Seventeenth Entry
I'm finally home.
I told Dad what happened. He's devastated of course, started crying. I didn't know what to say at that moment, so I just sat there awkwardly. I told him that we were going to leave as soon as we were rested up, but Dad got angry. He said l'Cie or not, this was my home and that he was going to support me no matter what I choose to do. I was actually surprised he still wanted me after everything. Thought he'd blame me for mom's death, but he didn't. He was just happy I was alive.
Snow's resting in the guest room. We got him properly patched up. Lightning said she'd watch him. I've been in there twice already to check on her, but really it was to see if she got ahead of me and went to finish the job and needed help getting rid of the body. Much to my surprise (and relief) Snow was alive and breathing. It's not that I don't mind Lightning killing him, but it would be best if I did the deed since Snow basically gave me first dibs to kill him off. I'd like to think that Snow believes in me and wants me to do my best. That and I think he believes in the power of friendship.
I managed to find a proper journal now. The hello-kitty one from before was too small and I was running out of pages. I transcribed my older stuff and as I was looking over them I couldn't help but see my own progress, my own growth as a person through this entire mess. It's funny. I looked at these things with a sort of fondness, like they were memories of my distant past and not say, recent horrific events that changed my life forever. Like, I'd read something and be all 'Oh hey, I remember when Lightning made me cry after calling me a wuss after I collapsed after two pushups. Good times.' And 'Man, look at how angry and full of hate I was. I wanted to kill Snow so bad, look at me write in a froth of rage.' You know, stuff like that is what makes me appreciate the man I am today at fourteen.
I gotta go. Fang said Snow's up. I want to say hi and give him tender 'I'm going to kill you later' looks as he begs my father for forgiveness.