Hey guess what, im writing this while my Internet doesn't work. So I still write and slave away at this when I cant even post it yet. That's some cool stuff right there. Im actually pretty hyper right now to, cuz I had like this awesome convo on the phone with my ex bf and it was some funny stuff. Ya pretty much. Ok onto the story, and away from my random self. O wait no, my confessions. Ok me equals struggling with my sexuality andddd well you know how Spencer told Ashley that she liked her, I told my best friend that. But my friend wasn't gay. She's straight. And well she didn't do any surprise like Ashley did. But I didn't tell her in person. I was going to and at Youth group, which now thinking about it, im pretty much glad that I didn't tell her there. I really wanted to tell her in person, but it was really hard. So she told me to email her, and I did but she wasn't sure which one it was, so since I had it printed out I gave it to her in person, and then I had talked to her later, and all she got out of it, was that she knew I was like bi or lez or something. And I told her oooo heck no im not lez, I like guys A LOT (no offense to you lesbians, cuz you know what, I still love you all) and I just told her I was confused, so she told me I should talk to one of our youth leaders about it, but she didn't get what I was really trying to say in that message, so I asked her if anybody was around and she said no, (which this was over myspace at the time now) and that she doesn't tell anyone what we talk about anyways. So I straight out told her that I liked her. And ya. She freaked I think. But we don't talk so much lately. It sucks but I guess its life. I care for her a lot, and would do anything for her, but she doesn't know that. I wont tell her either well actually I told her I was their for her but I don't know what is happening with us right now, so anyways I told you all this, because It had to do with that one specific part of the story, like I was Spencer having to tell Ashley, but Ashley in that case is straight. Whatever im probably confusing you all now sooooo NOW we are onto the story.

The waves were crashing still, Spence being held by Ash, Ash loved holding Spence and the feelings that they were getting were ones they have only felt with each other. It was sensational. Ashley let go of Spence and layed down which Spence stayed sitting up and had her arms wrapped around her knees. She looked out at the ocean still watching the waves crash, would occasionally look up at the stars and then back at the ocean. Her hair was blowing back from the breeze that was taking place. Ashley started rubbing Spencer's back since Spencer was close enough to her, so she could reach. Spence had a sudden chill up her spine, but then relaxed knowing that it was just Ash. She felt safe with Ashley and she knew that whatever happened tonight that it would all be okay. Well she was pretty sure.

Ashley: Spencer, you wanna lay down?

Spencer: Um ya, but I want to go for a walk really quick.

Ashley: Uh ok, you want me to come with?

Spencer: Nah its fine, I will be right back.

Ashley: (should I let her go by herself, I need to be with her to make sure she is safe otherwise her family would kill me slash hate me forever. Also what if Spencer like gets hurt but makes it through then she will hate me forever. I don't want that, no way.)

Spencer had started to walk off and was like 20 feet away from Ashley when Ashley spoke up.

Ashley: Spencer……

Spencer: What Ashley I just want to take a walk!

Ashley (wow what was the snap at me for?): What's wrong?

Spencer had started to cry or sob or something but Ashley knew that something was wrong.

Spencer quietly: Nothing.

Ashley: You sure?

Spencer still spoke quietly.

Spencer: no.

Ashley: What is it?

Spencer walked over to Ashley and wrapped her arms around Ashley's neck. Ashley put her arms around Spencer's waist and started to comfort Spencer.

Ashley: Babe it's going to be ok. Whatever is wrong you can tell me.

Spencer: Im going to tell you, cause I really want to and …sob its bugging me but lets go walk and talk.

Ashley: Man you really want this walk.

Spencer: Its still spending time with you right?

Ashley: Ya and that's nice, now lets go so we can get back here and try to sleep, yes the beaches have curfews but no one will see us, as long as we are sneaky.

Spencer: Your always sneaky.

Ashley: I know, now lets go.

Spencer takes Ashley's hand and isn't really crying anymore but has a few sniffles here and there. Ashley keeps looking over at Spencer to make sure she would make it through.

Ashley: So what is it Spence?

Spencer: I don't know, I was just thinking about what's happening to my family lately and then how you can just make it all better.

Ashley: Wait you don't want me to make it better, because to tell you the truth you make my life a WHOLE lot better. I basically think you complete me. Haha.

Spencer: No I want you to make it all better, but I have to help you with that. My moms a complete bitch, I wish she would just leave and I wouldn't have to see her anymore, my dad I love him with all my heart, I mean he supports me and likes you and then Glen he's an ass no question there, and then Clay he's awesome also.

Ashley: Well at least you have two people that care about you.

Spencer: Ashley you have two people that care about you also. I, Spencer Carlin, love you to death….

