Chapter 7 - Unthinkable
I know you once said to me
"This is exactly how it should feel when it's meant to be"
Time is only wasting so why wait for eventually?
If we gon' do something 'bout it
We should do it right now
You give me a feeling that I never felt before
And I deserve it, I know I deserve it
Its becoming something that's impossible to ignore
It's what we make it
I was wondering maybe
Could I make you my baby
If we do the unthinkable would it make us look crazy
Or would it be so beautiful either way I'm sayin'
If you ask me I'm ready
Bella's POV
I missed Carlisle and the more I thought about him, the crappier I felt about what I was doing. Several times I have attempted to call Edward and cancel our date but
just thinking about him reminds me of why I was doing this. He was a beautiful specimen, there were times when I considered changing him just to see what he looked
like as a vampire, but that would mean babysitting him and his thirst and I had no patience for that. And I would have to explain to Carlisle why I changed him and I
couldn't tell him the truth. But I enjoyed Detective Cullen as a human, especially how warm he feels against my skin, it felt amazing.
Staring at myself in the mirror finally satisfied with my look, ordinary, something I think the Detective would appreciate. I had on one of my many LBDs (For you non-
women people out there, Little Black Dress). This one hugged my body like spandex, showing off my womanly curves, ending mid-thigh, scrunched up at the sides with
spaghetti straps. I loved showing cleavage, I thought of them as a gift from God so I will show them off proudly and this dress show an ample amount of tits. I let my hair
down, keeping my natural waves. Black eyeliner and eye shadow were used and a blood red lipstick to match my pumps and purse and jewelry. Turning away from
reflection
after one last look I stepped from the room.
"He will love it and you need to be back here by early morning, we have several guests arriving," Alice said reading a book on the couch.
"Duly noted, have you talked to Carlisle?" I said trying to choose what car I will be riding in.
"Yes, he misses you, but I don't why he tells me this instead of you."
"I'm off, see you in the morning," I grabbed the keys to the BMW and left.
I drive to Diana's to discover that it was one of those blues bars, the dark atmosphere was perfect for our secret affair. I parked and walked inside the bar, taking in
the deep soul music that was currently in play. My kind of place, I enjoyed rhythm and blues music, especially when it was about sex. What can I say, I love the touch of a
man, it's Carlisle's fault, he got me addicted. Spotting Detective Cullen, sitting in a secluded part of the place I made my way to him. His scent hit me before he did and it
hit me like a ton of bricks. If I hadn't over-indulged in blood I would have attacked him in front of everyone and then I would have to slaughter all these people. This man
hadn't the slightest idea as to what he did to me, his smell was like no other and the more I inhaled him, the more I wanted him. He caught sight of me as I was nearing
the table, his mouth falling open and his gaze going from my face to body. When he stood I saw that he looked damn good in a gray dress shirt that showed his
wonderfully toned muscles, a black tie around his neck and a pair of black slacks. I stopped in front of him and smiled as much of a nervous wreck as he was. I stopped
him from running his hand through his hair.
"Relax, Tanya will not find out or Carlisle, so stop worrying," I promised kissing his lips just so I can feel that power surge I felt the first time we kissed. I pulled away and sat down in the chair across from him. He sat down, fixing his tie a bit.
"You look wonderful," he complimented me.
"Thank you, you look handsome yourself," I replied.
"Thank you," he smiled.
There was a moment where we simply watched each other, no words being exchanged. It wasn't awkward, it was quite comfortable. Eventually the silence was broken
by him asking me about myself and I answered any question and vice versa with him. He told me about his life, which was a bit intriguing, his Dad shot his Mom when he
was six and didn't tell anyone until he was ten. He lived on the streets, until high school where a teacher allowed him to stay with him until he graduated, after that
he enrolled into the police academy where he met Emmett.
"I don't let the past make my future," he said taking another sip of his beer. I nodded in agreement and just as I was about to say how brave he was, my favorite artist Maxwell came on, his song Bad Habits. I stood and took his hand, moving to the dance floor.
"I love this man, dance with me," I said.
"How do you know I can dance?" Edward questioned.
