Warning: This does contain adult language, themes, situations, and content. All characters are over the age of 18.

Important information: I do not own TMNT or any other reference I make to current popular culture and/or movies, I am just a fan whose mind runs wild sometimes. The TMNT look will be that of the 2014 movie, I like that they have stylized clothing. The rest will be sort of a mash up. Like my own little multi-verse. Thank you for the reviews, you have no idea how much it helps me. I always love to hear from you. I enjoy both praise and constructive criticism.

Chapter 4

Where Flowers Grow Shadows Go

Donatello was laying close to Hanna on his bed. They had all stayed up late talking and laughing. Raph had even come back from wherever he goes and had a social moment with all of them. Mikey decided to pop in a B movie and they all sat around eating pizza and quoting Bruce Campbell. Hanna had either sat on his lap or next to him. It was a strange and new for him.

When it got too late in the evening, it was decided that the girls should stay with them for the night. Jay in the room that April called the guest room. She had put it together for the night's her and Casey had to crash. Hanna came back to his bedroom. Undress and crawled under his cover falling to sleep quickly.

Now in the quiet of the room, arms around her, he had time to think. What happened just a few hours ago between them scared the hell out of him. He had lost control and went way further than he had really intended.

Donatello sighed and shifted his weight half on his shell. 'What am I thinking? I should be happy. I am happy. Am I?' He sighed again rubbing his eyes. 'OK Donnie think about this logically. Maybe you only have known her for a day, but in that time you've talked extensively, built a mini-helicopter, she not freaked out, you saved her… you saved her.' He touched her arm and she snuggled closer to him. 'Is this just because I saved her? Did she just latch onto me because of her need? What does she want?'

He knew from the research he did on her that what she said about her parents dying was true. The trouble she got in and her grandmother taking her in. But there were some things she failed to mention. Like she had a bank account with lots of zero's behind a big old one. She didn't even need to go to school or get a job. So why was she? And why was she being chased now? The more answers he found the more questions came up.

"Who are you?" His whisper echoed in the silence.

She stirred slightly, pushing her face towards the pillow she began to whimper. "No."

Donatello wrapped both arms around her nuzzling her hair. "Its ok baby, I'm here." Her body relaxed back into his. 'What was that about?' As he looked at her he felt his heart swell again. A small smile tugged at his lips. 'Do I love her? Is this love?' He frowned. 'Could she love me?' There it was. His fear in a turtle shell. Could she love him?

The novelty of actually finding a female to look past the green skin and hard shell was a mathematical anomaly to Donatello. What kind of life could they truly have together? He would always be an outsider for more than one reason and she was human. They couldn't have kids, couldn't buy a house, or even go to a movie theater together. What was he thinking?

But what if? He always came back to that. What if she was falling in love with him? He thought that he was falling for her. What if? Just what if? The question followed Donatello as he drifted off to sleep.

…

Leonardo was making his last rounds before bed. Checking all the doors, cameras, security alarms, and rooms to make sure all was well. He saved Jays room for last. It was close to his so he was just going to listen to see if she was asleep.

His steps were noiseless as he walked up to the old wood door. He heard movement, a sharp intake of breathe, and then muted crying. He knocked softly.

She sniffled and cleared her throat. "Yes."

"Night check." Leonardo waited. "Are you alright?"

A short laugh. "Yeah Leo." Staggered intake of air. "I'm alright. I just have trouble sleeping in new places."

He turned the nob and opened the door a crack. "You don't sound alright."

"Seriously I'm fine." She had her back to the door arms wrapped around a pillow. "Go to bed. Goodnight."

Leonardo narrowed his eyes as his lips thinned. He walked in and shut the door. Making his way to the bed he notice her wiping her eyes. Sitting down he placed his hand on her shoulder. "You can talk to me."

Not turning she shook her head no. "I'm ok Leo… I… I just had a long and crappy day." She shrugged and gave a short clipped laugh. "Besides I barely know you." He just sat next to her and waited. "That's not me you know." She hugged the pillow tighter. "I'm not that girl. I never wanted to be." Her next words hitched in her throat. "I don't just go around fucking dudes for money." He could feel her shoulders start to shake as she continued. "I'm not like HER. I never wanted to be like HER."

Leonardo pulled her to him. Holding Jay close as she sobbed. He guessed the night got to be too quiet and her own thoughts ran away from her. "You're gonna be alright Jay." That just seemed to make her cry that much harder so Leonardo decided to say nothing else.

