i could feel something stinging and it felt as if it was burning.i lifted the covers and looked down to my lady bits and noticed it was slowen and red.
i didn't really care,it felt compelete that i had had sex with paul,i know people think of him as a man whore but thirs more to him than people know.
i know he can be a moody asswhole but thats why i'm in love with him.
i sat up as my thoughts carried on,as i thought of paul i couldn't help put get betterflis even though he was right beside me fasy asleep.i looked over my shouler so i could see his face,he looked breathtaking.i pulled to cover up to cover my chest as i thought if last i was in my own little world i felt a big,soft and very warm hand travel up my back,i grinned at his touch and the tingle it left hand traveled all the way to my cheek as he rubbed it with his large sat up next to me,i felt his graze on me as i hid behind my moved my hair so he could see my face i felt my cheeks go bright red and he giggled.i looked up to him with a looked into my eyes and said the words i thought i would never hear "i love you"he whispered in my ear,i felt his words sink in "i love you 2"i said with utter love.
Paul kissed my cheek and the my jaw and all the way down to my neck,i moved my head to the side so he could get to my neck.i felt a moan escape and all of last night can back in then it hit me hard.i don't remember paul putting a condom on and i didn't take the pill.
my eyes flew open "Paul stop!"i said loudly he looked at me for a mintue or 2 then he decided to speak "whats the matter?"he asked as he ran his fingures through my hair. "We have a real big problem!"i layed back and closed his eyes "no we don't"he told me.
"yes we do"i told him and he grinned "like what?"he asked "last night you didn't put on a condom and i didn't take the pill"i told his eyes flew open as he shot up "WHAT!"he yelled i looked at him then back down to my lap."WHY WOULD YOU NOT TAKE THE PILL?"he asked in a angry tone. my jaw hung open as i looked at him with anger in my eyes "HOLD THE FUCK UP!"i roared back."I didn't know you where planing to make a move like that and I am not on the pill and YOU know that! YOU should of worn a condom!"
i told him. he ran his fingures through his hair "were not going to argue about this"he told he,i nooded in agreement "but you know i'm right"i added i couldn't help turned to me and said "really? did you have to add that?"he said annoyed "yes,yes i did"i told him smuggly.
Paul stood up and started to put his clothes on "oi were you going!this is your mess aswell!"i shouted he glared at me while he spoke"i need to go for a run to think"he told me i ran my fingures thorugh my hair with stress "so your just gonig to go for a run? what about this mess were in?! is a ran more important!"i told his with annyance and his excuse was "it helps me think i'll be back soon i promise" he whispered as he kissed my head "i love you" he said as he walked out the house.
i sat on the floor for about half an hour before i saw jacon walk into the living room he looked at me and asked "you feeling okay?" i nodded to say yes i stodd up with the cover to my body to cover my nakedness as i walked away jacob took a double take at me "if you goning to find those fucknig drugs in your room you will be looking for a long time beause i clear you whole romm from head to toe and i swear if you get anymore i will kill you!"he shouted. i got angry and yelled "IM GOING TO PUT CLOTHES ON!"i yelled and he just walked into the kitchen.
I walked into my room and shut the door as i shut it i droped my covers to the floor,i walked over to my bed where all my stuff was chucked on my bed,i decided to put it all away.
After an hour of tidying i put on my dressing gown and walked into the bathroom,i locked to door and droped my robe the the floor. i turned on the shower and stood under it letting the water was away the smell of sex off my body.i washed my whole body and my hair.i jumped out the shower and rapped a towel around my body.i walked out the bathroom and into my room.i dropped my towel as i looked into my bosy sized mirror.i looked down to my stomach wondering if i was pregant and what i would do,i started to panick so i texted the one person i knew i could .
i blow dryed my hair and strightened it,i decided to wear dark washed jeans with a red over sized jumper and black ankle boots,i put on mascara and lip balm,after i was done i grabbed my phone and layed on my bed as i texted georgia.
ME-i done it x
GEORGIA-done what? x
ME-you know...sex
GEORGIA-OMG! i'm coming over for detail!
ME-okay...
within 5 minutes georgia was running up the porch,i ran to the frount door to sand swung it open she ran into my arms and wrapped her legs around me and i couldn't stop laughing,she squeezed me tight and sqealled."I CAN'T BELIVE IT!" i went bright red she jumped down and squeezed my cheeks "aaww look at you!"
I saw dad laughing in the kitchen "you okay dad you want something to eat?"i asked. "if you don't mind pricsess"he said hoplesssly,i gave a fake smile as i walked into the was talking about her motorbike she was getting.i made dad a bacon sandwich and put it in frount of him he said thank you and gave him a kiss on the i sat at the kitchen i wondered if jacob was with paul and if so,would paul tell paul."dad.."i said "where jake?"i asked casually dad looked at me "out"he said i rolled my eyes with gave me a cheeky smile and took another bite of his sandwich.
i grabbed georgias arm and pulled her into my bedroom so we could soon as i closed the door she fired questions."what did it feel like!?"
