A/N I AM SO SORRY. My wifi was out for a few days. I'll post the next three chapters tonight. :)
Enjoy
-Jesse.
Chapter 3: Stay with me tonight.
When I awoke this morning I had a surprise on my chest. Shae was asleep, her breath on my bare skin brought no comfort to the fact that we were naked. I slipped out of bed and walked to the bathroom quietly so I didn't wake her up. Once I had the door closed I started to pace, trying to remember what had happened the night before. I remember kissing an initiate but I'm not sure about which one. I remember someone stealing my vodka, then I left.
I sighed and looked in the mirror. I had accumulated two piercings in my bottom lip, one stud in each side, and a small ring through the center of nose this past year. Not only that but I now had a spider tattoo on the side of my neck. Right below the tattoo there was a bruise, a hickey. I turned around, looking in the mirror at my back, I sighed. There were light red marks from my shoulder blades to the small of my back. I shook my head and got in the shower.
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I stopped in the dining hall to get breakfast this morning, I couldn't avoid the the stares. They weren't looking at me because I had a hickey, they were staring because I kissed and initiate. It would be nice to know which one before training but I don't think that's going to happen. I grabbed my muffin and coffee quickly then walked to the training room.
The training room was empty, thankfully, it would be for another half hour. I ate my muffin slowly and tried to remember the rest of last night. It wasn't until Olivia walked in that it finally clicked, I kissed her. She looked at me and blushed. Soon all the transfer initiates filed in. I stood in front of them.
"There are three stages in our initiation. Physical, you will be training your body to adapt to the ability we need you to have. Emotional, you'll see your fears and learn how to recognize each one. Mental, you'll face your fears. If at any time you feel like you cant handle this, I will help you pack your bags for you, do you understand?" My voice was stern, like a trainer.
"Do we get a kiss goodbye?" A short girl with pale brown hair asked, she stood in the front of the group with her arms crossed over her chest.
I looked her in the eye and stepped closer. "If I were you I wouldn't talk to a trainer like that. I'm the one that says when fights are over. And if I wanted to, I would let someone beat you even after you've gone unconscious." I watched her green eyes look away from me as I spoke, I could tell I was scaring her.
I backed away and looked around the room. "Today will be easy. You're going to shoot at targets until you get a bulls-eye. These are guns, not toys. If I catch you fucking around I will send you to the factionless, understand?" There heads nodded and they picked up a gun.
I walked to a target and clicked a bullet into the chamber of my gun. "Pay attention." I shouted, they all looked at me. I stood with my feet shoulder width apart and my shoulders relaxed, I felt the familiar feeling of this stance. I think of how I regularly come into this room and just shoot at these targets. I take in a deep breath and remember how Jane's shoulder blades pressed against my chest when she breathed, a year ago today, when I helped her shoot her gun. The memory burned the back of my throat when I drank. As I pulled the trigger I let the breath out through my nose and before I finished the bullet hit the target, bulls-eye.
The initiates took their spots and started shooting. By lunch time the only one that had gotten a bulls-eye was Jayden, so I only let him leave and told him to take off for the rest of today. I knew this would be an all day thing but I didn't expect I would have this many initiates without hitting a bulls-eye. I walked down the line of initiates, fixing stance and posture, adjusting the way they hold the gun, telling them to breathe. The ones that listened and corrected themselves got a bulls-eye, I let them go. I was left with two initiates I knew would fail initiation.
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Another night, another bottle of vodka. I sat at my desk, deciding what to do for tomorrow while drinking out of the bottle. When I finished I turned on music and sat on the couch, the bottle was empty quicker than usual. I sat on the couch and closed my eyes, letting the music distract me.
Don't go, I cant do this on my own. Save me from the ones that haunt me in the night, I cant live with myself so stay with me tonight. Don't go.
When I opened my eyes Jane was standing in front of me, she was wearing a black dress that came to her knees and a cardigan. She got on my lap and straddled me then started kissing my jaw. I ran my hands up her thighs and closed my eyes. I felt her leave a hickey on my collar bone and lifted my arms so she could take off my shirt. When I looked up at her it wasn't Jane, it was Shae. I looked away. She laid me on my back and kissed down my chest then my abdomen. Shae unbuttoned my pants and pushed them off along with my boxers. Before I had a second thought she took me into her mouth. I took in a shaky breath and looked down at her as she licked from the base to the tip and started to bob her head. Once I was hard she pulled her dress over her head and threw it on the floor beside my pile of clothes. She stood and took off her panties then straddled me once again.
She lowered herself so that I was all the way in and our hips were touching. Her nails ran down my chest slowly, chill bumps formed on my skin, following her finger tips. She rocked her hips back and forth on mine and moaned softly.
Why am I letting this happen?
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When I awoke the next morning Shae was still laying on top of me and I was still in her. I sighed and looked across the room at Sammy. He was sitting on the bed, staring at me. I closed my eyes and lifted her hips so I could pull out then got out from under her and walked to the bathroom. I closed the door and rubbed my face with my hands. This cant happen again.