One handed he removed his sword belt and hung it on the bed post. She had settled down and managed a fitful sleep. He would have just laid her down and went to bed but she would cling to his plastron and whimper. Leonardo just sighed in defeat and laid down next to her pulling the blanket over them both. His last thoughts before he fell asleep were, 'I'm going to kill Donnie.'

…

Raphael was in the shower. He had woken up early for some reason. The hot water washed over him and he closed his eyes. Those dames weren't that bad. Hanna wasn't that bad, she was defiantly a nerd, a hot nerd. 'What am I thinking? She was hanging all over Donnie, you cannot think she's hot.' But once he thought it he couldn't stop thinking it.

Her milky skin and dark hair done up all pretty. How she acted like it was the most normal thing in the world to be with Donnie. She openly kissed him and caressed him. Raphael had also noticed his Donnie's hand sneaking up her skirt when he thought the others weren't looking. He gave his brother props for being so bold. Raphael started to wonder if she would be like that with him. If it were him, would she kiss him, hold him, let his hands roam free?

'Stop Raphael. Just stop.' He let out a huff. 'One line I will not cross. I may be an asshole, but I won't go after my brothers' chick.' Raphael said it over and over in his head like a mantra until he half believed it. He grabbed the towel from the hook and sat on the bench. They had helped Donnie remodel the public bathrooms to look more like the locker rooms they saw on TV. It was convenient. They had worked on both sides to make it easier on April. It was crazy how much that chick got into trouble just running an antique store, but he guess being friends with four giant mutant freaks didn't help any. Raphael chuckled to himself thinking of Casey. Yeah, that bone head didn't help either. He was just as bad as them.

He heard the door swing open and he sighed again. 'Great.' He rolled his eyes. 'There goes my peace and quiet.' He pushed himself up to go over to the see who had come in and was taken by surprise. There was Hanna eyes red and throwing water on her face. Was she crying?

…

Hanna rolled over in Donatello's arms. She marveled at the very sight of him. He was lean and muscular. His arms were so strong and gentle around her naked body. His love making last night had been incredible. Her body was sore but it felt so good.

Her hand trailed up his arm as she kissed his neck. She felt his hand flex around her hip and she kissed him again. Shifting her weight, she leaned up and kissed his lips. With her second kiss he responded, pulling her close and returning her sweet kiss with a more demanding one. She felt her body answer as it started rolling against him.

Donatello slowly opened his eyes, still half asleep, he pushed her onto her back, nuzzling her neck as he softly chirped. He quickly snapped his head up, pushing himself off of her as he shook his head.

Confusion swept through Hanna. "Donnie what's wrong?" She went to slide next to him and he scooted away from her. "Seriously you're scaring me."

Donatello was looking at the floor. "It's just… I just… I don't know Hanna. It feels too fast." He took both his hands and rubbed at his face. Getting up he paced around the small room. "I like you I really do, I'm just confused. It's all too weird."

The shock of his words cut like a knife through her heart. "OK, well, why are you confused? We can talk this out. Just please Donnie…" She felt the pull at her throat.

He faced her. Eyes searching. "Who are you?"

"Hanna." She choked out. "I'm Hanna Lords. The same girl you save that night in the rain." Unshed tears burned at her eyes. "The same girl you made love to last night."

Donatello scoffed, it grated at Hanna's soul, and his next words tore her apart. "Yeah that's the problem Hanna. I don't know if I did make love to you or if it was just our hormones raging." He took a deep breathe. "I wasn't me. I wasn't in control. Like just now when you woke me up. It was more like instinct than love. I'm male, you're female, but I'm a turtle and you're just a human."

Hanna sat motionless, eyes wide as a single tear rolled down her cheek. "Oh." That was all she could manage to say.

Donatello kneeled in front of her. "I don't know. I have no way of understanding this." He motioned the space between them. "It's beyond my knowledge. It scares me."

A numbness washed over Hanna as she got up and dressed quickly. She didn't even register Donatello begging her to talk, to sit, to react. She just walk out the door and down the stairs. She had no clue where to go, so she just went to the bathroom to wash her face.

She looked in the mirror as tears streamed down her face. 'Just a human.' It echoed in her head. She turned on the faucet and scrubbed at her face. Wanting to wash away the memory. Wash away the feelings. The ache in her pelvic told her it wasn't going away soon, and an emptiness was filling her belly.

