Author note: Just wanted to put a disclaimer out there that this chapter contains smut/lemon/whatever you want to call it. I attempted to be a little more emotional in this chapter. Hope you enjoy!
Miki sat up quickly, she felt confused at first that she was on the couch in her apartment. Then she remembered Gai carrying her because she had used too much chakra. A full day of working with patients and then having to deal with Nami had left her completely drained. Nami! Was there still time to meet her? Miki looked over to window and sighed in relief to see that it was still dark outside.
"You're awake?" Kakashi had been sitting in the chair by the bookshelf, reading.
"Yeah." Miki rubbed her head, a headache was coming on. She knew she would see an echo of Nami's mind. The memory had been a particularly violent and emotional experience for both of them. She felt the heaviness in her heart return as she remembered seeing the man she thought was her Dad walking away from the burning village with her as a baby in his arms. He wasn't her Dad and Gai wasn't her brother. Miki hugged her knees to her chest as reality began to sink back in.
"Who's Nami?" Kakashi closed his book and leaned forward.
"Huh?" Miki kept her gaze distant.
"You called for someone in your sleep...Nami." He stood and moved over to the couch to sit next to her.
"Nami..."Miki whispered as she hugged her knees to her chest tighter. Then she looked up at Kakashi. "Where's Gai?"
"He went to report a kidnapping attempt." He craned his neck down to try to meet her gaze.
"Oh." Miki sighed. When she saw Gai again, she would have to tell him the truth. "What time is it?"
"About 11. You haven't been asleep very long. Maybe you should try going back to sleep." His eye closed happily.
Miki swallowed hard as the pain because to grow in her temples. She was going to see it again. She slowly lifted her eyes to Kakashi. "I'm about to see it again."
"See what?" He asked.
"Nami, the dark lady, she showed me something earlier...a memory. It was a particularly bad memory. I'm about to see it again, intense visions or memories I see in people's minds always come back to me." Miki unhugged her knees and leaned back into the couch. "I don't know why it happens. Maybe when I go in someone's mind, part of it stays with me and an echo is its way of getting out."
Kakashi remembered how she had stabbed herself in the leg to make a vision stop. He didn't want to see her hurt herself like that again...ever.
"And you usually distract yourself with pain." He thought aloud.
"It seems to be a quick solution when it becomes to much." She stood quickly. "I don't want you to see me like that."
"I promised your brother I would look after you." He stood quickly and blocked the way to stop her from walking away from him. "I'm not going to let you hurt yourself or go through it alone."
Miki stared up at Kakashi's masked face, she reached up and hooked her small fingers around the fabric. She felt him tense, but he made no move to stop her. She was the only one he would ever willingly let remove his mask. She was the only one who knew him to the very core, for better or worse she accept him for who he was. He knew all the time she had spent in his mind hadn't been pretty, but she had remained a constant in his life since he met her. She wasn't afraid of the things she saw in him, at first he wanted to hate her for it those years ago. The more he got to know her and the more time she spent in his mind trying to repair the damage caused by the trauma he had been through, he wanted more and more of her.
He didn't know why it took so long for him to make a move. Sadly, it probably took the fear of possibly losing her for him to finally act on his feelings. He rested his hand on top of her trembling hand and pulled the mask down.
"Kakashi..." Miki murmured through a blush.
She wanted him, but she was patient enough to wait for him to come to her. Right now, he was the only part of her life that felt real. He was an anchor to the reality that was floating away. He was a lot like her, broken pieces of a person put back together and forced to carry on.
"Show me." He said gently. "I'll watch with you."
"I don't want you to see this...It..It'll change everything." Miki whispered as she trailed her fingers lightly down his cheek.
He moved his headband back, revealing his sharingan. "I'm sure you've seen worse...in my mind."
She swallowed hard as her hand dropped to her side. "This will change...everything."
"Nothing could ever change between you and me." He smiled.
Miki closed her eyes and saw flames, then opened them to see him still smiling at her. She wished she could trust that nothing would change, but she knew better. Things were already changing, she didn't know how she was going to face Gai. It was going to hurt him to know the truth just as much as it had hurt her.
He held out his hand. "I promise."
Miki steeled herself as she felt her walls come down for him and took his hand.
