved away.

-...-...-...-...-

"I got breakfast for us"- he grinned when she came out of the bathroom, she walked to him and kissed him.

"Thank you, you are the best"- . they had a quiet breakfast, sharing shy smiles and stares. After a while, she walked away to finish getting ready but then she couldnt take it anymore, she couldnt avoid the subject she knew was tense between them.

"I will take this"- he stood up and she took a deep deep breathe and finally said.

"Killian, I. I want to explain"

"Emma, theres not need, seriously its totally fine"- he gave her a smile but it didnt reach his eyes, and she knew it was not okay.

"We have to. I dont wanna lose you. Not again"- she couldnt help the tears forming again

"Love"- he moved closer but she stepped back.

"I"- she closed her eyes and swallowed, trying to control her fear –"Yes, I did have sex with somebody else"- he closed his eyes, trying to breathe, to bare his broken heart , he knew it but hearing it from her, it was too painfull –"Im sorry, Im so sorry. Please dont hate me, dont leave"- she said quickly, trying to control her sobbing.

"I would never, Emma. I dont blame you. I could never"-

"But you are hurt, I didnt want to hurt you"

"You hurt the most over that time, love"

"I only did it 4 times, over the last 2 months. I never felt for him, he doesnt mean anything. Im sorry"- she cried again

"Its okay, Emma"

"I want you to, I need you to know, to understand... so you can forgive me"

"Theres nothing to forgive"

"I failed you. I promised that I would never let anyone else to have me and I did"

"Emma"

"Dont, please. I need to do this, you deserve to know. I want to do this for us"- he nodded, and just stood there, trying to listen without breaking down, he didnt want to make her feel worse. He knew she pained way to much, and the guilt was still burning his chest, she lost their baby because of him. He wouldnt let her feel guilt too- "I, I lost you. You were gone, forever and I also lost our little girl. Sometimes the pain was too much to bare and there was nothing I could do... and I drank, trying to forget, to not to feel anymore the burning pain in my heart and then he, Walsh"- she closed her eyes, not being able too look at him when she said his name –"I just wanted to stop hurting, I just wanted you back and I couldnt, you were never coming back and there was nothing I could do and Im sorry, Im so sorry"- she sobbed, god, she couldnt hold it anymore. Her knees touching the ground and her arms resting on the bed. Killian ran to her and kneeling by her side and held her tight.

"Shhh, Its okay, Love. Im here. Everything is okay"- he told her softly.

"I just wanted to feel, anything but pain again... but I never enjoyed it, I always thought of you, I always missed you so much"- she said between sobs.

"Its okay, Emma. Its enough, you dont need to say more"- he moved her up, settling her on his lap on the bed and she held into him for dear life.

"You dont hate me, you wont leave me?"- she asked, like a scared child.

"No, of course not. Im not going anywhere as long as you want me here"

"Stay"- she begged – "forever. Stay with me"- she hugged him – "I love you, please"

"I love you, Emma. So bloody much"- he caressed her back and kissed her hair –"I never want to leave without you again. I cant"- tears falling down his face, her sobbing calming against his chest, they held each other for as long as they could. Minutes, hours, years...

They jumped when someone knocked the door. "Oh shit, its really late"- Emma said after looking the time

"Ruby, Im sorry. I will be right there"- She said after openning the door, as Killian moved to the bathroom.

"Its okay, Im so sorry, Emma. I didnt want to interrupt but theres some people and I need you but its okay If"- she could see the red in her friend´s eyes and she knew Killian was there.

"No, Its okay. We were just talking. Everything is alright. Just give me a minute, okay?"

"Take as much as you need, sorry"- she said again and left.

"I should leave and let you go to work, I guess"- he said

"Yeah"- she said shyly.

"Hey, everything is okay. We are okay"- he stroked her cheeks with the back of his hand

"Really?"- she asked him

"Yes, Love. I could never blame you, you lost so much, you hurt so much"- He walked closer –"I didnt. I was not with someone else because I had some complications"- he showed off his hook- "And overall because I had something that you didnt, Emma"

"What?"

"Hope"- he said, looking at her eyes –"I had hope that I would see you again, that you were safe in home, waiting for me. I counted every minute to get back to you. I feared sometimes that you wouldnt want me back, or your parents, or you wouldnt want a handless pirate but even with that, I counted every second to get your brother back to you, to see you one more time"- he had tears in his eyes, so did she but they both smile –"Im sorry, Emma. Im sorry. For everything, for leaving, for not coming back, for being the reason why you lost our baby"- she leaned closer and shut him with her fingers on his lips.

"Shhh, It wasnt your fault. It had to happen. She is an angel now, watching over us . If you let go of it, I will let go of my guilt. I dont wanna lose you again, okay?"- he smiled and kissed her, softly and long, tasting, feeling her, leaving her breathless –"She will come back to us, I know that, believe me"- she said, as she hugged him tightly.

