Characters are not mine.
First of all I want to thank all of you for the kind messages, they really helped a lot!
I also got some messages about the behaviour of both Jane and Maura, and believe me, every little detail is planned. Even if it might seem confusing or wrong, I promise it all has a reason. It might take a while to explain them all, but I feel like the little uncharacteristical lines or actions reflect my reality, and are what keeps this story writeable (?) for me. I think you know what I mean ;).
This chapter is going to contain sexual topics, but only of the nice and loving kind. Still, if you could be triggered or just don't like it, please skip the second part of this chapter (beginning at the xxxxxxxxxx...)
The air was slightly chilly, with a good amount of wind playing with the leaves of the trees. Jane and Maura walked through the forest in silence, the only contact their interlaced fingers.
A little bit out of breath they returned to the house when it got dark outside. The walk had been a good way for both of them to collect and clean their thoughts.
Jane had insisted on showering before dinner, but wanted Maura to go first. Finally they decided to share the shower. Again Jane kept her panties on.
"What are you so afraid of?" Maura asked curiously while undoing Jane's bandages. "Hmm?", was the answer she got. "Why do you feel like you need to hide your body from me?" The brunette thought about it for a few minutes. Maura took that time to check on the cuts and stitches, seemingly happy with the healing process.
"I want to be honest with you, Maura." The blonde looked up and took Jane's hands in hers smiling. "In one week, you found out about me doing this, looked at my scars, got me to open up about my feelings and thoughts, saw me cry, saw me having a panic attack, watched me lose control and saved me from killing myself. I never had someone to see all of this. I feel stripped mentally. In just this one week we started touching, kissing and making out. This is all a bit much for me. I feel like my private parts are the only thing you don't know about me and right now this is the only safety I got. Just in case we don't work out, I want to have one part of me that is only mine. I feel like I'm giving myself to you, and I like that, but I'm not ready to give myself to you completely. I chose between my inside and my outside. And I thought what's going on on the inside is more important for us at the moment." Her eyes were pressed shut almost painfully, fearing to be misunderstood or worse – not understood at all. She had never been one to talk about her feelings and thoughts, but she owed it to the blonde.
Maura stood up and leant down to kiss the brunette gently. She had a feeling the brunette wasn't telling her everything, but the huge amount of already given information was enough for now. "Thank you Jane. I understand now and it's ok with me." "Thank you.", the detective whispered in relief.
They got under the spray and washed themselves without really looking at the other one's body.
Jane ordered pizza while Maura was drying her hair in the bathroom. Searching for her brush -Jane had put their bathroom utensils into the drawers- she found the orange box she had left in the brunette's apartment. If Jane took it with her on vacation it had to mean that it had been a good idea. Smiling she made her way towards the kitchen once she was finished.
Jane looked out of the window, her hair still damp. Maura encircled her waist, pulling the taller woman against her. The brunette chuckled. "I love it when you don't wear heals. I mean you look damn fine in them, but I love being taller than you. Plus you look cute without them."
The doctor turned Jane around in her arms. "Is that so?", she smirked. "That's good. I like it, too. I like kissing you, but do you know what I love even more?" Jane shook her head. "Hugging you like this." They cuddled into each other until the doorbell rang. Maura went to open it.
Coming back she had a confused look on her face. "What's wrong?", Jane asked. "It's just that you ordered one rather small pizza for both of us." The doctor seemed puzzled, looking intensely at the box in her hands, trying to understand Jane's actions. The brunette smiled lovingly at the sight of her overly focused friend. "Well, I thought since both of us feel rather sick... Plus we only ate small meals today and I didn't want one of us to have stomach aches afterwards. We can order another one if you want."
Maura shook her head no and smiled at the uncharacteristically thoughtfulness. "No it's fine. You are right."
They ate in comfortable silence before moving to the couch to watch TV. Deciding to watch a comedy they snuggled up on each other. Maura had her back pressed against the couch, her head propped on a few pillows. Jane was in front of her, her back cuddled against the blonde's front. One arm was holding her close, the tiny hand laying inches under Jane's breasts.
The movie was not one either of them would usually watch, but it was light hearted and nothing they had to think about. They didn't pay attention to the screen anyway. Maura couldn't help but notice Jane pressing her backside against her, and Jane focused on the hand drawing gentle circles on her upper stomach. They were both dressed in their pyjamas, and as much as skin to skin contact would have been nice, the thin fabric between them created a special sensation.