She felt the pull inward, the echo was about to start. She sucked in a deep breath as she gripped his hand tighter. "Are you sure?"
"Yes." He nodded.
Her living room slowly faded around them as the soft green meadow came into focus.
"We're near the village Kosome. This is an echo of Nami's memory. We'll only see what she allowed me to." Miki explained as they made their way through the forest.
"Village Kosome?" He asked.
"It was destroyed and erased from history. I don't know why, but I intend to find out." She set her jaw in determination as they approached the bushes that her and Nami had watched from earlier. "We don't have to hide because they can't see us." She said.
Kakashi's eyes widened as he stood next to her. "Who would do such a thing?"
The two of them watched, just as Nami and Miki had earlier. She watched the same villagers fail in their attempts to escape.
"Shinobi?" Kakashi's eye narrowed.
"Yes. You'll see, just keep watching." Miki looked ahead, keeping her expression blank.
The only indication to him that she was getting upset, was how tight her fists were clenched at her sides. He brushed his hand against hers and she opened her hand for him. He took her hand in his and held it as they watched.
The screams finally faded away completely, Miki felt her heart clench as the familiar silence fell.
"There." She nodded at the emerging 6 figures.
She didn't have to turn to him to see that he was shocked, she felt it when he squeezed her hand.
She let go of his hand and pointed at Gai's dad. "That's my... I mean that's Gai's dad carrying me as a baby away from the village."
Kakashi was silent.
Miki turned to him, tears of anger burning in her eyes. "You promised it wouldn't change anything. And guess what, it does! It changes everything!" The vision ended, they were standing back in her living room again. The silence made the blood in her ears pound.
"I promised that it wouldn't change anything between you and me." He took her hand and pulled her to him. "And it doesn't."
"Kakashi...I-" She hesitated.
He could feel her slipping away. He thought to himself about the people he had cared about in the past and how he lost them. He would be damned if Miki was going to be an addition to that list.
"That memory proves nothing, there's different sides to every story. There's a lot that we don't know. Don't make any rash or hasty conclusions, we need more information." He looked into her long lashed, dark eyes with determination. "We'll find your answers, together."
She didn't say anything as he studied her eyes. He knew she had already made her decision and he wasn't going to let her go that easily. When he met her, he was a mess of shattered pieces scattered across the floor. Even as she suffered through her own demons, she had been brave enough to find every piece of him...pieces that he didn't know still existed. Even if the pieces of him she found cut her deep, she didn't let go. She held on until she pieced him back together, giving him a second chance in life. He had been cold towards her in the beginning, purposely showing her gruesome scenes in his mind. He was doing every thing he could back then to scare her away.
Now all he wanted was for her to be closer, he should have never hesitated in the past. He should have told her sooner how he felt, but there always seemed to be an excuse not to.
"The answers are something I'm going to have to find by myself." Miki averted her gaze with a sigh.
It was now or never, he thought to himself. He put his other hand behind her neck and pulled her close. He claimed her mouth quickly before she could protest or have a second thought. If she rejected him, at least he wouldn't always wonder if he should have tried. Her body went rigid, completely taken by surprise. He continued kissing her, hoping to give her a reason to stay here at the Leaf.
Miki felt her heart come to a screeching halt as it took her a moment to realize the he was kissing her. It recharged her heart, making it pump faster as she felt the need and intense passion from his lips. She answered after taking it all in for a moment. She grabbed him by his vest, pulling him in closer as she parted her lips for him. The dam he had built to hold back his feelings for her broke completely as he put his arm around her waist, lifting her to him. He carried her into the bedroom and set her down, without breaking the kiss.
They continued to kiss, the level of intensity only growing as they undressed each other. She was the one to finally break the kiss, her breath ragged as she trailed kisses down his neck. She always thought she would be self conscious her first time, because of her scars that covered half of her body. But not with him, he knew her scars as well as she knew his. She had no reason to be self conscious.
He put his hand under her chin to tilt her head back so he could see her eyes. He didn't want to keep going if she had any shred of doubt about what they were about to do.
"Are you sure about this?" He asked.
She raised up on her tip toes and kissed his cheek near his ear and whispered, "Yes. I want you."
