I want to remind you again that there's a trigger warning on this story. This chapter can be skipped. It is a little bit graphic and very emotional, so you can feel free to just read the next one, it won't stop you from understanding the story.
Since this chapter is rather heavy I am going to upload the next one the same time, so you don't have to stress over this.

Characters are still not mine

Maura woke up to Jane not being in bed. She moved her hand over to the messy sheets, feeling the wetness over there. Jane had been sweating. Fear grew inside her. Jane must have had a nightmare. What should she do now? She couldn't just go and search for Jane, possibly running into what she tried to hide so badly.

Then Maura heard the sobs, and with that her heart broke. She felt guilty for not having been there for her friend and now she had the chance to be. She got up and went towards the source of the sobs.

She opened the door awfully slow. Jane didn't notice. Maura stood in the door frame, eyes closed. Taking one deep breath she opened them. She had thought her heart had broken when she heard Jane crying, but what happened to her now seriously made her wonder if it was scientifically possible for hearts to actually shatter.

After what seemed like an eternity for Maura, Jane stopped. She leaned back and calmed down slowly. Then she sighed and opened her eyes. She froze when she saw Maura standing in the door frame. "How long have you been standing there?" she asked while trying to cover up her thighs. "Long enough" she swallowed the tears that were threatening to build up "to know that there will never be another night that I'm not there for you."

What followed then was silence. Neither of them moved for minutes, neither of them spoke. When the panic had left Jane she began to think rationally. "Maura?" It was so quiet and so soft Maura had almost missed it. She nodded. "I think I need stitches." She switched into work mode. It helped her keep her emotions aside for now.

She got her tools and slowly uncovered Jane's thighs. The blood was still running and it was dripping through the towel. "We need to wash them first, I can't see where I have to work." Jane nodded. Maura pointed at the bathtub and helped her friend sitting down in it. Jane insisted on keeping her panties on, even though they would be wet afterwards.

The shock of Maura having caught her had cleared Jane's head. The pain was gone, what remained was emptiness. She wasn't ashamed, she didn't feel pain. In fact, she felt nothing. She thought nothing. She was empty. Of course Maura noticed, and it scared her. There was no time to freak out though, Jane was losing too much blood.

Maura turned the water on and checked the temperature until it was lukewarm. "This might hurt.", she said before gently letting a little bit of water run over the detective's left thigh. She didn't even flinch. Maura spend as little time washing her friend's thighs and judging the injuries as possible. She bit her lip. Jane wasn't going to like what would have to be done. Maura turned the water off and wrapped bandages around her favourite pair of legs. "I need to take you to a hospital. I can't fix all of those. You've cut too deep." Jane didn't even react. Maura was scared to death.

She quickly picked Jane up and carried her to her car. She fastened the brunette's seatbelt before taking her place behind the wheel and rushing to the second nearest hospital. As far as she knew they treated anonymously if wished, so that's what she wanted.

She carried Jane into the emergency unit, blood sipping through the bandages. "I need help!", she screamed. Her emotions were breaking through. A nurse came running towards them. "Please.", she sobbed. "I need help. She cuts. She cut too deep. I need help." The nurse called for backup and in a matter of seconds two other nurses appeared to help them. One took Jane out of Maura's arms. Maura immediately felt the loss. She didn't want to give Jane away, but she had to in order to help her.

Two of the nurses went away with Jane, one stayed to talk to Maura. "What's you name?" The blonde was pale. "I'm Doctor Maura Isles." The nurse smiled at her when she said she was a doctor. "What happened Doctor?" Maura slightly shook her head. "Is it ok if she stays anonymous?" The nurse nodded and said "of course.". "She harms herself. She started over a year ago. I only know since a few days ago. I slept at hers tonight. I heard sobs and went to look after her. She cut so deep."

Tears were streaming down her face, dripping onto her chest. "There was so much blood and I couldn't move until she stopped and then I washed the cuts. I stitched her up myself before, but this time the cuts are too deep. She lost so much blood." And with that Maura lost consciousness.