She saw movement out of the corner of her eye. She couldn't focus at first. Hanna had to really look. It was a big hulking dark green turtle. Raphael. And he had no clothing on at all. Hanna felt her face turn red and she looked away. "I… I… I'm sorry. I'll leave." She hiccupped. As she turned to leave a hand came to rest on her shoulder.

"You look like hell doll face." His voice was deep and husky.

"You're naked." Her voice barely above a whisper.

A deep rolling laugh rumbled out. "I'm a turtle, it's alright for us to be naked, our bits and pieces are on the inside." His and lifted her chin up to face him. "What's wrong?" His voice was soft and warm.

Tears spilled from her eyes as she looked up into Raph's warm amber colored eyes. They were intense. "Donnie and… and I just… I don't know." She whispered and closed her eyes. Fighting the lump in her throat and the pain lancing through her heart. Raph pulled her into a strong embrace. His hand rubbing the small of her back. Somewhere in her heart she knew this was wrong. Him holding her like this, she just didn't have the strength to pull away right now.

"For a smart as that turtle is." He clicked his tongue. "He can be pretty dumb." He rubbed her head with his beak. "I saw it last night. The fear in his eyes." He pulled her away to look at her. "Now, if you was mine." Raph gave her a half smile as his amber eyes looked into hers. "No fear."

Hanna felt her eyebrows pull together. "He said he was scared." A fresh wave of pain and she glanced away. She had only been with Donatello for a day and two nights and it felt like it did when she broke up with her first boyfriend. Only ten times worse. "He said we were different. I don't understand." Hanna looked up at Raph again and he looked taken aback. "We… he… I… I know I was, am falling for him."

Raph leaned down and kissed her, it was hard and full of passion. It took Hanna completely by surprise. It took her a minute to register what was happening. When she did she pushed him away and slapped him. He smiled down at her and then looked behind her.

…

Donatello had messed up. He was smart enough to know how stupid he was being. Why did he have to say all of that to her like that? He strapped of his leg gear and kasazuri with the haidate under it. He walked out his bedroom door and down the stairs. He figured Hanna went to the bathroom sense that was the place she went after she blew up at Jay. He was thinking of an apology when he heard her talking, to Raph. He placed his ear slit to the door.

"I know I was, am falling for him." She said with a sob. Donatello walked through the door and saw Raph kissing her. Donatello froze. Anger building as he saw her push away and slap him. The crack of her hand hitting his face echoed in of the walls and around him.

She turned quickly. Eyes wide and full of hurt and shock. "Donatello." Hanna gasped. "I… it's not what it looks like. I promise… please."

Donatello didn't even look at her. "Hanna, I must speak with my older brother. Can you please leave?" Hanna put her head down and walked to the door. Donatello grabbed her arm gently and finally looked at her. "I saw. We'll talk. I promise." He stroked her face and gently pushed her out the door.

Raph had that stupid smirk on his face when Donatello looked back at him. "What are you thinking?"

Raph snorted out a short laugh. "It was the only way to shut her up." And he nodded at him as a slow smile spread across his face. "Wasn't half bad. Chick has some pretty sweet lips. Wonder what else is sweet about her?"

Donatello blinked. His brain shut off and his building emotions took over. He had never been so angry in his life. It burst through him like a wave. "Stay the fuck away from her you asshole!" He shouted at the larger turtle. "She's mine!"

"Then why the fuck was she cryin' Don? I didn't do that. You did! She found me. Maybe she realized she needs a real man and not some pussy!" Raph screamed back pumping his arms like he would when he was getting ready to fight.

"What the fuck ever! Like she would ever want an arrogant self-centered prick in her life." Donatello struck fast landing a few good hits, knocking the Raph back. Raph came back just as fast knocking the smaller turtle against the wall with a loud crack and charged.

Donatello quickly rolled out of the way, his shell was throbbing, Raph hit the wall where he was at full force and rounded on him again. He roared as he went to knock him back again, trying to use his shear power against him.

After years of sparing Donatello knew how his brother thought. Donatello jumped on him and used Raph's momentum to pull him down and over slamming him through the bathroom door. Raph flew across to the dojo mats landing hard and rolling up.

Raph growled. "I'd be careful what you say ta me nerd boy. Better yet why don't you take a good hard look in da mirror before you come a me with that shit!"

