SURPRISE! Ok now this really is the last update before I go on vacation. Enjoy!

Chapter 62

As soon as I spoke of my plans to murder my husband, Christina fled back to the safety of her own apartment. I don't think that she realized how afraid I am of being pregnant again. She didn't experience what I did. She basically had a picture perfect pregnancy. Grayson was healthy the whole time and no one tried to steal or kill him.

Part of me realized that I couldn't put all of the blame on Tobias. It takes two to tango. But I still was angry enough to blame Tobias almost completely. It was like he willed this to happen. He was the one who wanted it so badly. It never occurred to me that we didn't use protection the last few times. I was too caught up in the moment. But I'm sure it occurred to him.

When I got in the apartment Tobias was in the shower. I sat down on the couch and waited for him, my head in my hands. Frustration coursed through me. There was no doubt in my mind that I would love this baby as much as I love Carter, but that wasn't the point. I didn't want to be pregnant. I didn't even plan on having one kid, let alone two. What was I going to do?

I heard the water turn off but I didn't move. I was too lost in thought. Tobias came out of the steamy bathroom with only a towel wrapped around his waist. He was about to walk into the bedroom when he paused in the doorway, noticing that I was there. Tobias walked over to me and sat down, putting a hand on my back.

"Where's Carter?" I asked quietly.

"With Zeke and Shauna." Tobias said while rubbing circles on my back. "They wanted her to get to know Hannah even though they're a few years apart."

We sat in silence for a few minutes. I think Tobias could tell that something was off. He probably just wanted me to start the conversation. Tobias is like that sometimes. It confuses me because other times he's so upfront about things.

I guess my silence was too much because he ended up asking, "Tris, what's wrong?"

I sighed and looked at him. "I hate you. I really, really hate you."

Tobias narrowed his eyes. "Why?"

"Because you're making this really hard to be angry about." I wasn't looking at him when I spoke. I was afraid that if I did, I'd melt and start crying. It was a mystery to me that I even felt like crying. It takes a lot to make me cry, and I didn't think that this would be a reason.

Tobias took my chin and made me look at him. It took all I had to not let him see any tears. "What would you be angry about Tris?" He actually looked angry. It threw me off and made me nervous. "You have a beautiful daughter, amazing friends, and a husband that loves you more than life itself. What is there to be angry about?"

He was right. I shouldn't be angry; but I couldn't help it. I didn't want to be pregnant. I was scared. If something happened to this baby, I wouldn't be able to handle it. I knew that this pregnancy would be different, but I couldn't help but think that it's going to be just as bad, if not worse.

"Tobias," My voice hitched a little as I saw his angry eyes staring down at me. It was like his eyes were judging me, and it made me even more nervous to tell him. "I'm… I'm pregnant. Four to five weeks."

Once I said those words his features softened. He knew how much I had wanted to wait. I don't honestly think that he didn't use protection on purpose. He was just caught up in the moment as well. And when you're in that kind of moment, well, you don't think. At all.

Tobias wrapped his arms around me and pulled me into him. "I'm sorry." He whispered. "I should've been more careful. You wanted to wait."

"It's my fault too." I confessed. "It takes two people you know." I nestled my head in the crook of his neck and I let a single tear fall. It was taking too much energy to hold it back.

"It's going to be ok Tris. I promise."

I looked up at him and smiled. "I know it will be."

"Even though this baby is coming a little earlier than we planned, he or she will be loved and cherished." Tobias said.

"I know he will." I told him.

"He?" Tobias questioned.

"He." I repeated. "I have a gut feeling that this baby is a boy. Kind of like you were convinced that Carter was going to be a girl."

"Do you want to find out the gender this time?" Tobias asked me.

"I don't know." I answered honestly. "It might be easier if we do because then we will know if we can just reuse Carter's clothes. We'll be more prepared."

"That is true," Tobias agreed. "But I like a little surprise. When Carter was born, I was so excited to find out what she was. I want to feel like that again."

