Twelfth Entry
I decided to name my mission to kill Snow Operation Nora. It makes sense since it's my mother's name. I know NORA is also the name of his stupid rebel group, but that's not important to me. What matters is that Snow will die knowing that Nora means more than just some stupid group of kids wielding guns. He'll die knowing it belonged to the most beautiful, awesome, and kickass mom in the universe. I'll make sure to carve it in his big broad chest in case he forgets.
We finally reached the outskirts of Palumpolum and Lightning thinks I should go see my dad. I don't want to, not when I know I won't be welcomed. I just want to bypass this place as soon as possible. Lightning says he deserves to know what happened to mom and I agree with her to a certain extent. I just don't want to be the one to deliver the news to him in person. Maybe I should just send him a post card? Not that it'll be easy. I mean, what can I say? I can write up one right now.
Hey Dad,
How are you? I'm not doing so well. I'm a l'Cie now and on the run. I'm traveling with a woman named Lighting. She's cool and mean at the same time. I like her and will probably marry her someday if we don't end up as Cie'th or become dead popsicle crystals like her sister. She has a sister…who is most likely dead. Guess the wedding party will be small. I hope to be taller than her by the wedding. If not, then I'm the one who's going to have to wear the dress. White is not my color. Will try to find something in a soft yellow or cream.
Never really liked you,
Hope Snow Killer Estheim
Ps. Mom died.
Pps. I'm going to kill the man who did it with a knife.
Ppps. I've officially changed my middle name to Snow Killer, hope you don't mind.
See? That was intense. Doesn't Lightning understand that I'm fourteen and full of angst? Communicating my feelings is HARD. But she told me that I had to go. That he's the only family I have left. She's right about him being the only thing left. At least he's alive and not dead somewhere as a popsicle crystal like her sister. But would he want me? I'm a l'Cie now and I doubt he'll be thrilled about mom being dead. He'll blame me for it. After all, it was my idea to go to Bodham to see the annual fireworks. I'm the reason mom's gone and he'll place all the blame on me. Maybe I shouldn't go. It'll be best for everyone involved that I don't.
I gotta go. Lightning's wondering why I'm taking so long to pee behind the bushes. I can't go with someone looking. I can't just pop a squat anywhere and go. I'm not Lightning.