"You look like someone who can dance," I smiled. I was right; he pulled me into his body wrapping one arm around my waist and entwined his fingers with mine. We
moved around the dance floor in a smooth movement, like air. He dipped me, kissing my exposed neck, making me shiver. He pulled me back up and my panties were
suddenly damp looking at how much lust he had in his eyes. He spun me and me back into his body, my back to his chest and his erection pressing into my butt. He moved
my hair out the way of my neck and licked the sensitive skin, his warm tongue a new experience for my body.
"I want you so badly," he whispered. I could only nod, and with that he went back to our table throwing a few bills on the table, grabbing my purse and rushed back to
me. I took my purse and we left from the bar. He led me to his truck and I took note to pick my car up in the morning. He opened the door for me and I stepped inside. He
shut the door behind me and rushed to other side and hopped in. He pulled off the curb once the car was started. He sped down the street anxious to get to his place, so was I.
"Is it safe for us to do this at your place?" I asked as he sped down the dark road.
"Yes, Tanya will not be back until tomorrow night, she is at a bachelorette party and the wedding is tomorrow."
"Why didn't you go?"
"I hate attending weddings," Edward admitted.
"I'll make sure not to invite to mine," I said.
"You and Carlisle are getting married?" Edward asked.
"No, it's not official even though it seems to be the appropriate thing to do, we have been to together for so long it's odd that we aren't married, but life goes on, we will come around to it eventually."
"I don't see myself marrying Tanya," Edward said honestly. "I don't love her, I don't want to marry someone that I don't love, it's just not possible for me."
"I'm sure you'll fall in love," I assured. "Now enough about love, tonight is nothing about that."
"Agreed."
I only wanted one thing from this and that was sex, nothing more. I didn't want to complicate things with love and feelings, I knew I loved Carlisle and I was going to
be with him forever. Edward was a human, he was going to grow old and live a happy life. I wasn't going to fit in that picture, I never will.
Ten minutes of silence and we finally arrived to his place, Edward parked and got out to help me out of the car.
"You are such a sweet man," I said as he took my hand and guided me out of my seat.
"I wish Tanya appreciated it, she made me stop because she said it made her look weak, like she couldn't handle getting out of the car on her own."
"Tanya is an idiot, you should let me kick her ass."
"Tanya is pretty tough, I've seen her fight she can hold her own."
I snorted. "I'm sure she can."
"Enough about her," Edward took me into his body. "Tonight is about me and you."
I didn't argue with him, instead I agreed with a kiss. We parted, his eyes revealing just how much he wanted this. He began to walk towards the apartment building,
tugging me along with him. If my heart wasn't dead meat in my chest, it would be beating out of control. As he unlocked the main door, I had a chance to leave and
just forget about this whole thing and leave, but as he opened the door for me I didn't move to leave, instead I stepped into the building.
We walked to the elevator where he pressed the button to call it. The doors opened immediately and I stepped into the small area with Edward.
He pressed the button that would take the elevator to the ninth floor and the elevator began to move upwards.
I needed to be shameless, I wasn't about to cheat on Carlisle and do it safe. I was about to be reckless and wild, giving out no boundaries, of course while being smart about not being caught.
Once the elevator doors opened, I took Edward by the tie and walked from the elevator. I wrapped it around my fist and kissed him hard, tasting him, loving how hot his
mouth felt.
"My neighbors might see us," Edward said walking us towards his apartment door.
"Well in that case," I stepped away from him and began to unzip my dress.
I pulled it off of my body and revealed what I had on. For lingerie I chose the first number I had tried on at the lingerie store. It was actually my favorite one and I enjoyed
the way Edward reacted to it, especially because it made him forget about his fiancée.
Edward's lit up and he forgot about unlocking his door. I stepped forward and turned the knob to the door, pushing the door open to reveal his home.
"You want to show me where the bedroom is or do I have to find it myself?" I asked not sure if he even heard me.
I walked into the apartment and turned to face Edward. My hands went between my breasts where they began to undo each hook. The corset fell from my body, leaving
me in nothing by my underwear, I had decided to ditch the stockings since they didn't go well with my dress and I assumed they would have been pesky to get off while
we were in the heat of the moment.
My panties were off in seconds, leaving me stark naked in Edward's living room.
"I've shown you mine now show me yours," I arched my eyebrow at him, hoping that he hadn't cum already, that meant he had no control, which meant he sucked and I had just wasted my time and I had also chosen the wrong damn partner.