"was it big?!" "was it awquard?!" i giggled at her questions and answered "it felt..weird but in a good way..its hard to explain but it was really romantic"i sighed "AAWW! was his dick big?"she asked me "was it big?it was fucking massive like 10 fucking sasuages!"i yelled as we bursted into laughing fits.
when we stopped laughing i decided to tell her about the bad news "georga i need to tell you this"i said with a stright face "go on"she told me eagar to know,
"when we had sex...he didn't use a condom and i'm not on the pill"i told her in shame i let my head mouth dropped"you are joking right?" i shock my head in a no montion and i felt tears fall "i don't know what i'm gonna do!"i cried she looked at me and told me "bloddy hell Carla are you fucking stupid!"
she yelled at me. "i know!i was so rapped up in the moment i didn't realise!"i cried tear streming down my face.
she gave me a hug,she told me we would sort it out and she told me it would be okay. "i have to go home but i'll text you later okay?" i nodded my head as i watched her leave.i was so greatful i had she left i wipped away the tears and strightened up my clothes.
i walked back into the living room i saw dad watching a movie so i joined the movie finished me and dad had a chat about ice cream i know random.
"no i like rum and raisins"dad told me as i scrunched up my face "eeww no way chocolate has to be that best" i told dad as he smiled "you look like jake when you do that"
i pulled back my hair and pulled the face again "what about now?" i asked as he laughed "now you look stupid"he told me through deep laughs.
All of a sudden the door flew of the hinges and hit the floor both me and dad jumped out of our skins.i stood up quickly to see Paul and Jacob both at the door,
dad looked confused "whats going on?"dad asked both jacob abd paul.i looked at both of them as my heart pounded looked livid and paul looked worried.
Jacob looked at me "YOUR DAUGHTER COULD BE PREGANT!"he roared with fury he looked so angry like really,really room was silent.
"tell me this is a joke"dad spoke at me looked straight at me.I felt my heart heating so fast in fear,i couldn't speak.
"IS IT TRUE OR NOT?!"dad yelled as i flinched at his sharp words. "its true"i told him with a whisper,dad looked at livid as Jacob. i looked at Paul aas he walked over to me,he came over to me but i pushed him away."i didn't tell him i swear"he told me with puppy eyes "THEN WHO DID PAUL?!"i yelled at him he looked at me with hard eyes "i was running and your brother looked at my fucking thoughts so don't pin this all on me!"he shouted back at me,
"grow the fuck up Paul do you have any idea hiw serious this is? because you seem to think its a fucking run in the forest!"i shouted back in his face.
"ENOUGH!"dad shouted,we both shut out pinched the bridge of his noise "how did this happen?" dad asked us both and jacob being jacob answered for us.
"how do you think is happned dad?! THEY HAD SEX!PAUL PUT HIS DICK IN HER!"
"JACOB ETHAN BLACK! SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU COCKY SHIT!" jacob shut his mouth with disapporaible. "when did..did you have sex?" dad asked us.
"last night" i told him with looked at me with disappointment and i felt bad,my vison went blurry as silent tears fell down my face.
"well we need a preganancy test" dad told me. i nodded as i walked into my room.i grabbed my purse and my car keys. "where you think your going?" paul spat at me "TO GET A TEST WHAT DO YOU THINK?"i shouted at him. "your not goning on your own,paul going with her"dad instructied him.
"NO DAD THEY MIGHT SHAG IN THE CAR!"jacob said with gave him daggers.
Paul snatched my keys as he walked past me and walked to my car,got in the car and waited for me in the car.i walked slowly to the car to annot him and it worked "would you stop it!"he said as he pulled out of the drive "stop what paul?"i said in a sweet but deadly tone. "FOR FUCK SAKE CARLA! YOU JUST DON'T GET IT!
I DIDN'T WANT JACOB OR YOUR DAD TO FIND OUT!"i got angry and snapped back "IS THAT WHAT YOU TELL ALL THE GIRLS YOU GOT PREGNANT?!"i soon as i said it guilt covered me and felt face changed from anger to anger and hurt. "you know for a fact i changed that when i ment you and still after everything you still have to make me feel like shit"
he said with hurt i knew i hurt i was to stubborn to say sorry right how.
we pulled uo and i looked at didn't even look at me "are you going to get it or not?" he tried to hide his pain but i knew i hurt him.
i went into the shop and brought a pack of 5 just in case. i walked to my car to see Paul with his head in his lap,i got back into the car i sat their trying to think of things to say to him. "Paul..i'm sorry"i told him,he looked up and ignored me as he started up the car and drove off. 10 mintues later he pulled into my drive and stopped the went to get out my car but i pulled him back sat their "what do you want now carla?" he asked.
i climbed onto his lap so i was facing him,Paul wouldn't look at me so i put my hands on either side of his face so he had to look at me.