He was already hard from kissing her, but hearing her say she wanted him made him fight for control of himself. He wanted to be slow and gentle with her. He wanted her to know that she meant the world to him. He eased her down on to the bed and kissed her neck. She arched her back to him, pressing her soft breast against him. He cupped her breast with his hand gently, squeezing as he kissed her neck down to her shoulder. She moaned softly, saying his name.
He trailed his hand down her scar covered chest and felt her tense as he trailed lower. His finger tips glided down her stomach as he kissed her. He finally reached her sensitive area, she panted against his lips. He watched her as he dipped in one finger, she was dripping wet with need. She closed her eyes and tilted her head back as she moaned. He worked his finger in and out slowly, she was very tight. He rubbed her clit with his thumb as he continued to work his finger in and out until he could fit two in.
Miki could feel her core getting sore as it begged for release as his fingers teased her. She began lifting her hips to him, urging him to go deeper. She fisted her hand in his wild silver hair and cried out as she got closer to the edge. She grasped his arm with her other hand, her breathing growing more ragged.
Kakashi dipped in a third finger, it was tight at first before it adjusted. He was getting her ready for him. His self control was being put to the test, it took everything he had not to take her hard and fast. She came hard around his fingers, her insides squeezing him as she called out his name. He waited a few moments before he slipped his fingers out slowly.
"I've never..."She panted. "I've never been with anyone before."
Her confession was no surprise to him, but it still stirred something deep in him. He kissed her tenderly as he brushed her damp hair from her face. He sat up to position himself between her legs. He knew he wasn't going to last long, he was so hard it ached. He pushed the tip against her entrance as he repositioned himself on top of her.
"Just relax." He whispered in her ear as he kissed her lobe. He pushed the tip further in slowly...painfully slow. He held back the urge to plunge into her completely. He knew he needed to give her body time to adjust or it would hurt her. Her body went rigid beneath him at first. His lips found hers and he kissed her deeply to distract her. She needed to relax her muscles for him.
He pushed himself in a little further as she relaxed against him. She moaned against his lips as he felt her melt completely against him. He pushed himself further until he was completely sheathed.
"Oh." Miki moaned as he bit her neck. She was getting wetter as her insides stretched to accommodate him.
He held her face in his hands. "Are you alright?"
"Yes." Her voice was breathy, it drove him wild. "Oh, gods yes."
Miki felt pressure building as he pumped in and out of her slowly, she could feel her climax building already. Her fingernails clawed into his back as she urged him to go deeper by raising her hips up to meet his. It was painful at first, she felt a slight cramp in her side, but it went away after a few moments. The pain was replaced by intense tremors of pleasure. It made her shudder against him as he began to move quicker.
Her moans and cries only fueled his passion to please her. He wanted to make her call his name out again. He could feel his own climax approached as he felt her insides clench him tightly. She was on the edge with him and he wanted them to fall together. He pulled almost completely out and then pushed himself back in slowly. Miki arched her back, crying out in pleasure, begging him not to stop. He was pushing himself in her again, when he felt her come apart beneath him. Her insides squeezed him tightly as she called out his name. He thrust himself hard and deeper as he shouted out her name in his own release.
He collapsed on top of her, their hearts beating wildly against each other. Between using his sharingan and having the most amazing sex, he was completely spent. He shifted himself to lay next to her, on his side.
Miki turned on her side to face him after her heart rate finally slowed back down to its normal rhythm. He smiled at her lazily before leaning forward and kissing her. She kissed him back, hugging him tightly against her.
"I didn't know it could be like that." She whispered against his lips.
He remembered how she had told him about being in the different minds of criminals the Anbu Black Opps were interrogating. He didn't want to think about the different horrors she had experienced, suffering quiet torment over the past few years in her mind. He hugged her tight against him, protectively.
"I didn't either." He whispered before kissing her.
For the first time since she had discovered her mind ability, Miki felt completely at peace. Every muscle, even ones she had never been aware of before, felt completely relaxed. She wished that she could stay here always and feel this sense of wholeness with him. She nuzzled against his neck as she felt sleep begin to creep in.
Kakashi held her close to him as he felt himself drifting off to sleep. He couldn't remember ever feeling this happy. He mentally kicked himself for not showing her his true feelings sooner. He heard her mumbling his name in her sleep as he drifted off himself.