"You are the best thing that ever happened to me, Emma. Every single tear was worth to be back with you, my love"

"I love you"- she kissed him –"You make me feel safe and happy. I just want to be with you, always".

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Later that night, Killian and his crew came to the tavern to have some drinks after a day of work in the ship at the port. Emma was working with Ruby as always. Her heart raced when she saw Walsh walking through the door with some men. Holy crap, this couldnt be good.

She tried to avoid his gaze as long as possible. Ahgr seeing him there, made her sick... If Killian wasnt back, maybe she would have sex with him again, just to forget, of course. Just the mer thought was disgusting.

Emma did her best to hide her discomfort but it didnt escape Killian, he did know her too well and he sensed that it had something to do with one of the men sitting on the table across his, in fact there was this man, who wouldnt keep his eyes off of her, with a stupid little grin. How dare he? Look at his Swan like that? . He could be him, it was probably him and Killian couldnt help the jealousy and anger starting to grow. He kept drinking, trying to hide his annoyence, glazing at Emma once in a while, everytime their gaze met, they smiled at each other.

After a long while, some of the men of Walsh´s table left and he called for Emma. Killian couldnt tell what he was saying but it was clear that Emma wasnt comfortable, he smiled but she just walked away, blushing from the anger.

"Hey, Love"- Killian called her with a smile. She stopped her track and couldnt help but smile back at him. "Come here, for a second"- she looked at the bar and Ruby was gone. It was late, only those 2 tables were taken, so she walked to him. He grabbed her waist, pulling her down, making her straddle his legs, she hesitated for a second but what the hell she wasnt a princess anymore and he was her man.

"What do you need, pirate"- she said, seductively

"Just you"- he whispered into her ear and she had to try really hard to hold her moan, shiver running down her spine. Their darkned gazes locking and she leaned down and kissed him. She knew what he was doing, marking her as his but she couldnt care any less, she was his and there was not someone else that could have her, not ever again. The kiss was soft, almost lazy but still deep and intoxicating, he tasted like rum and she was getting drunk of him, of his wet mouth and scent mixed with hers. Her arms around his neck and his hook on her waist, holding her closer, his good hand grabbing her hip, pressing her down against his bulge... God, she wanted to moan...loudly. She did softly against his mouth but she wanted more, slowly, trying not to get attention, she rubbed her center against his clothed growing erection... It felt so good. He smiled, and moved to kiss her neck, sucking hard once, twice... he really was trying to mark her, in that moment she wanted so much more. Luckily only 2 of his men were in the table and they were too drunk to even notice, when Killian´s hand slowly slidded under her dress and rubbed against her center, teasing her the bastard, She bit his lips and he stopped and they broke apart, blushing scarlet... doing that, there, was beyong excited and hot.

"Is that enough?"- she asked smile wide, close to his face. His finger caressing the bruise on her neck.

"I havent start with you yet"- he smirked and she kissed him one more time, quickly.

"You will have to wait, Im still working"- she moved away.

-...-...-...-...

Killian´s men left, leaving alone him sitting on the bar, finishing his drink. Walsh and 2 other still on their table.

"It was very nice seeing you again. I see you soon, Swan"- the man said, too out loud, too seductive, making Emma want to punch him but he was too drunk probably.

"Goodbye, Walsh"- she said annoyed and They all left, she closed the door and groaned against it, seeing the back of Killian, still drinking. She walked toward him and he turned around, and walk toward her, well toward the door actually. –

"Goodnight, Emma"- he said, walking past her and she could sense the anger in his voice.

"Hey, where are you going!? Whats wrong?"- she asked confussed and he walked fast and furious back to her.

"Whats going on?! Swan? SWAN! You let me him called you, Swan!?"- he asked, clearly hurt.

"Killian..."

"Did you make him call you that when"

"Dont!" – she stopped him before he said something stupid – "Swan. Everyone calls me Swan, here. They dont know Im a princess, so I told them my name is Emma Swan. Your Swan"- she moved closer, playing with his coat- "It reminded me of you" – she smiled, wrapping her arms around him. "Dont be jealous or mad, I only want you"

"You wouldnt if you knew what I want to do to you right now"- he said and she gasped, what that supposse to mean, what he wanted to do to her...Oh she was wet already

"Whats that?"- she asked amd he kissed her with passion, hard and demanding, taking her breathe away.

"I want you, Emma. All of you, will you let me have it?"-

"I, yes"- she answered. Not sure what exactly he had in mind or if it was what she thought he meant.

They moved to the bedroom, as much as he wanted to take her there in the middle of the tavern, they wouldnt risk Ruby or Victor finding them. Once the door was closed, their clothes travelled through the air, one by one until they were finally naked, pressing against each other, kissing, tasting each other´s mouth.