"So a surprise it is." I announced. "But I'm still convinced that the baby is a boy."

"I guess we'll just have to wait and find out." Tobias said, smiling proudly.

And even though I did want to wait a while longer before having another baby, I had a feeling that everything would be alright. This one would be easier.

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"Christina already knows," I informed Tobias the next morning while he was brushing his teeth. "She was at the appointment with me. So that means that Will probably knows too. And probably everyone else."

Tobias wiped his mouth before saying, "If Christina doesn't learn to keep her mouth closed I'm going to ask Doctor Hart to sew it shut."

I laughed and punched him playfully. "Even though we've lived here for five years doesn't mean that the Candor part of her hasn't gone away. She can't help it. She lived there much longer and grew up with their customs." I said, defending my friend.

"Still doesn't give her the right to share our news." He grumbled.

"Get over it." I chuckled.

I grabbed his hand and led him out of the apartment. The muffins in the cafeteria were waiting for us. Well, for me mostly but I guess that they're waiting for Tobias as well.

When we arrived, our group of friends was already at the table. They were staring up at us, smiling. It was then obvious that they knew. I glanced over at Christina, who gave me a sheepish grin and shrugged her shoulders.

"Do you have something to tell us?" Uriah asked. Serena was next to him, looking at us curiously.

"Well it seems that you already know." I said. "Thanks to Christina."

"It just slipped out!" Christina exclaimed in defense. "You know that I can't keep a secret Tris."

"I'm not mad at you Christina." I told her. When she sighed in relief I looked back at the others. "So how did she tell you?"

"At lunch yesterday I asked where you guys were," Will began. "And Christina said that you were busy killing Four. When we asked why, she goes, 'Because the idiot knocked her up again.'"

"Idiot?" Tobias asked.

I elbowed him, causing him to grunt in surprise rather than pain. "Well said Christina." I said. "The idiot did knock me up again."

"Idiot?" Tobias asked again.

"Yes." I said, kissing him lightly on the lips. "You're my idiot."

Tobias grinned stupidly and kissed my cheek.

"So, how are you feeling about it today Tris?" Christina questioned.

"Better." I admitted. "It would've been ideal to wait, but I guess waiting is now out of the question."

"Are you going to find out the gender?"

"No, but it's a boy." I said.

"Maybe." Tobias interjected.

"It's a boy," I repeated.

"Never doubt a mother's intuition Four." Will told him. "It's a powerful thing."

Christina and I nodded in agreement, but Tobias decided to argue. "What about a father's intuition?"

"Not as strong." Will said simply.

The two men launched into a debate while I picked at my muffin. I wasn't exactly enjoying the blueberries at the moment, so I was picking them out and making a pile, which Uriah ended up devouring.

"Blueberries aren't as good as Dauntless Cake," Uriah said, his mouth blue.

"Then go get some." Serena said.

Uriah smiled at her and stood up. "You know what? I think I will." He gave her a quick kiss and left.

"That boy and his cake." I said while laughing. "He doesn't love anything more."

"I gotta go." Tobias told me. Soon after he left, I stood and announced that I needed to depart as well.

I walked back to the apartment to get Carter, who never wakes up until after we've eaten breakfast. Well, I don't think that she wakes up. She still does that thing where she stares at the mobile above her and doesn't make a sound, giving Tobias and I the impression that she is still asleep.

I brought Carter to Christina's and left for the tattoo parlor. I set up my station and awaited the first customer. Serena walked in and sat down by me.

"What can I do for you?" I asked her.

"I'm not exactly sure yet. I was hoping that you could help me decide."

"Ok, just give me some general ideas and we can go from there."

She took a deep breath before speaking.

"I'm going to tell you about something that I've never told anyone before." She said, triggering my curiosity. "My tenth fear."

I hope that you enjoyed this chapter! Please tell me what you think. And a heads up. There are going to be a lot of time skips in the next few chapters. I'm running out of things to write about and I'm anxious to get the sequel going. Love you!

~A