Awkward
That was the definition of the ongoing atmosphere in Dan and Phil's apartment for the past few days. Neither male tried to talk to each other after recent events which had occurred. Well, that wasn't true exactly.
Phil had made numerous attempts to communicate with Dan but he either deflected his advances at conversation or just plain blanked him so, after awhile Phil gave up and went about his business as if nothing had happened.
But Dan couldn't do that either.
Since Phil had confessed Dan was constantly on edge with everything he did. He became increasingly aware of any contact he made with Phil from the simplest arm brush as they passed each other in the halls to the same cups they used to make tea in and each time he made a mental note on how to avoid it. From any one else's point of view Dan was being ridiculous and unfair towards Phil, treating him as though he had some sort of disease that meant he had to be avoided at all cost. But from Dan's point of view he was protecting himself and, in a way, Phil. By keeping himself away from Phil he was preventing Phil's feelings from getting deeper (not that you can get deeper than love really) and stopping the confusing pain he was beginning to experience whenever he was around him whilst he figured out how he felt.
But all the while Dan was trying to avoid Phil, Phil was doing the opposite and trying to make any and every excuse to stay close to Dan and talk to him again
"Dan, we need to film another Phil is not on fire again soon" Phil would casually try to start.
"Mhmm" Dan would dismissively respond
And again
"Do want some tea Dan? I was just about to put the kettle on"
"No thanks"
And again.
"Can we please talk Dan?"
"Sorry, I'm busy"
Phil just couldn't bare it anymore so he stopped trying and kept to himself. Eventually it got to the point where they were both constantly in their respective rooms and making no contact with each other or anyone else at all. Phil, constantly beating himself up for telling Dan about his feelings and Dan, questioning everything he had with Phil and himself in general.
It was about two weeks later when Dan finally broke the silence barrier that seemed to have formed around them since the confession. It was a Friday evening when Dan strolled into the lounge dressed in his usual black skinny jeans, a black shirt and his leather over-shirt. Phil discreetly looked him over before catching himself and bringing his attention back to the Tv which he wasn't really paying attention to in the first place.
"Phil" Dan spoke getting Phil's attention. Phil's head shot up straight away, eyes filled slightly with disbelief that Dan was finally talking to him and not the other way round.
"Y-yeah?" 'Damn it' Phil thought to himself. 'Don't stammer now!' Phil cleared his throat and continued
"What's up?" Dan glanced sideways before responding
"I'm going out tonight. I won't be back till late so…" He shoved his hands into his pockets waiting for Phil's reaction. Phil was quite surprised that Dan was seemingly going out by himself at his time but he wasn't about to risk questioning Dan after he was finally talking to him
"Okay, have fun!" Phil replied enthusiastically beaming back at Dan which caused Dan to half smile back at him before nodding and walking out the door of their apartment. Phil waited patiently until he heard the door click closed before he allowed a small smile to grace his face
'Maybe we'll be okay' Phil considered 'Maybe everything will work out if I give him some time' He smiled at the thought of all this being just a blip in their relationship and everything getting better soon whilst settling back down in front of the television and allowing his thoughts to drift away whilst he mindlessly watched whatever was on.
After about fifteen minutes however he just couldn't stand being as bored as he was so he grabbed his laptop and plugged in his headphones and began to quietly sing the first song that came on shuffle.
No I know.
That I can't make you stay
But where's your heart
But where's your heart
But where's your…
…
The atmosphere in this dingy out of the way club was heavy with smoke and sweaty bodies pressed up against each other on the dance floor grinding and moving to the rhythmic beats of the latest new songs that were playing. Words could hardly be heard over the pulsing of the music and Dan had to shout pretty loudly to get the attention of the barkeeper to order what must have been his seventh shot at this point. Not that he cared about that, he was out to get drunk and forget for a while anyways. If Phil was here he probably wouldn't have felt so damn alone.
Dan let out a strenuous sigh.
'It always comes back to Phil doesn't it?' Dan closed his eyes tightly at the sensation beginning to fill his chest
'I can't even go one night without thinking about him apparently. Fucking love…Is that what this is?' Shaking his head dismissively he downed his shot and slammed it back down onto the counter without a second thought.
A young, dark haired woman had made her way over to the bar from the dance floor and signalled towards bartender for another drink. Dan noticed her next to him and realised she must have been a regular here if all she had to do was signal to get what she wanted, however within these few seconds of a glace she had looked at him and noticed him looking back. She smirked towards him and he swiftly looked away embarrassed at getting caught watching a random woman ordering a drink. She however seemed to loved this and scooted closer to him trying to get his attention again.
"Well hello there handsome" She commented throwing a wink towards him
"Er…Hey" Dan replied awkwardly quickly throwing her a quick smile before finding the empty shot glass he was holding incredibly interesting all of a sudden. She was not perturbed by this is the slightest however.
"So I noticed that you were looking at me and I was wondering if maybe you wanted to dance?" She replied batting her eye lids at him flirtatiously and casually placing a hand on his bare arm. He gulped at the close proximity the woman was creating with him and was becoming increasingly uncomfortable so he replied
"Sorry I wasn't looking at you, like that" he threw her an awkward smile before ordering another shot. She looked shocked at him rejecting her advances until she took him in and his appearance. Her confused features then morphed into one of understanding.