After the movie had ended and they enjoyed each other enough, they went to the bedroom. It had been an exhausting day, at least for Maura, who had driven them.
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They had both been to the bathroom once that night, even though they went there for different reasons. Jane simply had to pee,while Maura brushed her teeth, something she had forgotten before going to bed.
Maura woke up first, as usual. It took some time to get aware of her surroundings, but soon enough she felt two warm hands on her body. Jane had curled up behind her, her head resting against Maura's shoulders. One of her hands laid on the blonde's belly, underneath the silken shirt. The other one was simply placed on her breast, gently holding it.
The blonde thought about getting up and preparing breakfast, but the temptation to enjoy Jane's hands a little bit longer was just too strong.
At some point the brunette began to stir. Slowly she woke up.
"Morning Maur.", she slurred. "Good morning to you, too, Jane", Maura said happily.
Jane had obviously not gained full consciousness, as she began groping Maura. She wondered what could be so soft and warm under her hands.
When it finally hit her she sat straight up. However she left her hands were they were. The blonde laughed at Jane's shocked expression. "It's ok Jane. Actually I enjoy it very much.", she said while turning to lay on her back. "You do?" Jane bit her lip. Should she-? Could she? She was almost sure she was allowed to, but she decided to leave the decision to the blonde. "Can I-?" She took the hand from her friend's belly and motioned at the buttons of Maura's shirt. Maura nodded.
Jane opened one button after the other, careful not to expose the blonde yet. Finally she took one deep breath before shifting the thin fabric to each side.
The view in front of her was almost too much to handle.
Maura on her back, her hair wildly spread around her head, no make up and slightly parted lips, violet silk around her pale skin and two wonderful swells topped with rosy nipples.
"You are so beautiful." Jane watched in awe as Maura's chest went up and down. "Touch me, Jane.", the blonde whispered.
Jane sat up further, before deciding to straddle the doctor's hips. She dragged her fingers from the waistband of Maura's pants up to the underside of those gorgeous breasts. After what felt like an eternity to both of them she took both breasts into her hands, realizing they fit perfectly. Then she began stroking the soft flesh, careful not to touch her nipples yet.
When she finally flicked them, Maura moaned.
Jane played with them a bit longer, earning more and more groans of pleasure. She was nervous, after all she had panicked the last time and she didn't know if she could stay strong this time. But the look of pure trust in Maura's face made her go on.
"Jane?", the exposed woman moaned. The brunette immediately stopped her gentle assault, thinking Maura moaning her name was the hottest thing ever. "I...I won't be able to last much longer without touching myself. I know you're not ready to do it yourself, but I need to get release." She hoped she wouldn't scare Jane away, but having Jane touching her breasts with that much curiosity caused an uncomfortable amount of wetness and a pounding, that begged for attention.
"Do you want me to leave?", Jane asked gently, not wanting to seem ignorant or hurt. She wasn't. In fact she was startled in a positive way by the effect her play had seemed to have on the blonde. "That's up to you. If you want to leave, you can do so, but I would like it if you kept touching me."
Jane was sure of what she wanted to do. She would stay there, it was just too delicious to see the doctor squirm and hear her moan beneath her. Not knowing how to say that to the doctor, she got up sit next to Maura, allowing the blonde access to her own center, and began touching her now favourite pair of boobs again. Maura moaned loudly. The idea of touching herself while having Jane's hands on her was already turning her on beyond belief, but knowing that exactly this would happen now caused a gush of wetness between her legs.
Jane found great pleasure in watching Maura's face while she went higher and higher. It only took a few minutes before the blonde closed her eyes, giving in to her arousal completely. Her mouth was opened widely and moans were leaving her body uncontrollably. Her face and chest were flushed red, and Jane was convinced she had never been more beautiful.
When she came her eyes flew open, a silent scream escaping her throat. She shook violently next to Jane, who gently let her fingers run up and down Maura's upper body.
Maura regained her senses rather quickly, looking the brunette straight in the eyes.
"That-", Jane began "-was the best thing I've ever seen."
The blonde smiled, still breathing heavily.
"Holy shit that was hot!"
Maura just giggled, happy Jane didn't run this time.