Ashley interrupted Spencer.

Ashley: And who would the other one be?

Spencer: Well cut me off why don't you, I was trying to get there silly.

Ashley: Cool beans, now go.

Spencer: Hey looks like you stole a phrase of mine, but anyways, my dad. He loves you just like another one of his daughters, he doesn't care that you're gay. He will know about me soon. I will tell him just for you.

Ashley: And what about doing it for you?

Spencer smiled, stopped walking, turned and looked at Ashley, and grabbed Ashley's other hand.

Spencer: And myself.

Ashley: You're really going to tell him?

Spencer: Yes I will. As nice as this may sound, I might wait on telling my mom so we can still see each other and not break her all right now. Glen he already hates us both so im not sure when to tell him. I will for sure though call my Dad and Clay in the living room and tell them.

Ashley: Wow Carlin's actually being nice to her mom. So you want me to do this with you?

Spencer thought about it for a while.

Spencer: No. Can you promise me one thing though.

Ashley: Of course.

Spencer: Can you stay outside in case something does go wrong and I need to leave.

Ashley: Hmmmm, I don't know about that. I think I may be to busy.

Spencer: Um ok, well then can I call.

Ashley: Like I said, I might be to busy.

Spencer: ok um then um (has hurt in her voice) I guess I will just call Aiden or something.

Ashley: Or you can go up in your room and not have to run away from your fears.

Spencer sarcastically: Ya sounds like a great idea. (looks away from Ashley)

Ashley: Spencer, of course I will stay outside and wait up, im not going to be busy, im playing with you right now.

Spencer looked back at Ashley and smiled.

Spencer: I hate you.

Ashley: Not as much as I hate you.

Spencer: Aww (put on a hurt face)

Spencer let go of Ashleys hands and started chasing after her. They ran all the way back to the pier where Spencer finally tackled Ashley and they started wrestling with each other in the sand.

Ashley of course got Spencer pinned and just held her there. They looked at each other square in the eyes and then Ashley leaned down and gently touched Spencer's lips with hers. It was their first kiss together with each other ever. Ashley then pulled up.

Ashley: Im sorry, I shouldn't have done that, I don't want to rush you into anything.

Spencer: No Ashley, I loved it, its ok.

With that Spencer leaned up and kissed Ashley back. That was the 15 minutes and at that 15 minute mark. They knew their lives were changed. It was official, very official now, that they were going to have the best night ever. Spencer brushed her tongue against Ashleys lower lip and Ashley let her enter. 5 minutes later they broke apart and got up off each other with huge smiles on their faces and walked over to the blankets. Spencer got her phone looked at the time and it was 12:48 am. Both her and Ashley layed down. They cuddled next to each other and Ashley put her arm around Spencer. Spencer then put her right arm over Ashley also. Then Spencer put her forehead touching Ashleys and they sat there like that through out the whole night. When Ashley woke up she was still holding Spencer but Spencer was facing the other way. She gently shook Spencer to wake up and Spencer kinda moaned.

Spencer: groaning: what

Ashley: Sweety, wake up, its like 12 in the afternoon.

Spencer: O shit, church, my moms gonna kill me.

Ashley (she wont touch her otherwise my foot will literally go up her ass): No she wont, I mean your dad did let you stay with me, so he knows that you wouldn't be able to make it.

Spencer: That's true.

Ashley: Ok lets get all this cleaned up, drop it off at my house, brush our teeth so we don't have to smell each others bad ass breath for the whole day, then go out to dinner… I mean breakfast, man these mornings.

Spencer: Ha wow, Davies isn't the smartest one out their now is she?

Ashley: Says the blonde.

Spencer: O no you didn't.

Ashley snaps her fingers and goes

Ashley: O yes she did.

Spencer: Ha ok you win.

Ashley: Of course.

Ashley and Spencer pick up the blankets and fold them. Spencer then went and picked up some of the candles and since all were burnt out threw them in a garbage bin that was about 100 ft away. They then walked up the beach to where Ashley's car was. Surprisingly to them there was a lot of people out on the beach right now, but since it was about 90 degrees out it was expected. But two people out on the beach saw them, and were pissed at what they saw. It disgusted them both to see Ashley and Spencer holding hands.

Now who saw them? Only I know and you guys will find out. I'm insanely bored and I hope to be posting this tonight since my mom is trying to fix our internet. Peace out yo, I have to go to work in an hour. O and I don't live in CA sooo the whole beach scene is what I imagine it to be and what I have seen at beaches that I have been to. Ok REVIEWS hope you still like. And I'm not trying to make Spencer seem like a baby who cries a lot either; she's just very emotional right now. Ok bye.