He finally moved closing and locking the door. Edward took off his tie, along with his shirt, giving me the opportunity to relish in the beauty of his chest. He was large, his
muscle etched into perfection, his abs great for the eyes.
I couldn't help but smile, anxious as he unbuckled his belt and undid his pants. I was impatient, he was taking too long to remove his pants, but I realized that we needed
to discuss some issues before we even did this.
His thumbs hooked into the loops of his boxers and before he yanked them off. "Wait," I said.
"Fuck, please don't tell me you don't want to this," Edward said.
"No, I have to say something," I said. "First off, I'm on the shot because I detest condoms, they take away feeling and I don't want to fuck if I can't feel so you don't have anything I should be worried about correct?"
"I'm spotless," he answered.
"Good me too and the other thing, I don't want love making, I want sweaty, gritty, sex. I want to fuck and fuck alone, understood?"
"That only makes me want to do this even more," he assured.
Since I was not alive, I had no functioning uterus therefore I was unable to get pregnant, nor was I able to catch an STD because you need blood and all that crap to get
one. But asking these questions made it seem like I was safe and not some dummy fucking anyone and everyone and not caring what I got.
"Great now, continue, I was actually enjoying the show."
He did as I asked and took off his boxers, his dick hard, thick and long. He would have made an amazing vampire, but that is something I would not do to him, I could tell
he enjoyed life too much.
"I would prefer it if the bed was the last place we fuck in," Edward said. "When I walk in this apartment, I don't want to be able to look in one room without seeing us."
I grinned at his idea and nodded. "Shall we begin in here or did you have another place in mind?"
"I actually want to start in the kitchen and head to the dining room, then the living, bathroom and finally the bedroom."
I looked up at the clock, it was 9:23. "I have to leave in the morning so I hope you have the stamina and energy because I plan to be at this all night."
Edward picked me up, my legs instantly around his body. "Only one way to find out."
He easily carried me into the kitchen, pushing me against the refrigerator. He kissed me roughly, his tongue invading my mouth, once again giving me warmth I have never
felt with Carlisle.
Not wasting another second I lowered myself onto him, taken completely by surprise at the heat that was emanating from his dick. Carlisle was a vampire, he was just
as cold as I was, we didn't feel the cold or heat when we had sex, so this was different. It was fucking amazing, I had never felt anything like this before and the deeper
he got the greater it began to feel. My head hit the refrigerator, my eyes falling shut, reveling in nothing but the fantastic sensation I was feeling. Edward thrusts his slim
hips backwards and forwards as I rocked my own to match his tempo. He understood the no love-making rule perfectly, the roughness and speed he was giving told me
that. Edward was in this for the same reasons so he had no reason to not conform to my rule, but I had not expected him to make me feel like this. I was unable to control
the loudness of my moans, I honestly didn't care if the neighbors heard me.
My body was alive, with Edward's hot body against mine and with him inside of me, I felt human, with Edward I felt alive.
I pushed forward, knocking us the ground. Edward shouted out, I clearly hurt him, but he got over it when gripping onto my hips as I rocked them, riding him. I
moved fast, urging my orgasm to come forth and bring me something I was only given during a time like this. I gripped onto the counter in front of me knowing that if I
grabbed Edward I would possibly injure him.
My orgasm started on the inside, bursting out of through every single pore. Edward gave a one last thrust upwards before he came, I could feel his seed fill me, it was
even warming. I convulsed one last moment before falling forward onto Edward's chest. It took a few moments to regain my full energy, but I still panted loudly to give the
effect that I was tired. Edward's heart was racing, but he took deep breaths eventually calming it down.
"That was astounding," I rolled off of him so he wouldn't notice the fact that I didn't have a heartbeat.
"It was," Edward said running his hand through his hair. "I didn't think it could get any better, but it did."
"Are you saying I was better than Tanya?" I asked surprised.
"Is this going to boost your ego if I say hell yea?"
I grinned brightly and he laughed. "You were way better than her, I can't explain how, it just was so…different."
"I can say the same," I said, but I knew what was different.
We both lay on our backs, I waited for him to re-energize.
"Ready for round two?" Edward asked sitting up. "Or do you give up already?"
I laughed and sat up beside him. "Let's go."
He stood up and held out a hand for me and I took it and he lifted me up with ease. He walked ahead of me, entering the dining room and swept everything off of the
table, everything glass shattering in pieces.
