No Daughter of Mine
Genderbend AU

Summary: Dean is sent away to school as she reminds John of Mary too much.

Authors Note: John isn't an asshole but looking at the mirror image of your wife while hunting down his killer would have sucked. Timeline will be weird but assume that pretty much everything happened up to Dean's 14th birthday then the "boys" were shipped to Bobby's where Dean spent the rest of her life (14-19) there taking care of Bobby and Sam. Sam would go on trips with John but never Dean. When I stated this I didn't expect it to go so Dark but I guess my head is in a place. I hope you enjoy, keep in mind that everyone in this AU at the current time is human so no superpowers or healing! What ends up dead (hint hint) will be remaining dead….this is your warning….for once its not Sam, Dean, Cass, or Jessica! Loads of others to pick from! Mawhahaha, Two more stories. OMFG!

Also this was going to be like three thousand words longer but I wanted to post before work so this is what you get, prompts are welcome I like this would.

I am Deanna Winchester, I prefer to go by Dean, I am thirty, when my father left me I was fourteen. This is the story of everything between now and then. John took off in the middle of the night with my brother Sammy, he was ten but it was okay. You see I had a mother, her name was Mary and we shared a lot of things, really I am a spitting image of a now dead woman. So when people ask why I'm not upset with my dad its simple, if it hurts me to look into the mirror every morning I can only imagine what it was like for my dad to see her all day.

When I was sixteen I ran away from Bobby's and into town, not to get away but for a bottle of hair dye, that was the first time I dyed my hair, it wouldn't be the last but I learnt a number of things from it. First and for most how to not dye your own hair green. The slightly darker shade made it a little easier, there was nothing I could do about my eyes but that was okay. It was a reminder that Mom is always with me.

When John left me the first time I thought I'd never see him again, it was two months later that he came back and I thought for sure I would be going with him, but no it wasn't that he was just dropping his son off. Couldn't hunt and care for a young boy at the same time, at least I could take care of my little brother again.

Never did I give up wanting to hunting, I knew when I was eight as much as I hated hunting and killing I was made for it. Bobby even mentions how well of a shot I am and how fast I can be when I want to. I still train but Bobby things that I joined these school things because I like them. HA! Its really just another way to keep in shape, track and field for running and reflexes, baseball for upper body strength, soccer for lower. Sammy loves being stuck in one place, so it was hard when she finally came of age to be willing to leave Sam behind for the first time in a long time.

But I'm jumping ahead, so about me, I adore my dad's car, I remember the story of the young woman that seemed to appear out of nowhere and convinced him to take the car over the van he was going to pick up. The woman even shared Deanna's name like her grandmother, it was a little weird but not the most off the wall thing that ever happened to them. It was the one and only thing he gave me when I turned legal age, at eighteen he came back long enough to toss the keys at me jump into his new truck and take off. He could have just junked it, it had taken a week to get it back to where it had been when my dad bought it. Worth ever minute!

Dad would come back during march break, summer and other holidays, I always hoped he could even just say hello to me. He would look, eyes misting and then scream for Sam to hurry his ass up and get into the car. Dean would watch them drive away together and every time she wished she had a cock and balls instead of breasts and a pussy. Maybe then her father would want her.

Sammy was seventeen when he finished high school early because his brain is too big and went away for school. Bobby had been thrilled and I let them think I was, it was two days later that I had packed up almost everything I owed and hit the road. I had a job to do.

I had trained my entire life, even after Dad had told me I would never be the hunter I wanted to be. I knew I would be better, the best damn hunter in the Winchester family I swore to myself even if Sammy didn't get it. Maybe it was the fact I was told I couldn't do it made me want it more but nothing would ever stop me from anything. Ellen wouldn't let me go on my own and when she or Bobby couldn't take me they would get Rufus to help out with a few of the hunts.

I also managed to drag Ash out of the bar and onto a hunt even if he didn't realize it wasn't a date until after they took care of the demon, for being an MIT flunk out the man was dense. I was always close with Ellen's girl Jo and it was nice to have someone around my own age and sex that wanted to hunt as bad as I did. Ellen hated it but finally allowed them to do small easy hunts close to home. Jo seemed to work it out of her system and soon boys and school were more important.

After that I would still crash at the bar overnight, but it wasn't the same. I would always have tales to tell but soon Jo was also headed to college (at the normal age) and I was alone in the hunters world again. I was almost twenty-two and wanted to be on my own so I started to hunt without a partner. It was freeing, I had made a name for myself and a lot of people knew me. It didn't hurt that I had a famous father also.

It was my birthday when I met him, I had just finished a hunt, like in the back parking lot and was having a drink to celebrate when he introduced himself. He was beautiful, yet manly, his eyes drew me in and his hair couldn't have been more of a disaster if he had been trying. I was instantly hooked, so hooked that I didn't catch his name or whatever that followed. Instead blinked and smiled offering my hand.

"Dean," a firm hand, rough with hard work but not too rough. Showing he worked with something a little more difficult than pens and copy machines. I could feel the muscles cording in his forearm and felt a rush from head to toe. Boys had never really interested me, at first I thought I was a lesbian or something but girls didn't really do it either. I had figured it would either happen or it wouldn't and I wasn't worried, just a shame to be twenty-two and a virgin, risking your life and never having had to- besides the point, back on track, hot man talking to you- I try and focus it would be easier with a name.

"Sorry I didn't catch your name," I blush slightly hoping I don't look like a blond bimbo, the hair could use a touch up the roots were starting to show. Never had I been so focused on my looks, even worrying if I bothered to put on clothes that went together or make up of any type. Which I hadn't on any counts, it was a hunt day not dress up for a possible date.

