Note: I'm trying my best with this kid. I promise he's not that crazy.
Fourth Entry
I decided to join Lightning. After the conversation she had with Sazh I decided to join her. Fighting by her side meant fighting the Sanctum, fighting the Sanctum meant eventually confronting Snow. If I'm going to kill him then I'm going to need to get stronger. Lightning wanted me to stay behind with the others but I was adamant about joining her. I need to re-evaluate my goals. Before, I used to think I didn't have a purpose in all of this. I didn't have a future, I didn't want to go back to my past, and I had nothing to hold onto. I felt so lost.
But that's over now. I'm done looking at the bigger picture and anguishing on my fate with despair. Lightning showed me that as long as you have a target, you can keep on fighting. So I have a target and it's Snow. First, I'm going to get strong. Then I'm going to kill Snow. It'll be like an errand list: check the treasure sphere, fight some monsters, kill Snow, buy some components, drink a potion, kill Snow. As long as I treat it like a list of goals then I should be okay.
Fifth Entry
She let me call her Light which is a good indication as any that she's slowly warming up to me. I wish I had a nickname to have her call me, but I don't think Hope Snow Killer Estheim is one. It's too long. We're going to Eden, but in order to get there we're going to have to go through the Gapra Whitewood and then to Palumpolum. I told her that once we reach my hometown, I can show her all the shortcuts to make our journey easier. It'll be like a date except we have killing people on our minds. We're not making any side trips, not that I care about going home. I doubt I'm welcomed there anyway.
Gotta go. Break time's over.
Sixth Entry
This woman is trying to kill me.
I'm not cut out for this.
I can hold my own in a fight, but I'm not used to this. She yells at me a lot, snaps at me when I don't follow directions well, and ignores me when I try to talk to her.
But I'm going to break her down with the power of cute.
Once I stop wheezing and get the feeling back into my legs.