Donatello was the one who charged this time taking Raph by surprise. Donatello was never usually this aggressive in a fight. But Raph kissed Hanna. Right in front of him. Did Raph know he was there? At this point it didn't matter. Donatello's fist connected with Raph's face, and Raph came back with a gut shot knocking the wind out of Donatello for a moment. Seizing the opportunity, Raph dropped to a leg sweep landing Donatello on his back. He rolled quickly avoiding Raph's large leg stomping down on him.

Donatello heard Hanna scream his name as he launched at Raph again. Blow after blow until he was finally getting him to back up. As he was about to land his next hit a tail came out of nowhere, grabbing his wrist and spinning him around throwing him to the ground. Raph was next to get tail wacked.

"Yama!" Master Splinter shouted as he made his way to them, walking slowly around them. "Koitsuke!" He stopped and put his hands behind his back and waited patiently for them to stand up. "Sensei ni rai!" Donatello and Raph both bowed deeply to Master Splinter. Keeping their heads low, Sensei spoke. "You are brothers and yet you attack each other like rabid wolves. I have never been as disappointed in you two as I am today. Mukiuso! Meditation! Now!"

Donatello and Raph both bowed to Splinter. Walking to the meditation room, he was still seething. His mind wouldn't quit replaying Raph and Hanna's kiss. And that stupid smile.

…

Michelangelo was staring open mouthed at what he'd just witnessed. Donnie was usually the even headed one, well aside from Leo, but Don never had that kind of aggression. It was like looking at a smart Raph. Michelangelo shivered at that thought. That would not be good.

Master Splinter was walking back to his room and he turned to Hanna. "I wish to speak with you." He turned and stepped through his door. Hanna just followed. She looked shook up with her eyes all red. And pale, eh, paler then the norm. That chick defiantly needed some sun.

Leo and Jay were standing with him in the living room looking at the mess. "Damn." He said with a low whistle. "That has never happened."

Leo shook his head. "Nope."

Jay looked over at Splinters door. "Hanna was crying."

Michelangelo cocked his head to one side. "Yeah she looked pretty messed up. Wonder what happened?" He patted his belly. "Welp, no use thinking on an empty stomach. I'm going to make breakfast."

Leo and Jay looked at each other. Michelangelo got the feeling something happened between them. He shrugged it away. He loved meeting new people, things would always get so exciting. He happily went about getting everything ready. 'Things will work out. They always do.'

…

Jay woke up hot and pinned down under what felt like a ton of blankets. "Ugh!" She squirmed and arms enclosed tighter around her. She wiggled around to see Leo fast asleep next to her. 'Great. This is just wonderful.' She tried to free herself from the tangled mess. "Ugh!" She sighed. 'OK Jay, you can do this.'

"Leo." She whispered. "Leo. Come on man wake up. I can barely breathe." He mumbled something and snuggled closer to her. "Awesome." She said as she rolled her eyes. Jay's arms were stuck at her side as she tried to nudge Leo awake. "Leo. Leo wake up." She said a little more forcefully. He moaned and a weird rumbling sound came from him. "Well that was odd." Jay moved a little more and the blanket pulled away from Leo some more. He was still clothed, but there was something that was now bulging out.

Jay gasped. "Wow, awkward." She tried to divert her eyes as much as possible but when he pressed his hips forward her hand brushed up next to something big, and hard, that was not his leg. "Oh holy crap." She hissed out. "Leo!" This time she screamed it at him. He jumped and fell off the bed rolling up he scanned the room. Jay untangled herself from all the blankets and shot to the other side of the room.

"What happened? Is everyone alright?" Leo said fully alert and looking for danger.

Jay glimpsed his very erect and unusual looking penis and put her hand over her eyes. "I will only talk to you if you put that away."

Leo looked down. "Ah shit." He turned quickly. "I'm sorry Jay. I… I…"

"You know what." Jay said quickly in a higher than normal pitch. "It's cool. It's cool." She cleared her throat. "I knew you were a dude, and now, I am positive you're a dude." Jay walked toward the door and said. "I'm just, ya know, gonna give you a moment." As she stepped out of the room a loud crash came from the other side of the home followed by a scream.

Leo ran past her at full speed towards the noise. Jay lifted an eyebrow. "Well, looks like he got things under control." She quickly walk and found everyone sanding in the living room. The commotion was Raph and Donnie going at it.

