**Chapter 19**

I woke up still on the kitchen floor. My head is throbbing as I got up and with a struggle cleaned up the broken plate pieces. I got back to cleaning the dishes and the water was still warm. My dizziness keep threatening to come back and I feel so weak. When I'm done, I put my ear piece back on the kitchen counter and took something for my aching head. Hearing everyone having a great time as laughter filled our house. I got the coffee water going. As the water was boiling I turned to retrieve the milk from the fridge, when out of nowhere I blacked out again, I spilled the milk that was in my hand all over myself. Heard Dimitri's rushing feet came towards me then everything went so silent and completely black. Strong arms lifted me from the floor and carried me up the stairs and lay me down on our bed.

'Rose. Rose, wake up honey.' His voice calm yet I sense a hint of panic there.

'What is going on?' Olena asked rushing into our room.

'I found Rose passed out on the kitchen floor. She was really dizzy earlier.'

'Let me look her over.' Olena said and sat next to me on the bed. She is a trained nurse after all.

'Her pulse is really fast.' Then she lifted my legs apart and by the sound of her voice did not sound very good. 'Is that blood?' They both turned me over on my side and according to them it was. Dimitri picked me up again and literally ran with me out the front door. He lay my head on someone's lap as he slam the door shut and raced off to the hospital. I came around in the middle of our drive. Looked up at Olena as she smooth my hair back. I am so completely out of sorts, I don't know where I am at all.

'What is going on?' I asked slurring my words.

'It's okay honey, we are almost at the hospital.' Dimitri said looking back at me quickly, then back to the road ahead again.

'What- what for?' I asked out of breath. 'Why do I feel so funny?' I ramble as we came to a halt outside the hospital's ER. Dimitri got out and ran with me in his arms into the ER. Asking for help. Doctors and nurses ran around to help him. Dimitri told them everything, and then total darkness took me over yet again. Later I my hearing came to and I heard doctors yelling orders all around me. Someone ordered they need to monitor my babies and I could hear both their fast beating little hearts. They are doing every kind of test on me known to man. My surroundings started to zing all around me then I was sleeping dreamless-ly.

I woke-up feeling really strange. I'm alone in a room. Through the glass of my door I could see Dimitri talking to someone very animatedly. Now, I am trying to take inventory of my body. I feel relatively okay. I am just really thirsty. Reaching for a glass of water on my night stand. I took a few welcoming sips then put it back. Why do I feel so strange? And I am so tired to think about anything so I just fell asleep again. Opened my eyes later and straight into Dimitri's warm concerned eyes.

'Hello.' I manage to say.

'Hey. How are you feeling?'

'Tired and really feel funny for some strange reason.' Dimitri's face started to scare me.

'When you fainted in the kitchen, your left fallopian tube burst because you carried the twins in an ectopic pregnancy and from your fall your tube burst. Doctor Walnikov tried everything in his power to safe your tube but the damage was just to extensive and had no choice but to aboard the pregnancy.' As I watch my caring husband's tears ran down his face. I full out wept at this news. Dimitri climb on my bed and held me as I kept crying till I cried myself to sleep. I'm even crying in my sleep. I was in the hospital a whole week and then Dr Walnikov ordered me another two weeks bed rest at home till my surgery scar has been healed.

I was in a dark twisted place where I would just sit in the dark staring at nothing. Not eating or drinking much at all. Having crying fits ever so often. When my two weeks at home was over. I buried myself in my work. I only communicated when absolutely necessary. 6 months came and gone and I'm finally starting to slowly climb out of my pit of sorrow. Opening up to Dimitri little by little each day. Christian and Lissa's had beautiful baby boy called, Eric Christian Ozra- Dragamir. He was born four months ago. I only put on a happy front for them but kept strictly to my guardian duties nothing more.

As friends I grew apart from them. I could see Lissa longed for my friendship, but I could not give it to her at the moment. Dimitri also started to opened up to me and he wept on my lap kneeling in front of me one night. I kept myself strong for him and Junior but I could not keep that wall up very long. Junior came to us when we were both crying one night.

'Why are you crying mommy?' He asked me. How do you even begin to explain it to a 16 month old baby boy.

