I'm sure my family was in just as much shock as I was but I didn't feel like talking to anyone about it. Everyone who had come to my party seemed to be surprised as I left the party in favor of driving around alone in Edward's Volvo (which he very hesitantly lets me drive) for hours crying to myself. I wasn't sure what I was crying about exactly, just that my body wouldn't allow me to stop crying. At some point I pulled over to the side of the road, partly because I was exhausted and partly because I didn't really know where I was.

So I turned off the ignition, slid over into the passenger seat, curled up, and waited. Sure enough, it was barely a second later that Edward was in the driver's seat next to me.

"You followed me," I stated dryly. I wasn't mad; a part of me figured he would.

He didn't comment on that. "How do you feel?" I inhaled deeply, giving me a moment to think about how I felt but I drew a blank. My mind was mush so I just shrugged. "Do you want to go home?"

"Yeah, I guess," I replied weakly.

"You'll feel better after you rest," he assured.

"Maybe," I agreed mostly for his sake.

When we reached home I discovered my party guests had left and I was slightly comforted by this as I still didn't want to talk. Everyone attempted to comfort me but it was fairly useless as I was all but ignoring them. I went to bed with Edward and to my surprise I did fall asleep but whatever I dreamt of (I couldn't remember) quickly made Edward wake me up as I'd apparently begun to cry in my sleep and I woke up feeling no more rested than when I had laid down so I just gave up on sleep and went down to the kitchen to sit, alone, and drink what was probably an unhealthy amount of coffee.

I didn't want company but Alice came to sit next to me anyway. We sat in silence for a long while and I was fine with this. Of course, Alice was not fine with this and began talking.

"Bella, I'm sorry. If I had thought there was even a possibility that she was alive...well, I would have been looking for her. I never thought...I just, god I wasn't expecting that. I had no clue, I mean if I had...I...I should have seen," she rambled.

"'S not your fault," I assured.

"I know, but this sucks. Do you know what this means?" She asked and I shook my head because truthfully, that's what I was trying to figure out.

"Bella, if Renee isn't dead then she joined the Volturi."

This was so unreal to me. In my mind, I had built my biological mother up to be some mind of poor soul who had become a victim of the Volturi but had saved me and given me an amazing family. But if she was with the Volturi, that made her as bad as them. Maybe she hasn't been as good as I had made her in my mind.

"Bella?" Alice asked after I'd been silent for a while.

"I just, I need time to think," I responded and quickly left the room.

As it turned out, I needed a lot of time to think. It would be months until I spoke to anyone about my biological mother. During the day, I ignored the problem and moved about my days as I usually did. I went to school, spent time with Charlie, went on dates with Edward, hung out with Alice, and the only real change in my daily activities was that I was spending much more time with my parents. I played video games with Dad and even walked around the mall a few times with Mom. Overall, I was doing a very good job at ignoring that phone call.

Though, topics like this tend not to be able to stay hidden for too long and the day came when I couldn't ignore it any longer. Well, I probably could have ignored it longer but my family wasn't going to let me. I was sitting on the couch, playing a racing video game with Dad when he asked,

"So, how long exactly are we going to avoid this?"

"Avoid what?" I asked as I stealthily avoided being killed by crashing my race car into a wall.

"Your biological mother." This threw me off so much that my car ran into his car, effectively destroying us both.

"I don't know what you mean," I muttered. "I'm not avoiding anything."

"Really? So you're willing to talk about?" Mom asked as she came into the room.

"I guess," I replied slowly as she sat down and Alice and Jasper filed in behind her. I narrowed my eyes. Dad responded,

"Then I think we should talk." At this point everyone had entered the room and I was feeling fairly cornered.

"There isn't really much to talk about," I stated firmly.

"I disagree," Edward murmured as he sat down beside me.

I sighed. "You would."

"Listen Bella, we've all been talking about this," Carlisle said gently.

"Well, it wasn't all of us," I snipped, a bit offended that they'd been talking about me behind my back. They all ignored my comment and Esme softly enlightened,

"We've all come to an agreement."

"An agreement?" What sort of agreement did they even need to come to? Esme continued,

"Yes, sweetie. We've decided to leave this alone." I quirked an eyebrow. I was quickly becoming confused. Thankfully Dad stepped in to explain,

"We are not going to do anything about Renee unless you want us to. We're gonna leave it up to you."

Oh. "There really isn't anything to be done, is there?" The way I saw it, my biological mother was still just as gone as I'd always pictured her.

"Not anything safe, at least," replied Edward. I wasn't sure what he was getting at but I really didn't care. From what Carlisle's told me of the Volturi, I'd rather picture Renee dead. What I really needed right now was to relax.

"Then I'd really just like to move on and Edward, I'd like to go to the meadow."

Edward raised his eyebrows, surprised. "Now?"

I nodded and looked to everyone else. "Unless there's something else we need to talk about right now?" They shook their heads and soon Edward and I were well on our way.

Laying down, wrapped in the calm of our meadow I could easily switch priorities and focus on something other than that stupid phone call.

"Edward?"

"Yes, love?" He asked as I rested my head near the nape of his neck.

"I want to talk to you about something that you're not going to like," I started and he shifted to face me, waiting warily. "I've decided that I'm ready. I'm going to wait till after graduation but then, I'm ready to be changed." He sat up, shocked and furious.

"What?" He roared. "No! No, no, no. Bella, you can't. You don't understand what you're saying. You can't!"

I took a deep breath and stood my ground. "I can and I will. Carlisle will change me if I ask and you know he will. But that's not who I really want to change me." His angry expression twisted into confusion. This was it. Come on, just say it. "I want you to change me."

A/N: Hey guys! Now, I realize the ending sort of changed topics quickly but it was necessary if I want to move the story along. Still, I hope you guys liked it! I tried to make it a decent size since it's been awhile since my last update. I'm sorry about that but updates should become more frequent now that I have finally gotten my new laptop!

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