She could see Hanna's shoulders shaking. 'Mental note,' she said to herself. 'Grab Hanna and make her spill.' If she was going to have to tell Hanna everything, Hanna would have to do the same thing. Which she reminded herself Hanna always talked to her. She sighed as she watched the rat flipping the brothers around like rag dolls. 'I have a new respect for rats now.' Her inner dialoged continued, leading her down a strange rabbit hole. 'So if Leo is that big, I wonder if they all are. And how the hell did Hanna have sex with, well that.' Her head cocked to the side. 'I mean, professionally speaking, well, ex-professional, done with that shit, but damn, it's odd looking, like kinda human but not, and big, and purple.' She rubbed her face. 'Why am I thinking about his penis?' Jay caught Leo looking at her.

Mikey excused himself and walked to the kitchen whistling like nothing happened. Leo sighed. She noticed he did that… a lot. "I'm sorry about… in the bedroom…With…" He trailed off.

Jay's eyebrows rose. "Thanks for taking an awkward moment and making it even more awkward Leo. Good job." She gave him two thumbs up. He started to stare at the floor. "Look dude, I'm not angry, it was just… new for me. Not that I've never seen one before, it's just I've never seen one like yours." She paused. Taking a deep breathe she looked up, avoiding eye contact. "I'm going to try and forget it happened and let's just go back to you being Donnie's brother and me being Hanna's friend and we'll meet in the middle somewhere. K."

Leo cleared his throat. "OK."

"So." Jay said changing the topic to something a little safer. "What do you think that was all about?"

Leo shrugged. "No idea. It's unusual for Donnie to be so aggressive. He's usually calmer than me. Raph has always been a hot head. Just don't know what set those two off like that."

Jay was looking watching Leo as he talked. Her brain wouldn't stop picturing him, well I guess you could say naked. 'Stupid brain, stop that. No way am I going to go down that road. No way at all. Stop thinking about his penis. Stop. Stop. Stop.' She heard Leo sigh and she said. "You do that a lot."

His head cocked to the side. "What?"

"Sigh. You sigh a lot." She crossed her arms, trying hard not to think of him as adorable. Or sexy. Or anything really. "Is life really that exacerbating?"

He laughed. She had to admit he had a nice laugh. Leo looked at her smiling. "Exacerbating? No, it's not. Frustrating yes." He laughed again and she saw his eyes twinkle.

'Twinkle? What the fuck Jay! All you did was see his cock. Nothing else. Keep your pants on.' Jay laughed to herself nervously as her internal struggle started to make her blush. "So is it always this exciting around these parts?"

Leo smiled sweetly at her. "Some days more than others." He rubbed his head and looked to the room his brothers disappeared into.

"Dude you worry way too much." Jay gestured with her hands. "It's written all over you. It's a little painful to watch."

"I'm the leader. They are all my responsibility." Leo's face took a serious tone. "If there is a problem within the team then it is my duty to recognize it and help fix it. The fact that I didn't realize this was coming makes me question myself."

Jay stood dumbfounded. She started to say something then she just palmed her face. "Again, dude, come on." Sighing herself as Leo looked at her. She shrugged. "You're a downer. Plain and simple." She laughed as the look of confusion spread across his face. "I can only guess at what happened because I've been around guys and chicks often enough to take a stab at this outburst."

It was Leo's turn to cross his arms. "And?" He said calmly.

"Donnie has a girlfriend. Makes some guys crazy." She could see he still didn't get it. "They were fighting for pissing rights." Blank stare. "Dude, Raph wants Hanna and she is with Donnie. You didn't notice how he looked at her last night. He watched her and Donnie all night. It was like Jessie's Girl all over again."

"Jessie's Girl?" Leo raised an eyebrow.

She rolled her eyes. "The song. Eh, never mind. I thought you lived in a sewer not under a rock." Leo rolled his eyes back at her and she giggled. "It's a song about a dude who wants his best friends girl so he does all this crap."

"I don't think that's how the song goes." Leo laughed again.

"Yeah well he smashed the mirror and then that cool guitar rift, total 80's." Jay gave him a big smile.

Leo just shook his head at her. "OK, I can see it a little. But honestly Raph and Hanna have nothing in common. I can see her more with Donnie."

"You really don't get out much." She sigh. "Oh god you got me doing it now." Jay threw her up. "Anyway, couples don't always have to have things in common. They can have one thing in common."