"How are you going to explain that?" I asked.
"I'll blame it on Emmett," Edward said already getting hard once again.
I climbed onto the table laying on my back and allowing Edward to climb between my legs.
He pressed forward, the hot skin returning inside of me. I couldn't help the sigh that formed from my mouth. Edward was astonishing, he was everything I didn't expect. I expected him to be mushy even when I told him not to be, but here he was fucking me relentlessly.
He was faster and harder than I was imagining him to ever be and he was better. I cried out over and over as he pounded into me, our skin slapping against each other.
His head bent down and took one of my nipples in his mouth, licking and sucking, but it didn't distract him, it didn't throw his speed. He was an excellent lover and I was
going to get him until the day Carlisle came back.
He lifted his head to kiss me, shutting my screams of pleasure and his groans up for a moment.
Edward pulled out of me and got off the table and I gave him an evil glare.
"I want you over the couch, now." I got off the table with no further explanations.
Both of us rushed into the living room and to the couch.
"How rough do you get when you fuck Tanya?" I asked before we even continued.
"I don't get rough, she hates it, she said…"
"I don't want to hear it," I said. "I want you to get rough as you can possibly get, I love it when Carlisle gets rough and I want to see if you do it or are you too soft?"
He didn't answer instead he turned me around pushed me over the edge of the couch, my ass in the air, ready for him to take me from behind.
He shoved himself in my pussy, moving the couch forward and making me squeak. His fingers dug into the flesh on my hips before he push inside of me, once again,
starting off slow, but then he unleashed something different. With one hand, he snaked it into my hair and gripped tightly, pulling it hard, but it didn't affect me at all. He
was merely a human, whatever he did to me could never hurt me, but it still felt great. My fingers dug into the couch, unable to contain my strength, ripping holes in the
seat. He screwed me mercilessly, showing me that I was wrong about him being soft.
I came harder than the first time, making the holes in the couch bigger and tearing another hole from where I bit down to muffle the piercing scream I had belted out.
"Fuuuuuuck! So damn…tight!" Edward hissed out, still drilling into me.
He had another orgasm, his hips still moving as he came, until he finally stopped. This time he fell on top of me, but gently, he was considerate. He released the hold he
had of my hair and massaged my scalp, the action was caring.
"I need a break before I continue on," I admitted. "That last one truly exasperated me."
I may have been dead, but I wasn't invincible, I was able to handle that first one, but this one made me think that I was actually with Carlisle. Carlisle tires me every time
we have sex and he always has the energy to continue even when I feel as if I am going to pass out. Edward just gave me that same feeling and he was so very
mundane. But he still hadn't topped what Carlisle makes me feel, we have something that makes sex the best it can be. With Edward I only feel lust and even though it
gives me mind-blowing orgasms like the ones I just had, it wasn't the same.
"I agree," Edward said getting off of me.
I moved my body all the way onto the couch, turned onto my side, allowing Edward to lie beside me. I placed my leg over his body, scooting closer to him.
I closed my eyes, taking a deep breath.
"You better not fall asleep on me, we still have two more rooms to go," Edward said slapping my ass.
I smiled, my eyes still shut. "One thing you won't ever have to worry about me is falling asleep."
"Are you that cocky?"
"No, I just don't sleep."
"Why not?"
"I have….mental issues that keep me up all night," I said not wanting to lie, but needing to.
"Did you murder someone and now their death haunts you?" Edward said jokingly.
"I have killed hundreds and none of their deaths have kept me from a good night's sleep," I said honestly.
"Is that a confession?" Edward questioned.
I opened my eyes and I could see the joy in his eyes, if only he knew just how serious I was. "Why do you think Carlisle killed that man?"
"We don't but we think he might be tied to the murder."
"Carlisle could never kill a man, that is something I know for certain," I spoke the truth.
He hated himself for taking my life so I know that he would die with another man's blood on his hand. Which is why I do it for him, he knows I have no conscience, it was
stripped away from me at childhood.
"Are sure you about that?"
"Positive, he has a heart of pure gold."
"Would he hire someone to kill for him?" Edward asked.
"No, he would believe that he might as well have pulled the trigger," and was true as well, which is why he didn't pay me to kill anyone and why he never asks about the
murders, he only wants to know if the job is done.
