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Chapter 26

But when has my life ever been easy?

*The Next Day*

*Tobias P.O.V*

Today is the day we introduce the Fear Landscape to the initiates. Tris wasn't feeling well so she decided to stay at apartment and get some long awaited rest. Since I didn't have enough fears for even half the initiates, they would be going through Lauren's. And besides, I would never let the initiates see what terrifies me the most. Lauren doesn't care if they know what scares her.

"Where's Six?" asked Jessie as soon as we got to the Fear Landscape room.

"She's not feeling well so she's resting." I answered. Jessie seemed to really care about Tris. So did Mike. I had a feeling that after initiation, these two and Tris would become very close. This group generally seemed to care. The only exception was Tesa. And we don't have to worry about her anymore.

"So what is the Fear Landscape?" asked Dylan. Even he, the one that we thought would cause a lot of trouble, seems to care. He can get lazy, but he really tries most of the time.

"The Fear Landscape is like your own personal hell." I said roughly. "It contains all of your fears, all in one place. Tomorrow, on the last day of initiation, you will go through your Fear Landscape in front of almost the whole compound. Including the leaders."

The initiates stared at me, probably hoping that I was joking about the leaders being there. But they would be disappointed.

"The leaders will be there to assess you. Some will even be the ones watching your fears." Lauren told them.

"Will you guys be watching?" asked Ryan, his hand laced with Rachel's.

"No," I replied. "You will probably have anywhere from ten to fifteen fears. Of course, there are some exceptions."

"What is the lowest amount someone has gotten?" inquired Mike.

I looked him dead in the eye and said, "Four."

All of their eyes snapped to me. All of them showed awe. No one spoke, they all just stared.

"You won't know how many you have today." said Lauren, breaking off the stare down. "The program is wired to my Fear Landscape. All of you will be assigned a fear. Let's begin."

I waited, extremely bored, for all of the initiates to get through Lauren's fears. Nothing was captivating. I just wished Tris was here, then I wouldn't so bored.

Some of the initiates obviously shared the same fear as Lauren, because they were acting like Tris had, when she discovered that she too had a fear of kidnapping. My heart ached when I remembered how I treated her that day. The slap she gave me was now so fresh in my mind. I could almost feel the sting and shock I felt as she delivered it.

I snapped my attention back to the initiates. It was Jessie's turn. I didn't know what fear she had, but I could tell it wasn't affecting her. I thought it was the spiders. She was trying to step over things, brushing stuff off of her body. She almost looked bored. When she came out, everyone stared at her. I could only see the back of their heads, so I couldn't try to decipher what was in their eyes. I guessed it was either amazement or jealousy.

"Alright," said Lauren. "That's everyone. You are free to leave and enjoy the rest of the day that will possibly be your last."

Her words came out coldly. It wasn't like her to be like that. After the initiates left, she motioned me to go over by her.

"I've been waiting for this moment," she began. "The moment when you didn't have your little girlfriend at your side." She pushed me against the wall, pressing her lips to mine. I tried to push her off of me, but Lauren had an unbreakable grip. She had my wrists pressed to the wall behind, keeping me from pushing her face away.

Then I saw Tris.

*Tris P.O.V*

I had slept all morning so I woke up feeling quite refreshed. This morning, I had been so sick, I barely could stand. The morning sickness left me by the side of the toilet, weak and in a cold sweat. I had almost drifted off right there, but Tobias found me and placed me on the couch. He told me to stay here today and let him worry about the initiates. I wasn't going to miss anything.

I got off the couch and threw on the dark sweatpants and a black shirt. Before I left, I brushed my teeth and put on some mascara.

I really wanted to find Tobias and kiss him. I was feeling a big surge of lust. It felt uncontrollable. I needed to find him.

I walked to the Fear Landscape room to see if he was still there. When I walked in, I was startled. I saw a struggling Tobias being pressed against the wall by Lauren. The fact that Lauren was the one trying to seduce him surprised me. I mean, I knew they were friends, but I didn't think Lauren liked him like that.

Now, I'm not the type of girl to run off and cry when I see something that upsets me. I decided to have a little fun with this. I pulled Lauren off of Tobias. Her eyes were shooting daggers at me, but all I did was smirk and say, "You're doing it all wrong." I pulled Tobias' mouth to mine and brought him into a deep kiss. He put his hands on my hips and I ran my fingers through his hair. When we had finished, Lauren was still behind us. She was seething.

Before she could say anything, I punched her in the jaw, knocking her down in the process.

"That's for kissing my husband." I said. I took Tobias buy the hand, stepped over Lauren, and led him out of the room.

"That was awesome," he told me.

I smirked and said, "Come on. Let's go to the apartment." I winked and started walking away. Tobias caught up with me and took my hand.

When we got into the apartment, we hadn't even reached the bed before we attacked each other.

As soon as the door was closed, clothes flew off. We never left the kitchen. Everything took place right there on the floor. He was busy kissing my neck and running his hands down my bare body. I moved my hand along his arms and heavily tattooed back. My lust had finally been quenched. After a while, we both lay there, panting and occasionally kissing.

"Now that, was awesome," I said laughing.

"Well at least now we don't have to worry about protection." He said, a smirk on his face.

I laughed again as I pulled my clothes back on. He just put on a pair of athletic shorts on, leaving his chest bare. And that was fine with me.

We sat on the couch, still exhausted from our session.

"Do you want to find out what it is?" asked Tobias.

"Find out what what is?" I asked, confused.

"The baby," Tobias told me, chuckling.

"Oh," I said. "That. Not really. As much as I hate surprises, I want this to be a surprise."

Tobias turned serious. "Do you still have mixed feelings?"

I sighed. I didn't really want him bringing this up. "Yeah," I answered truthfully. "I'm still not sure how I feel. I never wanted a child. I just don't know how this is supposed to work out. I just don't see myself being a mother. I won't know what to do with it."

"You'll feel differently later on. Once the baby's born, I'm sure you'll feel differently. Maybe even before." Tobias assured me. I looked down at my stomach. I still wasn't showing. Tobias said that I was around 6 weeks. But it only felt like one. I had only just found out. Sometimes I wish it was zero.

I would've made this longer. But I didn't have the time. I want to have a super chapter, but I don't know when it'll happen. Maybe next chapter. I still need a couple tallies for the names. Once one hits ten I'm going to stop taking answers for it. I think the most a name has is seven. HEY! TRIS ORIGINALLY HAD SEVEN FEARS! But seriously, only a few more to go.

~A