"And what would that be?" She was sure after that question Leo was dense. He just looked at her waiting for an answer.

"Sexual chemistry." Jay said as sexy as possible. Which wasn't really that hard. Leo blushed. She thought it was adorable. 'Stop, stop, stop, stop! You stop it now Jay or I swear to God!' She screamed at herself. "OK, well I'm going to help Mikey." Jay said quickly before her mouth could say anything else stupid. She rushed off to the kitchen where she could hear Mikey singing, badly.

…

Leonardo watched Jay walk away. He couldn't help but stare at her ass. He looked at the ceiling and sighed. She was funny, pretty smart, and she smelled so nice. She was lean too. He didn't mind, he just thought she should eat a little more. He liked to watch her blush. It was an amazing thing.

His mind went back to earlier and he smacked himself on the forehead. He couldn't believe his body had betrayed him like that. Especially because of how he found her last night. She acted like it was cool but he could tell it bothered her.

'She doesn't need someone like that. She just needs a friend. Someone to talk.' Leonardo thought to himself. "Besides, she would never think of me like that. I'm just a mutant turtle, I'll never be able to be anything more than that. She pretty much said so.'

Leonardo went to the dojo. He would practice until breakfast, and after that he would need to take them close to home. They all had things that needed to be done today.

…

Hanna and Jay were packing the small studio apartment that she lived in. She had called a moving company and they said that they would be able to come out tomorrow to load up everything. Hanna felt like shit. Her heart hurt. Jay had asked her what was up but she said she just needed a minute to get her thoughts together. Jay had just looked at her with the evilest face and went back to packing.

Donnie never got a chance to talk to her about the things he had said to her. To top things off it was nearing 6 o'clock. She sighed. "Hey Jay pack a bag to take to our apartment and we'll call for some take out there."

"Sounds like a plan." Jay walked to the closet and starting throwing random items in a large bag. "So…" She eyed Hanna. "Spill."

Hanna could feel the tears wetting her eyes as she tried to get past the lump in her throat. "Well, he said something about not knowing what we were and that I was just a human. And that the only reason we had sex is because he lost control and he felt weird."

"And you felt something different?" Jay slowed her bag stuffing. Looking over at her she was thinking.

"Yeah. I felt different." Hanna sat on the bed. "I felt happy, I felt wanted, I felt… I just felt."

"So he was pretty much saying he's and animal and what?" Jay came over to sit on one of her plastic totes. "You know he is and animal, in a way. The whole thing is pretty weird. But you're weird so it works for you."

Hanna lifted and eyebrow at her friend. "He's not an animal. And if we're happy why's that bad? And how exactly am I weird?"

"Well, you dated that chick." Jay started counting off on her fingers. "Then you dated that dude who dressed like a chick. Then you dated that guy who was getting ready to be a chick. Then that really weird dude who collected quack medical devices. A Latin dude, a Chinese dude, that ballet guy. And then back to a chick. You have a really wide range of interesting ex's."

"For one, ex implies that we were a couple. And most of them, no. I only slept with and was with like three." Hanna mimicked counting back to her friend. "And two, I want to make sure I leave no stone unturned. What's the problem in a little diversity?"

Jay laughed so hard she almost fell off her seat. "Little diversity? Add big green turtle and you have a huge diversity." Jay stopped and wiped tears away and her face went serious. "Well, what are you going to say to him? I mean, he is a guy so no matter how smart he is he can have a dumb moment."

Hanna rolled her eye. "We all have dumb moments. I could name a few of yours off if you'd like."

"No, no that's fine. I am well aware of my transgressions." Jay held up her hands. "You have a point. So what do you have to say to him?"

"Depends on him I guess." Hanna shrugged. "I… uh… also had a dumb moment." She put her hands over her face. "Raph kissed me in the bathroom and he was all naked and wet."

This time Jay did fall off her tote box laughing. "He… he… oh my god this is too much. You have brothers, who are turtles, fighting over you. Wow, they must like your scent or something. What are you in heat?" Hanna threw an unpacked pillow at her. "Owww, hey. Well, I guess I can spill. Leo slept in the bed with me." Hanna's eyes went wide. "He woke up with morning wood. And it freaked me out a little… OK, a lot."

"Oh, so he come and rescues you from something you haven't discussed with me yet and then sleeps in the same bed as you and wakes up… uh, happy?" Hanna said as she placed her hand on her cheek.