"Ah. I get it" He threw her another awkward sideways smile, grateful that she had gotten the hint, before drinking his shot
"You like men"
And then proceeded to choke on it.
He swallowed his drink harshly and then had a mini coughing fit much to the amusement of the beautiful woman next to him who raised a hand to her lips to hide her smile. After Dan had finished coughing she continued
"You aren't the first one to come here that's g-
"I'm not gay" Dan cut her off quite rudely practically throwing his glass down. She was quite taken aback by his sudden outburst but continued to eye him curiously as if she didn't quite believe him. The song currently playing had finished and the DJ was preparing a new one so Dan threw caution to the wind and grabbed the woman's wrist, dragging her towards the dance floor
"You wanna dance? Then let's dance."
Upon reaching the overly crowded floor Dan realised that maybe he had let himself get worked up for no reason and acted stupidly and carelessly. However now he had a strange random woman winding her arms around his neck and waiting for the song to eventually start. Dan wasn't used to this kind of thing so he just decided to go along with it. It couldn't hurt right?
'I can always blame it on the alcohol later' Dan grinned slightly looking down at the woman who he just realised had the most striking blue eyes. Almost like…
Hey a casual affair
That could go anywhere
And only for tonight
"Oh I love this song!" she smirked moving her body gracefully and erotically against his own.
Just lay in the atmosphere
A casual affair
Lay in the atmosphere
A casual affair
He pathetically tried to imitate her actions (or any of the males around him that caught his eye) and ended up placing his hands by her hips as she expertly manoeuvred her body around both him and the dance floor. Eventually he got into the rhythm of the dancing and pulled her closer after giving her a twirl.
"You learn quick" she remarked sliding her hand down his chest seductively as he placed a hand upon her lower back and carefully yet elegantly guided her into a dip. As she came back up she rested her arms back around his neck he nonchalantly replied
"I'm a very fast learner" sending her a sly wink
She grinned back at him, her eyes becoming heavy with desire as they continued to move around the dance floor
Just lay in the atmosphere
A casual affair
Lay in the atmosphere
A casual affair
By the end of the song they had stopped moving and just held onto each other. She reached up and placed her hand against his cheek gently and caressed it. After a few frozen moments of smiling at each other she spoke up.
"Want to go some place more…Quiet?" She inquired putting heavy emphasis on the last word suggestively.
"Don't you want to know my name first?" he replied looking pretty smug with himself
"Knowing someone's name involves acknowledging that person and their feelings…Do you really want to do that?" Dan's eyes narrowed slightly at the statement
"I came here to forget"
"Then follow me and I'll definitely help you forget"
Dan was at this point heavily intoxicated from both the alcohol and the atmosphere of the club and the one he had created with this strange woman. That and he was a man who had needs in the end…
'Besides, I can blame it on the alcohol'
"Okay" and breathing heavily he allowed him self to be pulled out of the crowd and into a back room where she then proceeded to push him back into the wall and attach her lips to his almost urgently. Her body was pressed up against his, moving slowly and sensually against his now enhanced and sensitive skin. Her hands delicately found their way under his shirt and lightly clawed down Dan's back causing him to shiver in pleasure and anticipation. She disconnected her lips from his to catch her breath which Dan took as an opportunity to flip her around so she was the one pinned against the wall and continued to attach his lips to the pale skin on her neck, sucking and nipping which was sure to leave a mark. Her moans seemed to make Dan believe he was still as good at this as he used to be. She however was more concerned about her other clients noticing.
She pushed him back slightly giving him a dazzling grin before asking the impending question that had to be asked
"So…Your place or mine?" His smile faltered for a second when he thought about what Phil would say if he brought a random girl from a bar home. That and so soon after he had told him that he-
The woman was becoming impatient and began getting worried at the look on Dan's face so she started leaving gentle kisses along his exposed neck which forced Dan's mind to go completely blank with her attached to the most sensitive part of his body…Well second sensitive at this point
"Yo-Yours. I have someone back at my flat" He groaned as she pressed her hips firmly against his and removed her hands from beneath his shirt.
"Great" She grabbed his arm and led him outside borrowing his phone to call for a taxi. After a ten minute wait, filled with plenty of kissing and the occasional grope, the taxi pulled up and they climbed inside. Another five minutes later and Dan found himself inside a small caravan in a dingy neighbourhood full of thugs and criminals. Dan gulped but everything was soon forgotten when the beautiful woman with the dark hair, blue eyes and pale skin began continuing their actions from earlier.
'Besides, I can blame it on the alcohol'
…
"Hey Dan it's me again, Phil…But you know that already because I'm in your phonebook. Anyways I've texted and called but you haven't picked up so…. I know I told you to go and have fun but its like-…Six in the morning. I'm just worried. Look I know we're not talking or anything but…Please just give me a call and let me know you're okay? Alright, bye.
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AN: DAN NO WHAT ARE DOING?!...Wait this is my fault…I'M SO SORRY!
Hey there! Didn't expect me to update that soon did you? (Neither did I but that's what happens when you have an idea) I hope you enjoyed it! (And I apologise profusely…This is actually the first straight scene I've ever written) Reviews give me inspiration and joy so do that and I'll send you lots of strawberry Poptarts!
Will Phil find out about this random woman Dan's slept with? How will he react if he does? Is this the end of Dan and Phil's relationship?
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