Black*Star woke up in the middle of the night, clutching at his chest as it heaved up and down. "Tsubaki!" he yelled out, hoping that it was all a dream. "Tsubaki!" he cried out, pounding his hands on the bed. "Damn it! Come back to your god!" he called out as tears streamed down his cheeks.
Black*Star started to sob as he realized he was alone. "Why Tsubaki." He managed to say through his sobs. "Damn…" he whispered. "I miss you… I'm so stupid." He said, a humorless chuckle escaping him as he sat up. "I loved you, we could have run away together, disappeared off the face of the earth." He whispered, his chuckle disappearing as he looked down at his hands, tears dripping off his chin and falling in his hands.
"Damn it!" he yelled out, grabbing his pillow and throwing it across the hospital bedroom. "Why!" he yelled out as he let himself fall back on the hospital bed, his hands going to cover his face as he let out a couple sobs.
'Black*Star.' A voice whispered in the dark room.
"Who's there?" he exclaimed, quickly wiping away the tears, sitting up, glaring in the direction of the voice.
'Black*Star. ' the voice whispered, this time next to him.
Black*Star turned to look… and his heart stopped when before him was Tsubaki.
"Ts-tsubaki? Is that really you." he whispered, his hand reaching out to caress her cheek, but only to have it slip past her. His heart sank as he realized what was going on. "Oh god no." he groaned as he fell back in the bed. "You're a ghost aren't you?" he asked her as his hands went to cover his face once more, refusing to cry.
Tsubaki looked down at him, lightly shaking her head. "No… I'm a figment of your imagination Black*Star." She whispered.
Black*Star's heart broke… he now wished that she was a ghost , at the very least, he would know that it was her… but this is his brain playing games on him. "Go away." He hissed, salty tears starting to escape him as he fought to hold back sobs.
"But… Black*Star." Tsubaki mumbled.
"No! Get out!" he yelled, his bottom lip starting quiver as he turned to his side, his body starting to quiver.
"But… Black*Star." Tsubaki repeated.
"No! I can't live with this anymore!" Black*Star exclaimed. "I loved you Tsubaki!" he exclaimed.
Tsubaki stood there unmoving as she watched Black*Star. "I know." She told him, showing no emotion.
"I loved you… why did you leave me?" Black*Star yelled at her, his fists pounding on the bed.
"I loved you too." Tsubaki told him, no urgency in her voice.
"How would you know? You're a figment of my imagination!" Black*Star yelled out through ugly sobs.
"Because I told you before you killed me." Tsubaki mumbled.
Black*Star's entire body froze over as he stared up at the image of Tsubaki and to his disappointment, she started to flicker. "Tsubaki… You told me too late." He whimpered, his voice hoarse.
"I… Tsubaki loved you. I'm sure she told you for a reason." She muttered, her image starting to flicker.
Black*Star curled into himself, letting his head rest on his knees as he rocked back and forth. "I'm done." He hissed, his chest aching as his arm slowly transformed into his shot gun. "I don't want to be here anymore." He said through clenched teeth.
Tsubaki looked down at his weapon. "Are you sure you want to do this?" she asked.
"I'm positive." He growled, wiping away his tears with his other hand.
"Would Tsubaki agree with what you're about to do?" she asked him.
"I don't care." He responded as he sniffled.
"Do you really not care?" she asked him taking a step in his direction.
Black*Star stayed quiet as he shoved the barrel of the gun into his mouth, fresh tears escaping him against his will.
"Don't do it." Tsubaki mumbled. "Please."
Black*Star closed his eyes, his hand clenching into a fist as he started to count down.
Tsubaki wrapped her arms around him, although her warmth wasn't there… Black*Star could feel her there.
"Black*Star? What do you think you're doing!" Frank yelled out as he stormed into the room grabbing a hold of Black*Star's gun and slamming it down on the bed with one hand, while he pushed the nurses button that was on the wall with the other.
Immediately, a team of nurses swarmed the room, holding Black*Star down.
He kicked and thrashed as they ordered for him to be tied down. "End my misery! Please! I'm begging!" he called out. "Tsubaki!" he cried, but the image that he had of her was gone.
Frank watched sadly from the sidelines… Black*Star was begging… he must have fallen pretty deep in order for that to happen. "I'm sorry Black*Star, but the family needs you for the battle." He whispered as he slipped out of the room.