Jay rolled her eyes. "Yes. He was checking on everyone last night and he… heard me crying." She looked down at the floor and hugged the pillow. "It was bad Hanna. I know that I messed up. And I feel like shit because you feel the need to fix me. I don't know maybe I do need fixed. I don't want to turn out like HER."

Hanna wrapped her arms around her friend. "You're not your mother. And no I don't feel the need to fix you. I love you and want to help you see who I see when I look at you." She stroked her head. "You don't need fixed. You need help, yes." She laughed softly. "But not fixed."

Jay buried her face into Hanna. "No wonder you were so good at dating chicks." Hanna laughed with her and pushed her away. Jay scoffed. "Hey bitch I'm here shedding my emotions to you and you just push me down."

With a small smile on her face, Hanna rolled her eyes. "Get your things packed so we ca go home."

Jay laughed as she saluted her. "Aye, aye captain." She stood up and stretched. "So the big guy kissed you huh?" Hanna nodded. "That's weird. Here I thought he was all butt hurt because we were there. Guess I was right about him."

Hanna scrunched her face. "Right about what?"

"Eh, I asked Leo why he thought Donnie and Raph were fighting and he didn't have a clue." Jay shrugged. "So I just suggested that it may be that Raph wanted you and… well he kissed you right, so I made an educated guess."

"So you talked to Leo?" Hanna cocked her head to the side. "After the, uhm, incident?"

Jay laughed. "Yeah. God he's such a dude." Hanna blinked. "Like he was all like uh… sorry… it uh… ya know… uh." Jay was scrunching her face and waving her hands. "I mean for a big green turtle he's… you know… really guy like."

"Jay." Hanna dropped her head. "He is a guy. He may have different packaging but he is a guy."

"Yeah whatever." Jay disappeared into the pitifully small bathroom to retrieve toiletries. "I won't miss this bathroom, I can tell you that." She was zipping her bag as she walked out. "OK let's ride."

Hanna hopped up and the made their way home. Halfway through the bus ride she called her favorite thia restaurant and placed an order for delivery for them. After they were done eating Jay told Hanna everything that happened that night. Leaving out no detail. Hanna's heart hurt for her friend.

"Jay why didn't you tell me?" Hanna's voice was filled with sadness.

Jay sighed. "I don't know. Pride. Stupidity. Temporary insanity. Pick one, the list is long."

Hanna cocked her head to the side lifting her eyebrow. "Why did you hide this from me? I tell you everything."

Jay shrugged and let out a long sigh. "I don't know. I guess I didn't want you to see me like that. I was ashamed."

Hanna nodded. "Yeah I can see that. I just wish you would have trusted me."

"Yeah." Jay said flatly.

They sat in silence. Lost in their own thoughts. When Jay finally asked. "How was it?"

Hanna looked confused. "How was what?"

Jay half smiled. "The sex with Dooonnie?"

Hanna blushed and giggled. "It was interestingly wonderful." She sighed happily.

"Details bitch!" Jay sat up straight. "Come on out with it."

Hanna laughed more. "OK, ok, calm down, lord." She felt her face light up. "He was big, gentle and hard. He made these weird sounds that… oh… just did something to me." She bite her lip at the memory. "It was awesome."

The two girls broke into a fit of giggling. Jay swatted at her. "Come on now, I said details. Like did he go down on you? What did it look like? Did you touch it? Don't leave me hanging."

Hanna grinned. "Oh, and why would you want to know that stuff?" She place a finger on her chin and looked up. "Could it be that you're thinking of a certain someone green? Maybe with a blue bandanna?"

Jay scoffed and threw a pillow at Hanna. "Shut your dirty mouth." They erupted into a fit of laughter. "But seriously, I don't think I could do what you did, or, are doing."

"What? Sleep with him?" Hanna shrugged. "I was different, but it wasn't bad. I think you're over thinking it."

Jay hugged the other pillow. "Well I think you're not thinking about it enough."

Hanna rolled her eyes. "Agree to disagree. We better get to bed, we have a big day tomorrow and then we have to make an appearance at school. We honestly don't want to fail just because of attendance."

"True. Good night chick." Jay said as she walked to the downstairs bedroom.

"Night night." Hanna was about to walk up the stairs when she heard a tapping sound at the window. Cautiously she walked over. It was dark on the fire escape, but she could make out something large, and possible green. She walked over and her jaw dropped.