So I'm bored, and as Ricky bobby's kid would say " I'm all jacked up on Mt.Dew" so lets get this rollin.

Ashley and Nicole kept following Spencer but kept quiet.

(How could she not tell me this)? Ashley thought.

"Hey Ash can you just keep quiet about it till later, I don't want to spoil the fun here," Nicole asked.

"Not promising anything," Ashley said.

"Fair enough, I guess you have the right to be a little pissed," Nicole said.

"A little?" Ashley huffed.

"Okay a lot, but please just if you do confront her keep it cool," Nicole pleaded.

"Once again, no promises, what else happened, why was she suicidal? Come on I need the details," Ashley asked

As soon as she asked that though she noticed that they were at the pier. Nicole gave Ashley a look and Ashley looked at Spencer who looked back at both of them very confused.

"Who's suicidal?" Spencer asked.

"Umm no one important.." Nicole tried to lie.

"Wouldn't you like to know," Ashley snapped

Nicole just sighed. (Aw crap here it comes)

"Excuse me," Spencer said.

"Never mind," Ashley stated and then walked off down the beach the opposite way.

"Okay what the hell was that all about?" Spencer asked Nicole.

"Umm.." Nicole didn't want to spill.

"Spill Nicole, now please," Spencer begged.

"Umm, well if you go chase after her, you'll find out," Nicole finally said.

"Crap, okay," Spencer ran off.

(I'm screwed) Nicole thought to herself

Spencer ran down the beach after Ashley and about 2 minutes later caught up with her.

"Jeez I'm seriously out of shape," Spencer said as she reached Ashley.

"…" Ashley didn't even respond.

"Ash stop," Spencer said.

Ashley didn't stop, nor did she say anything again.

"Ashley please stoppp, what did I do?" Spencer asked while pleading for her girlfriend to stop.

Ashley turned around practically glared at Spencer.

"What did you do, how bout you didn't tell me that you were suicidal, you kept it to yourself, god dammit Spencer I had to fucking here it from Nicole, and I couldn't hear it from your damn mouth, what the fuck, why the hell could you not tell me that you were suicidal," Ashley screamed.

Ashley then realized she went overboard with that.

Spencer started to get teary eyed.

Spencer started to turn around to leave but Ashley grabbed her arm and turned her back around, and saw that Spencer was crying.

"I'm sorry for yelling, but why, WHY could you tell me?" Ashley wanted to know so badly.

"I was going to sniff but, but, I didn't want you to freak out or think less of me, or think I was psycho or anything like that," Spencer answered in mid cry.

"Baby I would NEVER freak out, think less of you or think you were psycho or ANYTHING like that," Ashley said.

"Then what was that you just did, I'd call that a freak out," Spencer replied.

Now they were both walking along the beach talking.

"Okay ya that was a freak out, but only because I had to find out from someone else and you didn't tell me," Ashley said "I'm sorry."

"It's okay," Spencer said, "Just not again please"

"Promise," Ashley said and she gave Spencer a hug.

"So can I know why?" Ashley asked.

"Yeah.. but, lets go back to Nicole and then I'll tell it," Spencer said.

"Okay fine, whoever gets back first wins," Ashley started to run.

"How bout we walk and enjoy ourselves," Spencer said.

"O ya, I forgot you're out of shape," Ashley joked.

"Shut up," Spencer said.

They started on their way back. Once back Nicole got filled in and they all sat down under the pier and Spencer began.

"Okay so in seventh grade I got severely depressed, I hated how my life was at the time, hated how my home life was, hated everything. I couldn't listen to music without wanting to die and usually music would calm me, but thoughts of killing myself just surrounded me and were always on my mind. When I was with friends, or at school I was usually fine, but when I got home I would go back to having those thoughts." Spencer started to kind of cry and Ashley was in shock. Her angel breaking down in front of her, reliving her past. Ashley put her arm around Spencer and tried to comfort her. "I always fought with my mom, I even told her I wanted to kill myself, but no she thought it was a joke. I didn't tell her straight up really. One night I just got really mad at her, wrote a note that said it and left it upstairs for her to read. So I went on with these thoughts and finally one night I broke down. Went to my parents bedroom and was crying. They asked what's wrong and I said 'I feel like I want to die' and my dad freaked out. He took me into his bathroom where I had broke down and started hyperventilating and he drove me to the hospital. They gave me a mental test to see if I was insane, then I had to talk to like 500 different counselors, eventually I fell asleep. Before I had to take the mental test and when I got to the hospital I called my mom on the phone and said 'Mom I love you, and everything will be okay' she was crying on the other end of the line. I don't think I got put on suicide watch, if I did, they didn't make it obvious or anything. My dad made me go to counseling, with in my own opinion was dumb. My counselor didn't get the fact that I hated tea, every week she asked me if I wanted some green tea, I always said no. OO and once somehow we got to the fact that I'm deathly scared of spiders, and she said 'so if we went out and got a wolf spider and let it loose up here and had it crawl towards you, would you be able to handle it' to try and break my fear of spiders. She was crazy. Anyways counseling went on for a month or two and finally I stopped going. I still had the thoughts of killing myself for a while, but then Id think to myself how stupid I thought the idea was and I would sing to myself or just think of something else, not suicide."

"Oh my gosh," Ashley managed to say.

"Yeah," Spencer said. She was fully in tears now.

"Spencer you never knew this, but I always watched you after that, to make sure you were okay," Nicole added.

"Thanks, you're a doll," Spencer laughed.

"Holy crap, that's why I would have wished you would have told me, that way I could have been there to protect you if you relapsed," Ashley said.

"Aww, your so sweet," Spencer then gave ash a quick kiss.

"So did you ever like attempt before you told your parents," Ashley asked, "Don't have to answer if you don't want to."

"It's better to be honest right, well here. Once I kind of did, I held a knife to my heart, but people were home so I put it back and walked away." Spencer stated truthfully.

"Sadly I was there that day, and I saw her put the knife down, never knew she held it to her heart though, just thought she was using it for food or something. I always think now that if she had gone through and I walked into the kitchen and saw her there that I'd freak and probably not know what to do without her." Nicole said.

"Aww Spencer baby please don't ever do that again, cause I don't know what I'd do without you," Ashley said in tears.

"Don't worry hun, I don't have thoughts anymore," Spencer reassured her.

"That's great," Ashley hugged her.

"We should probably get going, its getting dark," Spencer said.

"Thank you captain obvious," Nicole spoke.

"Watch your dirty mouth, you have no room to talk," Spencer playfully hit Nicole on the arm.

Ashley and Spencer walked back to the car hand in hand while Nicole walked by Spencer and started laughing bout old times.

Until next time.