Chapter 18…bonded&hurt
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"no, oh my god. No…no…please not you. Godric no!" I screamed out and tries to get the door open but he locked it. Fuck…fuck…fuck.
I needed to get out of here. I kicked the door again and saw it crack. Yes!
I focused on my strength and kicked again…I used everything. My father dying…my mother leaving, eric doing things to me and now godric leaving me.
With every point I kicked and with the last one I let out a scream and the door busted open. I wasted no time running down the hall, all I needed now was to figure out where he went and where the hell eric was.
I walked down the hall way, it was like something was pushing me and I came to a stop at the sign that said 'roof'.
It was a long shot but I started climbing the flights of stairs hoping this was where he went. I was exhausted by the time I stopped in front of the door. My stomach was doing flips from hoping he was here.
I opened the door and went up another few stairs and my heart stopped. He was here with eric. And sookie stood here by the back.
"Two thousand years is enough." Godric said and I felt my heart break even more, he couldn't leave me too.
"I can't accept this, it's insanity." Eric said and I could hear in his voice he felt just like me, we couldn't lose godric. He was too precious to us. "our existence is insanity" godric replied and not one of them noticed me yet. "we do not belong here" godric said and I let a tear fall down.
"but we are here!" eric yelled out in a raspy voice and I knew he was crying, this was the first time I saw him like this and I didn't like it one bit. "it's not right…we are not right" godric said and I wanted to scream at him and hit him but I was frozen to the spot.
"you taught me there is no right and wrong. Only survival or death" eric said and I was shocked, it seems godric was cruel earlier and only changed now.
"I told a lie as it turns out" godric said and sighed, eric shook his head and clenched his fists in anger or maybe knowing what he was going to lose.
"I will keep you alive by force!" eric growled out and godric smiled at eric "even if you could, why would you be so cruel?" godric said and I watched as eric sank to his knees and cried. He said something I didn't understand and godric replied back.
"Let me go." Godric said and straight away eric answered with "I won't let you die alone." And I panicked because them I would lose both of them, I can't do this.
"Yes, you will. As your Maker I command you." Godric said and I watched as eric rose to his feet and turned towards us. He looked up and noticed me, shock written all over his face. "how did you get out?" he asked me and I shook my head at him "not the time…" I said and he nodded at me. He took sookie's arm and was about to leave but I grabbed his hand.
"I'm going to stay with him, bite." I said and then held up my wrist. He looked at me weirdly and I raised my eyebrow at him. He did as I asked and dropped his fangs before he bit my wrist making me wince.
I turned back to godric and his back was towards me. "I can't lose you too" I said to him and he turned to me. "I underestimated you" he said and I knew he was talking about me getting out.
"well something motivated me" I said and he smiled at me. "don't smile at me, you know you can't do this" I said and he turned to look at the horizon.
"please I can't lose you, do not do this" I begged him but deep inside I knew he wasn't going to change his mind. "I have to do this…let me go please" he said and I could see he had enough of this life but I was selfish and wanted to keep him alive.
"if I let you go, would you do something for me?" I asked him and he nodded with a small smile.
"one drop of your blood" I said and he looked quizzically at me but then slowly nodded. "what for if I may ask" he asked me and I told him the truth…sort of.
"I want to carry you inside of me forever" I said and he smiled fully at me. "it was always strange to me, me cause you believed in fate and destiny" he said and I nodded.
He stepped towards me and dropped his fangs. He pressed his forefinger against his fang and I could see a drop of blood forming. He brought his finger to my mouth and I stuck out my tongue catching the drop of blood before it dropped.
I didn't swallow and kept in on my tongue as I stepped towards him to hug him, but I secretly took a drop of my own blood and smeared it over his chest where his heart was laying.
I closed my eyes and stepped back from him noticing the steam starting to rise from his skin. It was now or never…
"i sanguinem purus et malis anima mea cum his links. corda vestra et animas vestras, interiiciunt coniuncta. usque fati tempus et signa". I said and godric looked confused at me.
I felt something pull inside of me and a pain went through my heart and then even deeper inside of me.
I felt sick and weak but I didn't expect it to go fine, so this was the side effects.
"what did you do?" godric asked me and I could feel my skin was starting to become more warmer than usual.