"What do you want, Killian"- she asked as he sucked and licked her neck, while she was laying on the bed, he moved down, sucking her breast and she moaned loudly- "Oh, tell me"

"All of you, I want all of you"

"You have it, its yours"

"Every single inch of your body"- he asked and she knew where he was going –

"You want to take me there?" –She asked unsure why the thought made her wetter.

"Will you let me, will you let me have it, Emma?"

"I told you only you would be inside me but I didnt keep my word. Its yours ... Take it"- she said and he looked at her eyes.

"Are you sure?"- he doubted himself- "You dont have to"

"I want to. I want you, everywhere, only you"- she said, without any sign of doubt in her voice. Yes, She wanted it dammit

"I hope you are wet, because I can wait anymore"- he said, and without another word, thursted inside of her –"Bloody well, you are soaking wet...so ready for me, love. Oh, Emma"

"I want you, I need you"- she moaned again and again as he thrusted in and out, it felt so good, such a sweet torture. Just when she was feeling so damn close, almost there. He stopped, looked at her eyes and next, he was sitting, strappling her on his lap, still deep buried inside of her... She moaned –"Oh Killian"- at the suddenly change of angle. He led 2 of his fingers to her mouth and she sucked them, later he made her pull up and thrusted those same fingers inside of her hot center, wetting them on her scent... in and out, in and out restenly, her fingers digging into his shoulders, holding for dear life and he moved fast and hard. She was close again, so damn oh, close and he stopped and took his fingers out, making her groan... What the hell was he doing?. He kissed her hard before she could even complain and thrusted his hot erection inside of her body again, taking her by surprise... "Oh, Pleaseee- you feel so good"- she moaned again, her walls clenching in anticipation. He kissed the side of her breasts, later sucked one of her nipples into his mouth, his cock making her full but not quite moving as she needed him to. She moaned again when she felt his wet fingers, moving in her ass, slowly pressing at her entrance, it was weirdly hot and arousing... She needed more . He looked at her eyes, searching some sign of fear or need for him to stop and she nodded, trying to tell him with her eyes what she couldnt speak because of her oh so aroused state. He thursted his cock hard into her wetness, distracting her as his fingers slidded into her from behind. She closed her eyes and moaned. "Oh God"

"So full, Emma. Do you feel me, everywhere? Do you like it, love? Me making you feel like this? Mine , all mine"

"Oh, God, yes"- she jerked her hips as he was not moving but he only sucked her breast again.

"Feel it, Emma. Feel me"-

"Oh, move, please..."- but he stayed still with her breast on his mouth. It felt so good, having him everywhere but her body was begging for more, for release- "Killian, please. I cant"

"Shhh, enjoy it...I love being buried in you, Love. You feel so good, tight and hot"- he kissed her slightly –"Not moving, lets enjoy this, being one, like this"- he hook resting on her hip, pressing her close and still, his fingers in her ass and his cock deep inside, his mouth oh so painfuly slowly sucking her breasts. She couldnt move but she want to, her walls clenching in anticipation- "Not moving, Swan"- he repeated.

"I cant"- she moaned and her walls kept clencling around him, feeling him deep inside... "I cant stop, Oh Killian"- he groaned, not sure how long he could hold back, with the exquisite feeling of her wet walls squeezing him, He sucked her breasts with a fast pace and his fingers moving slightly inside of her as she kept clencling around him over and over, trying to milk him... It felt amazing. She moaned and threw her head back, as she felt the proximity of her high, closer and closer and Oh... Just like that... She exploted, her walls now clencling in their own accord. It felt too good for him to be able to hold back, he thursted again and again, riding her orgasm. Once she was down trying to recover her breathe. He turned her around, taking his fingers out, the head of his cock teasing on her ass entrance, she maoned again , a second later he was filling her oversensitive center once more... She could feel every single inch of his cock buried inside of her wetness, it was always felt so good. He thrusted over and over and soon enough they both found their climax, his release filling her but she closed her eyes and allow herself just to enjoyed it. They stayed still, trying to catch their breathe and he slidded out of her, taking her into his embrace.

"Did you enjoy it?"

"Hell yeah"- she kissed his chest –"But you didnt take it, not fully"

"I dont want you to feel to have to do this because Im hurt or jealous"

"Are you?"

"I am, I just want you to be mine and only mine, forever"

"I am, you idiot. I was yours from the minute I saw you on the castle. Im yours and I will always be"

"I love you"- he said

"I love you. Dont ever leave me again"- they smiled and kissed each other,

"I wont, I dont want to leave you"- they stayed like that, laying in each other´s embrace for a while- "I think its time to talk. We have some decisions to make, love. What are we going to do next?"

"I have no idea"- was her only answer