"i'm soo sorry paul i didn't mean it i was angry" i ran my fingures through his hair and kissed him in the lips quickly.
i got off his lap and out of the car with paul behind me.
when i walked into the house i saw the whole pack their including ay the imprints,i walked stright past them and went to the bathroom.i hadn't been for a wee all day so it would be able to tell if i was pregnant or not.i sat on the toilet with the test.i pissed on the hands where shaking,my heart hammering,i heard a know on the door i open it and saw leah i let her in. "you scared?"she asked as i looked at the test "yes scared shitless"i told her truthly.i had to wait 5 mintues and i'll tell you it was the worse 5 mintues of my life.
5 mintues was over.i looked down to read the test that said NOT PREGNANT i sighed in relife and leah did the same,she gave me a hug as she whispered "i'll go an get Paul"
i nodded my head as she later the door open and i saw Paul his face looked terrafied,i gave his the test and he read it as he sighed in pulled me into a hug kissing me all over making me giggle."i love you" he told me though kisses and i said it back.
we walked out the bathroom holding hands "not pregant"i said to all of them dad and jacob both look relived by still angry but everyone else seemed ok,
"you got away with it this time but from now on YOU my girl are..are going on the pill and you paul need to start wearing a condom if your gonna do things to my daughter"dad told us awkardly.i just looked away inmabassed,times like this i wish i still had mum,if i had mum,dad wouldn't need to deal with my female problems.
i miss loads it hard you need to have a mother and daughter talk because i can't do that.
My thoughts where destrupped when i heard leah talk to me "us lot are gonna leave you four to talk"she told us as she looked from me to paul to jacob and then to dad.
they all walked out closeing the door behind them.i ran my fingures through my hair in stress,i was upset and confused,i wasn't sre if i was paul's fuck buddy or what, i know he said all those words but did he mean it or not?
dad decided to break the silance."Carla can have a chat outside please?"he asked as he wheeled out the door onto the porch,i stood up and went to the door but paul stoped me and whispered"i'm sorry,i was being a dick,i love you" he kissed my cheek and went to talk to jake.
i walked onto porch to see dad with his head in his hands.i sat down on a chair next to his wheel looked up at me and sighed with sadness i felt bad,
bad that i had let him down so i decided to start the conversation "i'm sorry i let you down dad,i was soo stupid,are you ashamed of me?"i asked.
he looked at me for a while before he spoke "i'm not ashamed,disappointed but mot be honest i never really told you about safe sex and stuff like that.
i always thought your mother would do that."i saw his eyes start to well up."you use to run around the frount yard playing with jacob and now..now your all grown up,
i don't want you to grow up,meet someone,move out,get married and have my little princess and i know jacob feels the same."i saw a tear fall down dads cheek,my dad was crying i had never seen him cry not even when mum dided he use to cry in his strocked my cheek and i felt dorry for him.
"dad...you know i'll always be here for you,you know that and jacob knows that to,i know your just trying to look out for me but i have to make me own desishions,
i can't always have you or jacob to catch me when i fall i've got to lean how to fight my own battles."
"now you've meet Paul your whole world will change, jacob and i both worry about you because you don't know what Paul is capable of carla."
"i love him dad,like you loved mum,he means so much to me,i can't le you and jacob drive him away"i told him as tears fell.
jacob came out onto the porch he looked at dad and he knew what had gone on "shes in love with Paul" dad told him and jacob face sat down next to me.
"i'll always be your princess"i told them both they both smiled at me.i put my arms around jacob and hugged him,he just patted my hand so i climeinto his shoulders while he was sitting down. he started laughing "what are you doing?!"he asked through laughs. "stand up jake"i told stoopd up with me on his shoulders.
my head could touch the roof of the porch i leanded back so my back was against his.i looked at dad from my upside down view,dad laughed at me and said "common my babies get inside"we all laughed as jacob carried me inside.
As we got inside i saw Paul on the sofa,so when jacob put me down i sat on Paul's lap he gave me a smile and i kissed him on the lips,he tried to put his tounge between my lips but i pulled away i whispered"wait till later"i winked he giggled and whispered back "i got condoms" i smiled at him and came down to his ear level and whispered "good boy"i said in a sexy boy as my lip brused his ear lobe. i felt his shiver at my touch and i smiled at him with love. he gave me a cheeky grin,as he stood up me chucked me over his shoulder and slapped my ass laughed as paul slapped my bum and he carried me into my bedroom he laided me down and kissed me as he tickled me.
"PAUL!"i laguhed "stop!" he stoped tickling and i looked into his eyes."i'm so lucky to you as my girl friend"he told me as he looked into my eyes.
i gave him a confused look "i'm not you girl friend untill you ask me out"i corrected him. Paul rolled his eyes "Carla Black will you be my girlfriend?" paul asked me.
i gave him a shocked look as if i didn't expect it and he laughed "of course i will!"i yelled i pulled him on top of me,he gave me a smile as i pulled him closer.
"not without a condom"paul told me and i sighed as his laugh filled the climbed off me and held out his hand for me to take,i tokk it hand and it fit perfectly like his hand was made to fit mine.
i kissed him as i pushed my fingures through his walked towards dad and paul and i felt complete.