Characters are not mine
I hope it's easier to read now, if someone wants me to edit the previous chapters please tell me.
After what felt like an eternity, Maura entered the living room again, her face pale. She held up one of the bloody bandaged she had found.
"Jane, we need to talk".
Jane felt like puking.
No, she didn't feel like puking, she really had to. Getting up she ran towards the still opened door, Maura following her. While Jane passed the food she had just eaten into the toilet, Maura hold her hair back, saying soothing things. When Jane was finished, she got up to get her friend a glass of water.
As she re-entered the room, she saw Jane curled up on the floor, crying. Sitting down next to the brunette, she held the glass out for Jane to drink. "Here, you need some hydration now" she said as calmly as she could.
Jane had never felt this vulnerable in her entire life.
"Go away" she sobbed, hiding her face in her hands. But Maura didn't go away.
Instead she began stroking her friend's back, asking her to look at her.
"I don't want you to see me like this" Jane cried. "Just go away."
"No." was all that Maura said before standing up and pulling Jane with her. Even though the detective protested, the smaller woman got her into her bedroom and sat her down on the edge of the bed.
Jane was screaming at her to leave, to go home, but Maura knew that she was trying to push her away so she wouldn't see her this broken. She knew Jane secretly needed her.
She searched for a shirt and shorts she could wear to bed and changed. She then forced the detective to lie down and put the covers over both of them. Jane didn't calm down.
She was sobbing loudly, trying to push the blonde away physically. Both of them knew that Jane was in some kind of panic attack. There was no way she would act like this being totally herself.
"You don't have to be strong tonight" Maura tried to get to her best friend.
"Please let me be strong for you" she said while taking Jane into her arms.
"You are safe with me" she whispered. "Just let me be with you, ok?"
Jane finally relaxed a little bit into Maura. Her head found its way to the crook of Maura's neck, her arms both hugged the doctor's waist. Maura held Jane tightly, one arm around the brunette's back, her other hand stroking the unruly hair.
She held her friend through her breakdown for hours, before Jane finally fell asleep.
When Maura was sure her friend was sleeping deeply, she allowed herself to let the tears she'd been holding fall. It hurt her to see her best friend this broken, especially since Jane always appeared so strong. She tried her hardest not to think about the bandages and razors she had found earlier. She wouldn't guess about what Jane did and why she did it, she would wait for Jane to tell her in the morning, when she was hopefully better. She made a mental note to call them both in sick in the morning, giving them time to talk.
Pressing a gentle kiss onto Jane's head she closed her eyes and tried to sleep.