"Castiel," he rumbled and I hold back the desire to bite my lower lip. His voice is deep and nice, something different from my normal run of the mill. I was never one to believe in love at first sight but what we have, its something different. I can't really label it something but when I took Castiel home after finding out he was a hunter himself. His motel room may have been circled in salt and it was a nice surprise. A welcome one.

Off track again- it worked and my pseudo family loved him, blessing us and whatever they were doing the first time I brought him back after a rather rough hunt. We were both banged up and sore, thankfully everyone just helped and let us have peace and quiet. It was up to see Bobby after that and I'm pretty sure the man threatened to shot him with a shotgun and worse if he ever hurt me. I was saved the ordeal of meeting the family as sadly Castiel's were all dead, he had taken up hunting in memory of them.

I started to go by Dee and Castiel became Cass and they settled into a routine, both of us too interesting in helping people to think about leaving hunting but unwilling to part from the other we became dating partners, and then married partners. I was twenty-four and had been married for around seven months when Sammy and his girlfriend showed up. Bobby had given them the location and I found myself wrapping up the hunt in three hours and heading to Bobby's for protection and research.

They had been attacked, a few days after Halloween and they had been attacked. I couldn't believe it, Sammy was suppose to be safe, Cass tried to calm me down on the way home but I wouldn't allow it and just set into the drive letting it take away some of my nerves. After almost a month at Bobby's we all agree to find and set up our own base, we buy a large house that is between Bobby and Ellen's places and start to fix the place up. It takes a little bit of time but we start to work together, all four of us hunting together.

Of course in the beginning it takes everyone time to adjust, Sam and Cass need to learn to trust, both a little over protective of me, both knowing I didn't need it but couldn't help. It had been tension filled specially with Jessica there and not enjoying much of her time with the two men. I had fixed that, pulling her away for female time that ranged from reading random crap magazines to learning how to fight and fire a gun the female way.

Adjustments were made for everyone, even the couples had to readjust as they were not living alone anymore and had settled, Cass and I would get into some horrible fights about nothing, we were both unease with the lack of movement and it made us start to travel slightly for hunts. We started to get known as a group, people would call on us to have us deal with problems. Some jobs even paid, it was kind of amazing really. I should have known it would all go to shit, it was my life and I had been waiting for the ball to drop since I had met Castiel. This was just in a form much older than that ball, I had thought it had already dropped.

It was March and the spring was starting to poke its head out past the depressing winter months, I had felt off all day, Castiel had commented on it but I just brushed him off. I had figured it was nothing, it wasn't until John showed up that I knew today was the day shit went down. I didn't know it would affect the rest of my life and those around me but ripples in a pond. At first it was almost laughable, John had rang the damn doorbell, opening it had been a shock to see my father on the other side.

The man had left me behind how many years ago? He never called after me, never asked after me, never cared but here he was wanting something. Eyes were full of tears and he held his hands as if he were praying to me. "Please, I need your help, its important and it can only be you. Only you."

"Don't care, you have to leave." I state as I go to slam the door closed on him but his foot stops it, then he is pushing it open and even as I brace I slid back at his strength, sometimes being a chick sucks.

"I need your help! I'm going to get it! I can fix it! Fix it all, but it can only be you. It has to be you." John shouted as the door is yanked out of my hand and I am face to face with my father. Our eyes meet and he looks mad, crazy beyond everything.

"What happen to you?" I ask quietly wondering if there was really a safe way out of this and next time Sammy or Cass is totally paying for pizza.

"I learnt the truth and the truth is that it can only be you," the pulling at my arm starts and I try and shake him off but I can feel the grip tighten and I know that will mark me later. " Come on now, need to save Sammy."

"Sammy?" I frown and pull harder to get away. "Sam is fine, safe and sound."

"On the run, demon."

"Safe and sound."

"SHUT UP! YOU DON'T KNOW ANYTHING!" John screamed at me and I knew he wasn't all there anymore, maybe losing his entire family to evil and madness took its toll. Whatever it was I didn't want to see how it ended and tried to pull back but John wasn't all there anymore. He shook me slightly and I really hoped this wasn't how I would end up dead. "I NEED TO FIX IT, I NEED YOU, ONLY YOU! NOW COME ON." He screamed as he pulled me towards the door, I tried to stall as best I could and it managed to buy me a few seconds, but that was all I needed, three sets of footsteps headed our way.

Unfortunately, the sounds also alerted John who pulled his pistol out and held it up to the doorway. "Don't!" I tried, "you might hurt Sammy." John turned the safety on for the moment and I relaxed slightly even if now I was held like a hostage.

"Dad!" Sam's shocked cry came as he rounded the corner and I looked up to see him gun out and pointed at his father, "let go of Dee, " Castiel and Jessica arrived a second later both with guns out and safety off. Dean took a deep breath, this wasn't going to end well for someone.

"I need her, please Sammy you have to understand, you have a girl of your own, you get it." His grip tightened around my shoulders and I wince without thinking and I can hear Castiel's worry from across the room I meet his eyes and try to smile.

"Dad, Dee has a guy of her own. This isn't right, whatever this is."

"I need to fix it. I will fix it." I am so busy making sure Castiel is okay and not doing anything risky that I don't see the blow to the back of my head from John. I feel it for a split second before its darkness. What I was told after the fact was as soon as I dropped Cass and Jessica both took the shot. John didn't live to hit the ground, I'm not sure how to feel about it all.

Jessica and Cass had set to nursing me back to health and Sammy took care of the body. Lawyer type probably had the right connections and known how. I just hope a salt and burn was part of it. I try and not look back, move forward and really it gets easier every day. I just wish that the demons would back off of Sammy, the visions were only getting worse and we all worry what this means for the future. But it is all we have to look forward to so we will fight for it.

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