"Would you kill for Carlisle?" Edward continued on.
"In a half of a heartbeat," I answered coldly. No one fucked with Carlisle without paying the consequences which was a slow and excruciating death.
"You love him that much, you'd be willing to go to prison for him?"
"Yes, which is why I am having trouble trying to figure out why I'm here and not in Japan with Carlisle."
Edward didn't ask another question, he simply continued to rub my scalp. "If he ever left me, I would die inside, I would no longer have a reason to live."
"I'm sure you will be happy again."
"No. I wouldn't, you don't understand what Carlisle and I have, it's like taking the Sun out of the sky, Earth will never be able to sustain any form of life, forever reduced to nothing."
"With that being said, you should have no problem marrying him," Edward said.
He was right, I never even had a valid excuse about not marrying Carlisle. When Carlisle got back I was going to tell him how I felt and get married.
"This shouldn't be a conversation we should have when we are having an affair," I smirked.
"We have a weird affair, it's not normal," Edward explained. "We talk about the people we are with when usually people try to avoid them."
"I'm not normal, I never was," I whispered.
Edward's hand landed softly on my hip, massaging the skin there. "Why are you so cold all the time?"
I was silent for a moment, wondering about whether or not I should tell him the truth. He seemed as if he could handle the fact that I am what I am, but I had to be positive.
"Why do you ask so many questions?"
"I am a detective, it's my job."
"It's your job to be nosy?"
"Pretty much," he said with a smile.
"You should be able to discover why I'm cold without me telling you."
"Why do you shelter your feelings?"
"What are you a shrink now? Do you want to hear about my morbid childhood? About my disgusting Father?" I was getting irritated with him.
"I would like to get to know the woman I am fucking," Edward said.
"You don't want to know me Edward, so I suggest you quit while you're ahead."
"Your life can't be that bad where you can…."
"Enough!" I finally snapped, sitting up. "This isn't some shitty movie where the woman is tough and blocks people out and all she needs is a man to crack her shell and
they live happily ever after. My past is a nightmare that haunts me every single fucking day and even Carlisle hurts just thinking about it so I'm not about to tell anyone
else so they can be haunted it as well, be glad that all you had to deal with was your Dad murdering your Mom because that's fucking shit on the pavement compared to
what I went through."
At that moment I wish I was with Carlisle, in his arms, so he can tell me everything was going to be okay. Carlisle always had the right words when I was down.
"I'm sorry, if I had known how you really felt I would've dropped it," Edward sat up and kissed my shoulder.
"It's fine," I said thankful that I could no longer cry.
I stood up. "I need to go," I began gathering my clothes.
"What? We were having a good time," Edward got up from the couch.
"I know," was all I was able to say.
Edward walked up to me, taking my clothes from me. "You're not leaving until we finish what we started."
I look over him defiantly, he really had no authority over me, but the fact that he thought he did aroused me.
"I'm leaving and there is nothing you can about it," I argued just to see his reaction, to see if he would protest.
He tossed my clothes and yanked me into him, his height allowed him to tower over me. And without warning he lightly shoved me onto the floor, my body landing on the plush black rug. He crawled over my body, about to continue our sex session when his phone rang in his pants.
He reached over to the crumpled pile of his clothes that lay right next to us to retrieve it and cursed under his breath when he looked at the phone to see who it was. "Tanya."
I grinned wickedly. "Answer it."
"You aren't going to say anything are you?" Edward said responding to my facial expression.
I shook my head. "I'm not that evil."
With that he pressed answer button and as he did I flipped us over, allowing me control.
"Hello," Edward said with a grunt.
"What was that?" Tanya asked already suspicious.
"I hit my foot on the bottom of the counter," Edward lied looking up at me with wild eyes.
"You can be such a klutz sometimes," Tanya giggled, my prying ears suffering from the fake noise. At this point I wish I didn't have exceptional hearing.
I leaned down kissing Edward's neck, moving upwards to nibble on his ear while very slowly, lowering onto his dick.
"I try not to be," Edward sucked in a loud breath. "What are you doing, I thought you'd be out partying by now."
"I am, I just wanted to talk to you, I thought you would miss me," she said.
"Tell her how much you miss her Edward, so much that you are fucking me right now," I said low in his ear.