'Mommy and daddy are just sad over something very sad that happened.' I tried to explained to him as he sit on my lap.

'My baby brother and sister died?' I just looked astonished at Dimitri and he looked at me with the same look on his face.

'Yes, angel they have.' How did he knew that? New tears stream down my face. 'How did you know that, angel?' I asked him.

'I prayed to Jesus and He told me that they are safe with Him and that mommy will get well again and will soon have another baby brother and sister come to us.' Even more shocked then before. Junior gave us both a lovely hug and big wet kiss then left to go and play. Dimitri and I just starred at each other. Dimitri took my hands then kissed them.

'I really believe him.' He said looking deep into my eyes as he cup one side of my face.

'In a weird way so do I.' I said. 'We both cried enough to last us two live times.' I continued.

'Yes, I agree.' He came and sit closer to me, then pulled me on to his lap. Just holding me in his arms.

'Oh, how I missed this.'

'So did I.'

'I am so-so sorry about everything and not being myself at all for not being stronger and being a better mother to Junior.'

'I am really sorry to.' We both excepted each others apologies. Feeling like the weight of the world has been lifted from us both. Over the course of time we started getting back to being our old selves over the course of a few weeks. A few more months went by and we started trying to get pregnant again at every opportunity we got, when we are together for the past four months we tried then finally a few weeks before little Dimitri's 2nd birthday we got news I was already two and a half months pregnant with twins. My doctor making me go through all the test they can throw at a pregnant woman. Dimitri stuck to me like Velcro. I am kind of liking it but at the moment it can get just a tad too much, but I'm learn to deal with it.

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Our new curriculum, are receiving very great reports from all over the world. Our first group of novice are going on their first field trip, in two weeks. To my surprise it's St. Vladimir's novice students that are going to have our first ever field trip experience. So I'm driving out there over the course of a few days to get to Montana, with Vivian and four other guardians, Eric has arranged to take over guarding duties while we go out with the novice. We arrived just as a vampire morning started. I have been going through William's new physical training, I wasn't just sore for a few week or two. No, more like a month, but I got through it and I'm a better guardian for it.

I'm now in better shape than when I graduated from this place. We met up with headmaster Miss Kirova who they appointed again after all the drama was over. She was glad to see I worked hard to get my current position as head of guardian HQ. We were shown to our guest housing and I could you believe it I got Dimitri's old room. How ironic. In my royal guardian slash head of HQ uniform we head out to the novice classes to observe them. Vivian and I just stood at the back of the class room, listening and observing the novice responses.

We let the teachers in the teacher's lounge know we will only observe the novice in their classes on how they respond to our new curriculum. Vivian told me after a while to sit so I could stay off my feet. Word got out rather quickly about my second pregnancy. Don't know how it happened because we only told our family and Lissa. So I sat down and listened to the novice respond to the teacher. Vivian took notes of everything. Then when the questions got tougher the teacher Stan. Yes, my old teacher Stan, hand over the lesson to me. He can be glad I remember this section of the curriculum almost word for word. I walked down to the front and took over from him. The student ask her question again and I answered with confidence. Then in the span of 5 minutes I was bombarded with a zillion strigoi questions.

How they attack? How their minds work? How come they sometimes attack in groups and then others fight alone? Then I explained to them. The how's and the why's and how quick thinking can either safe your life and the life of your moroi or it could kill you both. The bell rang and I know no matter where I would be going for the next 14 days on campus I will have a group that will be following me around. In physical training we observe perfect candidates to keep a eye on for future references. Standing on top looking down, watching the novice took to the new training program very well. There is quite a few that show a lot of potential.

After classes were all done for the day, we got all the novice teachers together saying how we are going to work on this field trip, then after we talked to the teachers we got all the novice together at the same time and told them how things will be working. Afterward we divided the group into smaller groups, and we got the first group ready, that will be going on their first 3 days field trip with us. We got a moroi teacher to chant a mark on the novice arms that would allow the novice to not utter a word of their field trip for the next two weeks then their mark would fade. They all agreed to it and got ready. This group of almost graduating novice is a rather large class of about 30 novices. For the dhampir world this is really great. I can assign more focused guardians to more moroi families.