"I'm sorry I had to do this godric" I said as more tears ran down my cheeks. "what did you do?" he asked more sternly almost on the verge on anger.
"I linked us together" I said and looked at godric…he was furious. "how could you do this?" he growled at me and I shrunk back "I know this was selfish but this was for the better" I said and he shook his head. I saw a small blue flame in his arm and I could feel my arm burn.
I screamed out in pain and godric looked shocked that it was actually working. I started to feel more flames on my body and I actually thought that godric would let me die with him.
But we were inside just by the stairs and I felt relieved and grabbed godric's hand but he ripped it out of mine. "I can't believe you" he said and I fell to my knees.
"I'm sorry, I need you and so does eric. Please godric your all I have left" I said and his eyes softened a little bit but stayed hard.
"this was my choice….and you took that away from me" he said and I was sad, I thought he would have understood.
"I am really sorry but…" I started but he cut me off "do not give me your selfish excuses, go to eric I do not want to see you" he said and that hurt.
"godric don't do this" I said to him but he glared at me "why should I do what you ask if you took away the only thing that would have made me happy" he said and I felt my heart crack. He wasn't happy with me…he would be happy with dying.
He walked away from me and I stood up shakily, moving to eric's room. I didn't know it would have ended like this.
I wiped my tears away and went to knock but I saw the door was open. When I walked inside it was silent but then my ears picked up on something. Eric was moaning.
Didn't he feel that godric was okay…I walked to the bedroom ready to comfort him and tell him that godric is fine.
I opened the door and my heart that was cracked just shattered at the sight I just saw.
"eric what…what are you doing" I said to him as I watched the girl on top of him come to a stop. She stopped fucking him.
"go wait for me in the bathroom" eric said to the girl and she walked into the bathroom and shut the door.
"godric is gone and I don't need useless things around me" he said and that stung again.
"but godric…" I started but he cut me off "you can leave, I don't need you for sex anymore, I found lucy. She doesn't hold out on me and she isn't as weak" he said to me again and I felt like he was hitting me in the face.
"do I need to throw you out?" he growled at me after I just stood there, too shocked and hurt to do anything. "eric…you said you cared" I whispered but I knew he would hear me.
"I lied…I only wanted the sex and by the way sookie is such a better kisser" eric said and that was the last straw. My heart shattered inside of me. The tears ran down my face and I was about to leave but eric had more to say.
"you know your father died because of you and now you even managed to lose everyone. Nobody wants you, your just trouble and useless" eric growled at me and I slipped out of the door.
My heart was broken and I just wanted to die. I lost everyone around me. I ran down the hall and out of the hotel. The valet came to me and asked me the name so I just gave up eric northman and he nodded.
A black porche came to a stop and the guy held the door open for me. I climbed in and raced away. I had no idea where to I was going but I just drove.
I was driving down a road after I left Dallas and I glad there weren't many cars here. I cried so hard that the road became blurry and I knew I had to pull over but I didn't because I wanted to get away.
The sun made its way into the car and I cried harder. I lost everyone, there is nothing left for me.
I was going to go to the next town and draw money, and I am glad me and my dad had joining accounts. I was going to start over and forget everything.
I sighed and closed my eyes for a second…and when I opened them a saw a van coming from the side and it slammed into my car.
My car flipped and rolled. It tumbled three times before it came to a stop. I groaned out, he head was bleeding and my shoulder was killing me. "get her out!" someone yelled and the door opened. "eric…." I whispered and I felt pain go through my neck.
"we need to move, get her!" another voice said and I thought it was godric. "godric, the sun" I said because I didn't want him to burn and die.
"shut up you stupid bitch" a male voice growled at me and I whimpered when I was roughly pulled out of the car. I leaned against the car and opened my eyes.
"can you believe this whore is still standing?" someone asked and I saw someone stand by my side and I was shocked that I recognised him.
He took my head and slammed in twice against the car and I blacked out. "not so tough now" he growled as my body hit the ground. "come on we need to move" the other guy said and the both of them carried me to the back of the van.
They threw me on the ground and tied my ankles and wrists with rope. A gag went into my mouth and the guy kicked me on more time in my face and then picked me up and threw me into the back. They drove as fast as they could out of there and headed to their destination.