I could smell his blood and I was inches away from it, I could just take it right now, but as tempting as that sounded, I passed. Instead I rode him, torturing him while he
was on the phone with Tanya. His face showed just how hard it was for him to not make any type of noise that could give him away.
"Hold on Tanya, I have to get something out of the microwave," Edward said placing her on mute.
I looked down at him in confusion. "You want to play games?" he asked.
Tossing me back under him. "You make single noise and you'll regret it."
I shuddered at his threat and for a moment I took it to heart and pretended just for once that he could actually do harm to me.
He took Tanya off of mute and instead of holding the phone to his ear, he placed the phone directly by my mouth and put it on speaker.
"Can you hear me?" Edward said loudly.
"Loud and clear," Tanya's voice said in my ear.
"Perfect, I wouldn't want you to miss a single thing that I say," Edward smiled coyly.
Edward placed his hands on the sides of my head, looking down at me as he grinded into me, his eyes daring me to make a peep.
"So how was your day?" Tanya asked.
"Oh honey it was great and it still is, if only you could see just how happy I am," Edward said boldly.
I shut my eyes, concentrating on being silent all the while he was tearing me to shreds, merciless.
"I feel kind of crappy knowing that I'm not the reason you feel so great," Tanya said in a snobby tone.
Edward groaned. "Babe, don't feel that way."
"Are you okay?" Tanya said.
"No, I hit my toe pretty hard," Edward was slick, his lies truly believable.
"I wish I was there to make it all better," Tanya sounded as if she was talking to a damned toddler.
"Don't bother, I already have something making it all better," he said. "In fact hold on, I want to relieve some of the pain."
"Take your time, I'll be here."
Edward gave me a gigantic grin and I looked at him puzzled. "I'm hungry," he said to me.
I shook my head vigorously at his words. "Then eat, I'll call you back." Tanya responded thinking he was talking to her.
"No!" Edward shouted at the phone. "Give me a minute."
"Okay," Tanya said so very gullible.
Edward pressed his finger to his mouth, gesturing for me to remain quiet. He removed his cock from my body and quickly replaced it with his tongue. He lashed quickly
at my clit, my body rocketing off of the rug, not knowing how to react to the heat of his mouth. He pushed me back down with his hand, continuing to devour me like
ice cream on a hot summer's day. I listened to Tanya humming, clueless on the phone, trying to remember why I couldn't make a peep. An orgasm raced through so fast I
made a noise, but I quickly shut my mouth, making it sound as if someone hiccupped. But even with that Edward continued, my clit very
sensitive which didn't help. I panted heavily, feeling another orgasm bubble up.
"Why are you breathing so hard?" Tanya asked.
"This food I'm eating is so delicious, you have to taste it one day," Edward said.
"What is it?" she asked.
"Something Bella brought to me, I'm not sure," Edward replied giving me an evil grin.
"What is that bitch doing cooking for you?" Tanya said angry.
I came again, my legs clamping down on his head by accident, but he pried them apart. "It was already made, I told her that you weren't here and she brought over something for me to eat."
Edward crawled back up to me and shoved himself right back in me.
"What are you doing talking to her?"
"Emmett and I bumped into her at a café, she was lonely so we kept her company."
"I don't like her," Tanya said.
"Tanya, she is better than you think, trust me."
"I have to go now, the girls are looking for me," Tanya said. "I love…"
I hung up on her before she could finish that word.
"You asshole!" I slapped him on the ass and he jolted upward going deeper making me squirm under him.
"You started it," Edward laughed.
"I don't care, just don't stop!" I pleaded, ready to come all over his cock again.
"Hadn't intended to."
My hands went into his messy hair, my nails digging into his scalp. He growled out, taking my hands and putting them above my head and holding them with his own.
He gave a forceful thrust, driving into me hard, as if trying to hurt me, but it felt fucking awesome. Each thrust harder than the one before, going above and beyond. I
exploded right as he did, his roar mingling with my cry.
Edward laughed loudly, his chest heaving up and down. "I'm sorry, but that was the best orgasm I have ever had!"
"What are you apologizing for?" I said laughing with him.
"I'm apologizing to Tanya, she is going to have to work hard to top what I just felt."
"I have to admit, that was fucking delicious," I said.
"I didn't hurt you did I?"
"Not at all," I said.
"Good, because it's time to hit the shower."