even though he broke my heart but i still love him i can't help it,i fell deeply inlove and i know we wern't really girlfriend and boyfriend but it still hurts.
this was tiypical paul.i don't know why i thought he changed because he hasn't and he's showed me that he can't change.
PAUL P.O.V. IN WOLF FORM
i hate myself,i can't belive what happened lasat night! that whore who i use to fuck turned up! i told her to back off i told her i didn't want her!
i told her i was in love with someone but no she couldn't fuck off! That Emma slut has fucked everything up! Carla hates me and for georgia well she fucking swung for me,got me right in the balls,i may be a wolf but it still fucking hurts.
i know i broke carla's heart i can feel her pain its horriable! i'm the biggest cunt going.
"Yeah you are"embry told me intruppting my thoughts.
"FUCK OFF!"i yelled at him at i looked at his thoughts that where replaying last nights event.
"dude you really need to tell emma to lay off"he told me as if he was perfect.
"i have like 400 fucking times"i snapped back at him "I broke Carla's heart she probally hates my fucking guts!"i added "nnaa she still love you"he said in a chilled tone,
"how would you know fuckface!"i asked with anger.
he showed me a memmorie of last walked into Jacob's house to see Georgia and Carla watching a love movie,both crying "i still love Paul"she said weakly as she cried more.
i felt my heart break as i saw the memmorie of her face she looked destroyed and i caused all of it.
i have to tell her to truth she had a right to know.
After 3 hours of patrol Quil took over for me and i ran to the black's house,i went behind a bush a phased back into human form,i chucked on my cut offs,as i walked out of the forst i saw Carla open her balcony door that lead to her bedroom. she saw me,i heard her heart beat pick up as i looked into her beautiful eyes.i could see the hurt in her eyes and it killed me.
CARLA P.O.V.
i open my balcony door to let some fresh air in,and i saw Paul come out of the looked into my eyes as i looked into his and my heart beat pick up,it felt like i hadn't seen him in years when really it was only yesterday he broke my heart.
he ran up the yard and jumped onto my balcony,i took a step back as i stared at him with tried to look into my eyes but i looked away know i would fall for him again "i'm so sorry carla i love"i stoped him "don't go their Paul,it don't mateer we werrn't together in the first place so i don't give a fuck" i paused "i get it i was just a fling to you,its fine"i told him inside i felt like i was dieing but i had to say it even though the words hurt me and i could see they hurt him to.
i looked into paul's eyes and saw sadness and anger i could tell i broke his heart and he was angry i did that to him and i felt guilty "you know what?"paul said with cold stonded eyes "i think you right...you were just a bit of fun,your nothing speachial well atleast. i know were on the same page"he said with a fake smug smile,my jaw dropped to the floor.
did Paul Lahote just say i was nothing speachial! he had pushed it to far,i know i hurt him but i did it for the sake of getting hurt for what felt like the hundruth time.
HE hurt me first not the other way round i said what he was thinking i didn't say i hated him of anything like that!
hes got it coming.
i came out my thoughts and spoke "you must of read my mind because i was just about to say those exact words."i told him not looking him in the eye beacuse i knew if i did i would cry and i wanted to stay strong.
"was you really?"he said with anger and upset.i froze i couldn't get words i really going to say all those things to paul? no i wasn't but i was not going to use anymore,i'm not second best.
i finally found words "well..i would of added something else but poor paul was get upset"i said with a fake frown."say it,i dare you"he growled through gritted teeth.
"i would of added that i don't really want to date someone who has 200 diffrant types of STD's and get a name for myself like you have"i said with a big grin.
"you weren't bothered when my cock was in you"he said loud and proud."it was a mistake i was still high so i didn't really know what i was doing and to be honest you weren't even good i got bored"i lied but then again i put him in his place he didn't say a word back.i just put Paul Lahote in his place! georgia will be so proud of me! and i know if grace was still here she would be to.
i walked back into my bedroom leave paul spechless on my balcony,i grabbed my phone and walked out of my room.i heard paul jump down fro mand balcony and punch what sounded like a tree.
i rolled my eyes trying to hold in tears.i walked quickly to the bathroom and locked the door behind me i sat on the edge of the bath and cried silently so dad wouldn't hear.
i love paul so much but i couldn't ne part of his even went to say sorry but i stopped him i should of listened,i feel so bad i feel like i should text him but then i'll look weak and me Carla Black is not weak.
instead of texting paul,i texted gerogia.i sent one big text telling her everything that happened and how i felt and all that but i didn't get a text back which is weird she always answers her to phone but i asummed she was out with her dad.
After an hour or two i dried my tears and walked out of the bathroom and back into my room,i sat their for a while just thinking i was really angry at paul but i still loved him.
i can't help it,i was hooked to him and knowing he had imprinted on me made me want him more.i felt my phone vibrate and i had a text from georgia.
GEROGIA-do i need to go and beat him shitless?
ME-nnaa i put him in his place
GEROGIA-thats my girl!
ME-learned from the best ;)
GEORGIA- ha ha i can't belive its your birthday in a week!
i was cometely forgot about my birthday and to be honest i didn't care about it.
ME-ow yeah..i forgot
GEORGIA-i have the whole day and night planned out for your birthday! your love it i can't wait!:D
ME-more excited than me
GEORGIA-lighten up soppy balls so i'll make you!
ME-yeah..
GEORGIA-look..if you feel bad because of paul talk to him when you him the air.
i thought about what georgia said and it all made sence she was right.
ME-yeah..i think i will.
GEORGIA-good on ya,right gtg but call ya l8ter x
ME-okay bitch!x
i felt a little better now,i felt for confident in myself and for once i felt good about myself.